I didn’t like to leave them there and almost asked them to come home with me and stay until at least one of the pigsties had been converted. But then I thought about my father’s noisy toilet habits and kept my mouth shut.
As I trekked across the field towards my car, parked in the dark lane, I was overcome with sadness because at least they had each other and I had no one to share my troubles with.
Saturday December 28th
Our sale started today. Mr Carlton-Hayes told me that he’d had a serious talk with Leslie over Christmas and that he intends to implement all my suggested changes.
I am to be given the title Manager and am in sole charge of ordering new books, meeting reps, organizing a readers’ club, buying a coffee machine and crockery, setting up a computer and going online. These changes are to be phased in gradually, as we do not want to alienate our regular customers, who are always going on about the necessity of having an independent bookseller on the High Street.
Mr Carlton-Hayes’s duties are onsite domestic valuations, banking, wages, repairs and rebinding. At busy periods we will both work on the till. We are going to open our lavatory to the public and reorganize the shelves so that we can fit in more furniture.
Mr Carlton-Hayes did not mention raising my salary, but I expect this was a simple oversight.
An elderly woman wearing a rabbit’s paw brooch came in and complained that I had sold her Trainspotting by Irving Welsh as a Christmas present for her 76-year-old railway enthusiast husband.
She said, ‘It’s nothing but filth and Scottish words. My husband had to double his blood pressure tablets after reading it.’
I swapped it for Murder on the Orient Express by Agatha Christie.
Sunday December 29th
Brain-box Henderson phoned me this morning, interrupting the omnibus edition of The Archers. He had heard that I was associated with the Leicester Madrigal Society and wondered if he could join. I gave him Michael Flowers’s phone number.
I asked him if he had managed to sort out the Fossington-Gore/George Foreman grill farrago. He said that he had managed to swap the grill for an electric juicer.
He wanted to talk about the situation in Iraq. He is another Doubting Thomas regarding the Weapons of Mass Destruction. I cut him off by saying that my coffee was boiling over on the stove, and anyway the swans were making such a racket outside I could hardly hear what he was saying.
An hour later Marigold rang to say that Brain-box Henderson is auditioning tomorrow night. She asked me what I was wearing to the fancy dress party on New Year’s Eve.
I said, ‘I will probably go as the French writer Flaubert.’
She said, ‘Shall I go as Coco?’
Then Gielgud honked so loudly that the rest of her words were lost. It would make a change to see Marigold dressed elegantly for a change.
Monday December 30th
I got up in darkness this morning. My car was covered in a thick layer of frost. I had to scrape my windscreen clean with my Visa card, before driving to the Piggeries to check that my parents had survived the night. I drove by Wisteria Walk and said goodbye to the empty house. There had been some happy times there – not many, but certainly some.
There was a evil wind blowing when I got to the Piggeries. Half of the tent had blown down and was flapping in the wind. I opened the door of the camper van quietly. My parents were lying separately on two shelves, one above the other. The ugly puppy woke and started yapping.
My father stirred and muttered, ‘Let it out for a pee, Adrian.’
I opened the door and the puppy ran across the field towards the lane. I had no choice but to follow it. There is hardly ever any traffic, but it would be just my luck for the stupid dog to be run over by the only vehicle to use the lane that day.
I caught up with it in the boundary ditch. The water came up to its neck. I dragged it out by its collar and carried it back to the camper van, where it was soon swaddled in the best towel and given hot milk to drink. I, on the other hand, was offered no refreshment and was told to look in the tent for another towel.
My God, it is a desolate place. As I was setting off to the car, my father said, ‘There’s no high ground between here and the Urals, Adrian. This wind is coming straight from Russia.’
I turned back to wave and saw my mother, who was dressed in a donkey jacket, dungarees and wellington boots, applying scarlet lipstick. What a waste. The only person she’ll see all day is my father.
Tuesday December 31st
New Year’s Eve
I asked Mr Carlton-Hayes if I bore a resemblance to Gustave Flaubert. He screwed his eyes up and said, ‘If you were stockier, had longer hair and a large moustache, perhaps there would be a fleeting likeness.’
Encouraged by this, I went to Party! Party! – the fancy dress hire shop – in my lunch break. I took a copy of Madame Bovary with me and showed Flaubert’s portrait to a gormless assistant and said, ‘I want to look like this.’
He went into the back of the shop. I was surrounded by last-minute customers jostling for a view of themselves in the full-length mirrors. There was an Elvis, a clergyman, a Nell Gwyn – complete with plastic oranges – and a tube of Colgate toothpaste with her husband, a toothbrush.
The gormless boy came back with a black wig, a curly black moustache, a floppy cravat and a velvet smoking jacket. When I finally got to the mirror I was quite pleased with what I saw.
I was the first guest to arrive at the party.
Pandora opened the door to me wearing her usual belly dancer’s fancy dress costume. She said, ‘You’re early. We’re not quite ready yet.’
I said, ‘The invitation says “8 till late” and it is exactly 8 o’clock.’
She said, ‘You still haven’t realized that it’s a social sin to turn up on time, have you?’ She then gave me a flashy pink jewel and a piece of Blu-Tack and asked me to fix it into her bellybutton. After a few minutes, when I’d managed to fix it in place she turned her attention to me again and said, ‘Who the fuck are you meant to be?’
I took Madame Bovary out of my smoking jacket pocket and showed her the title.
She said, ‘You’re Madame Bovary’s husband?’
I said, ‘Isn’t it obvious? I’m Gustave Flaubert.’
She said, ‘No, Adrian, it is not at all obvious.’
I was given the job of strategically placing little china bowls of expensive snack foods around.
The Lawns won an architectural award when it was built in the late 1970s. It was designed for entertaining: the downstairs rooms flowed into each other but were on several levels. The decor had undergone many changes since I first visited the house in 1982. Then it was full of books, potted plants and Indian rugs; now it was a creamy, decluttered, multi-levelled ‘space’. Tania Braithwaite had certainly had the builders in since my father left her and returned to my mother.
I was mortified that it was not Coco Chanel who emerged from a taxi outside the Lawns, but Coco the Clown.
Marigold was wearing an orange fright-wig, a large checked jacket, hooped trousers, a bowler hat and flapping comedy shoes. She had completely misjudged the rules of fancy dress – that young women should dress alluringly. It was only women as old as Tania Braithwaite, who was dressed as a carrot, who could break this rule.
When I remonstrated with Marigold, saying, ‘You’ve got a passably good figure, why hide it under a clown’s costume?’ she said, ‘I thought it would be fun.’
I tried to explain to her that clowns were not ‘fun’ and in fact were deeply unfunny, even sinister. She took the false red bulbous nose off that she was wearing and blew her own.
Tania Braithwaite came out to greet Marigold and said through a slit in the carrot, ‘Adrian, why is it that your women seem to spend most of their time weeping?’
I said coldly that, apart from her daughter, Pandora, all the women I had loved had been sensitive creatures who were easily moved to tears.
Then the carrot put her arm around t
he clown and led her off to be introduced to my family and friends.
Nigel had a toy golden Labrador at his feet and was wearing a scruffy false beard. He was David Blunkett. He said, ‘I’ve just been introduced to your fiancée. She reckons you’re getting married in the spring. I presume I’m going to be the best man?’
I said, ‘She is my ex-fiancée, and anyway a best man needs to have good eyesight as he has many duties to perform.’
My mother and father turned up carrying bulging black bin liners which contained their fancy dress clothes. They hogged both bathrooms for half an hour before emerging as Dolly Parton and Saddam Hussein.
Parvez and his wife, Fatima, had come as Robin Hood and Maid Marian.
Parvez said, ‘I hope you’re controlling your spending, Moley.’
I didn’t tell him about Barclaycard’s generosity.
Fatima said, ‘I’ve just been introduced to your fiancée. She’s obviously got a sense of humour.’
I said, ‘She is my ex-fiancée, Fatima.’
Fatima said, ‘You’d better tell her that. She’s talking about an April wedding.’
I glanced across the room at Marigold, who was talking earnestly to Brain-box Henderson, who had flattered himself by coming as Tarzan. In my opinion, he should not have worn the black shoes and grey socks.
Pandora put a CD of Motown hits on and turned the volume up. I sat with my fingers crossed, hoping that my father’s bad back would prevent him from taking to the floor with the other guests.
My mother frugged over to me in what she imagined to be a playful manner and said, ‘Shouldn’t you be dancing with your fiancée?’
I said, ‘She is my ex-fiancée. I told her in clear, unequivocal terms on Christmas Eve. She is here as Tania Braithwaite’s guest, not mine!’
Anyway, it was impossible to get near enough to dance with Marigold due to the wire hoops inside her trousers and her comedy shoes.
My mother glanced over at Marigold and said, ‘Yes, it’s a tragically sad choice of costume. Perhaps you should take a full-page advert in the Leicester Mercury to explain to half of Leicestershire that you are no longer engaged to the poor cow.’
At 11.59 p.m. Pandora gathered her guests together in the living room and turned on Radio Four so that we could hear Big Ben strike 12. But nothing was heard. Radio Four was silent.
It was my father who started the panic. He shouted, ‘Iraq has sent a Weapon of Mass Destruction and flattened Big Ben.’
This was deeply ironical, since my father was at that moment dressed as the Iraqi leader.
Pandora shouted above the din that she was a minister of the crown and would be one of the first to know if our country had been attacked.
After a few moments a Radio Four announcer apologized for the non-appearance of the Big Ben bongs, but Marigold took it as a portent of doom. She said, ‘A barn owl flew in front of my taxi on the way here. That always signifies death.’
I said, ‘Barn owls have to cross the road somehow, Marigold.’
The partygoers sang ‘Auld Lang Syne’ in the traditional cross-armed manner. I held a hand with Rocky (Othello), Pandora’s ex-lover, who had arrived late but seemed to be her escort for the night, and the flipper of one of Tania’s neighbours, Mrs Moore, who had restricted her enjoyment of the party by coming as a penguin.
When the singing died down, I asked Rocky if he still owned his chain of gyms around Oxford.
He said that he had sold the gyms and was doing a degree course in African studies. He looked across at Pandora, who was doing her party trick – balancing a chipolata on the end of her nose – and said, ‘She’s asked me to be her guest at the Afro-Caribbean constituency New Year’s dinner. Do you think she’s just using me, Aidy?’
I said, ‘I’m saying nothing, Rocky, but on the Chinese New Year she invited Wayne Wong and his family to the Palace of Westminster. The photos got as far as the Hong Kong Times.’
*
At 1 a.m. my mother and the carrot started reminiscing about Ivan Braithwaite, to whom they had both been married (though not at the same time, of course).
The carrot said, ‘Poor Ivan, dead for two years and two months today, Pauline.’
My mother batted her huge false eyelashes and said, ‘I still feel responsible for his death.’
The carrot said with a viper’s tongue, ‘Pauline, you mustn’t blame yourself. I’m sure you didn’t make him swim back half a mile to that small island to see if you’d left your sunglasses on a rock. And if you did, how could you have known that he’d get cramp and drown on the way back?’
A single tear fell from my mother’s eye and she said, ‘Yes, but five minutes after he’d left the shore I found the sunglasses in my beach bag – I’d been too hot and bothered to look for them properly!’
The carrot said coldly, ‘None of this came out at the inquest.’
I thought it wise to intervene at this point and led my mother away before the novelty vodka she was drinking loosened her tongue further.
At around 2 a.m. I slid the patio doors open and went outside for a breath of fresh air. The stars blazed in the black sky and once again I felt a boyish wonder that the same moon was shining on me in Ashby de la Zouch, on Glenn in Cyprus and on William in Nigeria.
I wondered how Daisy was spending the first few hours of the new year.
2003
Wednesday January 1st 2003
New Year’s Day, holiday (UK, Rep. of Ireland, USA, Canada and Australia)
I woke up this morning and was horrified to find Marigold next to me on the futon. She was still dressed in a few pieces of her clown outfit. When she turned over to face me, I saw by the morning light that she was wearing smeared full clown’s make-up. I was completely naked. I pulled the duvet over my head, unwilling to face the day.
Marigold put her arms around me and said in a tiny voice, ‘You’re a wonderful lover, Adrian.’
I said coldly, ‘Have you got a bad throat? Do you want a Strepsil?’
She said, a little more vigorously, ‘Our lovemaking went on for hours.’
‘Hours?’ I questioned.
‘Well, at least twenty minutes,’ she said.
I was appalled at the thought that I could have been in any way sexually excited by a woman dressed as Coco the Clown. What does this mean? I was with my mother at the circus once when a clown sat on her knee and she screamed and pushed him off. Is there a connection? I must know.
Twenty minutes is good going for me.
*
I was desperate to go to the toilet, but I didn’t want her to see me naked. I asked Marigold about her movements for the day.
She said, ‘I’m all yours. I’ve got nothing to do and nowhere to go. I was hoping that you would take me out to lunch.’
I said, ‘I’m an unconventional man, Marigold, but I draw the line at going out for New Year’s Day lunch with a clown on my arm.’
Eventually my bursting bladder forced me out of bed. I stayed in the bathroom for longer than was strictly necessary. Under the shower I tried to remember how much I had drunk the night before and when I had lost consciousness. How did I get back to Rat Wharf? The last thing that I remember is drinking a glass of a purple-coloured drink which Pandora said was a tropical cocktail.
When I came out of the bathroom, Marigold was leaning over the balcony, talking to the swans. She started to tell me a fairy story about a prince who had been turned into a swan. She gestured towards Gielgud, who was pecking at the floating litter on the opposite bank.
She said, ‘Perhaps he’s a prince waiting for a human girl to free him from his swanhood.’
I said, ‘Why don’t you go down and peck him on the beak? But remember, a swan can break a girl’sarm, y’know.’
I was finding her presence extremely irritating. My head was pounding and my mouth tasted so vile that I was surprised my tongue had not fled from it in disgust, to cower in a corner of the room. I couldn’t wait for her to leave.
*
When she went to have a shower I wrote my New Year’s Resolutions:
1. I will never see Marigold Flowers again.
2. I will stick to my usual drinks: lager and lime, red wine at £4.99 a bottle and above, and dry whites.
3. I will work out how much money I owe.
4. I will read aloud to poor blind Nigel on a regular basis.
5. I will learn how to operate my home entertainment centre.
6. I will eat five pieces of fruit and vegetables every day.
7. I will email William and Glenn on a weekly basis.
8. I will prove to Latesun Ltd that Saddam Hussein does have Weapons of Mass Destruction and get my deposit back.
Marigold was wearing my white bathrobe when she came out of the shower. She asked me if I had any clothes she could borrow to go home in. I gave her a kaftan I’d brought back from Tunisia, a pair of jogging trousers and the three-quarter-length Parka I used to wear when I had my moped. There was nothing I could do about shoes. Marigold’s feet are only slightly larger than those of a Tiny Tears doll, so she wore the one-size-fits-all comedy clown shoes to walk to the car park.
It was unfortunate timing. We passed Mia Fox on the stairs and Professor Green in the car park. I felt obliged to stop and introduce Marigold to them. Perhaps I should have explained why she was so very badly dressed, but I didn’t want to upset Marigold and have her crying all the way to Beeby on the Wold.
Before she got out of my car I shook her hand and said, ‘Unless we run into each other, this could be the last time we meet.’
She said, ‘Don’t be so silly,’ and ran, somewhat clumsily because of the clown shoes, indoors.