He gasped, "Shh, It's ok baby, I love you too" he said as he bent down and picked me up, carrying me into the living room, I was still sobbing. He sat down on the sofa and settled me on his lap wrapping his arms around me tight and started rocking me gently, "I'm sorry baby, you just make me so fucking angry, I'm sorry, shh it's ok" he said smoothing my hair from my face and wiping my tears.
He lifted my chin to make me look at him, "I'm sorry, forgive me?" he asked tenderly, I nodded quickly wanting this to be over so I could go and put some ice or something on my leg. "That's my girl" he said kissing me softly.
"My hip and legs hurts" I whispered.
He hissed through his teeth and rubbed it gently, "Come on baby I'll run you a bath" he said picking me up again gently, I wrapped my arms around his neck tightly trying to keep my leg as still as possible as pain shot right down to my toes making me whimper.
He sat me on my bed and went to my en-suite running the water while I grimaced in pain, I rolled into a ball. It could have been worse, he could have hurt Jayden. After a couple of minutes he came back smiling apologetically, "I'm so sorry baby" he murmured as he unbuttoned my jeans starting to pull them down.
I screamed as his hands brushed across my hip, "Stop stop!" I cried breathless, he winced and took his hands away quickly. "I can do it" I said gritting my teeth and easing them down to my knee's, he pulled them the rest of the way off. I looked down to see a huge red and purple mark on my hip spreading down the top of my thigh, oh shit that looks bad!
He trailed his fingers over it tenderly, "Shit, this looks bad Brook, you need to see someone?" he asked looking at me pleadingly. I shook my head, I couldn't face the questions, I couldn't keep up with the lies that I had to tell all the time.
"Can you just get me a cold flannel maybe?" I asked biting my lip, he nodded and kissed my forehead before running to the en-suite and coming back with the flannel. He held it on gently just looking at me apologetically, he was always like this, he felt really guilty about it after if he hurt me badly, a few bruises here and there were nothing to him but if he made me cry like that he knew that he'd gone too far. He was always super sweet looking after me and stuff for a couple of days afterwards though.
I laid back on the bed and just let him hold the cold flannel in place as I closed my eyes trying to think of anything but the burning pain in my leg. I felt the bed dip next to me and he wrapped his arm around me pressing into my side, I turned my face and pressed it into his chest praying for the day he would finally kill me and this would all be over, I didn't want a lifetime of this, I couldn't take it. "I love you Brook, I love you so much, I'm sorry" he whispered turning the flannel to the cold side.
I nodded "I know Trey, I love you too" I said knowing he needed reassurance, he always needed reassurance that I wouldn't leave him. I think deep down he was quite insecure.
"Want to get in the bath?" he asked stroking my hair.
I shook my head "I don't want to move" I admitted, he closed his eyes.
"I'm sorry, I just thought, shit, forget it, I'm sorry" he said kissing my face softly.
After about half an hour the pain had faded slightly to be replaced by a dull ache, he helped me off the bed, I went over to the wardrobe and grabbed a pair of baggy sweats so they wouldn't rub or squeeze my bruise that I had coming. He even finished making lunch bringing it up to me in my room, we sat on the bed watching TV for a while until I heard my Mom come home.
He held my hand tightly as we went downstairs, my Mom was cooking dinner, "Hey Brook, hey Trey" she chirped happily.
"Hey Mom" I said faking a happy smile, she hugged me tight and then set back to making dinner.
"Ask her if I can stay" Trey whispered in my ear rubbing his hand up and down on my back trying to be loving.
"Mom do you think Trey could stay over tonight?" I asked immediately.
She gasped and looked at me a little disapprovingly, "I'm sorry guys, you know I don't like it" she said shaking her head. I breathed a sigh of relief.
"Beth, you know I love your daughter, we've been together forever now, we're always very responsible, this isn't some fling, I know I'm a lot older than her, but I love her more than anything, if you say you don't want us to have sex in the house then that's fine, but I just want to hold her I swear, I've missed her so much this weekend" he said kissing the top of my head softly.
She sighed and closed her eyes, "I guess you two have been together a long time, I should maybe just get over it huh?" she said chuckling slightly. I felt my heart sink, oh god please don't let him start staying here, they were my nights off!
"Yeah? Does that mean I can stay?" Trey asked excitedly.
She sighed and nodded "Yeah ok, but I don't want to hear anything! I'm serious, we'll see how it goes tonight, like a trial ok?" she asked winking at me, she obviously thought this was what I wanted seen as I asked for it.
"That's great Mom, thanks" I muttered plastering on a fake smile. Shit I couldn't call Jayden now!
He asked me to call him but Trey was gonna be here, damn it!
Trey and my Mom started having a conversation about his trip so I kissed his cheek, "I'm just gonna go to the bathroom" I said as I slipped out almost un-noticed trying desperately not to limp in case my Mom saw. I grabbed my phone and found the eight missed calls all from a while ago, I pressed call and went to sit on the toilet.
"Brook?" he answered almost immediately, I sighed, god he had such a sexy voice!
"Hi, I'm sorry about earlier" I said quietly.
"No it was my fault, I shouldn't have come over like that, I'm really sorry" he said sadly.
"Don't worry about it, but you can't do that again ok? You can't just come over when Trey's here, he can sometimes get a bit jealous" I said closing my eyes and putting my forehead against the wall.
"I won't I just freaked out a bit, I need to get used to it, it's hard Brook, I can't explain it to you, he didn't say anything did he?" he said quietly.
"No he was fine" I lied closing my eyes. "Look I know it's gonna be hard, but you need to understand that I didn't choose this Jayden, you forced this on me, I can't just change my whole entire life because of what happened at the party" I said trying to explain how I felt without hurting him too much. To be honest if I wasn't with Trey this would be easy, I would be there like a shot, I didn't have the instant devotion that Scott was talking about but there was definitely something there, I couldn't deny it.
"I'm sorry, can I come over and we can talk or something?" he asked sounding a little hopeful.
"Not tonight, Trey's here still" I said grimacing slightly as I moved making my leg start to ache again.
"Oh, well how about tomorrow daytime?" he asked.
"I have school Jayden, we don't all have college holidays you know" I said teasingly making him laugh.
"Lunchtime? Or after school?" he asked, I sighed, god I wanted to see him too, I couldn't keep putting this off.
"Err lunchtime I guess" I said quietly.
"Yeah? Awesome! What time? Shall I pick you up from school?" he asked excitedly.
I nodded "Yeah, ok about one?" I offered biting my lip.
"Definitely, I'll see you then, can I call you in the morning?" he asked sounding a lot happier now.
"No! No, I'll just see you at one at the school ok?" I said quickly, "Look I gotta go, bye Jayden" I said snapping the phone shut. I'd been in here too long already. I made my way downstairs they were still talking in the kitchen, they didn't even notice I was gone.
I went to the medicine cupboard and grabbed some painkillers for my aching body Trey wrapped his arms around me from behind and kissed my neck. Oh god he was so close to Jayden's mark! I pulled away quickly before he could touch it, "Can you get me some water Trey? I want to take these" I said holding out the pills, he nodded looking at me apologetically and went to get the drink.
After dinner Trey went to watch TV with my Mom while I sat up the kitchen table doing my English essay for tomorrow. I strung it
out as long as I could, I didn't want to have to get up, it took me a long time to get comfortable I didn't want to have to start all over again. At nine I went into the living room, "Hey Trey, I'm pretty tired, want to go to bed?" I asked hopefully. At least I could pretend to be asleep and just lay still.
"Sure baby, you sure this is ok Beth?" he asked smiling happily.
She nodded and rolled her eyes "Yeah ok I guess" she said smiling.
I kissed her head "Night Mom, see you in the morning" I said grabbing Trey's hand and pulling him towards the stairs.
"Night Beth and thanks" he called as he followed me grinning like a mad man.
"Night guys, just keep it down ok?" she called making Trey chuckle behind me.
When we got to my room he was beaming, "So this is a first huh? Me getting to sleep here" he said as he pulled me into a hug.
"Um Trey, I'm pretty tired hon, I don't think I can do anything, my leg's hurting really bad" I admitted. He nodded and bent to pull my sweats off for me being careful of my hip, he stripped out of his clothes so he was just in his boxers. He pulled me towards the bed, I unclasped my bra pulling it off so I was in a t-shirt and panties.
He pulled the covers back and nodded for me to get in first before following me in and pulling me close to his side. "I love you Brook" he said as he kissed me gently, god I wish he was like this all the time.
"You too Trey" I lied quickly.
"Want me to kiss it better?" he asked suggestively, I smiled and rolled my eyes.
"Honestly? No thanks, I think it'll hurt" I said.
He laughed "I'll be careful" he said running his hand down my body slowly. I stiffened, oh shit if he starts he won't want to stop, I don't want to sleep with him again!
"Trey, come on hon, it'll hurt me, please? Besides you promised my Mom you just wanted to hold me, she won't let you stay again if she hears anything" I said teasingly.
He sighed and flopped down on the bed next to me, "Yeah, you're right, night baby" he said as he brushed his lips against mine gently.
I closed my eyes and willed myself to fall asleep but I just couldn't stop thinking about Jayden, Trey was wrapped around me breathing in my ear and I couldn't stop wishing he was Jay. Why the hell was I so damn excited about seeing him tomorrow? Shit this was not gonna end well!
Chapter 12
I woke to the feeling of being tickled gently, I frowned confused before remembering Trey slept over last night. I moved to roll over and pain shot down my leg making me gasp and clamp my teeth together tightly. Trey stopped rubbing his hands on my side, "Ok?" he asked quietly, I nodded and slowly opened my eyes to look at him. He was half propped up on his elbow watching me.
"How long have you been awake?" I asked rolling more carefully onto my side to face him.
He bent forward and kissed my lips gently, "About half an hour" he said shrugging.
"So you've just been watching me sleep for half an hour? Pervert" I joked making him laugh.
He rolled his eyes "You ok today?" he asked his eyes trailing down to my hip.
I nodded "Yeah, it just aches a little, it's fine" I said pressing my face into his chest. "What's the time Trey?" I mumbled against his skin.
"Almost seven" he said kissing the top of my head.
"I think I'm gonna go grab a shower" I said needing to get out the bed before he started wanting sex, I really don't think that would help the whole sore leg situation.
He grinned "I'll come with you, wash your back" he said happily as he climbed out of the other side.
Shit if he sees me naked he'll see Jayden's mark!
"Um Trey" I started not knowing how the hell to say I didn't want him anywhere near me.
He sighed and wrapped his arms around me, "You think it'll hurt you, so you'd rather I didn't" he said matter of factly, I bit my lip and nodded, that wasn't exactly the reason but hey if it worked! He kissed me gently before pulling back to look in my eyes, "You know I love you right?" he asked tenderly. I knew he loved me, he had problems but I didn't doubt that he loved me, he just had a funny way of showing it sometimes.
"I know you do, I love you too" I said forcing a smile.
He grinned and kissed my forehead "Good, I'll go make breakfast, you want a fruit salad or something? You're still on a diet right?" he asked raising his eyebrows. I nodded dropping my eyes to the floor, "Good girl" he said kissing my lips again gently before heading out of the room.
I stripped out of my clothes and jumped in the shower, being careful not to look in the mirror, I hated to look at myself naked, I hadn't seen myself fully naked for about a year and half. I disgusted myself, it was bad enough I had to see myself in clothes, I didn't want to look at my actual body. I stood under the shower and cried, my tears mixing in with the spray, I had to turn my body as the slight pressure from the water was making my leg ache more, I'd have to fake a letter to get out of gym today.
My mind went to Jayden and how adorable he was, what the hell did he come here for yesterday?
How the hell can I explain to him he can't just turn up like that? The more I thought about him the more excited I got, I was actually really looking forward to seeing him today. I could picture his green eyes and the exact shade of his brown hair, how handsome he was, how his voice sounded.
Just the thought of him was turning me on, I traced my hand over his mark on my neck, it was still raised, I fingered the little marks of each of his teeth and couldn't help but smile a little.
After awhile I got out and went to my bedroom praying that Trey wasn't in there, if he saw me in just a towel I had no doubt he would want sex. He didn't like to look at my body, but he had no problems using it whenever the hell he wanted to. Maybe he had really changed this time, he promised my Mom that he just wanted to hold me and he did. Maybe this would be the last time he would hit me, maybe he knew he went too far, I couldn't help but hope. But a small part of me knew that I had got my hopes on this exact thing dashed on too many occasions to believe that he would change, he'd never change. One day he would kill me, and then I'd all be over and I wouldn't have to worry about my Mom anymore because he would have no reason to hurt her.
I got dressed quickly in jeans and a loose fitting black round neck t-shirt, I looked in the mirror to check that Jayden's mark was hidden before heading downstairs. Trey was sitting up the table with my Mom eating bacon sandwiches, in the spot where I usually sat there was a bowl of chopped up apple and banana. My stomach was hurting at the smell of the bacon, I was so hungry it was painful.
I sat down and picked up my fork, "Morning" I said smiling at my Mom, she smiled and nodded at the bowl, "Trey said you didn't want a sandwich, you're gonna be hungry if you don't eat properly" she scalded.
I smiled "I'm having breakfast with Mel" I said shrugging, her face brightened.
"Oh! I didn't realise, hey is Scott home from college yet?" she asked cheerfully. My Mom loved Mel and Scott like crazy, she was good friends with the Porters and our Mom's used to share our childcare when we were younger so they could both go back to work on different days without having to worry about us kids, so she knew them really well.
"Yeah he came home Friday" I said smiling, Trey's face snapped round to mine and I felt my stomach drop, oh shit, I already told him I stayed at Mel's!
"Scott's Mel's brother right? The blonde one?" he asked frowning at me angrily, ok I needed to stay near my Mom then he wouldn't be able to hurt me.
"Yeah" I said shifting in my seat uncomfortably as he continued to glare at me.
"How's he getting on in college? Did you speak to him?" my Mom asked.
I shook my head, "No I didn't see him, he stayed at one of his friends" I lied taking another bite of my banana and trying to ignore the look of pure rage that was stretched across Trey's face.
"Oh that's a shame, he's such a nice boy, maybe we'll invite the Porters round, I haven't seen Rachel or Paul in ages" she said grabbing her plate and walking off towards the sink.
"Yeah good idea Mom"
I said keeping my eyes on her, if she left the room I would too, there was no way I was staying in here with Trey while he was looking at me like that.
"I'll drive you to school today and pick you up, then maybe we could go out tonight" Trey said his face still hard. I tried to swallow the mouthful of banana but the damn thing didn't want to go down so I just nodded instead.
"Right guys I'm off to work, I swapped a shift with Mary so I'm in today but off tomorrow" my Mom chirped as she kissed the top of my head.
"Ok bye" I said watching her longing to go with her, I didn't want to be on my own with Trey.
As soon as the front door closed he slammed his fist down on the table making me jump. "You stayed with this Scott guy?" he demanded angrily.
I shook my head fiercely, "No! I stayed with Mel in her room, Scott stayed out, I think Mel said he was at a party" I said nervously. He held out his hand for me, I placed my hand in his willing him to believe me, as soon as my hand was in his he squeezed it hard making a sharp pain shoot up my wrist, "Ow Trey I promise!" I lied squeezing my eyes shut tight.
"If I find out you're lying to me" he said warningly.
I jumped out of the chair and moved round the table to him, he didn't loosen his grip on my hand the whole time. I sat on his lap and wrapped my other arm around his neck putting my forehead to his. "I swear Trey" I whispered, he sighed and closed his eyes as he let go of my hand.
He cupped my face, "Ok baby I believe you" he said kissing my nose, I breathed a sigh of relief and nodded kissing him hard trying to make him forget he was angry with me.
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Half an hour later he dropped me at school, "I'll pick you up after baby ok?" he said kissing my lips gently. I nodded and smiled happy that I was finally getting away from him, at least for a few hours anyway! I found Mel leaning against the side of her car waiting for me.