I would do it, but first, more than anything, I wanted to show her something else I was a natural at doing.
“Get in that bedroom,” I said. “Now.”
Raine’s eyes darkened as she swept her tongue across her lips. She turned quickly to comply. I followed, closing the door behind us.
I grabbed her waist before she could even reach the bed, turned her around and covered her mouth with mine. I was hungry for her, the weeks of not having her body pressed to mine overwhelming me with sudden intensity. I needed her more than I ever had before.
Raine broke away, trying to catch her breath as I moved my lips down her neck. I grabbed at the bottom of her shirt and yanked it up over her head and down her arms. Reaching for her lace-covered breasts, I found her shoulder with my mouth and sucked at the skin there as she wrapped her arms around my head.
“I missed you so much,” she said.
“I’m going to make up for that right now,” I promised. I tore off my shirt and released my cock from my pants. Raine pushed them down my legs, and I kicked both the pants and my boxers out of the way.
Grabbing the waist of Raine’s jeans, I pulled them off and tossed them on the bed. Her panties and bra followed quickly, and I pulled her against me again, my cock pressing hard against her bare stomach.
Lifting her in my arms, I pressed her up against the wall. She circled my waist with her legs, gasping as I slammed into her with a grunt. I looked into her eyes as I pulled back and thrust forward again.
“You feel so fucking good,” I said. “You ready to take this?”
“Yes!” Raine cried out and then lowered her voice as she glanced toward the door. “Please, Bastian!”
“Beg me,” I whispered against her ear. I sucked the lobe into my mouth. “I wanna hear you beg for my cock.”
I pulled out nearly all the way, just leaving the tip inside of her. I moved back and forth with shallow thrusts from my hips, teasing her.
“Ugh, Bastian! Please…please…more. I need more!”
I pulled back again, then slowly buried myself inside of her, pinning her body to the wall with my own.
“You want me to move?”
“Yes!”
“You want it fast and hard?”
“Please!”
I wrapped one arm around her ass as I placed the other against the wall. I didn’t bother building up, just pulled back and slammed inside of her again as she tried to keep her cries low. I tightened the muscles in my arm with every movement, bringing her ass up to meet my blows. I could feel every tendon flex in time with the pounding of my cock.
Our lips meshed together, and our tongues found each other inside her mouth. I scraped her lips with my teeth, growling and pressing my hips hard against her body as she held on to me as tightly as she could. She flexed her legs with each thrust, bringing me deeper into her.
“So fucking good,” I groaned. “Jesus, Raine…so good…”
“More, Bastian…please…”
I could have sworn my dick hardened more at her words.
Stepping back from the wall, my cock slipped out of her as I turned us around and threw her face down on the bed. Raine scrambled to her hands and knees as I crawled in behind her, tapped her legs apart with my knees, and drove into her again.
Pulling back, I grasped her hips in my hands and shoved into her as hard as I could, making her jump and cry out. She pressed her forehead against the mattress and tried to stifle herself as I moved in and out, twisting and shifting my hips to change the angle and pressure. I wanted her to be sore in the morning. I wanted her to remember every fucking second of my cock being inside of her.
For all I knew, this would be our last time together.
I flipped her over on her back and entered her again. Reaching for her wrists, I held them both in one hand over her head as the other hand caressed the skin up and down her side. I gripped one breast, then the other, never stopping the strokes inside her body as she lay below me, gazing up with hooded eyes.
As we moved, I could see in her eyes everything she had been through since we were last together: her kidnapping and imprisonment in this little shed of an apartment; her forced motherhood; the willpower she maintained to embrace it all for my sake. Everything she had, she offered to me with her eyes.
As her strength flowed into me, she made me feel more powerful than I ever had before.
Through her, I could endure anything thrown at me. I’d do it for her gladly because she was counting on me to do so. She needed me now more than ever.
I intended to deliver. I would never leave her side again once this was through. I’d be there for her forever and always. She’d get a real house and a degree in whatever field she wanted. I’d stop being such a moody asshole and be the kind of man she deserved to have at her side. I’d fucking ask her to marry me if that’s what she wanted.
When all this was over, I was going to give her the fucking world.
Raine arched her back and bit into her lower lip. She moaned in her throat as she tried to keep herself from crying out. I felt her body shudder under me and picked up the pace. Squeezing my eyes shut, I leaned into her and pounded furiously until the buildup was too much to hold back, and I exploded inside of her.
Raine’s legs fell from my hips, and I slowed and finally stopped, exhaustion coming over me. I dropped my head to Raine’s shoulder for a moment before pulling out and rolling to my back beside her, panting. She rolled with me and raised herself up on her arm before she leaned over and placed her lips to mine.
Closing my eyes, I relaxed against the pillow and let her kiss me softly and gently, over and over again. I ran my hand up and down her back, soothing both of us.
“Dad? Raine?” The door to the bedroom opened slightly, and Alex’s tousled head peered in.
Raine moved faster than I think I had ever seen as she rolled off of me and grabbed for the sheet. She pulled it up to her chin, glanced at me with widened eyes, and then back at Alex in the doorway.
“What is it?” she asked him.
“I can’t sleep,” Alex said. “I heard a funny sound.”
I had to bite my cheek to keep from laughing out loud.
“I’m sure it’s nothing,” Raine said. “You know the wind outside can make things sound funny.”
“Nothing, was it?” I snickered under my breath.
Raine elbowed me in the ribs.
“I don’t think it was the wind,” Alex said. “Can I sleep in here? I’m scared.”
Raine looked to me again, and I shrugged. Whatever the protocol was for having a kid catch you in bed was beyond me. I grinned at Raine as she bit down on her lip, trying to think of something. Finally, she did.
“Alex,” Raine said as she peered out from under the sheet, “did you remember to floss your teeth before you went to bed?”
“Um…no.”
“You go do that, and then you can come in here.”
“Awww!” Alex stomped off down the hall toward the bathroom.
“Get your shorts on!” Raine said quickly as she started scrambling around the floor, trying to find her clothes.
I tried to hold in a laugh as I retrieved my boxers and pulled them up my legs. Raine barely managed to get her clothes back on before we could hear small footsteps coming back down the hallway.
Alex crawled into the bed next to Raine but wasn’t content to stay on that side. Instead, he clambered over her and wedged himself between us before pulling the blankets up to his chin. He looked up at me and grinned before shifting his shoulders back and forth to make more room for himself, shoving me a little farther toward the edge of the bed.
He rolled to one side, facing me, and closed his eyes. He was sound asleep a moment later.
I tentatively reached over his body and placed my hand on Raine’s hip. I couldn’t bind her to myself like I usually did at night with Alex between us, but the sense of contentment I felt inside of myself told me it didn’t matter. I had both of them with me, secur
e and protected.
Raine reached over and placed her hand on top of my forearm, right above where Alex slept.
“You okay?” she asked quietly.
I looked from her to Alex and back to her again. Blinking a few times, that warm feeling came over me again.
“Yeah,” I said. “Better than okay, actually.”
Raine smiled, settled herself, and soon joined Alex in slumber.
I watched them both for a few minutes as I tried to work out what was going on in my head. I didn’t have any words for it, so I gave up, closed my eyes, and had the best night’s sleep of my life.
I rose early the next day and went over the travel plans Landon had left with me. In a couple of hours, we’d head to the Thompson Airport. A plane would take us over to a small airport on the edge of Hudson Bay. From there, we would head up to a remote airfield located somewhere in the Northwestern Passage. It was an area so inhospitable that it didn’t allow for any road traffic, only aircraft. The last leg of the trip would carry us to Resolute Bay by prop plane. The tournament would take place just south of the airfield there.
I was more concerned with spending as much time as possible with Raine and Alex before I left for the games than with our travel plans. However, they both seemed content to sleep in, and I couldn’t bring myself to wake them.
I drank black coffee as I sat at the small kitchen table and realized I didn’t even want a cigarette. That made me smile. I sipped up the last of the coffee, started another pot brewing, and began to make breakfast.
The smell woke Raine, and she shuffled down the hall, rubbing her eyes and yawning. Her hair was bunched up all over the place, and she tried to tame it with her fingers, but it wasn’t working well.
“Morning,” she mumbled.
“Morning,” I replied with a smile. “You’re beautiful.”
“Ha,” she said.
“You are.”
“If you say so.”
“I do.”
She poured herself some coffee and sat at the table to watch me flip omelets.
“Find some acceptable food?” she asked.
“Reasonably,” I said. “There isn’t much to put in the omelets except for these orange squares claiming to be cheese, but it shouldn’t be too bad. I used more whites than yolks.”
“How did you sleep?” Raine asked.
“Pretty good,” I said. I looked back over my shoulder at her. “Really good, actually.”
Raine returned the smile over the rim of her coffee mug.
A blurry-eyed Alex wandered into the kitchen and plopped down on one of the chairs. At first, he seemed a little startled at my presence but smiled a bit when I put a plate full of bacon and a cheese omelet in front of him.
“Can I have toast?” he asked.
I rolled my eyes at the only bread in the kitchen but toasted it for him anyway. He proceeded to use it to make a giant sandwich out of the eggs and bacon.
“He likes sandwiches,” Raine said with a shrug.
“Apparently.”
Raine took her plate and sat down next to him, and I sat on the opposite side. My food went a little cold as I watched him eat, seeing small traits within myself with nearly every movement he made.
It was surreal.
When he completed his breakfast and headed to the carpeted area of the living room to play with his Legos, I continued to observe him, both stunned and pleased to recognize myself in his mannerisms. I could have watched him all day, but before Raine was even done clearing away the dishes from breakfast, we were interrupted.
There was a short knock at the door, and it opened a moment later. Raine looked up, and her face darkened. I didn’t have to check—I knew it was Landon, and Raine and I both knew what that meant.
It was time for me to go.
“Hey, buddy,” I called over to Alex. “Come here a sec.”
He sighed, put down his Legos, and thumped over in his stocking feet. When he got close enough, I put my hands on his shoulders and peered into his eyes.
“I need you to do something for me, kid,” I said seriously.
“What?” he asked.
“I have to leave for a while. That means I need you to help take care of Raine while I’m gone.”
“Take care of her?” Alex asked through narrowed eyes. “I’m six!”
“Yeah, you’ve still got a bit of growing to do,” I replied with a half-smile, “but you’re the man of the house around here while I’m gone. You take care of Raine by doing what she tells you to do. You also need to watch her really closely.”
“Why?”
“Because sometimes she needs a hug, and I won’t be here to give her one. I need you to do it for me.”
Alex pondered a moment.
“Do I have to kiss her?”
I snickered and rubbed the top of his head with my hand.
“No, no kissing required.”
“Good, ‘cause kissing is gross.”
“Yeah, we’ll see how you feel about that when you’re older.”
“Gross,” he repeated.
I laughed. Alex’s eyes suddenly lit up, and he ran to his room. When he came back, he held out the drawing he’d been working on the day before.
“This is for you.”
I took the paper in my hand. He had added Raine to the picture, her figure to the side of mine. Her hair was drawn all the way to her waist, and the brown dots for her eyes stared out at me.
“You should take it with you,” Alex said. “That way, you’ll remember what we look like until you come back.”
I had to swallow pretty hard to find my voice.
“Thanks,” I said. “Yeah, it’ll be nice to have with me.”
I folded the paper carefully and tucked it into the pocket of my jacket before I reached over and gave Alex a quick hug. He squirmed a little, and then he ran back to his toys. Raine had stood off to the side, watching our exchange with a bemused look, but now that Alex was occupied again, her expression changed.
“You’re going now?” She already knew the answer to her question, but I nodded anyway.
“I’ll be back before you know it.”
She nodded as she brought her hands up around herself and held onto her arms. She looked over to Alex and sniffed.
Glancing at Landon, I saw him tap his watch twice as he turned and exited through the open door, giving us a moment of privacy. I stood and crossed the kitchen and took Raine’s face in my hands. Bending down, I placed my lips against hers, kissing her slowly. When we parted, I could see the beginning of tears rimming her eyelids.
“Before you know it,” I whispered as I stared into her eyes.
“Please be careful,” she said.
“Always,” I said. “I’ll be fine.”
She nodded her head and gave me another squeeze. I kissed the top of her head, then took her chin in my hand and placed another firm kiss on her lips.
“I love you,” I told her.
“Love you, too.” Raine’s eyes moistened as she looked up at me, bit down on her lip, and ran her hands down my arms. She grasped my fingers with hers for a moment before stepping back.
I took a long breath, committed her face to memory, and turned to go out the door. Landon was waiting outside for me along with Roger, Franks, and two of his bodyguards.
“Let’s go,” I said, and Landon tilted his head in acknowledgement as Roger pulled the key to the padlock out of his pocket to lock my family securely inside until all of this was over.
Before the door managed to close, Raine shoved her way past Roger and grabbed my arm. She pulled me to her and wrapped both arms around my neck. Her grip on me tightened so much, my air supply was limited.
“Don’t go,” she said, her voice breaking. “Don’t do it, Bastian—please. Just don’t…don’t…”
“Oh, baby.” I held her shoulders. “I have to. You know I have to.”
“No, you don’t!” she said, her voice rising. “You don’t have to do this! Stay her
e! Please!”
“Fuck, Raine…” I could feel her tears against my skin as she begged and sobbed. It couldn’t have hurt any more than if she shoved her fist through my ribcage and ripped my heart straight out of my body.
“You might die,” she cried. “Oh God, Bastian, please, please just stay here!”
I held her as tightly as I could and tried to come up with anything to say to calm her, but nothing was working.
“Sebastian,” Landon said from behind me. His hand tapped my upper arm as he spoke my name.
“I know,” I said. I shrugged his hand off of me and grabbed Raine’s shoulders, holding her back a bit so I could look into her face. I brushed tears from her cheek and touched my forehead to hers. “I have to go.”
“No,” Raine said, shaking her head rapidly. “We can just leave…go far away…please!”
“You know I can’t do that, baby. You just have to hold on a little longer. This will all be over soon, and then we’ll go. We’ll find the perfect place for all of us to live together, and everything will be normal again. I promise, Raine. Everything is going to work out.”
“You don’t know that.” Fresh tears spilled down her face as her head shook slowly back and forth. “You might get hurt; you might…you might…”
“Shh…” I brought her against my chest once more, which was probably a mistake. She’d latched onto me so tightly I wasn’t sure how I was going to get her back inside so I could leave. Talking sense into her wasn’t working. “You have to let go, baby. I have to leave.”
“No!” She wouldn’t let go, and though it nearly killed me, I pushed her arms away from mine as Roger grabbed onto her and kept her from grabbing me again. I stared into his eyes for a second, silently warning him to be gentle with her. I could tell by his expression that he understood my meaning—he’d pay for a single bruise.
I looked back at Raine. I knew she was trying to get herself together, but it just wasn’t working.
“I love you, babe,” I told her. “I’m going to be back soon.”
“No! No, Bastian!”
I closed my eyes as I turned around and followed Landon. Raine’s cries tore into me with every step.