“Matthew’s . . . okay. I’m . . . I’m just trying to figure out what I should be doing first. I don’t know where to begin. I mean, the priority is Matthew. I’ve gotta look after him, and I don’t know the first thing to do. I’ve never made up the formula before. Rose did that, and Sarita. I’ve talked to the office, and I’ve been in touch with clients, and I had these people here—there’re actually companies that do nothing but clean up after . . . God, I don’t know if I can hold it together.”
“You’ll be okay. You will be. But you’re right: The important thing is Matthew.”
Gaynor looked misty-eyed at the doctor. “You’ve always been there for us. Every step of the way. Rose, she was so grateful for everything you did.”
The doctor rested a hand on the man’s shoulder. “You all deserved happiness. And I really thought you’d found it. You didn’t deserve this.”
“I thought, when I heard the doorbell, it’d be the police. Telling me they’ve charged that woman.”
“Yes, well, that may very well happen,” the doctor said.
“I guess it’s been all over the news.”
“Pretty much,” Sturgess said.
“The detective, he called me a while ago. They know about her history. About trying to steal the baby from the hospital. They’ll nail her with this, I just know it.”
“It may never get to that,” Sturgess said.
“What are you talking about?”
“She’s in the hospital. She tried to kill herself.”
Gaynor’s mouth dropped. “You’re kidding.”
The doctor shook his head. “But . . . she wasn’t successful.”
Gaynor said. “That’s, I mean, it’s an awful thing to say, but it would almost be better if she’d succeeded.”
“I don’t know how to respond to that, Bill.”
“I’m just thinking,” Gaynor said slowly, “that if the woman had died, if there was never going to be a trial, maybe they wouldn’t have to do any autopsy on Rose. They won’t have to . . . they won’t have to do things to her, cut her open. I can’t bear the thought of it. And even if this Marla Pickens woman doesn’t die, if she does go to trial, I mean, for Christ’s sake, it’s obvious what happened to Rose. All you had to do was see her lying there to know. Why the hell do they have to cut her open when it’s so fucking clear what happened?”
“Bill, I’m sorry, but they’ve probably already done that. It’s standard procedure, even in deaths that are pretty straightforward.”
Matthew was pushing the bottle away. He’d had enough for now. Gaynor handed the bottle to Sturgess, placed the child on his shoulder, and lightly patted his back. When Gaynor spoke, he whispered, as if the baby were somehow old enough to understand what he might be saying.
“I’m worried about that,” Gaynor said.
“About the autopsy?”
Gaynor nodded.
“About what it might show,” he said. “What else they might find.”
The doctor studied him. “I think you’re concerning yourself needlessly there.”
“But if they figure out—”
Sturgess held up a cautious hand. “Bill, I think I have an idea what you’re talking about, and you’re taking several leaps here. As you say, the cause of death in your wife’s case is pretty obvious. It’s unlikely anyone’s going to be looking at anything beyond that. I can’t think of any reason why they would.”
“You think?” Gaynor asked, still patting Matthew’s back.
“I do. You worry about your boy, and—”
“When will they release her? I have to plan a funeral and—”
“Why don’t I look into that,” Jack Sturgess said.
Matthew burped.
“Attaboy,” Sturgess said.
TWENTY-SIX
David
DURING dessert, the phone rang. Dad, Ethan, and I were sitting at the kitchen table, finishing up some chocolate ice cream, while Mom stood at the counter rinsing dinner plates. Dad and I had both told her to sit down, that she should stay off her leg, but she wouldn’t listen. When the phone rang she was standing right by it, and grabbed the receiver from its cradle.
I watched her face drain of color while she listened to whoever was on the other end.
“Okay, Gill,” she said. So now we knew who it was, and who it was likely about. “Keep us posted.” Slowly she hung up the phone.
“What is it?” Dad asked.
Mom looked at Ethan, wondering, I guessed, whether to discuss this in front of him. But the kid didn’t miss much, and before we’d sat down to eat he’d asked what was going on with my cousin Marla, so I’d told him. I left out the graphic details, including what I’d witnessed in the Gaynors’ kitchen, but Ethan knew Marla was in big trouble, and that the police probably viewed her as the prime suspect in the death of the mother of the baby I’d found her with.
Although Ethan didn’t say it, I think it may have put into perspective the trouble he was in with regard to the pocket watch.
“It’s okay,” I said to Mom. “I’ve explained things to Ethan.”
Mom took a breath and said, “Marla’s in the hospital.”
“What’s happened?” I asked.
“She . . . Agnes and Gill had taken her back to their house. Marla couldn’t go home. She was left alone in the kitchen for a second and . . .”
“No,” I said.
Mom nodded.
“What?” Ethan said. “What happened?”
I looked at him. “Marla tried to kill herself. Is that right, Mom? Is that what happened?”
She nodded again. “I have to get off my feet.” I shot up out of my chair and pulled hers out for her. Once she was settled in, I sat back down.
“How?” Ethan asked. “Like, with a knife? Did she stab herself? Did she turn on the oven and put her head into it? I saw that on TV once.” He might as well have been asking how birds fly. Pure, simple curiosity.
“Jesus, Ethan,” Dad said. “What a thing to ask.” He looked at Mom and asked, “How did she do it?”
“Her wrist,” Mom said wearily. “She cut her wrist.”
“That’s where all the blood comes out,” Ethan said, in case we didn’t know.
“You know what?” I said to him. “Why don’t you go do something?”
Ethan wiped his mouth with a napkin and dropped it on the table. “Okay.” He knew this wasn’t the time to push it.
Once he’d left the room, Mom asked, and not for the first time today, “What are we going to do?”
Dad said, “There’s not really anything we can do. Makes you wonder, though, if she really did do it. I mean, why the hell else would she try to kill herself?”
“You,” Mom said, looking at me. “You need to help her.”
“What would you have me do, Mom?”
“Really? You have to ask that? What have you spent your career doing? Asking questions, finding things out. You can’t do that for your cousin if you’re not getting paid for it?”
“That’s low,” I said.
“I don’t care! Marla’s family.”
“You want me to go around asking questions? What if I find out something that proves she really did this? What then?”
Mom pondered that for a second. “Then you’d find proof that she had a good reason.”
“Excuse me? For stabbing some woman to death?”
“I don’t mean it like that. I mean that she wasn’t in her right head. That she wasn’t responsible for what she did. If she did it, which I don’t think she did. Marla’s always been a good girl. Not quite like the rest of us, I know, but she’s not a mean girl. She’d never do anything like that. Not unless something had gone very wrong in her head.”
“Mom, honestly—”
“And besides, if it weren’t for her, you wouldn’t be sitting there right now.”
I went silent.
Dad said, “She’s got you there.”
I looked at him. “What are you talking about?”
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“I’m not the only one with a bad memory,” Mom said. “You’ve forgotten what happened that summer at Agnes’s cabin?”
Marla had alluded to something when we were in the car.
“Wait a sec,” I said. “The raft. This is about the raft.” Back then, the Pickenses had built a wooden platform, about six by six, floated it on sealed oil drums, and anchored it a hundred feet from the shoreline. We’d go out there and dive off it.
“We’d told you not to go out there alone,” Mom said. “And especially we told you not to do flips off it. We kept telling you one day you’d hit your head on the edge.”
“Which, one day, I did,” I said, the incident now starting to come back to me.
“You knocked yourself out,” Dad said. “You did a flip, whacked your noggin on the edge of the raft, and went into the water unconscious.”
“Marla saw me,” I said.
“She was sitting on the dock, dangling her feet in the water, mooning after you—she had such a crush on you,” Mom said. “She saw you hit your head and go into the water facedown, and you didn’t move a muscle. She went running up to the cabin, screaming at the top of her lungs that something had happened. Agnes and I were sitting at the kitchen table playing cards. Agnes ran out of that cabin like she’d been shot out of a cannon. Jumped in the boat and went out there and got you.”
“I don’t really remember it,” I said. “I only remember being told about it, after.”
“You lost about a day,” Dad said. “Of memory. Agnes saved your life, but she’d never have had a chance if it wasn’t for Marla.”
“Think about that,” Mom said. “And you’ve got nothing else to do. You might as well be doing something useful.” She put her hand to her mouth, then reached out and touched my cheek. “I’m sorry. That was an awful thing to say.”
“And it’s not exactly true, anyway,” Dad said. “The boy got a job offer today.”
Forty years old, and still “the boy.” Still that boy who fell off that raft and nearly died.
“You did?” Mom said. “What is it?”
I shrugged. “I don’t know. I have to think—”
“Randall Finley offered him a job as his right-hand man,” Dad said. “How about that?”
Mom looked nearly as horrified as when she’d taken the call from Marla’s father. “Finley? That horse’s ass? He’s offered David a job?”
“What’s wrong with Finley?” Dad shot back. “He’s a good man.”
“What’s he want David for?” she asked him.
“I’m right here,” I said.
“Gonna help him take another run at the mayor’s seat,” Dad said. “I bet, with David’s help, he could do it, too.”
Now she looked at me. “I forbid it.”
I sighed. “I haven’t given him an answer yet.”
“It pays a thousand dollars a week,” Dad said.
“I wouldn’t care if it paid a hundred thousand dollars a week,” she said. I had to admit, for that kind of money, right now I’d have done PR for the Taliban.
There was a knock at the door. Mom started to push herself away from the table, but Dad was already on the move. Once he was out of the kitchen, Mom said, “You can’t be serious.”
“It’d help until something better comes along,” I said. “I’m not a fan of the guy, but it’s a paycheck.”
She put her hand on mine a second time and closed her eyes. “Do what you have to do. I haven’t got the energy for this, not with everything else that’s going on. But I want you to help Marla. Will you?”
“Yes,” I said. “I don’t know how. But . . . okay. I’ll . . . I don’t know . . . I’ll ask around. Maybe find something that helps.” I smiled sheepishly. “I don’t know how I could have forgotten about the raft.”
“We nearly lost you,” Mom said, and sniffed. “I can still see little Marla, busting into the cabin, looking like she was almost in shock, saying, ‘David! David! David’s gone!’ I’ll never forget it.” She caught a tear with her finger before it had a chance to run down her cheek.
“Someone for you,” Dad said, standing in the doorway, looking at me.
“Who?” I said.
“She didn’t say. Just asked for you. I invited her in, but she said she’d wait outside.” His eyebrows went up half an inch. “Nice looker.”
Mom brightened. “Who is she, David?”
“I have no idea,” I said, “but I’m not going to find out sitting here.”
There was no one on the porch when I went out the front door. She was standing at the foot of the steps. I couldn’t tell who it was right away, given the dim porch light, and the fact that she was looking out toward the street, arms crossed over her chest.
“Hello?”
She turned around. “Hey,” Samantha Worthington said.
“Hi,” I said. “You’re unarmed.”
She dug into the front pocket of her jeans. When her hand came back out, it was wrapped around something. I could guess what.
She came halfway up the steps, arm extended. “I believe this is yours. Or your kid’s. I don’t know. All I know is, it’s not Carl’s.”
I opened my palm to allow her to set the pocket watch on it. Our fingers brushed together lightly. Samantha retreated, ran her fingers through her hair to get it out of her eyes, and said, “Sorry.”
“It’s okay.”
“Not just about the watch.”
“You mean the shotgun in my face.”
“Yeah,” Samantha said. “That.” She forced a smile. “You get some fresh shorts?”
“I did.”
“I was doing laundry, grabbed Carl’s jeans; they felt kind of heavy. Found the watch in his pocket.” She shook her head. “You’d figure, if he was going to lie to me, he’d do a better job of covering up after himself.”
“His future as a master criminal looks uncertain,” I said.
She pointed toward the street, where a small Hyundai sedan sat. “He’s in the car. I brought him to apologize to your boy.”
I opened the door a crack and called in, “Ethan! Out front!”
Almost instantly I heard stomping on the stairs, and then he emerged. “Yeah?”
Samantha looked at her car and made a waving-in gesture. The door opened and a black-haired boy Ethan’s age got out.
My son looked at Carl, then at me. I put the watch in his hand and said, “You can give this to Poppa in a minute.” He looked at it, stunned, like he’d won the lottery. “This is Carl’s mom, Ms. Worthington.”
“Hi,” she said as Carl approached. Once her son was standing next to her, she said to him, “You know what to say.”
“Sorry I took the watch,” he said, looking more at the ground than at Ethan. “That wasn’t right.”
“Sorry I punched you and stuff,” Ethan said.
Carl shrugged. “Okay.”
There was an uncomfortable three seconds of silence. Then Ethan asked, “Do you like trains?”
“What?”
“Do you like trains? My grandpa has some. In the basement. If you want to see them.”
Carl, his face blank, looked at his mother. “Uh, yeah, I guess,” she said. The boy came up the stairs and disappeared into the house with Ethan.
“The Middle East should be so easy,” I said, coming down the steps.
“Carl’s not a bad kid,” Samantha said defensively. “He’s just . . . like his father sometimes. I don’t like it when he gets like that. He can be a bit of a bully. But there’s a good kid in there, I swear. Some days it’s just a little harder to find.”
“Sure,” I said.
“And yet, he’s kind of my rock, you know? He’s there for me. We’re there for each other. I guess that’s why, when you said he had that watch, I just stood up for him.” She raised her hands a moment, a gesture of futility. “Now what do I do? I feel like an idiot standing here. The plan was, Carl says he’s sorry and we go. Now he’s in there with your kid.”
“You want
a coffee or something?” I asked. “You’re welcome to come in.”
She looked at the house. “You got a nice place. Beats the shithole I’m living in.”
“Your place isn’t a shithole,” I said. “And besides, this is my parents’ house.”
“I thought, when Ethan said the trains were his grandfather’s, that maybe they’d been handed down to him or something.”
“No. My dad built a small layout in the basement for Ethan. At least, he says it was for Ethan.”
“When I looked up an address for Harwood, this was the only one that came up. So, that’s cool that you live with your folks? You and your wife and Ethan?”
“Just Ethan and me.”
“Oh,” she said. “Divorced?”
I shook my head. “My wife passed away a few years ago.”
She nodded quickly. “Oh, sorry, didn’t realize. So, well, whaddaya know. We’re both raising boys on our own.”
Did I want to know why she was a single parent? The short answer was yes, I was curious. But did I think it was a good idea to ask? Maybe not. I was grateful she’d returned the pocket watch, and it was nice of her to apologize for scaring the shit out of me. Once Ethan finished showing Carl the trains, Samantha Worthington and her son could be on their way.
So all I said was “It can be a challenge.”
“No shit,” she said. “Especially when your ex is in jail and his parents think they should have custody.”
Well, there it was. No need to ask. Although I now had even more questions. Before I could choose just one of the many bouncing around in my head, she asked, “So what do you do?”
“The last fifteen years or so I’ve worked for newspapers,” I said. “I’d worked at the Standard, then went to the Boston Globe, then came back here to work for the Standard again, and first day on the job they closed the paper.”
“Oh, man, that sucks,” she said. “I didn’t know they’d shut down the Standard.”
“It’s been quite a few weeks now.”
She shrugged. “I don’t read the papers. Books, mostly. I’ve got enough shit going on in my own life, I don’t need to read about everyone else’s. I like escaping into a good story instead, where everything’s made up. It doesn’t have to be happy. I don’t mind bad things happening to good people, so long as they’re not real. God, I’m blathering. So that’s why you’re living with your parents? You’re out of work?”