On his way home from the studio, alone in the limousine, watching TV, Chance saw the host with his next guest, a voluptuous actress clad in an almost transparent gown. He heard his name mentioned by both the host and his guest; the actress smiled often and said that she found Chance good-looking and very masculine.
At Rand’s house, one of the servants rushed out to open the door for him.
“That was a very fine speech you made, Mr. Gardiner.” He trailed Chance to the elevator.
Another servant opened the elevator door. “Thank you, Mr. Gardiner,” he said. “Just ‘thank you’ from a simple man who has seen a lot.”
In the elevator Chance gazed at the small portable TV set built into a side panel. THIS EVENING was still going strong. The host was now talking to another guest, a heavily bearded singer, and Chance once again heard his name mentioned.
Upstairs, Chance was met by Rand’s secretary: “That was a truly remarkable performance, sir,” the woman said. “I have never seen anyone more at ease, or truer to himself. Thank goodness, we still have people like you in this country. Oh, and by the way, Mr. Rand saw you on television and though he’s not feeling too well he insisted that when you got back you pay him a visit.”
Chance entered Rand’s bedroom. “Chauncey,” said Rand, struggling to prop himself up in his enormous bed. “Let me congratulate you most warmly! Your speech was so good, so good. I hope the whole country watched you.” He smoothed his blanket. “You have the great gift … of being natural, and that, my dear man, is a rare talent, and the true mark of a leader. You were strong and brave, yet you did not moralize. Everything you said was directly to the point.”
The two men regarded each other silently.
“Chauncey, my dear friend,” Rand went on, in a serious and almost reverential manner. “You will be interested in the fact that EE is chairman of the Hospitality Committee of the United Nations. It is only right that she should be present at the U.N. reception tomorrow. Since I won’t be able to escort her, I would like you to do so for me. Your speech will be uppermost in many people’s minds, and many, I know, would like very much to meet you. You will escort her, won’t you?”
“Yes. Of course I’ll be glad to accompany EE.”
For a moment, Rand’s face seemed blurred, as if it were frozen inwardly. He moistened his lips; his eyes aimlessly scanned the room. Then he focused them on Chance. “Thank you, Chauncey. And … by the way,” he said quietly, “if anything should happen to me, please do take care of her. She needs someone like you … very much.”
They shook hands and said good-bye. Chance went to his room.
On the plane back to New York from Denver, EE thought more and more about Gardiner. She tried to discover a unifying thread in the events of the last two days. She remembered that when she first saw him after the accident, he did not seem surprised; his face was without expression, his manner calm and detached. He behaved as if he had expected the accident, the pain, and even her appearance.
Two days had passed, but she did not know who he was and where he had come from. He steadily avoided any talk about himself. The day before, while the servants were eating in the kitchen and Chance was asleep, she had carefully gone through all of his belongings, but there were no documents among them, no checks, no money, no credit cards; she was not able to find even the stray stub of a theater ticket. It puzzled her that he traveled this way. Presumably, his personal affairs were attended to by a business or a bank which remained at his instant disposal. For he was obviously well-to-do. His suits were handtailored from an exquisite cloth, his shirts handmade from the most delicate silks and his shoes handmade from the softest leather. His suitcase was almost new, though its shape and lock were of an old-fashioned design.
On several occasions she had attempted to question him about his past. He had resorted to one or another of his favorite comparisons drawn on television or taken from nature; she guessed that he was troubled by a business loss, or even a bankruptcy—so common nowadays—or perhaps by the loss of a woman’s love. Perhaps he had decided to leave the woman on the spur of the moment and was still wondering if he should return. Somewhere in this country there was the community where he had lived, a place which contained his home, his business, and his past.
He had not dropped names; nor had he referred to places or events. Indeed, she could not remember encountering anyone who relied more on his own self. Gardiner’s manner alone indicated social confidence and financial security.
She could not define the feelings that he kindled in her. She was aware that her pulse raced when she was near him, aware of his image in her thoughts and of the difficulty she had in speaking to him in cool, even tones. She wanted to know him, and she wanted to yield to that knowledge. There were innumerable selves that he evoked in her. Yet she was not able to discover a single motive in any of his actions, and for a brief instant she feared him. From the beginning, she noticed the meticulous care he took to insure that nothing he said to her or to anyone else was definite enough to reveal what he thought of her or of anyone or, indeed, of anything.
But unlike the other men with whom she was intimate, Gardiner neither restrained nor repulsed her. The thought of seducing him, of making him lose his composure, excited her. The more withdrawn he was, the more she wanted him to look at her and to acknowledge her desire, to recognize her as a willing mistress. She saw herself making love to him—abandoned, wanton, without reticence or reserve.
She arrived home late that evening and called Chance, asking him whether she could come to his room. He agreed.
She looked tired. “I am so sorry I had to be away. I missed your television appearance—and I missed you,” she murmured in a timid voice.
She sat down on the edge of the bed; Chance moved back to give her more room.
She brushed her hair from her forehead, and, looking at him quietly, put her hand on his arm. “Please don’t … run away from me! Don’t!” She sat motionless, her head resting against Chance’s shoulder.
Chance was bewildered: there was clearly no place to which he could run away. He searched his memory and recalled situations on TV in which a woman advanced toward a man on a couch or a bed or inside a car. Usually, after a while, they would come very close to each other, and, often they would be partly undressed. They would then kiss and embrace. But on TV what happened next was always obscured: a brandnew image would appear on the screen: the embrace of man and woman was utterly forgotten. And yet, Chance knew, there could be other gestures and other kinds of closeness following such intimacies. Chance had just a fleeting memory of a maintenance man who, years ago, used to come to the Old Man’s house to take care of the incinerator. On several occasions, after he was through with the work, he would come out into the garden and drink beer. Once he showed Chance a number of small photographs of a man and woman who were completely naked. In one of these photographs, a woman held the man’s unnaturally long and thickened organ in her hand. In another, the organ was lost between her legs.
As the maintenance man talked about the photographs and what they portrayed, Chance scrutinized them closely. The images on paper were vaguely disturbing; on television he had never seen the unnaturally enlarged hidden parts of men and women, or these freakish embraces. When the maintenance man left, Chance stooped down to look over his own body. His organ was small and limp; it did not protrude in the slightest. The maintenance man insisted that in this organ hidden seeds grew, and that they came forth in a spurt whenever a man took his pleasure. Though Chance prodded and massaged his organ, he felt nothing; even in the early morning, when he woke up and often found it somewhat enlarged, his organ refused to stiffen out: it gave him no pleasure at all.
Later, Chance tried hard to figure out what connection there was—if any—between a woman’s private parts and the birth of a child. In some of the TV series about doctors and hospitals and operations, Chance had often seen the mystery of birth depicted: the pain and agony of the mother, the joy of t
he father, the pink, wet body of the newborn infant. But he had never watched any show which explained why some women had babies and others did not. Once or twice Chance was tempted to ask Louise about it, but he decided against it. Instead, he watched TV, for a while, with closer attention. Eventually, he forgot about it.
EE had begun to smooth his shirt. Her hand was warm; now it touched his chin. Chance did not move. “I am sure …” EE whispered, “you must … you do know that I want us, want you and me to become very close….” Suddenly, she began to cry quietly, like a child. Sobbing and blowing her nose, she took out her handkerchief and patted her eyes; but still she kept on crying.
Chance assumed that he was in some way responsible for her sorrow, but he did not know how. He put his arms around EE. She, as if expecting his touch, leaned heavily against him, and they tumbled over together on the bed. EE bent over his chest, her hair brushing his face. She kissed his neck and forehead; she kissed his eyes and his ears. Her tears wet his skin, and Chance smelled her perfume, all the while thinking of what he should do next. Now EE’s hand touched his waist, and Chance felt the hand exploring his thighs. After a while, the hand withdrew. EE was not crying any longer; she lay quietly next to him, still and peaceful.
“I am grateful to you, Chauncey,” she said. “You are a man of restraint. You know that with one touch of your hand, just one touch, I would open to you. But you do not wish to exploit another,” she reflected. “In some ways you are not really American. You are more of a European man, do you know that?” She smiled. “What I mean is that, unlike men I have known, you do not practice all of those American lovers’-lane tricks, all of that fingering, kissing, tickling, stroking, hugging: that coy meandering toward the target, which is both feared and desired.” She paused. “Do you know that you’re very brainy, very cerebral, really, Chauncey, that you want to conquer the woman from within her very own self, that you want to infuse in her the need and the desire and the longing for your love?”
Chance was confused when she said that he wasn’t really American. Why should she say that? On TV, he had often seen the dirty, hairy, noisy men and women who openly declared themselves anti-American, or were declared so by police, well-dressed officials of the government and businessmen, neat people who called themselves American. On TV, these confrontations often ended in violence, bloodshed, and death.
EE stood up and rearranged her clothes. She looked at him; there was no enmity in her look. “I might just as well tell you this, Chauncey,” she said. “I am in love with you. I love you, and I want you. And I know that you know it, and I am grateful that you have decided to wait until … until …” She searched, but could not find the words. She left the room. Chance got up and patted down his hair. He sat by his desk and turned on the TV. The image appeared instantly.
Five
It was Thursday. As soon as he opened his eyes, Chance turned on the TV, then called the kitchen for his breakfast.
The maid brought in the neatly arranged breakfast tray. She told him that Mr. Rand had had a relapse, that two additional doctors had been summoned, and that they had been at his bedside since midnight. She handed Chance a pile of newspapers and a typed note. Chance did not know whom the note was from.
He had just finished eating when EE called. “Chauncey—darling—did you get my note? And did you see this morning’s papers?” she asked. “It seems you’ve been described as one of the chief architects of the President’s policy speech. And your own comments on THIS EVENING are quoted side by side with the President’s. Oh, Chauncey, you were marvelous! Even the President was impressed by you!”
“I like the President,” said Chance.
“I hear you looked absolutely smashing on TV! All my friends want to meet you. Chauncey, you are still going to the U.N. reception with me this afternoon?”
“Yes, I’d be happy to go.”
“You are a dear. I hope you won’t find all the fuss too boring. We don’t have to stay late. After the reception we can go and see some friends of mine if you like; they’re giving a large dinner party.”
“I’ll be glad to go with you.”
“Oh, I’m so happy,” EE exclaimed. Her voice dropped: “Can I see you? I’ve missed you so very much….”
“Yes, of course.”
She entered the room, her face flushed. “I have to tell you something that’s very important to me, and I must say it as I look at you,” she said, catching her breath and stopping to grope for words. “I wonder if you would consider remaining here with us, Chauncey, at least for a while. This invitation is Ben’s as well as mine.” She did not wait for an answer. “Think of it! You can live here in this house with us! Chauncey, please, don’t say no! Benjamin is so ill; he said he feels so much more secure with you under the same roof.” She threw her arms around him and pressed her body hard against his. “Chauncey, my dearest, you must, you must,” she whispered. There was an unguarded quaver in her voice.
Chance agreed.
EE hugged him and kissed his cheek; then she broke away from him and began circling the room. “I know! We must get you a secretary. Now that you are in the public eye, you’ll want someone experienced to help you with your affairs and screen your callers, to protect you from the people you don’t want to talk to or meet. But perhaps there’s someone you already have in mind? Someone who’s worked for you in the past?”
“No,” Chance answered. “There’s no one.”
“Then I’ll start looking for someone right away,” she said huskily.
Before lunch, while Chance was watching TV, EE rang his room. “Chauncey, I hope I’m not disturbing you,” she said in a measured voice. “But I would like you to meet Mrs. Aubrey, who is here in the library with me. She would like to be considered for the post of temporary secretary until we can find a permanent one. Can you see her now?”
“Yes, I can,” said Chance.
When Chance entered the library, he saw a grayhaired woman sitting beside EE on the sofa.
EE introduced them.
Chance shook hands and sat down. Under the inquisitive stare of Mrs. Aubrey, he drummed his fingers on the desk top. “Mrs. Aubrey has been Mr. Rand’s trusted secretary at the First American Financial Corporation for years,” EE exclaimed.
“I see,” Chance said.
“Mrs. Aubrey does not want to retire—she’s certainly not the type for that.” Chance had nothing to say. He rubbed his thumb over his cheek. EE pulled up her wristwatch, which had slipped down on her hand.
“If you’d like, Chauncey,” EE continued, “Mrs. Aubrey can make herself available immediately….”
“Good,” he said, finally. “I hope Mrs. Aubrey will enjoy working here. This is a fine household.”
EE sought his glance across the desk. “In that case,” she said, “it’s settled. I’ve got to run now. I have to get dressed for the reception. I’ll speak to you later, Chauncey.”
Chance watched Mrs. Aubrey. She had turned her head to one side and seemed almost wistful. She resembled a solitary dandelion.
He liked her. He did not know what to say. He waited for Mrs. Aubrey to speak. At length, she caught his stare and said softly: “Perhaps we can start. If you would care to give me an outline of the general nature of your business and social activities …”
“Please speak to Mrs. Rand about it,” said Chance, rising.
Mrs. Aubrey hastily got to her feet. “I quite understand,” she said. “In any case, sir, I am at your disposal. My office is just next to that of Mr. Rand’s private secretary.”
Chance said, “Thank you again,” and walked out of the room.
At the United Nations fete, Chance and EE were greeted by members of the U.N. Hospitality Committee and escorted to one of the most prominent tables. The Secretary-General approached; he greeted EE by kissing her hand and asking about Rand’s health. Chance could not recall ever having seen the man on TV.
“This,” said EE to the Secretary-General, “is Mr. Chauncey Gardine
r, a very dear friend of Benjamin’s.”
The men shook hands. “I know this gentleman,” the Secretary said, still smiling. “I admired Mr. Gardiner so much on television last night. I am honored by your presence here, sir.”
They all sat down; waiters arrived with canapes of caviar, salmon, and egg, and trays crowded with glasses of champagne; photographers hovered about and snapped pictures. A tall florid man approached the table, and the Secretary-General rose like a shot. “Mr. Ambassador,” he said, “how good of you to come over.” He turned to EE. “May I have the honor of introducing His Excellency Vladimir Skrapinov, Ambassador of the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics?”
“Mr. Ambassador and I have already had the pleasure of meeting, haven’t we?” EE smiled. “I recall a warm exchange between Mr. Rand and Ambassador Skrapinov two years ago in Washington.” She paused. “Unfortunately, Mr. Rand is ill and must forgo the pleasure of your company here today.” The Ambassador bowed cordially, seated himself, and talked loudly with EE and the Secretary-General. Chance fell silent and looked over the crowd. After a time the Secretary-General rose, reaffirmed his pleasure at meeting Chance, said good-bye, and departed. EE caught sight of her old friend, the Ambassador of Venezuela, who was just passing by, excused herself and went over to him.
The Soviet Ambassador moved his chair closer to Chance’s. The flashbulbs of the photographers flashed away. “I’m sorry we didn’t meet sooner,” he said. “I saw you on THIS EVENING and must say that I listened with great interest to your down-to-earth philosophy. I’m not surprised that it was so quickly endorsed by your President.” He drew his chair still closer. “Tell me, Mr. Gardiner, how is our mutual friend, Benjamin Rand? I hear that his illness is actually very serious. I did not want to upset Mrs. Rand by discussing it in detail.”