Such a horrible sin
Am I guilty of?
Had I killed 2 much?
That I lost touch…
Of my hu-manity
Abandoned by sanity
Returned 2 this crazy world
Tossed from another
I have lost my brother
Fingertips trying to hold on to my mother
Plagued by nightmare
And I can’t seem 2 care
My soul I bare
But They tear and tear
Death seems so near
My life done dis-appeared
But do I care?
Support Our Troops
Torn pages
My heart rages
It amazes…
Me how…
This world’s so hypocritical
Watch you climb up
Then kick you down…
But I refuse to just rot in the ground
Cremate me
Burn me in the flames that you gave me
How can I sanely ask the Lord to save me?
In a world so crazy
They’ll probably kill Him if He came
Do Souljahz die in vain?
Amount to nothing but dusty stickers
And forgotten names
But ain’t nothin’ changed
Countless others going through the same
But who’s to blame?
What dwells in the blood of the slain?
It’s still on my brain
4ever stained
From a war in vain
U Can’t even fathom my pain
The introduction
But can you feel without touchin’?
Like a baby born grown
So much unknown
I stepped away from my world 4 a moment
But now I’m back
Unsure if I want it
Sometimes haunted by passed memories
Sit sipping’ on a brew like it’s Hennessey
I just don’t remember me
So many things are empty
Shocked from the shell!
Did I die?
Is this Hell?
Or is it resurrection
So many questions
No more rifles
And no more vests man…
Just the Cess in my chest man…
Stress suppressed in this mess man
As I stand in burning quick sand
So Damn
Like I’m kin 2 Satan
So many curses I can’t hear my bless-ingz
The Rules
I give you half
You give me double
Don’t pay
There’s trouble
Let knuckles touch you
Or get dug through
With a rusty nail
Follow the rules
You don’t fail
Don’t lust
Don’t touch
And never pick up
What’s not-your-stuff
Keep your thoughts 2 yourself
Trust-no-one-else
Wolves with tucked tails
Don’t let them bluff you
Trick, steal and f#$k you
Get your own Hustle
Feed you own needs
Sweets to eat
Nicotine or weed
Plant the seed with what you feed
Read Read Read
Don’t be weak
Watch the words you say
Especially to whom you speak
Cracks will leak
Sweat
I wake up and my body’s wet
Is it the stress?
Or just that my body sweats
To lessen my body’s temps
I cannot recollect what last night I dreamt
But I still feel by what it’s meant
Arise already spent
My eyes are full of lint
Mouth dry
And my body’s covered
Smothered
I can’t breathe (I fear to take another)
Drowning as my pores bleed
Can’t wipe it from off me
Buried ever so softly
Under the depths of this wetness
Stressed and restless
In this cage
I am baked
The flies invade
Barely awake
Is this the end of my days?
Lord knows it feels close
Vision blurred
I see ghosts
Through these bars
Within these walls
In every bead that falls
From my flesh
My brow
My chest
They crowd my nest
Pain escapes their chests
Crowds out my breaths
Now less
My fouled guests without rest
No longer in the flesh
Mine they possess
I rise in this Sweat
Beggars and Leaches
Beggars and leaches
Suck you dry
Leave you in broken pieces
So very hard to believe it
He came running
Comical, calm and cunning
Or sad and sick with nose running
Wanting to borrow something
Tears coming
On your coat tails tuggin’
It’s hard to say “fuch him”
So you reach in your pocket
Just to stop it-all that teardrop isht
But he’s relentless
Now comes the “best friend “mess
A steady rising debt that he won’t address-got you stressed
Licks his lips wet when he steps in your direc’
Boi! I’m hungry!!!
You always wantin’ somethin’ from me!!!
I wasn’t talkin’ to you!!!
That’s awfully rude
People do what they’re allowed to
Slowly they crowd around you
Like Hounds do
They come with hands out
Your kindness makes you stand out
Everybody else got their hands @ their Damn mouths
While you giving hand-outs
Mad when the water in your well done ran out
Your throat is parched and dry
But don’t be surprised
Drink the tears you cry
As they pass on by
No reply to your askin “Why?”
You feel defeated
Sodomized and cheated
How could you not have seen it?
They kept taking pieces
Beggars and Leaches
Endless Pearls Holding On
Endless Pearls
My Imagination is vacant
Call it lack of concentration
Drownin’ in patience
My pen is waitin’
To be taken
Weary of my hesitation
But I lack the motivation
Can’t crack the separation
Between desire and action
Like climbin’ a mountain without traction
I’m back in…
The very same position
Condition
Only date and time is different
The clock doesn’t stop
Some call it Writer’s Block
Before me is a wall
As wide as the horizon
And twice as tall
I take a leap of Faith
And still I fall
Smooth as a marble ball
And just as white
It glows silvery bright
And then one night,
With my eyes shut tight
I felt a slight shiver (Divinely delivered)
Quickly I ran to my Mind’s Rivers
Dropped in 2 sets of 5 fingers
For so long….
I lingered
From my
fingertip
Not a single drop dripped
On my return trip
I caught a glimpse
Of what I didn’t see at first
What I thought a curse
Quenched my thirst as I wrote these words on Endless Pearls
Holdin’ On
Sometimes I hold myself
When I can’t reach no one else
Wrap my arms around my flesh
Possess
All that I own
Born alone
Die alone
Although it sounds wrong
That’s how it belongs
I tell myself “be strong”
“I am here for you to lean on
When everyone will be gone
Both Then and Be-yond”
I make me warm
In this frigid
Life I live it
I am who I have to live with
‘til I let go my breath
Where go I next?
So I hold my-self
Into the depths
Hands cross my chest
A vest of flesh
I’ll sacrifice myself
For myself
‘cause no one stands to my left
Do you see what I have said?
Or it I alone that’s listenin’?
Speakin’ into the mist again
Leaning against the wind
When it is within which I should depend
Or have I gone off the deep end?
Because me, myself I befriend
All the rest…
I do not see them
Especially when they have no fee-lin’z
How then can I feel them?
Some- one-tell
Until then….
I Hold Myself
Dedicated to My Beloved Mother, Brothers and Sisters
Struggle
Faith
VICTORY
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