MARY STEWART
Airs Above the Ground
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Contents
Cover
Title
Copyright
Dedication
Author’s Note
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Epilogue
Also by Mary Stewart
About the Author
First published in Great Britain in 1965 by Hodder & Stoughton
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Copyright © 1965 by Mary Stewart
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All characters in this publication are fictitious and any resemblance to real persons, living or dead is purely coincidental.
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For my father, Frederick A. Rainbow
Author’s Note
Since there is only one Spanish Riding School, any story that I wished to invent about the white Lipizzan stallions of Vienna must necessarily involve it. I must put it on record here that this is not a true story. I am grateful to the Director of the Spanish Riding School, Colonel Alois Podhajsky, for generously allowing me to involve his school – and even himself – in this story. I should also like to express my gratitude to Dr H. Lehrner, Director of the Austrian National Stud at Piber, for his helpfulness and kindness to me on my visit there. Finally, and by no means least, my thanks are due to Mr and Mrs Georg Prachner, of Kärntnerstrasse, Vienna, not only for the unstinting help they gave me, but also for the pains they took to make my visits to Vienna so rewarding.
M. S.
1
Nor take her tea without a stratagem.
Edward Young: Love of Fame
Carmel Lacy is the silliest woman I know, which is saying a good deal. The only reason that I was having tea with her in Harrods on that wet Thursday afternoon was that when she rang me up she had been so insistent that it had been impossible to get out of; and besides, I was so depressed anyway that even tea with Carmel Lacy was preferable to sitting alone at home in a room that still seemed to be echoing with that last quarrel with Lewis. That I had been entirely in the right, and that Lewis had been insufferably, immovably, furiously in the wrong was no particular satisfaction, since he was now in Stockholm, and I was still here in London, when by rights we should have been lying on a beach together in the Italian sunshine, enjoying the first summer holiday we had been able to plan together since our honeymoon two years ago. The fact that it had rained almost without ceasing ever since he had gone hadn’t done anything to mitigate his offence; and when, on looking up ‘Other People’s Weather’ in the Guardian each morning, I found Stockholm enjoying a permanent state of sunshine, and temperatures somewhere in the seventies, I was easily able to ignore the reports of a wet, thundery August in Southern Italy, and concentrate steadily on Lewis’s sins and my own grievances.
‘What are you scowling about?’ asked Carmel Lacy.
‘Was I? I’m sorry. I suppose I’m just depressed with the weather and everything. I certainly didn’t mean to glower at you! Do go on. Did you decide to buy it in the end?’
‘I haven’t made up my mind. It’s always so terribly difficult to decide . . .’ Her voice trailed away uncertainly as she contemplated the plate of cakes, her hand poised between a meringue and an éclair. ‘But you know what they’re like nowadays, they won’t keep things for you. If I wait much longer they’ll simply sell it, and when that happens, one realises one’s really wanted it like mad all along.’
And if you wait much longer, I thought, as she selected the éclair, it won’t fit you any more. But I didn’t think it unkindly; plumpness suits Carmel Lacy, who is one of those blonde, pretty women whose looks depend on the fair, soft colouring which seems to go on indestructibly into middle age, and to find a whole new range of charm when the fair hair turns white.
Carmel – whose hair was still a rather determined shade of gold – had been my mother’s contemporary at school. Her kind of prettiness had been fashionable then, and her good-tempered softness had made her popular; her nickname, according to my mother, had been Caramel, which seemed appropriate. She had not been a close friend of mother’s at school, but the two girls were thrown together in the holidays by the nearness of their families, and by professional connections between them. Carmel’s father had owned and trained racehorses, while my grandfather, who was a veterinary surgeon, had been, so to speak, surgeon in attendance. Soon after the girls left school their ways parted: my mother married her father’s young partner and stayed in Cheshire; but Carmel left home for London, where she married ‘successfully’, that is, she acquired a wealthy London banker whose dark, florid good looks told you exactly the kind of man he would be in his forties, safely ensconced in the Jaguar belt with three carefully spaced children away at carefully chosen schools. But the marriage had not worked out. Carmel, to all appearances the kind of soft maternal creature who, you would have sworn, would make the ideal wife and mother, combined with this a possessiveness so clinging that it had threatened to drown her family like warm treacle. The eldest girl had gone first, off into the blue with a casually defiant announcement that she had got a job in Canada. The second daughter had torn herself loose at nineteen, and followed her Air Force husband to Malta without a backward look. The husband had gone next, leaving a positive embarrassment of riches in the way of evidence for the divorce. Which left the youngest child, Timothy, whom I vaguely remembered meeting around his grandfather’s stables during school holidays; a slight, darting, quicksilver boy with a habit of sulky silences, readily forgivable in any child exposed to the full blast of his mother’s devotion.
She was moaning comfortably over him now, having disposed (as far as I had been able to follow her) of her dressmaker, her doctor, her current escort, her father, my mother, two more cream cakes and for some reason which I cannot now remember, the Postmaster General . . .
‘. . . And as a matter of fact, I don’t know what to do. He’s being so difficult. He knows just how to get on my nerves. Doctor Schwapp was saying only yesterday—’
‘Timmy’s being difficult?’
‘Well, of course. Not that his father wasn’t just the same, in fact his father started the whole thing. You’d really think he’d have the decency to keep out of Timmy’s life now, wouldn’t you, after what he did?’
‘Is he coming back into Timmy’s life?’
‘My dear, that’s the whole point. It’s all just come out, and
that’s why I’m so upset. He’s been writing to Timmy, quite regularly, imagine, and now apparently he wants him to go and see him.’
I said, feeling my way: ‘He’s abroad, isn’t he, your – Tim’s father?’
‘Graham? Yes, he’s living in Vienna. We don’t write.’ said Carmel with what was, for her, remarkable brevity.
‘And has he seen anything of Timothy since the divorce?’ I added awkwardly: ‘I didn’t know what the arrangements were at the time, Aunt Carmel.’
She said with an irritation momentarily more genuine than any feeling she had shown up to now: ‘For goodness’ sake don’t call me that, it makes me feel a hundred! What do you mean, you don’t know what the arrangements were? Everybody knew. You can’t tell me your mother didn’t tell you every single detail at the time.’
I said, more coldly than I had meant to: ‘I wasn’t at home, if you remember: I was still in Edinburgh.’
‘Well, Graham got access, if that’s what you mean by “arrangements”. But he went abroad straight away, and Timmy’s never seen him since. I never even knew they were writing . . . And now this!’ Her voice had risen, her blue eyes stared, but I still thought that she sounded aggrieved rather than distressed.
‘I tell you, Timmy just burst it on me the other day, boys are so thoughtless, and after all I’ve been to him, father and mother both, all the poor boy has . . . And all without a word to me! Would you believe such a thing, Vanessa? Would you?’
I hesitated, then said more gently: ‘I’m sorry, but it seems quite natural to me. After all, Timothy hasn’t quarrelled with his father, and it seems a pity to keep them apart. I mean, they’re bound to want to see each other now and again, and you mustn’t think you mean any the less to him because he sometimes feels the need of his father. I – it’s none of my business, Carmel, and I’m sorry if I sound a bit pompous, but you did ask me.
‘But not to tell me! So underhand! That he should have secrets from me, his mother . . .!’ Her voice throbbed. ‘I feel it, Vanessa, I feel it here.’ She groped for where her heart presumably lay, somewhere behind the ample curve of her left breast, failed to locate it, and abandoning the gesture, poured herself another cup of tea. ‘You know what it says in the Bible about a thankless child? ‘Sharper than a something’s paw it is,’ or something like that . . .? Well, I can tell you as a mother, that’s exactly how it feels! Sharper than the whatever-it-is . . . But of course, I can’t expect you to understand!’
The more than conscious drama which was creeping into Carmel’s conversation had dispelled any pity which I might have been feeling for her, and centred it firmly on Timothy. And I was wondering more than ever just where I came in. She had surely not telephoned me so urgently just because she needed an audience; she had her own devoted Bridge set with whom, doubtless, all this had already been gone over; moreover, she had managed to make it clear already that she didn’t expect either sympathy or understanding from anyone of my generation.
‘I’m sorry, I’m not being unsympathetic, I am trying to understand; but I can’t help seeing Timothy’s side of it too. He’s probably just wild to get a holiday abroad, and this is a marvellous chance. Most boys of his age would grab at any chance to go to Austria. Lord, if I’d had a relative abroad when I was that age, I’d have been plaguing the life out of them to invite me away! If his father really does want to see him—’
‘Graham’s even sent him the money, and without a word to me. You see? As if it wasn’t hard enough to hold them, without him encouraging them to leave the nest.’
I managed not to wince at the phrase. ‘Well, why not just be sweet about it, and let him go? They always say that’s the way to bring them back, don’t they? I know how you feel, I do really; but Mummy used to say if you hang on to them too hard, they’ll only stay away, once they’ve managed to get free.’
As soon as the words were out I regretted them; I had been thinking only of Timothy, and of somehow persuading Carmel to do what would in the end hurt herself and the son the least; but now I remembered what my mother had been speaking about, and was afraid I had cut rather near the bone. But I need not have worried. People like Carmel are impervious to criticism simply because they can never admit a fault in themselves. She could see no reference to her own triple domestic tragedy, because nothing would ever persuade her to believe that any part of it was her fault; any more than those people who complain of being unloved and unwanted ever pause to ask if they are in fact lovable.
She said: ‘You haven’t any children, of course. Doesn’t Lewis want them?’
‘Have a heart. We’ve not been married all that long.’
‘Two years? Plenty of time to start one. Of course,’ said Carmel, ‘he’s not at home much, is he?’
‘What have my affairs and Lewis’s got to do with this?’ I asked, so sharply that she abandoned whatever tack she had been starting on.
‘Only that if you had children of your own you wouldn’t be so gay and glib.’
‘If I had children I hope I’d have the sense not to put fences round them.’ That I still spoke sharply was not entirely due to exasperation with Carmel; the trend of this futile conversation was, minute by minute, reminding me of the fences that only a short while ago I had been trying to put round Lewis. I added: ‘Besides, Timothy isn’t a child, he’s what? Seventeen? I think it’s you who don’t understand, Carmel. Boys grow up.’
‘If they didn’t grow away so. My baby son, it seems only yesterday—’
‘When does his father want him to go?’
‘Whenever he likes. And of course he’s wild to go.’ She added, with a spite that sounded suddenly, shockingly genuine: ‘As a matter of fact I don’t mind him going. I just don’t want him to feel he owes it to Graham.’
I counted ten and then said mildly: ‘Then send him off straight away, and let him think he owes it to you.’
‘I might, if I thought—’ She checked herself, with a quick look I couldn’t read. She was fiddling rather consciously again with the bosom of her dress, not her heart this time, but what lay more or less directly over it, the very beautiful sapphire and diamond brooch that had been one of Graham Lacy’s guilt offerings to her. Then she spoke in quite a different tone: ‘As a matter of fact, Vanessa, I’m sure you’re right. I ought to let him go. One ought to make oneself realise that one’s babies grow up, and that one’s own feelings hardly matter. After all, they have their lives to live.’
I waited. It was coming now, if I was any judge of the signs.
‘Vanessa?’
‘Yes?’
She pricked her finger on the brooch, said a word which one never imagines that one’s mother’s generation ever knew, blotted the bead of blood on her table napkin, and met my eyes again, this time with a steely determination which didn’t quite match the suppliant’s voice she used. ‘I did wonder if you could help me?’
‘I? But how?’
‘I really do agree with all you’ve said, and as a matter of fact it would suit me quite well to have Timmy away for a little while just now, and I really would like to let him go, but you see, Timmy is such a young seventeen, and he’s never been away from home before, except to a school camp, and that’s different, isn’t it? And I can’t go with him myself, because it would be quite impossible . . . meeting Graham . . . I don’t mean I wouldn’t willingly sacrifice myself for him, but he was really quite rude when I suggested it, and if he did go off with Graham then I’d be on my own, and I hate foreign countries, they’re so uncomfortable, besides not speaking English, and you can say what you like, I’m not going to let that child go alone among foreigners. So then I thought of you.’
I stared at her. ‘Now I really don’t understand.’
‘Well, it’s quite simple. I knew you’d been going on holiday with Lewis this month, and then he had to go on business instead . . .’ Being Carmel, she couldn’t, even when she wanted a favour from me, quite repress that look of malicious curiosity . . . ‘But I did think you’d
probably be joining him later, and if you were, then if you and Timmy could travel together it would solve everything, don’t you see?’
‘No, I don’t. If Graham’s in Vienna, I can’t see how I—’
‘The thing is, you’d be there, and you’ve no idea what that would mean to me. I mean, just letting him go off like that to meet Graham, with no idea of what their plans were or anything, and Timmy never writes, you know what boys are, and of course I’d sooner not be in touch with Graham myself, at all. But if I knew you and Lewis were somewhere around – I mean, Lewis must know his way about in foreign countries by now, and I expect he’s fairly reliable on the whole, isn’t he?’
She made it sound a rather doubtful quality. Just then Lewis was at rock bottom in my estimation, but I defended him automatically. ‘Naturally. But I can’t go with Tim, I’m afraid . . . No, Carmel, please listen. It isn’t that I wouldn’t do it like a shot if I were going to Vienna, but we’re going to Italy for our holiday, and besides—’
‘But you could join him in Vienna first. It would be more fun, wouldn’t it, and salvage a bit of the holiday you’ve missed?’
I stared at her. ‘Join him in Vienna? But – what do you mean? We can hardly ask Lewis—’
‘If it’s the fare, dear,’ said Carmel, ‘well, since you’d be sort of convoying Timmy, I’d expect to take care of that.’
I said with some asperity: ‘I think I could just about manage it, thank you.’
It was one of Carmel’s most irritating characteristics to assume that everyone else was penniless, and that Lewis, who made what seemed to me a very good thing indeed out of his chemical firm, would hardly have been able to afford a car if it hadn’t been run on an expense account. But then, my standards were not Carmel’s. I added dryly: ‘I expect I’d be able to swop the tickets.’
‘Then why not? What’s to stop you joining him out there, once his business is finished? It would save him having to come back here for you, and you’d get the extra time, and a bit of extra fun, too. I mean, I’d be happy to stand you both the difference in the fares. But you can see that it did seem the most marvellous piece of luck that Lewis was in Austria, and you might be thinking of joining him? As soon as I knew, I rang you up.