“She knows.” Deep frowned. “But I’m guessing our Kat’s objection goes deeper than that.”
Kat sighed. “I guess I might as well tell you or you’ll never leave me alone.”
“I think you need to tell us,” Deep said, his voice unexpectedly gentle. “So no, we won’t leave you alone until you do.”
“Fine.” She squeezed the pillow harder and looked down at the bed. “It’s not a big deal really. Just that I let…let a guy try that once, back there, and it really hurt.”
“And?” Deep’s voice said he knew there was more to it than that.
Damn him. Kat flashed him an unfriendly look and he stared back, one black eyebrow raised. “And he was really into the moment and he didn’t…” She swallowed hard, not wanting to remember. “He didn’t stop when I asked him to. It just…wasn’t a very good experience, okay?”
“He hurt you?” Lock’s voice was raw—filled with the pain Kat didn’t want to express.
“Yes,” she said tightly. “And ever since then I’m not…I don’t really want to go there. Or let anyone else go there, if you know what I mean.”
“We know,” Deep murmured.
“I don’t understand,” Lock said, shaking his head. “I thought…during our joining to find Sophia, when you let us all the way into your memories…I don’t see how you could have concealed such a source of pain, my lady.”
“She was able to conceal it from us because she’s been concealing it from herself,” Deep rumbled. “Isn’t that right, Kat?”
Kat gave a short nod. “It’s not a happy memory, okay?”
“Of course not.” Lock stroked her shoulder soothingly.
“Perhaps you’d feel better if the bastard who hurt you was brought to justice,” Deep growled.
Kat sighed. “No, I wouldn’t. He wasn’t a bad guy—it was just that we were both kind of drunk. He apologized afterwards.” Not that I could ever stand to date him again. Not after that, she thought with a shiver, remembering the painful experience of being pinned to the bed and invaded.
She’d cried and begged but Devon had never seemed to hear her. Or if he had, he hadn’t wanted to stop. Afterwards, seeing her swollen eyes and tear-streaked cheeks, he appeared to feel terrible about what he’d done. But Kat could never really trust him after that. They broke up a few days later and she’d never seen him again. And tried never to think of him. Until tonight…
We would never hurt you that way, she heard Lock send through their mental link.
Never, Deep echoed. He slid an arm around her shoulders. Come here. If you have to cry, Lock and I want to hold you.
She sniffed and realized that hot tears were rolling down her cheeks. Four muscular arms surrounded her and drew her down on the bed. Kat knew she was safe, sheltered by their love for her. It flowed over and around her, comforting, soothing, whispering that she was cared for, needed, loved. Telling her that she would never be hurt in such a way again.
For a long time Kat let herself drift. Cradled between Deep and Lock she closed her eyes and tried to let go of the past. What Devon had done was painful and humiliating but it was over. It was time to let it go.
Finally she felt strong enough to speak. I’m sorry, she whispered at last, through their link. I didn’t realize until now how much it upset me. I spent so many years trying to forget.
Of course you did—anyone would try to forget a memory so painful, Lock assured her.
Well, maybe forgetting isn’t the answer. Sniffing, Kat wiped her eyes and sat up. “Maybe it’s time I got over it.”
“And how do you propose to do that?” Deep asked, as he and Lock sat up as well.
“By…by trying it again.” Kat took a deep breath. “By letting the two of you make love to me there…that way. The way you want to.”
“We don’t want to do anything that will hurt you, my lady,” Lock protested, stroking her hair.
“Lock’s right. We’re perfectly happy to make love to you in our regular way for the rest of our lives,” Deep said.
Kat lifted her chin. “But that won’t help us find Lauren, will it?”
“Kat, look at me.” Deep tilted her chin so that they were eye to eye. His coal black eyes were burning. “If we do this,” he murmured, “It should be for you—not anyone else. We can try and find Lauren if you want, but the main focus should be on healing your wounds.”
Kat tried to laugh. “You mean sexual healing?”
“In a manner of speaking.” Deep nodded.
“It is possible, you know. Especially when three people are as closely connected as we are,” Lock said, kissing her shoulder. “We just need to take things very slowly.”
“We need to show you that it can be pleasurable to be penetrated here,” Deep murmured, his large hand caressing her buttocks through the crimson robe. “That you can enjoy it instead of fearing it.”
Kat bit her lip. “You…you really think that’s possible?”
Deep nodded and Lock said, “Yes, my lady. Very possible.”
“But it has to be about you,” Deep said, looking into her eyes again. “No one else, sweetheart. And you have to be sure…very sure you want to do it.”
Kat’s heart was pounding a mile a minute but she knew she wanted this. After all the years that had passed since her experience with Devon, she wanted to finally get over the pain—to exorcise the bad and hurtful memory. And, she had to admit, she wanted to give her men something they’d been craving. To open herself to them and let them in completely in a way she hadn’t before.
No more secrets, she whispered to both of them through their link. No more lies. I want the three of us to be one. I want to do this.
Lying through the mental link was next to impossible and she could feel Deep and Lock registering her sincerity. They know I mean it, that I really want this, she thought. No matter how much it scares me.
Yes, we know, Deep assured her softly. But there’s no need to be frightened, sweetheart. Just relax and let Lock and I give you pleasure.
Though Kat was more than willing to try it, she still didn’t see how she could get pleasure from being filled there.
Because we won’t be filling you—not to start with, Lock told her soothingly.
You’re not? Then what—? Before she could finish asking the question, the light twin answered it by licking a long, slow trail from her ankle to her knee.
Take off your robe, little Kat, Deep murmured in her head. Take off your robe and allow Lock to taste you.
You mean to taste me…there? Kat looked at them uncertainly.
Of course, my lady. Lock smiled up at her, his warm brown eyes filled with love and lust. We need to put you at your ease by giving you pleasure before we attempt penetration. What better way than to tease open your sweet little rosebud with my tongue?
I don’t know… Kat crossed her legs uneasily.
What’s wrong? Deep asked, stroking her cheek. You have no problem with allowing us to taste your pussy. Why should this be any different?
Kat felt her cheeks getting hot. Because it seems…I don’t know…dirty.
My lady, we just finished bathing, Lock reminded her gently. You are not dirty. You’re warm and sweet and soft and I want very much to taste you.
Really? Kat turned to look at him. Even there?
Especially there, Deep assured her. And to make it easier, I’ll hold you while Lock goes down on you. You know I won’t let you come to any harm, don’t you? I would die first.
As would I, Lock murmured, kissing her knee gently. Please, my lady. Open yourself for me. I want so much to taste you.
The outpouring of love, lust, and tenderness from the two of them was so strong it almost threatened to drown her—but in a good way. All right, Kat whispered. Sitting up, she shrugged out of the robe and threw it to the far side of the bed. As long as we take it slowly. And as long as we use our energy to try and find Lauren.
Agreed, Deep murmured and she felt Lock’s acceptance as well.
/> All right then. Kat took a deep breath and looked at both of them. Let’s get started.
Very well, let’s start with something familiar. Come here and sit between my legs, Deep instructed.
Kat did as he said, leaning back against him, enjoying the warmth of his bare, muscular chest against her back.
Very good, Deep instructed softly. Now allow Lock to open your thighs.
It wasn’t easy, but Kat obeyed again. She watched as Lock parted her thighs and spread them wide, baring the mound of her sex, decorated with a neatly trimmed nest of auburn curls. Despite her earlier fear, her pussy was already beginning to feel wet and swollen with desire. This was one of her favorite things to do—to lean back against Deep and hear him whisper hot, dirty fantasies in her ear while Lock lapped her open cunt.
It was so incredibly arousing to be surrounded by the two of them, to feel their love and lust for her rising as they pleasured her. Unlike many human males, the Kindred reveled in going down. In fact, Deep and Lock had both told her that spreading her open and tasting her pussy was one of their favorite sexual acts. Kat enjoyed tasting them as well, but they didn’t often let her because they preferred to be the pleasure givers.
Start with her pussy, Brother, Deep instructed his twin. Lick our little Kat long and slow. Tease her clit and put your tongue deep in her sweet little cunt..
With pleasure. Looking up to meet her eyes, Lock spread her swollen pussy lips wide to reveal her slippery pink folds. Then, starting at the bottom of her slit, he dragged his tongue upwards as though Kat was his favorite flavor of lollypop.
Kat’s breath caught in her throat as he bathed her clit with his hot tongue and then swirled the tip of it around the little bud, tracing magical patterns over her wet flesh. God, would she ever get used to this? Ever get used to lying in one brother’s arms while the other went down on her? It still seemed kinky and a little bit forbidden. But what Deep and Lock wanted to do to her was much more forbidden than this.
As if reading her thoughts, Lock nuzzled downward and began licking the narrow, sensitive margin of skin between the bottom of her slit and her rosebud.
Kat gasped at the sudden sensation. And yes, though it felt strange to be licked there, it didn’t hurt or feel wrong exactly. In fact, it was beginning to feel very good, especially since Deep had reached around in front of her and was tugging gently at her nipples.
That’s right, Brother, he growled softly through their link. Now lick our little Kat lower. Trace that sweet virgin rosebud with your tongue.
But I’m not a virgin there, Kat protested, turning her head to look up at him.
His black eyes burned into hers. You’ve been hurt and taken against your will, little Kat. None of that counts as making love. Until you’ve been penetrated and filled by a male who truly loves you and cares about your comfort, you are still a virgin in my eyes.
And mine, Lock added, looking up. Please my lady, I need to open you a little more in order to taste you as I want to.
Kat wanted to protest again that it seemed dirty or wrong but the words stuck in her throat as she watched Lock spread her even wider and slide his tongue down the groove between her buttocks and into forbidden territory.
“God!” she gasped aloud as the light twin began a careful exploration of her rosebud with his tongue. He lapped gently around the circumference and then, very gently, pressed the tip of his tongue to her very center. Kat gasped again at the tender penetration and Deep growled in approval, obviously feeling the sudden rush of surprised lust that washed over her.
Kat couldn’t get over the fact that what Lock was doing turned her on. It was hot and incredibly erotic to watch the light twin on his knees before her, piercing her intimate back entrance with his talented tongue. She had never in a million years imagined she could enjoy such a thing but now she couldn’t get enough.
Feels good, doesn’t it? Deep asked through their link. Feels good to let Lock taste you there—to put his tongue inside you.
Yes, Kat admitted, knowing there was no point in trying to pretend otherwise. I can hardly believe it but yes, yes it does. It’s amazing.
Not to mention extremely hot to watch. Deep twisted her nipples until she squeaked with pleasure/pain and then one large hand slid down her abdomen to cup her mound of curls. Gods, I love to watch Lock go down on you. Almost as much as I love tasting you myself, little Kat.
Kat knew that part of the Twin Kindred mentality was taking enjoyment in watching while their lover was pleasured by their twin. It eliminated jealousy between the brothers and kept her from ever feeling like one of them was being left out or slighted. Such an amicable, sharing relationship would never have been possible if her lovers had been human, but the Twin Kindred were born to share a female between them and enjoyed it to the hilt.
Speaking of the hilt, how much deeper was Lock going to put his tongue? More, she heard Deep urging him. Pierce her gently but thoroughly, Brother. Open our little Kat with your tongue.
“Please!” Kat writhed between them, unable to keep still. She’d been afraid that having anything at all back there would bring back the terrible sensations she’d felt with Devon, but there was nothing but pleasure. So much pleasure she almost couldn’t stand it. And then Deep added to it by parting her pussy lips and stroking her swollen clit.
“Deep,” she gasped. “What—?”
“Touching you,” he growled softly in her ear. “Getting you ready. Lock is about to stop using his tongue and slip his fingers into your rosebud instead. Are you all right with that, little Kat? Can you be open enough to let him touch you like that?”
“I…I guess so,” Kat whispered back. She tensed slightly as she felt Lock’s tongue withdraw and then his fingers were there instead. He surprised her again, however. Instead of just invading her, she felt some kind of warm, soothing cream being rubbed into her tender back entrance. Kat jumped a little and then tried to relax into the light twin’s gentle touch. “What’s that?” she asked.
“Just something to ease the way, my lady,” Lock murmured, looking up at her. “The bonding fruit in your system will allow you to accommodate my fingers easily but I want this experience to be as smooth and gentle as possible.”
Kat smiled and reached down to card her fingers through his dark gold hair. “You’re always so thoughtful, Lock. I love you.”
“And I love you, my lady.” He smiled, his warm brown eyes filled with emotion. “Thank you for allowing me to touch you this way.”
“Yes, Kat, thank you for trusting us.” Deep kissed her cheek. “It means a lot to both Lock and myself.”
“It means a lot to me that you both care so much.” Kat cuddled back against Deep’s broad chest and nodded at Lock. “Go on. I…I think I’m ready.”
“Slowly then,” he murmured. His eyes never leaving hers, he began to penetrate her.
Kat jumped a little bit as Lock slipped the first finger in but he had been right—her steady diet of bonding fruit allowed her much greater elasticity in this area than she’d had during her previous experience with Devon. There was no pain at all as Lock fucked her gently with first one finger, then two, then three. And as he worked on her, Deep continued to stroke her swollen clit and whisper through their link how beautiful and brave she was.
The pleasure built and built until Kat was right on the edge. Just one more stroke would send her over…so of course that was when Lock withdrew his fingers and Deep stopped stroking her.
“You two!” she moaned in frustration. “You know how close I was—I know you can tell.”
“We can tell, all right.” Deep kissed her cheek. “But if you want to find Lauren we need you to hold off.” He looked into her eyes. “You need to wait until we’re both buried to the hilt in your ass and pussy before you come, little Kat. All right?”
Kat felt herself blushing at his frank words. “All right,” she whispered. “Which one of you is going to…to fill me back there?”
Deep frowned. “I would l
ike the pleasure myself but I think we should allow Lock to do it this first time.”
“Deep is right,” Lock agreed. “My shaft isn’t quite as thick than his. It will be less frightening for you, my lady.”
“I’m not scared,” Kat said, lifting her chin. “Not…not anymore.” Which was almost true. To be completely honest, now that they were getting down to the actual act, her heart was drumming so hard it felt like it was trying to break through her ribs and escape. But she still wanted this—wanted it badly.
Deep looked at her critically. “Yes you are—a little. But don’t worry, little Kat. I’ll be holding you every step of the way. Just lean on me and look into my eyes. I’ll keep you safe.”
“And if you’re ever uncomfortable at any time, let me know,” Lock murmured. “I swear to stop and withdraw at once if you change your mind.”
Kat didn’t think that was going to happen. Now that she had started this, she wanted to see it through to the finish. Not to mention that her entire body was aching for sexual release. But it was nice to know that her lovers were attentive to her needs and both willing and able to stop if whatever they were doing felt too uncomfortable to stand.
Let’s do it, she whispered, reverting back to their mind link once more. I want this. Want both of you in me…now.
As you wish, my lady, Lock murmured and Deep said, Of course, little Kat.
The two of them lay her down on the bed on her side with Lock behind her and Deep in front. Nestled between them, Kat felt warm and protected as always. Deep made sure she was comfortable, with her head resting on a pillow so he could look into her eyes and Lock stroked her back in a soothing caress.
Slowly now, little Kat, Deep murmured in her mind, his eyes never leaving hers. Lock is going to enter your rosebud first. Only when he is completely inside you will I fill your pussy. Are you ready?
Yes, Kat whispered, her heart pounding. Yes, I’m ready.
Good. Deep stroked her cheek lovingly and then looked over her shoulder to make eye contact with Lock. Gently, Brother. Just press against her at first. Let her feel the head of your cock kissing her sweet bud.