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  In Vienna, young Farrokh's first racial mistreatment occurred when a butcher mistook him for a Hungarian Gypsy. On more than one occasion, Austria being Austria, Farrokh was jeered by drunks in a Gasthof; they called him a Jew, of course. And before Farrokh's arrival, Jamshed had discovered it was easier to find housing in the Russian sector; no one really wanted to live there, and so the pensions were less discriminatory. Jamshed had earlier tried to rent an apartment on the Mariahilferstrasse, but the landlady had refused him on the grounds that he would create unwelcome cooking smells.

  It wasn't until he was in his fifties that Dr. Daruwalla appreciated the irony: he'd been sent away from home precisely at the time India became its own country; he would spend the next eight years in a war-damaged city that was occupied by four foreign powers. When he returned to India in September of 1955, he just missed the Flag Day festivities in Vienna. In October, the city celebrated the official end of the occupation--Austria was its own country, too. Dr. Daruwalla wouldn't be on hand for the historic event; once more, he'd moved just ahead of it.

  As the smallest of footnotes, the Daruwalla brothers were nonetheless among the actual recorders of Viennese history. Their youthful vigor for foreign languages made them useful transcribers of the minutes for the Allied Council meetings, at which they scribbled profusely but were told to remain as silent as cobblestones. The British representative had vetoed their promotion to the more sought-after jobs of interpreters, the stated reason being that they were only university students. (It was racially reassuring that at least the British knew they were Indians.)

  If only as flies on the wall, the Daruwalla brothers were witnesses to the many grievances expressed against the methods of occupation conducted in the old city. For example, both Farrokh and Jamshed attended the investigations of the notorious Benno Blum Gang--a cigarette-smuggling ring and the alleged black marketeers of the much-desired nylon stocking. For the privilege of operating unmolested in the Soviet sector, the Benno Blum Gang eliminated political undesirables. Naturally, the Russians denied this. But Farrokh and Jamshed were never molested by the alleged cohorts of Benno Blum, who himself was never apprehended or even identified. And the Soviets, in whose sector the two brothers lived for years, never once bothered them.

  At the Allied Council meetings, young Farrokh Daruwalla's harshest treatment came from a British interpreter. Farrokh was transcribing the minutes for a reinvestigation of the Anna Hellein rape and murder case when he discovered an error in translation; he quickly pointed it out to the interpreter.

  Anna Hellein was a 29-year-old Viennese social worker who was dragged off her train by a Russian guard at the Steyregg Bridge checkpoint on the United States-Soviet demarcation line; there she was raped and murdered and left on the rails, later to be decapitated by a train. A Viennese witness to all this, a local housewife, was quoted as saying that she didn't report the incident because she was sure that Fraulein Hellein was a giraffe.

  "Excuse me, sir," young Farrokh said to the British interpreter. "You've made a slight error. Fraulein Hellein was not mistaken for a giraffe."

  "That's what the witness said, mate," the interpreter replied. He added, "I don't care to have my English corrected by a bloody wog."

  "It isn't your English that I'm correcting, sir," Farrokh said. "It's your German."

  "It's the same word in German, mate," the British interpreter said. "The Hausfrau called her a bloody giraffe!"

  "Nur Umgangssprache," Farrokh Daruwalla said. "It's merely colloquial speech; giraffe is Berliner slang--for a prostitute. The witness mistook Fraulein Hellein for a whore."

  Farrokh was almost relieved that his assailant was British and that the term "wog"--at least the correct racial slur--was used. Doubtless it would have unnerved him to have been mistaken for a Hungarian Gypsy twice. And by his bold interference, young Daruwalla had saved the Allied Council from committing an embarrassing error; it was, therefore, never entered into the official minutes that a witness to Fraulein Hellein's rape and murder and decapitation had mistaken the victim for a giraffe. On top of everything else that the deceased had suffered, she was spared this further outrage.

  But when young Farrokh Daruwalla returned to India in the fall of 1955, this episode was as much a part of history as he felt himself to be; he didn't come home a confident young man. Granted, he had not spent the entire eight years outside of India, but a brief visit in the middle of his undergraduate studies (in the summer of 1949) hardly prepared him for the confusion he would encounter six years later--when he came "home" to an India that would forever make him feel like a foreigner.

  He was used to feeling like a foreigner; Vienna had prepared him for that. And his several pleasant visits to London to see his sister were marred by his one trip to London that coincided with his father's invitation to address the Royal College of Surgeons--a great honor. It was the obsession of Indians, and of former British colonies in general, to become Fellows of the Royal College of Surgeons--old Lowji was extremely proud of his "F," as it was called. The "F" would mean less to the younger Dr. Daruwalla, who would also become an F.R.C.S.--of Canada. But on the occasion of Farrokh attending his father's lecture in London, old Lowji chose to pay tribute to the American founder of the British Orthopedic Association--the celebrated Dr. Robert Bayley Osgood, one of the few Americans to captivate this British institution--and it was during Lowji's speech (which would go on to emphasize the problems of infantile paralysis in India) that young Farrokh overheard a most disparaging remark. It would keep him from ever considering a life in London.

  "What monkeys they are," said a florid orthopedist to a fellow Brit. "They are the most presumptuous imitators. They observe us for all of five minutes, then they think they can do it, too."

  Young Farrokh sat paralyzed in a room of men fascinated by the diseases of bones and joints; he couldn't move, he couldn't speak. This wasn't a simple matter of mistaking a prostitute for a giraffe. His own medical studies had just begun; he wasn't sure if he understood what the "it" referred to. Farrokh was so unsure of himself, he first supposed that the "it" was something medical--some actual knowledge--but before his father's speech had ended, Farrokh understood. "It" was only Englishness, "it" was merely being them. Even in a gathering of what his father boastfully called "fellow professionals," the "it" was all they'd noticed--simply what of their Englishness had been successfully or unsuccessfully copied. And for the remainder of old Lowji's exploration of infantile paralysis, young Farrokh was ashamed that he saw his ambitious father as the British saw him: a smug ape who'd succeeded in imitating them. It was the first time Farrokh realized how it was possible to love Englishness and yet loathe the British.

  And so, before he ruled out India as a country where he could live, he'd already ruled out England. It was the summer of '49, during an at-home stay in Bombay, when young Farrokh Daruwalla suffered the experience that would (for him) rule out living in the United States, too. It was the same summer that another of his father's more embarrassing weaknesses was revealed to him. Farrokh discounted the continuous discomfort of his father's spinal deformity; this was not in the category of a weakness of any kind--on the contrary, Lowji's hump was a source of inspiration. But now, in addition to Lowji's overstatements of a political and religious nature, the senior Daruwalla unveiled a taste for romantic movies. Farrokh was already familiar with his father's unbridled passion for Waterloo Bridge; tears sprang to his father's eyes at the mere mention of Vivien Leigh, and no concept in storytelling struck old Lowji with such tragic force as those twists of fate that could cause a woman, both good and pure, to fall to the lowly rank of prostitute.

  But in the summer of '49, young Farrokh was quite unprepared to find his father so infatuated with the commonplace hysteria of a film-in-progress. To make matters worse, it was a Hollywood film--of no special distinction beyond that endless capacity for compromise which was the principal gift of the film's participants. Farrokh was appalled to witness his father's slavishnes
s before everyone who was even marginally involved.

  One shouldn't be surprised that Lowji was vulnerable to movie people, or that the presumed glamour of postwar Hollywood was magnified by its considerable distance from Bombay. These particular lowlifes who'd invaded Maharashtra for the purpose of moviemaking had sizably damaged reputations--even in Hollywood, where shame is seldom suffered for long--but how could the senior Daruwalla have known this? Like many physicians the world over, Lowji imagined that he could have been a great writer--if medicine hadn't attracted him first--and he further deluded himself that a second career opportunity lay ahead of him, perhaps in his retirement. He supposed that, with more time on his hands, it would take no great effort to write a novel--and surely less to write a screenplay. Although the latter assumption is quite true, even the effort of a screenplay would prove too great for old Lowji; it was never necessarily the power of his imagination that gave him great technique and foresight as a surgeon.

  Sadly, a natural arrogance often attends the ability to heal and cure. Renowned in Bombay--even recognized abroad for his accomplishments in India--Dr. Lowji Daruwalla nevertheless craved intimate contact with the so-called creative process. In the summer of 1949, with his highly principled younger son as a witness, the senior Daruwalla got what he desired.

  Inexplicable Hairlessness

  Often when a man of vision and character falls among the unscrupulous cowards of mediocrity, there is an intermediary, a petty villain in the guise of a matchmaker--one skilled in currying favor for small but gratifying gain. In this instance, she was a Malabar Hill lady of imposing wealth and only slightly less imposing presence; although she wouldn't have categorized herself as a maiden aunt, she played this role in the lives of her undeserving nephews--the two scoundrel sons of her impoverished brother. She'd also suffered the tragic history of having been jilted by the same man on two different wedding days, a condition that prompted Dr. Lowji Daruwalla to privately refer to her as "the Miss Havisham of Bombay--times two."

  Her name was Promila Rai, and prior to her insidious role of introducing Lowji to the movie vermin, her communications with the Daruwalla family had been merely rude. She'd once sought the senior Daruwalla's advice regarding the inexplicable hairlessness of the younger of her loathsome two nephews--an odd boy named Rahul Rai. At the time of the doctor's examination, which Lowji had at first resisted conducting on the grounds that he was an orthopedist, Rahul was only 8 or 10. The doctor found nothing "inexplicable" about his hairlessness. The absence of body hair wasn't that unusual; the lad had bushy eyebrows and a thick head of hair. Yet Miss Promila Rai found old Lowji's analysis lacking. "Well, after all, you're only a joint doctor," she said dismissively, to the orthopedist's considerable irritation.

  But now Rahul Rai was 12 or 13, and the hairlessness of his mahogany skin was more apparent. Farrokh Daruwalla, who was 19 in the summer of '49, had never liked the boy; he was an oily brat of a disquieting sexual ambiguity--possibly influenced by his elder brother, Subodh, a dancer and occasional actor in the emerging Hindi film scene. Subodh was better known for his flamboyant homosexuality than for his theatrical talents.

  For Farrokh to return from Vienna to find his father on friendly terms with Promila Rai and her sexually suspect nephews--well, one can imagine. In his undergraduate years, young Farrokh had developed intellectual and literary pretensions that were easily offended by the Hollywood scum who'd ingratiated themselves with his vulnerable, albeit famous, father.

  Quite simply, Promila Rai had wanted her actor-nephew Subodh to have a role in the movie; she also had wanted the prepubescent Rahul to be employed as a plaything of this court of creativity. The hairless boy's apparently unformed sexuality made him the little darling of the Galifornians; they found him an able interpreter and an eager errand boy. And what had the Hollywood types wanted from Promila Rai in exchange for making creative use of her nephews? They wanted access to a private club--to the Duckworth Sports Club, which was highly recommended even in their lowlife circles--and they wanted a doctor, someone to look after their ailments. In truth, it was their terror of all the possible ailments of India that needed looking after, for in the beginning there was nothing in the slightest that was ailing them.

  It was a shock to young Farrokh to come home to this unlikely degradation of his father; his mother was mortified by Ms father's choice of such crude companions and by what she considered to be his father's shameless manipulation by Promila Rai. By giving this American movie rabble unlimited access to the club, old Lowji (who was chairman of the Rules Committee) had bent a sacred law of the Duckworthians. Previously, guests of members were permitted in the club only if they arrived and remained with a member, but the senior Daruwalla was so infatuated with his newfound friends that he'd extended special privileges to them. Moreover, the screenwriter, from whom Lowji believed he had the most to learn, was unwanted on the set; this sensitive artist and outcast had become a virtual resident of the Duckworth Club--and a constant source of bickering between Farrokh's parents.

  It's often embarrassing to discover the marital cuteness that exists among couples whose social importance is esteemed. Farrokh's mother, Meher, was renowned for flirting with his father in public. Because there was nothing coarse in her overtures to her husband, Meher Daruwalla was recognized among Duckworthians as an exceptionally devoted wife; therefore, she'd attracted all the more attention at the Duckworth Club when she stopped flirting with Lowji. It was plain to everyone that Meher was feuding with Lowji instead. To young Farrokh's shame, the whole Duckworth Club was put on edge by this obvious tension in the venerable Daruwalla marriage.

  A sizable part of Farrokh's summer agenda was to prepare his parents for the romance that was developing for their two sons with the fabulous Zilk sisters--"the Vienna Woods girls," as Jamshed called them. It struck Farrokh that the state of his parents' marriage might make an unfavorable climate for a discussion of romance of any kind--not to mention his parents' possible reluctance to accept the idea of their only sons marrying Viennese Roman Catholics.

  It was typical of Jamshed's successful manipulation of his younger brother that Farrokh had been selected to return home for the summer in order to broach this subject. Farrokh was less intellectually challenging to Lowji; he was also the baby of the family, and therefore he appeared to be loved with the least reservation. And Farrokh's intentions to follow his father in orthopedics doubtless pleased the old man and made Farrokh a more welcome bearer of conceivably unwelcome tidings than Jamshed would have been. The latter's interest in psychiatry, which old Lowji spoke of as "an inexact science"--he meant in comparison with orthopedic surgery--had already driven a wedge between the father and his elder son.

  In any case, Farrokh saw that it would be poor timing for him to introduce the topic of the Frauleins Josefine and Julia Zilk; his praise of their loveliness and virtues would have to wait. The story of their courageous widowed mother and her efforts to educate her daughters would have to wait, too. The dreadful American movie was consuming Farrokh's helpless parents. Even the young man's intellectual pursuits failed to capture his father's attention.

  For example, when Farrokh admitted that he shared Jamshed's passion for Freud, his father expressed alarm that Farrokh's devotion to the more exact science of orthopedic surgery was waning. It was certainly the wrong idea to attempt to reassure his father on this point by quoting at length from Freud's "General Remarks on Hysterical Attacks"; the concept that "the hysterical fit is an equivalent to coitus" wasn't welcome information to old Lowji. Furthermore, Farrokh's father absolutely rejected the notion of the hysterical symptom corresponding to a form of sexual gratification. In regard to so-called multiple sexual identification--as in the case of the patient who attempted to rip off her dress with one hand (this was said to be her man's hand) while at the same time she desperately clutched her dress to her body (with her woman's hand)--old Lowji Daruwalla was outraged by the concept.

  "Is this the result of a Euro
pean education?" he cried. "To attach any meaning whatsoever to what a woman is thinking when she takes off her clothes--this is true madness!"

  The senior Daruwalla wouldn't listen to a sentence with Freud's name in it. That his father should reject Freud was further evidence to Farrokh of the tyrant's intellectual rigidity and his old-fashioned beliefs. As an intended put-down of Freud, Lowji paraphrased an aphorism of the great Canadian physician Sir William Osler. A bedside clinician extraordinaire and a gifted essayist, Osler was a favorite of Farrokh's, too. It was outrageous of Lowji to use Sir William to refute Freud; the old blunderbuss referred to the well-known Osler admonition that warns against studying medicine without textbooks--for this is akin to going to sea without a chart. Farrokh argued that this was a half-understanding of Osler and less than half an understanding of Freud, for hadn't Sir William also warned that to study medicine without studying patients was not to go to sea at all? Freud, after all, had studied patients. But Lowji was unbudgeable.

  Farrokh was disgusted with his father. The young man had left home as a mere 17-year-old; at last he was a worldly and well-read 19. Far from being a paragon of brilliance and nobility, old Lowji now looked like a buffoon. In a rash moment, Farrokh gave his father a book to read. It was Graham Greene's The Power and the Glory, a modern novel--at least it was "modern" to Lowji. It was also a religious novel, which was (in Lowji's case) akin to holding the cape before the bull. Farrokh presented the novel to his father with the added temptation that the book had given considerable offense to the Church of Rome. This was a clever bit of baiting, and the old man was especially excited to learn that the book had been denounced by French bishops. For reasons Lowji never bothered to explain, he didn't like the French. For reasons he explained entirely too often, Lowji thought all religions were "monsters."