Occasionally she caught sight of Barbara, her flowered muslin dusty round the hem with brushing the cobbles, and a red stain on her skirt where an injured head had lain in her lap. Once they met but neither spoke of the horrors around them. Barbara said briefly: ‘I’m going for more water. The chemists have opened their shops and will supply whatever is needed.’
‘For God’s sake, take my purse and get more lint—as much of it as you can procure!’ Judith said, on her knees beside a lanky Highlander, who was sitting against the wall with his head dropped on his shoulder.
‘No need; they are charging nothing,’ Barbara replied. ‘I’ll get it.’
She passed on, making her way swiftly down the street. A figure in a scarlet coat lay across the pavement; she bent over it, saying gently: ‘Where are you hurt? Will you let me help you?’ Then she saw that the man was dead, and straightened herself, feeling her knees shaking, and nausea rising in her throat. She choked it down, and walked on. A Highlander, limping along the road, with a bandage round his head and one arm pinned up by the sleeve across his breast, grinned weakly at her. She stopped, and offered him the little water that remained in her flask. He shook his head: ‘Na, na, I’m awa’ to my billet. I shall do verra weel, ma’am.’
‘Are you badly hurt? Will you lean on my shoulder?’
‘Och, I got a wee skelp wi’ a bit of a shell, that’s all. Gi’e your watter to the puir red-coat yonder: we are aye well respected in this toon! We ha’ but to show our petticoat, as they ca’ it, and the Belgians will ay gi’e us what we need!’
She smiled at the twinkle of humour in his eye, but said: ‘You’ve hurt your leg. Take my arm, and don’t be afraid to lean on me.’
He thanked her, and accepted the help. She asked him how the day had gone, and he replied, gasping a little from the pain of walking: ‘It’s a bluidy business, and there’s no saying what may be the end on’t. Oor regiment was nigh clean swept off, and oor Colonel kilt as I cam’ awa.’ But I doot all’s weel.’
She supported him to the end of the street, but was relieved of her charge there by a burgher in a sad-coloured suit of broadcloth, who darted up with exclamations of solicitude, and cries to his wife to come at once to the assistance of ‘notre brave Écossais.’ He turned out to be the owner of the Highlander’s billet, and it was plain that Barbara could relinquish the wounded man to his care without misgiving. He was borne off between the burgher and his comfortable wife, throwing a nod and a wink over his shoulder to Barbara; and she hurried on to fight her way into the crowded chemist’s shop.
Nothing could have exceeded the humanity of the citizens. There was hardly a house in the town whose doors were not thrown open to the wounded, whether Dutch, or Belgian, German, Scotch or English. The Belgian doctors were working in their shirt-sleeves with the sweat dripping off their bodies; children, who stared with uncomprehending, vaguely shocked eyes, were bidden by their brisk, shrill mothers to hold umbrellas over men huddled groaning on the pavement under the scorching sun; stout burgomasters and grim gendarmes were busy clearing the wounded off the streets, carrying those who could not walk into neighbouring houses, and directing others with more superficial injuries to places of shelter. Sisters of Mercy were moving about, their black robes and great starched white head-dresses in odd contrast to the frivolous chip hats and delicate muslin dresses of ladies of fashion who had forgotten their complexions and their nerves, and in all the heat of the noonday sun, and the stench of blood, and dirt, and human sweat, toiled as their scullery-maids had never done.
In one short hour Judith felt her senses to have become numb; the nausea that she had first felt had left her; in the urgent need to give help there was no time for personal shrinking. A Belgian doctor, kneeling beside an infantryman on a truss of straw in the road, had called to her to aid him; he had told her to hold a man’s leg while he dug out a musket-ball from his knee, and roughly bound up the wound. He spoke to her brusquely, and she obeyed him without flinching. A few minutes later she was herself slitting up a coat-sleeve, and binding lint round a flesh-wound that ordinarily would have turned her sick.
At about half past two, when the news came from the Namur and Louvain Gates that the promised tents were at last ready for the wounded, the sky became suddenly overcast. The relief from the sun’s glare was felt by everyone, but in a few minutes the fear of a storm was making it necessary to get all who could be moved under shelter. The blackness overhead was presently shot through with a fork of lightning; almost simultaneously the thunder crashed across the sky, rolling and reverberating in an ominous rumble that died away only an instant before a second flash, and a second clap broke out. By three o’clock the lightning seemed continuous, and the thunder so deafening that the fear of the elements overcame in nearly every breast the lesser fear of a French advance. The lurid light, the flickering flashes in a cloud like a huge pall, the clatter in the sky as of a giant’s crockery being smashed, made even the boldest quail, and sent many flying to their homes. Rain began to fall in torrents; in a few minutes the gutters were rushing rivers, and those still out in the streets were soaked to the skin. Rain bounced on the cobbles, and poured off the steep gabled roofs; it took the starch out of the nuns’ stiff caps, made the pale muslins cling to their owner’s bodies, and turned modish straw hats into sodden wrecks.
Barbara, helping a man with a shattered ankle to hop up the steps into a house already containing two wounded Belgians, felt her shoulder touched, and looked round to find Worth behind her. He was drenched, and dishevelled; he said curtly: ‘I’ll take him. Go home now.’
‘Your wife?’ she said, her voice husky with fatigue.
‘I’ve sent her home. You have done enough. Go back now.’
She nodded, for she was indeed so exhausted that her head felt light, and it was an effort to move her limbs. Worth slipped his arm round the young Scot she had been supporting, and she clung to the railings for a moment to get her breath.
When she reached home she found that Judith had arrived a few moments before her, and had already gone up to strip off her wet and soiled garments. She came out of her bedroom in a wrapper as Barbara reached the top of the stairs. ‘Barbara!’ she said. ‘Thank God you have come in! Oh, how wet you are! I’ll send my woman to you immediately! Yours is in hysterics.’
A weary smile touched Barbara’s lips. ‘The confounded wench hasn’t ceased having hysterics since the guns were first heard. Is there any news?’
‘I don’t think so. I’ve had no time to ask. But don’t stand there in those wet clothes!’
‘Indecent, aren’t they?’ said Barbara, with the ghost of a chuckle.
‘Shocking, but I’m thinking of the cold you will take. I’ve ordered coffee to be sent up to the salon. Do hurry!’
Twenty minutes later they confronted one another across a table laid out with cakes and coffee. Judith lifted the silver pot, and found that her hand, which had been so steady, was shaking. She managed to pour out the coffee, and handed the cup to Barbara, saying: ‘I’m sorry. I’ve spilled a little in the saucer. You must be very hungry; eat one of those cakes.’
Barbara took one, raised it to her mouth, and then put it down. ‘I don’t think I can,’ she said in rather a strained voice. ‘I beg your pardon, but I feel damnably sick. Or faint—I’m not sure which.’
Judith jumped up. ‘No, no, you are not going to faint, and if you are sick, I’ll never forgive you! Wait, I’ll get my smelling-salts directly!’ She stopped, and said: ‘No. I forgot. I gave them to that boy whose ear had been shot off. He—oh God, Bab, don’t, don’t!’ With the tears pouring down her own face she flung her arms round Barbara, who had broken into a fit of gasping sobs.
They clung together for a few moments, their torn nerves finding relief in this burst of weeping. But presently each made an effort towards self-control; the sobs were resolutely swallowed, and two noses defiantly blown.
‘The devil!’ Barbara said faintly. ‘Where’s that coffee?’
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They smiled mistily at each other. ‘We’re tired,’ said Judith. ‘Crying like a couple of vapourish idiots!’
Her teeth chattered on the rim of her cup, but she gulped down a little of the coffee and felt better. Outside, the thunder still crashed and rumbled, and the rain streamed down the window-panes. The butler had lit the candles in the room, and presently, seeing how the flashes of lightning made Judith wince, Barbara got up, and drew the blinds together.
‘The troops in this awful storm!’ Judith said. ‘Will the rain never stop?’
‘I wonder where they are?’
‘The report this morning said that a renewal of the attack was expected.’
‘I am not afraid. We remained masters of the field last night, and now all the Army is concentrated there.’
‘Very true: we may hear of a victory at any moment now, I daresay.’
They relapsed into silence. The sound of carriage wheels in the street below roused them. The carriage drew up apparently at the house, and while Judith and Barbara were still looking at each other with a sudden question in their eyes, a double knock fell on the front door. Judith found that she was trembling, and saw that Barbara was gripping the arms of her chair with clenched fingers. Neither seemed capable of moving; each was paper white, staring at the other. But in another minute the butler had opened the door and announced Miss Devenish and Mr Fisher.
Judith got up with a shudder of relief, and turned to receive these unexpected guests. Miss Devenish, who was muffled in a long cloak, ran forward, and caught both her friend’s arms in a tight clasp. ‘Oh, have you news?’ she panted. ‘I could bear it no longer! All yesterday and today in this terrible uncertainty! I thought you might have heard something, that Colonel Audley might have been here!’
Barbara’s hands unclenched. She rose, and walked over to the window under pretext of rearranging the blinds.
‘No. We have not seen Charles since he left the ball,’ Judith replied. ‘Colonel Canning was in last night, and told us then that up till five o’clock Charles was alive and unhurt. We have had no later tidings.’
She disengaged one hand, and held it out to Mr Fisher, who shook it warmly, and embarked on a speech of apology for having intruded on her at such a time. She cut him short assuring him that no apology could be thought necessary, and he said, in his unpolished yet kindly way: ‘That’s it: I told my girl here you would be glad to see her. For my part, I’m a plain Englishman, and what I say is, let the Belgians run if they will, for it won’t make a ha’porth of odds to our fellows! But the silly miss has been in such a taking, covering her ears every time the cannon sounded, and jumping to the window whenever anyone passed in the street, that in the end I said to her: “Lucy, my pet,” I said, “rain or no rain, you’ll pop on your cloak and we’ll drive straight round to your good friend, Lady Worth, and see what she may be able to tell us.’’’
‘Indeed, you did quite right. I am only sorry that I am unable to give you any news. Since hearing of the Prussian defeat, no tidings of any kind have reached us, except such scraps we might pick up from the men who have got back from the battlefield.’
Lucy, who had sunk into a chair, with her hands kneading one another in her lap, raised her head, and asked in an amazed tone: ‘You have been out in the streets?’
‘Yes, Lady Barbara and I have been doing what we could for the wounded.’
Lucy shuddered. ‘Oh, how I admire you! I could not! The sight of the blood—the wounds—I cannot bear to think of it!’
Judith looked at her for an instant, in a kind of detached wonder. Raising her eyes, she encountered Barbara’s across the room. A faint smile passed between them; in that moment of wordless understanding each was aware of the bond which, no matter what might come, could never be quite broken between them.
Mr Fisher said: ‘Well, I am sure you are a pair of heroines, no less! But I wonder his lordship would permit it, I do indeed! A lady’s delicate sensibilities—’
‘This is not a time for thinking of one’s sensibilities,’ Judith interrupted. ‘But will you not be seated? I am glad to see you have not fled the town, like some of our compatriots.’
He said heartily: ‘No need to do that, I’ll be bound! Why, if the Duke can’t account for Boney and all his Froggies, he’s not the man I take him for, and so I tell my foolish girl here.’
‘Such sentiments do you credit,’ said Judith, with mechanical civility. She glanced at Miss Devenish, and added: ‘Do not be unnecessarily alarmed, Lucy. I believe we must by this time have heard had anything happened to my brother-in-law.’
Miss Devenish replied in a numb voice: ‘Oh yes! It must be so, of course. Only I hoped he might perhaps have been sent in with a message. It is of no consequence.’
Judith could not resist glancing in Barbara’s direction. She was standing back against the dark curtains, her eyes fixed on Lucy’s face with an expression in them of curious intentness. Judith looked away quickly, and repeated: ‘I have not seen Charles since the ball.’
‘No.’ Miss Devenish looked at Barbara; a little colour crept into her cheeks; she said, stumbling over the words: ‘And you, Lady Barbara—I do not like to ask you—but you have heard nothing?’
‘Nothing at all,’ Barbara replied.
‘No; I quite realise—you must wonder at my asking you, but there are circumstances which—’ Her voice failed entirely: indeed, her last words had been almost inaudible. She got up, flushing, and reminded her uncle that they had promised not to leave Mrs Fisher for more than half an hour.
He agreed that they must be going, and said in a rallying tone, as he shook hands with Judith: ‘Your ladyship will bear me out in assuring this little puss that there is no need for all this alarm. Ah, you may shake your head as much as you please, Missy, but you won’t make your old uncle believe that you haven’t lost that soft heart of yours to some handsome officer!’
No answer was vouchsafed; Lucy pressed Judith’s hand, bowed slightly to Barbara, and hurried out of the room. Mr Fisher begged Judith not to think of accompanying them to the door, again thanked her for receiving him, became aware that the butler was holding open the door for him, and bowed himself out.
A long, painful silence fell in the salon. Barbara had parted the curtains and was looking out into the street. ‘It is still raining,’ she remarked presently.
‘The thunder is less violent, I believe.’
‘Yes.’
Judith sat down, smoothing a crease from her dress. She said, without raising her eyes from her skirt: ‘I do not believe he cares for her.’
It was a moment before Barbara answered. She said then, in a level tone: ‘If he does, I have come by my deserts.’
There could be no gainsaying it. Judith said with a wry smile: ‘I wanted him to, you know.’
‘Don’t you still?’
‘No. These days seem to have altered everything. I did not want to receive you in my house, but your strength has supported me as I would not have believed it could. Whatever happened in the past, or whatever is to happen in the future, I can never forget the comfort your presence is to me now.’
Barbara turned her head. ‘You are generous!’ she said, a note of mockery in her voice. ‘But the other side of my character is true, too. Don’t set me up on a pedestal! I should certainly tumble down from it.’
At that moment Worth came into the room. He had changed into dry clothes, and said, in answer to Judith’s surprised exclamation, that he had come in while Mr Fisher and Miss Devenish were sitting with her. The next question was inevitable: ‘Is there any news?’
‘Yes, there is news,’ he replied. ‘It is disquieting, but I believe it may be accounted for by the Prussian defeat. The Allied Army is said to be retreating.’
Judith gazed at him in horror. Barbara said: ‘The devil it is! Confound you, I don’t believe it!’
‘It is a pity your sanguine temperament is not shared by others,’ he said dryly. ‘The whole town is in an uproar. I
am informed on credible authority that as much as a hundred napoleons have been offered for a pair of horses to go to Antwerp.’ He flicked open his snuff box and added in a languid tone: ‘My opinion of the human race has never been high, but the antics that are being performed at this moment exceed every expectation of folly with which I had previously indulged my fancy.’
‘I hope you observe that we at least are preserving our dignity!’ retorted Barbara.
‘I do, and I am grateful to you.’
‘But, Worth! A retreat!’ Judith cried.
‘Don’t disturb yourself, my love. Recollect that Wellington is a master in retreat. If the Prussians have fallen back, we must be obliged to do the same to maintain our communications with them. Until we hear that the retreat is a rout, I must—regretfully, of course—decline to join the rabble on the road to Antwerp.’
Judith could not help laughing, but said with a good deal of spirit: ‘Nothing, indeed, could be more odious. We certainly shall not talk of flight yet awhile.’
They dined at an early hour, but although both ladies were very tired from the exertions and the nervous stress they had undergone, neither could think of retiring to bed until further news had been received from the Army. They sat in the salon, trying to occupy themselves with ordinary sewing tasks, until Worth, with a glance at the clock, got up, saying that he would walk round to Stuart’s to discover if anything more had been heard. He left the room, and went downstairs to the hall. At the same moment, the ladies heard a knock on the street door, followed an instant later by the confused murmur of voices in the hall.