I've been to three Pringle parties. I set nothing down in malice, but I think all the Pringle girls are imitating my style of hair-dressing. Well, 'imitation is the sincerest flattery'. And, Gilbert, I'm really liking them, as I always knew I would if they would give me a chance. I'm even beginning to suspect that sooner or later I'll find myself liking Jen. She can be charming when she wants to be, and it is very evident she wants to be.
Last night I bearded the lion in his den; in other words, I went boldly up the front steps of the Evergreens to the square porch with the four whitewashed iron urns in its corner and rang the bell. When Miss Monkman came to the door I asked her if she would lend little Elizabeth to me for a walk. I expected a refusal, but after the Woman had gone in and conferred with Mrs Campbell she came back and said dourly that Elizabeth could go, but, please, I wasn't to keep her out late. I wonder if even Mrs Campbell has got her orders from Miss Sarah.
Elizabeth came dancing down the dark stairway, looking like a pixie in a red coat and little green cap, and almost speechless for joy.
'I feel all squirmy and excited, Miss Shirley,' she whispered as soon as we got away. 'I'm Betty. I'm always Betty when I feel like that.'
We went as far down the Road that Leads to the End of the World as we dared, and then back. Tonight the harbour, lying dark under a crimson sunset, seemed full of implications of 'fairylands forlorn' and mysterious isles in uncharted seas. I thrilled to it, and so did the mite I held by the hand.
'If we ran hard, Miss Shirley, could we get into the sunset?' she wanted to know. I remembered Paul and his fancies about the 'sunset land'.
'We must wait for Tomorrow before we can do that,' I said. 'Look, Elizabeth, at that golden island of cloud just over the harbour-mouth. Let's pretend that's your Island of Happiness.'
'There is an island down there somewhere,' said Elizabeth dreamily. 'It's name is Flying Cloud. Isn't that a lovely name - a name just out of Tomorrow? I can see it from the garret windows. It belongs to a gentleman from Boston, and he has a summer home there. But I pretend it's mine.'
At the door I stooped and kissed Elizabeth's cheek before she went in. I shall never forget her eyes. Gilbert, that child is just starved for love.
Tonight, when she came over for her milk, I saw that she had been crying.
'They - they made me wash your kiss off, Miss Shirley,' she sobbed. 'I didn't want ever to wash my face again. I vowed I wouldn't. Because, you see, I didn't want to wash your kiss off. I got away to school this morning without doing it, but tonight the Woman just took me and scrubbed it off.'
I kept a straight face. 'You couldn't go through life without washing your face occasionally, darling. But never mind about the kiss. I'll kiss you every night when you come for the milk, and then it won't matter if it is washed off the next morning.'
'You are the only person who loves me in the world,' said Elizabeth. 'When you talk to me I smell violets.'
Was anybody ever paid a prettier compliment? But I couldn't quite let the first sentence pass.
'Your grandmother loves you, Elizabeth.'
'She doesn't. She hates me.'
'You're just a wee bit foolish, darling. Your grandmother and Miss Monkman are both old people, and old people are easily disturbed and worried. Of course, you annoy them sometimes. And - of course - when they were young children were brought up much more strictly than they are now. They cling to the old way.'
But I felt I was not convincing Elizabeth. After all, they don't love her, and she knows it. She looked carefully back at the house to see if the door was shut. Then she said deliberately, 'Grandmother and the Woman are just two old tyrants, and when Tomorrow comes I'm going to escape them for ever.'
I think she expected I'd die of horror. I really suspect Elizabeth said it just to make a sensation. I merely laughed, and kissed her. I hope Martha Monkman saw it from the kitchen window.
I can see over Summerside from the left window in the tower. Just now it is a huddle of friendly white roofs - friendly at last, since the Pringles are my friends. Here and there a light is gleaming in gable and dormer. Here and there is a suggestion of grey ghost smoke. Thick stars are low over it all. It is 'a dreaming town'. Isn't that a lovely phrase? You remember: 'Galahad through dreaming towns did go'?
I feel so happy, Gilbert. I won't have to go home to Green Gables at Christmas, defeated and discredited. Life is good! Good!
So is Miss Sarah's pound cake. Rebecca Dew made one and 'sweated' it according to directions; which simply means that she wrapped it in several thicknesses of brown paper and several more towels and left it for three days. I can recommend it.
(Are there, or are there not, two c's in 'recommend'? In spite of the fact that I am a B.A. I can never be certain. Fancy if the Pringles had discovered that before I found Andy's diary!)
9
Trix Taylor was curled up in the tower one night in February, while little flurries of snow hissed against the windows and that absurdly tiny stove purred like a red-hot black cat. Trix was pouring out her woes to Anne. Anne was beginning to find herself the recipient of confidences on all sides. She was known to be engaged, so that none of the Summerside girls feared her as a possible rival, and there was something about her that made you feel it was safe to tell her secrets.
Trix had come up to ask Anne to dinner the next evening. She was a jolly, plump little creature, with twinkling brown eyes and rosy cheeks, and did not look as if life weighed too heavily on her twenty years. But it appeared that she had troubles of her own.
'Dr Lennox Carter is coming to dinner tomorrow night. That is why we want you especially. He is the new Head of the Modern Languages Department at Redmond, and dreadfully clever, so we want somebody with brains to talk to him. You know I haven't any to boast of, nor Pringle either. As for Esme - well, you know, Anne, Esme is the sweetest thing, and she's really clever, but she's so shy and timid she can't even make use of what brains she has when Dr Carter is around. She's so terribly in love with him. It's pitiful. I'm very fond of Johnny, but before I'd dissolve into such a liquid state for him...!'
'Are Esme and Dr Carter engaged?'
'Not yet' - significantly. 'But, oh, Anne, she's hoping he means to ask her this time. Would he come over to the Island to visit his cousin right in the middle of the term if he didn't intend to? I hope he will for Esme's sake, because she'll just die if he doesn't. But, between you and me and the bed-post, I'm not terribly struck on him for a brother-in-law. He's awfully fastidious, Esme says, and she's desperately afraid he won't approve of us. If he doesn't she thinks he'll never ask her to marry him. So you can't imagine how she's hoping everything will go well at the dinner tomorrow night. I don't see why it shouldn't. Mamma is the most wonderful cook, and we have a good maid, and I've bribed Pringle with half my week's allowance to behave himself. Of course, he doesn't like Dr Carter either; says he's got a swelled head. But he's fond of Esme. If only Papa won't have a sulky fit on!'
'Have you any reason to fear it?' asked Anne. Every one in Summerside knew about Cyrus Taylor's sulky fits.
'You can never tell when he'll take one,' said Trix dolefully. 'He was frightfully upset tonight because he couldn't find his new flannel nightshirt. Esme had put it in the wrong drawer. He may be over it tomorrow night, or he may not. If he's not he'll disgrace us all, and Dr Carter will conclude he can't marry into such a family. At least, that is what Esme says, and I'm afraid she may be right. I think, Anne, that Lennox Carter is very fond of Esme - thinks she would make a "very suitable wife" for him - but doesn't want to do anything rash or throw his wonderful self away. I've heard that he told his cousin a man couldn't be too careful what kind of a family he married into. He's just at the point where he might be turned either way by a trifle. And, if it comes to that, one of Papa's sulky fits isn't any trifle.'
'Doesn't he like Dr Carter?'
'Oh, he does! He thinks it would be a wonderful match for Esme. But when Father has one of his spells on nothing has any inf
luence over him while it lasts. That's the Pringle for you, Anne. Grandmother Taylor was a Pringle, you know. You just can't imagine what we've gone through as a family. He never goes into rages, you know, like Uncle George. Uncle George's family don't mind his rages. When he goes into a temper he blows off; you can hear him roaring three blocks away. And then he's like a lamb, and brings everybody a new dress for a peace-offering. But Father just sulks and glowers, and won't say a word to anybody at mealtimes. Esme says that, after all, that's better than Cousin Richard Taylor, who is always saying sarcastic things at the table and insulting his wife; but it seems to me nothing could be worse than those awful silences of Papa's. They rattle us, and we're terrified to open our mouths. It wouldn't be so bad, of course, if it was only when we are alone. But it's just as apt to be when we have company. Esme and I are simply tired of trying to explain away Papa's insulting silences. She's just sick with fear that he won't have got over the nightshirt before tomorrow night - and what will Lennox think? And she wants you to wear your blue dress. Her new dress is blue, because Lennox likes blue. But Papa hates it. Yours may reconcile him to hers.'
'Wouldn't it be better for her to wear something else?'
'She hasn't anything else fit to wear at a company dinner except the green poplin Father gave her at Christmas. It's a lovely dress in itself - Father likes us to have pretty dresses - but you can't think of anything so awful as Esme in green. Pringle says it makes her look as if she was in the last stages of consumption. And Lennox Carter's cousin told Esme he would never marry a delicate person. I'm more than glad Johnny isn't so fastidious.'
'Have you told your father about your engagement to Johnny yet?' asked Anne, who knew all about Trix's love-affair.
'No,' poor Trix groaned. 'I can't summon up the courage, Anne. I know he'll make a frightful scene. Papa has always been so down on Johnny, because he's poor. Papa forgets that he was poorer than Johnny when he started out in the hardware business. Of course, he'll have to be told soon, but I want to wait until Esme's affair is settled. I know Papa won't speak to any of us for weeks after I tell him, and Mamma will worry so; she can't bear Father's sulky fits. We're all such cowards before Papa. Of course, Mamma and Esme are naturally timid with everyone, but Pringle and I have lots of ginger. It's only Papa who can cow us. Sometimes I think if we had anyone to back us up - But we haven't, and we just feel paralysed. You can't imagine, Anne darling, what a company dinner is like at our place when Papa is sulking. But if he only behaves tomorrow night I'll forgive him for everything. He can be very agreeable when he wants to be. Papa is really just like Longfellow's little girl: when he's good he's very very good, and when he's bad he's horrid. I've seen him the life of the party.'
'He was very nice the night I had dinner with you last month.'
'Oh, he likes you, as I've said. That's one of the reasons why we want you so much. It may have a good influence on him. We're not neglecting anything that may please him. But when he has a really bad fit of sulks on he seems to hate everything and everybody. Anyhow, we've got a bang-up dinner planned, with an elegant orange custard dessert. Mamma wanted pie, because she says every man in the world but Papa likes pie for dessert better than anything else - even Professors of Modern Languages. But Papa doesn't, so it would never do to take a chance on it tomorrow night, when so much depends on it. Orange custard is Papa's favourite dessert. As for poor Johnny and me, I suppose I'll just have to elope with him some day, and Papa will never forgive me.'
'I believe if you'd just get up enough spunk to tell him and endure his resulting sulks you'd find he'd come round to it beautifully, and you'd be saved months of anguish.'
'You don't know Papa,' said Trix darkly.
'Perhaps I know him better than you do. You've lost your perspective.'
'Lost my what? Anne darling, remember I'm not a B.A. I only went through the High. I'd have loved to go to college, but Papa doesn't believe in the higher education of women.'
'I only meant that you're too close to him to understand him. A stranger could very well see him more clearly, understand him better.'
'I understand that nothing can induce Papa to speak if he has made up his mind not to; nothing. He prides himself on that.'
'Then why don't the rest of you just go on and talk as if nothing was the matter?'
'We can't. I've told you he paralyses us. You'll find it out for yourself tomorrow night if he hasn't got over the nightshirt. I don't know how he does it, but he does. I don't believe we'd mind so much how cranky he was if he would only talk. It's the silence that shatters us. I'll never forgive Papa if he acts up tomorrow night, when so much is at stake.'
'Let's hope for the best, dear.'
'I'm trying to. And I know it will help to have you there. Mamma thought we ought to have Katherine Brooke too, but I knew it wouldn't have a good effect on Papa. He hates her. I don't blame him for that, I must say. I haven't any use for her myself. I don't see how you can be as nice to her as you are.'
'I'm sorry for her, Trix.'
'Sorry for her! But it's all her own fault she isn't liked. Oh, well, it takes all kinds of people to make a world. But Summerside could spare Katherine Brooke - glum old cat!'
'She's an excellent teacher, Trix.'
'Oh, do I know it? I was in her class. She did hammer things into my head - and flayed the flesh off my bones with sarcasm as well. And the way she dresses! Papa can't bear to see a woman badly dressed. He says he has no use for dowds, and he's sure God hasn't either. Mamma would be horrified if she knew I told you that, Anne. She excused it in Papa because he is a man. If that was all we had to excuse in him! And poor Johnny hardly daring to come to the house now, because Papa is so rude to him. I slip out on fine nights and we walk round and round the square, and get half frozen...'
Anne drew what was something like a breath of relief when Trix had gone, and slipped down to coax a snack out of Rebecca Dew.
'Going to the Taylors' for dinner, are you? Well, I hope old Cyrus will be decent. If his family weren't all so afraid of him in his sulky fits he wouldn't indulge in them so often, of that I feel certain. I tell you, Miss Shirley, he enjoys his sulks. And now I suppose I must warm That Cat's milk. Pampered animal!'
10
When Anne arrived at the Cyrus Taylor house the next evening she felt the chill in the atmosphere as soon as she entered the door. A trim maid showed her to the guest-room, but as Anne went up the stairs she caught sight of Mrs Cyrus Taylor scuttling from the dining-room to the kitchen, and Mrs Cyrus was wiping tears away from her pale, careworn, but still rather sweet face. It was all too clear that Cyrus had not yet 'got over' the nightshirt.
This was confirmed by a distressed Trix creeping into the room and whispering nervously:
'Oh, Anne, he's in a dreadful humour! He seemed pretty amiable this morning, and our hopes rose. But Hugh Pringle beat him at a game of checkers this afternoon, and Papa can't bear to lose a checker game. And it had to happen today, of course. He found Esme 'admiring herself in the mirror', as he put it, and just walked her out of her room and locked the door. The poor darling was only wondering if she looked nice enough to please Lennox Carter, Ph.D. She hadn't even a chance to put her pearl string on. And look at me! I didn't dare curl my hair - Papa doesn't like curls that are not natural - and I look like a fright. Not that it matters about me; only it just shows you. Papa threw out the flowers Mamma put on the dining-room table, and she feels it so; she took such trouble with them. And he wouldn't let her put on her garnet earrings. He hasn't had such a bad spell since he came home from the West last spring and found Mamma had put red curtains in the sitting-room when he preferred mulberry. Oh, Anne, do talk as hard as you can at dinner if he won't. If you don't it will be too dreadful.'
'I'll do my best,' promised Anne, who certainly had never found herself at a loss for something to say. But then never had she found herself in such a situation as presently confronted her.
They were all gathered round the table, a ver
y pretty and well-appointed table in spite of the missing flowers. Timid Mrs Cyrus, in a grey silk dress, had a face that was greyer than her dress. Esme, the beauty of the family, a very pale beauty - pale gold hair, pale pink lips, pale forget-me-not eyes - was so much paler than usual that she looked as if she was going to faint. Pringle, ordinarily a fat, cheerful urchin of fourteen, with round eyes and glasses, and hair so fair that it appeared almost white, looked like a tied dog, and Trix had the air of a terrified schoolgirl.
Dr Carter, who was undeniably handsome and distinguished-looking, with crisp, dark hair, brilliant dark eyes, and silver-rimmed glasses, but whom Anne, in the days of his Assistant Professorship at Redmond, had thought a rather pompous young bore, looked ill at ease. Evidently he felt that something was wrong somewhere - a reasonable conclusion when your host simply stalks to the head of the table and drops into his chair without a word to you or anybody.
Cyrus would not say grace. Mrs Cyrus, blushing beet-red, murmured almost inaudibly, 'For what we are about to receive the Lord make us truly thankful.' The meal started badly, for nervous Esme dropped her fork on the floor. Everybody except Cyrus jumped, because their nerves were likewise keyed up to the highest pitch. Cyrus glared at Esme out of his bulging blue eyes in a kind of enraged stillness. Then he glared at everybody and froze them into dumbness. He glared at poor Mrs Cyrus when she took a helping of horseradish sauce with a glare that reminded her of her weak stomach. She couldn't eat any of it after that, and she was so fond of it. She couldn't believe it would hurt her. But, for that matter, she couldn't eat anything, nor could Esme. They only pretended. The meal proceeded in a ghastly silence, broken by spasmodic speeches about the weather from Trix and Anne. Trix implored Anne with her eyes to talk, but Anne found herself for once in her life with absolutely nothing to say. She felt desperately that she must talk, but only the most idiotic things came into her head, things that it would be impossible to utter aloud. Was everyone bewitched? It was curious the effect one sulky, stubborn man had on you. Anne couldn't have believed it possible. And there was no doubt that he was really quite happy in the knowledge that he had made everybody at his table horribly uncomfortable. What on earth was going on in his mind? Would he jump if anyone stuck a pin in him? Anne wanted to slap him, rap his knuckles, stand him in a corner - treat him like the spoiled child he really was, in spite of his spiky grey hair and truculent moustaches.