He had also been a lawyer for the American Electric. He had, I learned, been let out not long before Irwin came in. It did not sound too promising, but one more dead end wouldn’t matter. There had been plenty of dead ends in the six or eight months I had been on the job.
But this was not a dead end. There was Miss Lily Mae Littlepaugh, whom, after five weeks, I tracked down to a dark, foul, fox-smelling lair in a rooming house on the edge of the slums, in Memphis. She was a gaunt old woman, wearing black spotted and stained with old food, almost past the pretense of gentility, blinking slowly at me from weak red eyes set in the age-crusted face, sitting there in the near-dark room, exuding her old-fox smell, which mixed with the smell of oriental incense and candle wax. There were holy pictures on the walls on every spare space, and in one corner of the room, on a little table, a sort of shrine, with a curtain of faded wine-colored velvet hanging above it, and inside not a Madonna or crucifix as you would expect from the other pictures, but a big image made of felt and mounted on a board which I at first took to be a sunflower pincushion swollen to an impractical size, but then realized was an image of the sun and its rays, The Life-Giver. And in that room. Before it, on the table, a candle burned fatly as though fed not merely from wax but from the substance of the greasy air.
In the middle of the room was a table with a wine-colored velvet cover, and on the table a dish of poisonously colored hard candies, a glass of water, and a couple of long narrow horns or trumpets apparently made of pewter. I sat well back from the table. On the other side, Miss Littlepaugh studied me from the red eyes, then said, in a voice surprisingly strong, “Shall we begin?”
She continued to study me, then said, half as though to herself. “If Mrs. Dalzell sent you, I reckon–”
“She sent me.” She had sent me. It had cost me twenty-five dollars.
“I reckon it’s all right.”
“It’s all right,” I said.
She got up and went to the candle on the little table, watching me all the while as tough, in the last flicker of the light before she blew it out, I might turn out to be distinctly not all right. Then she blew out the candle and made her way back to the chair.
After that, there were wheezings and moaning for a bit, the chink of metal which I took to be from one of the trumpets, some conversation, not very enlightening or edifying, from Princess Spotted Deer, who was Miss Littlepaugh’s control, and some even more unenlightening remarks, given in a husky guttural, from somebody on the Other Side who claimed to be named Jimmy and to have been a friend of my youth. Meanwhile, the radiator against the wall at my back thumped and churned, and I inhaled the pitch darkness and sweated. Jimmy was saying that I was going to take a trip.
I leaned forward in the dark and said, “Ask for Mortimer. I want to ask Mortimer a question.”
One of the trumpets chinked softly again, and the Princess made a remark I didn’t catch.
“It’s Mortimer L. I want,” I said.
There was some huskiness in the trumpet, very indistinct.
“He is trying to come through,” Miss Littlepaugh’s voice said, “but the vibrations are bad.”
“I want to ask him a question,” I said. “Get Mortimer. You know, Mortimer L. The L. is for Lonzo.”
The vibrations were still bad.
“I want to ask him about the suicide.”
The vibrations must have been very bad, for there wasn’t a sound now.
“Get Mortimer,” I said. “I want to ask him about the insurance. I want to ask him about the last letter he wrote.”
The vibrations must have been terrific, for a trumpet banged on the table and bounced off to the floor, and there was a racket and rustling across the table, and when the electric light came suddenly on, there was Miss Littlepaugh standing by the door with her hand on the switch, staring at me out of the red eyes, while her breath hissed quite audible over old teeth.
“You lied,” she said, “you lied to me!”
“No, I didn’t lie to you,” I said. “My name is jack Burden, and Mrs. Dalzell sent me.”
“She’s a fool,” she hissed, “a fool to send you–you–”
“She thought I was all right. And she wasn’t a fool to want twenty-five dollars.”
I took out my wallet, removed some bills, and held them in my hand. “I may not be all right,” I said, “but this stuff always is.”
“What do you want?” she demanded, her eyes snatching from my face to the green sheaf and back to my face.
“What I said,” I said. “I want to talk to Mortimer Lonzo Littlepaugh. If you can get him on the wire.”
“What do you want from him?”
“What I said I wanted. I want to ask him about the suicide.”
“It was an accident,” she said dully.
I detached a bill and held it up. “See that,” I said. “That is one hundred bucks.” I laid it on the table, at the end toward her. “Look at it good,” I said. “It is yours. Pick it up.”
She looked fearfully at the bill.
I held up two more bills. “Two more,” I said, “just like it. Three hundred dollars. If you could put me in touch with Mortimer, the money would be yours.”
“The vibrations,” she murmured, “sometimes the vibrations–”
“Yeah,” I said, “the vibrations. But a hundred buck will do a lot for the vibrations. Pick up that bill. It is yours.”
“No,” she said quickly and huskily, “no.”
I took one of the two bills in my hand and laid it on top of the other one on the table.
“Pick it up,” I said, “and to hell with the vibrations. Don’t you like money? Don’t you need money? When did you get a square meal? Pick it up and start talking.”
“No,” she whispered, cringing back against the wall, with a hand now on the doorknob as though she might flee, staring at the money. The she stared at me, thrusting her head out suddenly, saying, “I know–I know you–you’re trying to trick me–you’re from the insurance company!”
“Wrong number,” I said. “But I know about Mortimer’s insurance policy. Suicide clause. That’s why you–”
“He–” she hissed, and her gaunt face gathered itself into a contortion which might have been grief, or rage, or despair, you couldn’t tell for sure–”he borrowed on his insurance–nearly all–and didn’t tell me–he–”
“So you lied for almost nothing,” I said. “You collected the insurance, all right, but there wasn’t much left to collect.”
“No,” she said, “there wasn’t. He left me–that way–he didn’t tell me–he left me with nothing–and this–this–” She looked about the room, the broken furniture, the foulness, and seemed to shudder and shrink from it as tough she had just entered and perceived it. “This–” she said, “this.”
“Three hundred would help,” I said, and nodded toward the two bills on the velvet.
“This–this–” she said, “he left me–he was a coward–oh, it was easy for him–easy–all he had to do was–”
“Was to jump,” I finished.
That quieted her. She looked at me heavily for a long moment, then said, “He didn’t jump.”
“My dear Miss Littlepaugh,” I said in the tone usually described as “not unkindly,”
“Why don’t you admit it? Your brother has been dead a long time and it will do him no harm. The insurance company has forgotten about the business. Nobody would blame you for lying–you had to live. And–”
“It wasn’t the money,” she said. “It was the disgrace. I wanted him buried from the church. I wanted–” She stopped suddenly.
“Ah,” I said, and glanced at the holy pictures around the wall.
“I was a believer then,” she said, paused, corrected herself, “I believe now in God, but it is different.”
“Yes, yes,” I said soothingly, and looked at the one trumpet left on the table. “And, of course, it is stupid to think of it as a disgrace. When your brother did it–”
“
It was an accident,” she said.
“Now, Miss Littlepaugh, you just admitted the fact a second ago.”
“It was an accident,” she repeated, drawing back into herself.
“No,” I said, “he did it, but it was not his fault. He was driven to it.” I watched her face. “He had given years to that company, then they threw him out. To make room for a man who had done a wicked thing. Who drove your brother to his death. Isn’t that true?” I got up, and took a step toward her. “Isn’t that true?”
She looked at me steadily, then broke. “He did! He drove him to it, he killed him, he was hired because it was a bribe–my brother knew that–he told them he knew it–but they threw him out–they said he couldn’t prove it, and threw him out–”
“Could he prove it?” I said.
“Oh, he knew, all right. He knew all about that coal business–he knew long before but he didn’t know what they were going to do to him–they treated him fine then and knew all the time they would throw him out–but he went to the Governor and said–”
“What,” I demanded, “what did you say?” And stepped toward her.
“To the Governor, he–”
“Who?”
“To Governor Stanton, and the Governor wouldn’t listen, he just–”
I grasped the old woman’s arm and held it tight. “Listen,” I said, “you are telling me that your brother went to Governor Stanton and told him?”
“Yes, and Governor Stanton wouldn’t listen. He told him he couldn’t prove anything, he wouldn’t investigate, and that–”
“Are you lying?” I demanded, and shook the matchwood arm.
“It’s true, true to God!” she exclaimed quivering in my grasp. “And that killed my brother. The Governor killed him. He went to the hotel and wrote the letter to me and told me, and that night–”
“The letter,” I said, “what happened to the letter?”
“–that night–just before day–but waiting all night in that room–and just before day–”
“The letter,” I demanded, “what happened to the letter?”
I shook her again, as she repeated, whispering, “Just before day–” But she came up out of the depth of the thought she was in, looked at me, and answered, “I have it.”
I released my grip on her arm, thrust a bill into her clammy hand, and crushed her fingers upon it. “It’s a hundred dollars,” I said. “Give me the letter, and you can have the rest–three hundred dollars!”
“No,” she said, “no, you want to get rid of the letter. Because it tells the truth. You’re that man’s friend.” She stared into my face, prying into it, blinking, like an old person prying with feeble fingers to open a box. She gave up, and asked helplessly, “Are you his friend?”
“If he could see me right now,” I said, “I don’t imagine he would think so.”
“You aren’t his friend?”
“No,” I said. She looked at me dubiously. “No,” I said, “I’m not his friend. Give me the letter. If it is ever used it will be used against him. I swear it.”
“I’m afraid,” she said, but I could feel her fingers under my arm slowly working the bill I had thrust there.
“Don’t be afraid of the insurance company. That was long back.”
“When I went to the Governor–” she began.
“Did you go to the Governor, too?
“After it happened–after everything–I wanted to hurt that man–I went to the Governor–”
“My God,” I said.
“–and ask him to punish him–because he had taken a bribe–because he had killed my brother–but he said I had no proof, that the man was his friend and I had no proof.”
“The letter, did you show him the letter?”
“Yes, I had the letter.”
“Did you show Governor Stanton the letter?”
“Yes–yes–and he stood there and said, ‘Miss Littlepaugh, you have sworn that you did not receive that letter, you have sworn to a lie, and that is perjury and the penalty for perjury is severe, and if that letter becomes known you will be prosecuted to the full extent of the law.’ “
“What did you do?” I asked.
The head, which was nothing but gray hair and yellow skin stuck on bone, and old memories, wavered on its thin stalk of a neck, lightly and dryly as though touched by a breeze. “Do,” she echoed, “do,” shaking her head. “I was a poor woman, alone. My brother, he had gone away. What could I do?”
“You kept the letter,” I affirmed, and she nodded.
“Get it,” I said, “get it. Nobody will bother you now. I swear it.”
She got it. She clawed into the mass of yellow and acid-smelling papers and old ribbons and crumpled cloths in a tin trunk in the corner, while I leaned over her and fretted at the palsied incompetence of the fingers. Then she had it.
I snatched the envelope from her hand and shook the paper out. It was a sheet of hotel stationery–the Hotel Moncastello–dated August 3, 1915. It read: Dear Sister, I have been this afternoon to see Governor Stanton and told him How I have been thrown out of my job like a dog after all these years because than man Irwin was bribed to let up on the suit against the Southern Belle Fuel people and how he now has my place at a salary they never paid me and I gave them my heart’s blood all these years. And they call him vice-president, too. They lied to me and they cheated me and they make him vice-president for taking a bribe. But Governor Stanton would not listen to me. He asked me for my proof and I told him what Mr. Satterfield told me months ago how the case had been fixed and how in our company they’d take care of Irwin. Now Satterfield denies it. He denies he ever told me, and looks me in the eye. So I have no proof, and Governor Stanton will not investigate.
I can do no more. I went as you know to the people who are against Governor Stanton in politics but they would not listen to me. Because that blackguard and infidel McCall who is their kingpin is tied up with Southern Belle. At first they were interested but now they laugh at me. What can I do? I am old and not well. I will never be any good again. I will be a drag on you and not a help. What can I do, Sister?
You have been good to me. I thank you. Forgive me for what I am going to do, but I am going to join our sainted Mother and our dear Father who were kind and good to us and who will greet me on the Other Shore, and dry every tear.
Good-bye until the happy day when we shall meet again in Light.
MORTIMER
P. S. I have borrowed against my insurance a good bit. On account of bad investments. But there is something left and if they know I have done what I am going to do they will no pay you.
P. S. Give my watch which was Father’s to Julian, who will respect it even if he is only a cousin.
P. S. I could do what I am going to do easier if I were not trying to get the insurance for you. I have paid for the insurance and you ought to have it.
So the poor bastard had gone to the Other Shore, where Mother and Father would dry away every tear, immediately after having instructed his sister how to defraud the insurance company. There it all was–all of Mortimer Lonzo–the confusion, weakness, piety, self-pity, small-time sharpness, vindictiveness, all of it in the neat, spidery, old-fashioned bookkeeper’s sort of hand, a little shakier than ordinary perhaps, but with all the t’s crossed and the i’s dotted.
I replaced it in the envelope and put it in my pocket. “I am going to have it photostated,” I said, “and you may have it back. I’ll have the photostat certified. But you must make a statement before a notary about you visit to Governor Stanton. And–” I went over to the table and picked up the two bills and handed them to her–”there will be another one coming to you after you make your statement. Get you hat.”
So I had it after all the months. For nothing is lost, nothing is ever lost. There is always the clue, the canceled check, the smear of lipstick, the footprint in the canna bed, the condom on the park path, the twitch in the old wound, the baby shoes dipped in bronze, the taint in the blood strea
m. And all times are one time, and all those dead in the past never lived before our definition gives them life, and out of the shadow their eyes implore us.
That is what all of us historical researchers believe.
And we love truth.
Chapter Six
It was late March in 1937 when I went to see Miss Littlepaugh in the foul, fox-smelling lair in Memphis, and came to the end of my researches. I had been on the job almost seven months. But other things had happened during that period besides my researches. Tom Stark, a sophomore, had made quarterback on the mythical All Southern Eleven and had celebrated by wrapping an expensive yellow sport job around a culvert on one of the numerous new speedways which bore his father’s name. Fortunately, a Highway Patrol car, and not some garrulous citizen, discovered the wreck, and the half-empty bottle of evidence was, no doubt, flung into the night to fall in the dark waters of the swamp. Beside the unconscious form of the Sophomore Thunderbolt lay another form, conscious but badly battered, for in the yellow expensive sport job Tom had had with him a somewhat less expensive yellow-headed sport job, named, it turned out, Caresse Jones. So Caresse wound up in the operating room of the hospital and not in the swamp. She obligingly did not die, though in the future she never would be much of an asset in a roadster. But her father was less obliging. He stamped and swore that he was going to have blood, and breathed indictments, jail, publicity, and lawsuits. His fires, however, were pretty soon banked. Not that it didn’t cost some nice change. But in the end the whole transaction was conducted without noise. Mr. Jones was in the trucking business, and somebody pointed out to him that truck ran on state road and that truckers had a lot of contacts with certain state departments.
Tom wasn’t hurt a bit, though he lay up in hospital unconscious for three hours while the Boss, pale as a starched sheet, and with his hair hanging and his eyes wild and sweat running down his cheeks, paced the floor of the waiting room and ground one fist into the palm of the other hand while his breath made a labored sound like the breath of his son in the room beyond. Then Lucy Stark got there–it was about four in the morning then–her eyes red but tearless and a stunned look on her face. They had quite a row. But that was after the word had come out that Tom was all right. Up till then he had paced the floor breathing hard, and she had sat and stared straight into the blankness. But when the word came, she got up and went over to stand before him, and say, “You must stop him.” Her voice was scarcely above a whisper.