Clay has a tight grip on my shoulders and his eyes are darting back and forth between my eyes as if he can’t decide which one to give his full attention. “Katherine, I need you,” he says, his voice deadly serious.
There’s only one way to address this level of drama … I look to Pete. “Hey, Pete, remember when I told you that Clay was a hard nut to crack? Well, I think he’s finally succumbed to my overtly salacious methods of seduction. Can you give us a few minutes alone? Thirty minutes, tops.”
Pete’s cheeks burst into a deep blush, but he does actually crack a smile. God, I’m corrupting him.
Clayton shakes me gently and sighs as if he doesn’t have time for jokes. “Katherine, this is serious.”
I raise my eyebrows. “Shit. Then spill it.”
“Katherine, I need you to come to Spectacle with me tonight.”
“That’s it? I thought this was serious? You don’t need to bail someone out of jail? Or need one of my kidneys?” I tease.
He huffs.
I laugh and tone down the sarcasm because I know this means a lot to him. “But it’s Thursday, dude. We won’t be able to get in. I don’t have a fake ID.”
He drops his hands from my shoulders and starts biting at his thumbnail. “What if I told you I knew someone and we could get in?”
“Then, hell yeah!” I eye him suspiciously because there’s something he’s not telling me. “Who do you know, Clayton?”
He shrugs but his cheeks glow and give him away.
I walk over and sit on his bed and cross my legs. “Okay, Clayton. What is it you’re not telling me? Because judging by the color of your face, he is pretty damn significant.”
He stomps his foot. “How did you know?”
“Dude, you’re blushing like a whore in church. It has to be a boy.”
Pete chuckles from the corner.
“Okay, okay, remember that spicy little number that I danced with the night we went to Spectacle?”
“How could I forget Mr. Cheekbones? Or that steamy kiss?”
He rolls his eyes. “Well, his name is Morris, and I finally worked up the courage to call him the other night—”
“Right on, Clayton!” I interject.
The blush intensifies and he clears his throat. “Morris manages Spectacle and he called me earlier today and wants me to meet him there tonight.”
I look to Pete who’s dutifully trying to focus on his book and stay out of the conversation. “You hear that, Pete? Our little boy’s all grown up. But I don’t know if I’m ready for him to start dating. What about you? Have you had the talk with him yet, you know, about the birds and bees and STDs? We might need the mandatory condom on a cucumber demo. You up for it?”
Pete shakes his head slightly and a smile cracks through again.
Clayton stomps his foot again. It’s so cute when he does that. “Katherine, I need you to come with me.”
I rise from the bed and hug Clayton. I can’t tease him anymore. “I’m with you, dude.” I kiss him on the cheek. “I. Am. With. You. What time?”
“Can we leave at eight o’clock? We need to get there before they open so that Morris can get us in.”
I release him and reach for the door. “Your wish is my command.”
Clayton is at my door at 7:45, all but trying to drag me out the door. He knows I’m habitually late. I called Shelly, but she has plans with The Boyfriend tonight so it looks like I’m on my own.
As promised, Morris is waiting for us at the back door of the club. God, if this doesn’t feel extra shady. Well, I guess that’s because it is illegal, but when I would go to the club with Gus at home, they always seemed to usher me in through the front door. I feel like I should know some special knock or handshake or code word to get in through the back.
Morris is all chiseled cheekbones just as I remembered, and on top of that he’s from Manchester, England, so he has this fantastic accent. It’s polite, proper, and so charming. I could listen to him all night: the way he doesn’t pronounce the first or last letter of certain words, or the way he leaves entire syllables out of other words as if they aren’t important enough to bother with. And you find yourself agreeing, and thinking, why do we bother with the “r” at the end of “better”? It sounds so sexy without it. At least with his accent it does. No wonder Clayton’s all a flutter. After talking with Morris for a few minutes, because Clayton seems to be speechless in his presence, I find him to be a proper gentleman—enchanting accent aside—which eases my mind. Somewhat. Still, my primary reason for tagging along tonight is to make sure that Morris doesn’t take advantage of my innocent Clayton.
Just to make sure, I send Clayton away to the bar to grab us a couple of Cokes. As soon as he’s out of earshot I turn to Morris. “Morris, dude, I’m gonna cut to the chase. You seem really nice and I think I like you, so don’t take this the wrong way.” I look him straight in the eyes. “Don’t fuck Clayton over. He’s special and he’s sweet and he really likes you. I know this is all just getting started between the two of you, but don’t get him all jacked up over you if you don’t intend to pursue something with him. Clayton’s never had a boyfriend; keep that in mind. His heart’s been tucked away for eighteen years, so when he takes it out of his pocket and offers to share it with you, don’t treat it like some shiny new toy that will only be forgotten when you’re done playing with it. And don’t take more than your share unless you’re willing to trade your own for it. Just … just don’t fuck with him for the sake of a one-night stand, okay?”
Morris raises his eyebrows. “Blimey, Kate, you’re ta the point, aren’t ya?
I raise my eyebrows in return. I’m waiting for his response and he knows it.
“I fancy Clayton. I want ta get ta know ‘im better.” (“Better” with a soft “r” is indeed better.) “Despite the fact tha’ I probably look like a right wanker bringing ‘im ‘ere tonight, I’ve only good intentions. I’ve been thinkin’ of ‘im every minute since we met. I thought … ” he pauses and looks embarrassed. “I thought ‘e would never call. And then, ‘e did.”
I smile. Morris seems genuinely excited about Clayton. But I have one more question. “How old are you?”
“I’m twenty-one.”
“And you manage a club?” I narrow my eyes. My friend’s heart is still on the line.
“My uncle owns it. ‘E lives in London and asked me to help ‘im out since I jus’ finished up with university. I’ve only been at it a month now. S’a long story. Don’t even ‘ave a proper flat yet.” Morris lowers his voice to a whisper. “‘E’s comin’. I won’t hurt ‘im. You’ve my word.”
“Thank you.”
He nods.
Because Morris is technically working, Clayton spends most of his time dancing with me. On the occasion that Morris breaks free for a song or two and steals him away, I find that there’s no shortage of available dance partners. And can they dance.
Clayton and I stay until close. I bask in Clayton’s bliss during the entire drive back to our dorm. He’s so high on love or lust that he doesn’t even complain about my driving.
We return to the familiar red ribbon on my door. Clayton, as always, is accommodating.
“Dude, I feel kinda funny sleeping with you now that you’re spoken for.”
“Katherine, hush. You’re always welcome in my bed. Now, good night,” He says, still with a special glimmer in his eyes.
“Good night.”
Friday, September 16
(Kate)
I hear the text alert from my pocket just as I step through the door into Three Petunias. I’m not working today, but Shelly asked me to stop by; she burned a CD for me and wants me to check it out.
I retrieve my phone from my pocket while I wait for her to wrap up a phone call. The text is from Maddie. Can I borrow $500? Rent’s due tomorrow.
The fact that I’ve been thrown for a loop by the text must show on my face because as soon as Shelly hangs up the phone she asks, “What’s wrong, Kate?”<
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I shake my head. “Nothing. I just got a text from my aunt. I haven’t heard from her in a while.”
“Is this the aunt who lives in Minneapolis?”
“Yeah, she was pissed at me. I’ve been trying to get in touch with her for a couple of weeks now.”
“Is she still mad?”
I shrug. “Don’t know. She says she needs money.”
Shelly looks shocked. “And she’s asking you? How old is she?”
I’m still running the text over in my head. “Twenty-seven.”
“You’re not going to give it to her, are you?”
I exhale as I come to my conclusion. “Probably. She’s dealing with some pretty messed up stuff right now. She says she needs it. She wouldn’t ask if she wasn’t desperate, right?”
Shelly’s looking at me. In her face I see Audrey, Gus’s mom, motherly and concerned. “I don’t know Kate. You work hard for your money. You need it, too.”
I point to the computer on the counter. “Can I use the computer real quick?”
“Sure,” she answers, still looking motherly.
I look up the address for Rosenstein & Barclay, the law firm Maddie works for, and jot it down on a piece of paper along with general directions to get there. I have some free time this afternoon, and she said her rent’s due tomorrow, so I’ll take her the money now. Why is she paying her rent in the middle of the month, anyway?
The building Maddie works in is right smack in the middle of downtown Minneapolis, so after I find an open meter and plunk in a few coins, I enter and take the elevator to the third floor. The elevator opens to Rosenstein & Barclay’s foyer. The floors are stone and buffed to a high sheen. There are fresh flowers on the table outside the floor to ceiling glass doors that mark the entrance to Maddie’s employer. I feel underdressed in my flip-flops, jeans, and “Virginia is for lovers” T-shirt. I’m suddenly regretting not calling first. I mean, lawyers are super busy, right? She’s probably in some important meeting, or maybe she’s in court. Who knows? Now I feel like an idiot. After I take a deep breath, I pull open one of the giant doors and a chime sounds announcing my arrival. Jesus, it’s the bell’s evil cousin.
A woman looks up from the other side of the reception desk just inside the door. She’s polite and she addresses me directly. “Good afternoon.” She’s dressed in a trim, tailored black suit and looks too professional to be sitting behind this desk.
I clear my throat. “Good afternoon. I’m sorry to bother you, but I’m looking for Maddie Spiegelman. Is she available?”
The woman smiles. “Sure. She should be back any minute.” The woman holds her hand up to shield her mouth from the rest of the room and lowers her voice. “She just ran to the restroom. I’m covering the phones for her until she gets back.”
Okay, I’m confused. “Covering for her? You mean Maddie’s the receptionist?”
The woman nods, but looks confused by my question.
“I’m sorry, Maddie’s my aunt. I just … I just didn’t realize what her position here was.”
She nods. “Well, here she is now.”
I turn and Maddie’s face drops when she sees me. Her voice is low and malicious as she nears. “Kate, what are you doing here?” she hisses.
I hold up the check I’ve already written out from my emergency stash. “Your text sounded urgent. I wanted to make sure you could get it to the bank today since your rent’s due tomorrow.”
“You could have called, Kate. A little courtesy, please,” she chastises.
“Sorry, dude. If you don’t need the money anymore, it’s no sweat off my—”
She interrupts me and rips the check from my hand. “No, I’ll take the check. I had a lot of unforeseen expenses come up this month ... stuff you wouldn’t understand.”
I can’t help but roll my eyes at her. “Seriously?” Try me, I want to say. Been-there-done-that is my middle name.
She doesn’t reply.
I’m a little irritated, but I’m also worried about her. “Why haven’t you responded to any of my texts? I mean, how have you been?”
She inhales deeply and lowers her voice. “I’m fine. There’s nothing to talk about.”
I lower my voice to match hers, “Why’d you lie to me about your job?” I’m not being mean; I’m just asking a question. A question she should be adult enough to answer.
Or not … She just looks at me like I’ve insulted her. “You need to leave now. I have work to do. Something you probably wouldn’t know anything about, being Janice Sedgwick’s daughter. I bet you had it really rough living on the beach with all of Mommy’s money.”
I blink through the shock of her words for several seconds. “Wow … okay … so that’s how it is … ” I trail off, dumbfounded, my cheeks hot with anger. I turn toward the door and by now adrenaline is coursing full throttle through my veins as I push the door open. As I cross the threshold, I turn and lock eyes with her. “I’m really glad you can make your rent this month, Maddie. You’re welcome.” I let the door slam behind me.
Saturday, September 17
(Kate)
A text from Maddie, U need to call b4 u come. It’s rude.
Maddie’s got one helluva way with apologies. I respond, Sure. Because I need to bite my tongue. This is not worth fighting over.
I don’t expect a response and I’m ready for this to be over, but it comes anyway, Can we talk?
Of course I’ve already softened to her, because I can’t hold a grudge. Or maybe I’m just a sucker. Either way, I forgive easily. Call me, I text back.
Maddie calls immediately and pours her superficial heart out. And because it’s her superficial heart we don’t touch on the real issue—her bulimia. We talk about money instead. Which, let’s face it: if all the money in the world dried up and blew away, she’d live. If the bulimia doesn’t go away, it will kill her. But she’s not ready to talk about it yet, so I don’t push it. At least for the moment, we’re communicating.
She says she lied about her job because she didn’t think I’d be impressed if I knew she was a receptionist and not a lawyer. Like I care. She could be a garbage collector and I wouldn’t be any less impressed than if she were a lawyer. People get way too hung up on labels and titles. Then she tells me she’s in way over her head with credit cards and debt, and that her roommate moved out unexpectedly in July and she hasn’t been able to find someone new to take over the other half of the lease. She’s two months behind on her rent and they’d started threatening her with eviction. That’s why she called me. She didn’t know what else to do. I do feel sorry for her, but it always astounds me how people get used to a certain lifestyle and decide anything less is unacceptable. I went from growing up in a beachfront home to living in a garage with my sister. And you know what? I liked the garage better. I guess Maddie couldn’t do a garage. I reveal some of this to Maddie, but spare the details, the grief. It’s always been a struggle, and that’s all she needs to know. I’m not looking for pity, but sometimes if people feel like they can empathize with you, it’s kind of like giving advice without actually giving advice. Backwards I know, but no one likes to be told what to do. They like to figure it out for themselves. As the reverse psychology session is wrapping up, I remember my conversation with Morris last night. I have an idea. “Would you be opposed to having a male roommate?”
Her voice lights up. “No, especially if he’s attractive and single.”
“Attractive yes, single not so much.”
“All the good ones are taken.”
“Also, he’s gay. Does that make you feel any better about him being taken?”
“Um, not really.” She laughs and for the first time since I’ve known her I feel like I’m talking to the real Maddie. She sounds sincere and exhausted, like her life is just too much and for a moment she’s not worrying about what other people think.
“Sorry. But his cheekbones are exquisite. I wouldn’t mind looking at him every day.”
“I’ll take your word
for it.” She laughs again and it sounds good on her.
“I’ll get ahold of him today and have him call you. His name’s Morris.”
“Okay.”
“Cool. I hope it works out.”
I text Clay for Morris’s number, and then call him. An hour later, Maddie and Morris met, talked, and by 5:30 that afternoon Morris had packed up his hotel room and moved into Maddie’s second bedroom.
I love it when a plan comes together.
Sunday, September 18
(Kate)
“Um, Sugar, is there something I can help you with?”
My roommate is rifling through my closet when I walk in our open dorm room. I’ve surprised her and she jumps at the sound of my voice. It’s guilty surprise, and reminds me of when I’d catch Gracie sneaking cookies before dinner. I guess she didn’t hear me come in … or expect me back so soon.
“No … no ... I, um, I couldn’t find one of my shirts and I thought maybe … maybe it got mixed in with your shit on the floor and you accidentally put it in your closet.”
She’s lying. Her cheeks are the guiltiest shade of red—a dead giveaway. I don’t like it, but I’m not going to call her on it, because while she was ineloquently justifying whatever she was doing all I heard was Gracie’s voice in my head saying, “I wasn’t going to eat them, Kate.” I walk past her and hang my bag on the back of my desk chair. I notice two of my shirts on her bed. I sure as hell didn’t leave them there. I pretend not to notice. “What’s your shirt look like, dude? Maybe I can help you find it.”
She licks her lips as her eyes flit to her bed and my shirts. She knows she’s been caught but she lashes out at me anyway. “Never mind. It’s probably in the laundry,” she snaps.
God, I wonder if she realizes what a terrible liar she is?
As I walk toward the door I offer, “If you say so. Nature calls, I need to run down the hall.” I point to my shirts on her bed as I reach for the doorknob. “And Sugar, if you want to borrow one of my shirts all you have to do is ask. They’re like my kids though; I’m protective and I like to know where they are at all times.” I don’t look back before letting the door shut behind me.