The Lord of the Green, however—his eyes were almost black. And black was not a color she had ever seen Barrani eyes take. She wondered what it meant.
And he turned, at that moment, to stare at her.
"Do you not know?" he asked. There was no scorn in the question, but it was not neutral; it was weighted with pain, and a twisted longing.
She shook her head. Mute.
He walked away from his brother, and she saw the Lord of the West March flinch but hold his ground.
The Lord of the Green raised a hand, but he did not try to touch her; she could see, in fact, that he was struggling to do the opposite; to keep his hand from its natural trajectory.
"I understand what I am now," he told her.
I don't. But she didn't say the words. She couldn't.
He pointed at her arms. She looked down. They were bare. The rest of her wasn't; she was dressed in Barrani silks that fell from her shoulders, and only her shoulders, as if they were anchors. The skirts were long enough to hide the other marks, but those, too, were present.
She lifted her arms. The words were moving across her skin, losing and taking form as they traveled. She shook her head.
He said, "I was ambitious."
She nodded at this simple statement of fact. From a Barrani, it was the equivalent, in Kaylin's mind, of saying "I'm breathing."
"And I was firstborn. I went to the tower."
She met his gaze; it was black, but she could see some small trace of color in the darkness, and she found it comforting.
"My brother went with me," he added.
"To the test?"
"No. That, the High Halls would not allow, nor would I. But that was his desire."
"What word?" she whispered softly.
"Do you not know? Can you not guess?"
She shook her head.
And he traced a rune in the air between them; his finger, glowing, trailed blue light.
She saw it clearly, and took a step forward; he took a step back, maintaining the small distance between them. "That was—it was—the same. As mine."
"Yes."
"But—" Speech, it seemed, had returned to her.
"Yes. The same."
"Did you see what I saw?"
"No, Kaylin. You will never be Lord of the High Halls." He grimaced. "And neither will I. It is a truth that the Lord of the West March will not accept." He paused, and then he whispered another word. Lirienne.
His brother's name.
She didn't know how to pretend she hadn't heard it. Nor did he seem surprised that she could.
"Do you know what rune he saw?" the Lord of the Green asked her, and turned, then, to look at his brother, standing in isolation.
"No."
He lifted a hand again, and again he traced a symbol in the air. This one, however, although it looked familiar to her eyes, was not. She frowned.
"It means duty," the Lord of the Green told her quietly.
She nodded. It made sense. Probably because she was dreaming; in dreams, all things had their own logic.
"He told you?" she asked softly.
"He told me."
It didn't surprise her. "He passed," she said quietly.
"He passed as if there was no test, and no testing," the Lord of the Green replied. There was pride in the voice. It wasn't mirrored in the eyes, but the blackness of the eyes were almost impenetrable. Color had so little purchase there, she didn't expect more.
"He passed and he came to us in the High Court." He paused, and added, "In our history, his was the shortest of the tests offered by the High Halls. It was almost as if… as if they had already made their decision."
"Yours wasn't so easy."
"I do not say his test was easy, I merely say that he bested it without doubt."
She said quietly, "And you didn't."
Black, black eyes.
"But you returned."
"I returned." He looked again at the Lord of the West March. "He understands his duty," he said quietly, and again, with pain and hesitation, "and he will not do it."
"You—" She stopped talking. She almost stopped breathing. "You can't expect him to kill you."
"He is the Lord of the West March. He faced his ordeal, and he accepted it."
"He had no choice but to accept it! He had to take the test—"
"Kaylin," the Lord of the Green said. "Elianne."
She nodded.
"You faced the test of duty yourself. You failed."
And felt a sudden surge of wild anger take her, hemming her words in. Honing them. But when they were sharp enough to cut, she found that she could no longer speak. Speech, it seemed, was at the whim of the damn Lord of the damn Green.
"He did not understand, when he returned, that his test was yet to come."
"And you did?"
"Then? I was envious, Elianne. I was envious and afraid. My brother is in all ways a better man than I. He had duty… I had choice."
"But what the Hells choice did you make?" The words came out in a jumble of syllables that seemed to go on without break.
He looked at her, his black eyes unblinking. "I should never have returned," he whispered. "I should have died there."
It wasn't much of an answer.
"And," he added softly, "I would have. Laws were broken on the day I went into the tower. They are not your laws, little Hawk. They are not your negotiations. They have no guardians, they appoint none." He hesitated. "My brother must not fail," he said at last, and turned and began to walk away. "Because I still do not have the strength to do what must be done. I live.
"And while I live, we face a death that you can neither comprehend—nor allow." He did not turn back to her. "You faced the test my brother now faces, and you failed it, and you were saved the consequences of your failure by another.
"If my brother fails, in the end, remember your own life with kindness."
And she remembered Steffi and Jade, and woke screaming.
Severn knew the scream, and held her anyway. She saw his face upon waking, and she struggled a moment before reality asserted itself. Then she stilled.
The Barrani guards had opened the door, but they had not entered; they stood in the frame a moment, as if assessing the situation. They couldn't see Severn's face, but hers told them enough. They closed the door, and remained on the other side of it.
She said indistinctly, "I hate the Barrani."
He tightened his grip for a moment, and then let her go. "What have they done this time? And keeping in mind that anything that happens in your dreams isn't a subject for the Law."
"It's the leoswuld," she told him.
He said nothing.
"And their law. Which isn't our law. Or really, law at all." She sat up.
"Kaylin."
And looked at him. "You never told me what the Lord of the High Court said to you after I left."
"No. I didn't."
"What did he say?"
"I didn't tell you for a reason," he replied stiffly.
"He knew."
"Knew what?"
"About you. About the—about our past."
Severn said nothing. She reached up and touched his face, and he almost shied away. But he was Severn; he didn't. "He told you—"
"Kaylin, leave it. Please."
She nodded. "How long did I sleep?"
"A few hours."
"I don't feel much better." She slid off the bed. Looked at the shoes that lay on the floor. She wondered if she could get Barrani shoes to match the dress. Probably. But not now, and she wanted them now.
"Where are you going?" he asked her softly.
"Back," she said grimly, "to the tower."
His face went still. "I'll go with you."
She hesitated, but it wasn't much of a hesitation. "The ceremony—it's tomorrow, isn't it?"
He nodded. "Where are we going?"
"Oh," she said breezily, "almost anywhere."
He muttered something about Leontines and
acting.
"I heard that."
They got up and left the room.
Andellen and Samaran parted like gates as they left the room. Andellen actually bowed.
"Do you listen to every damn word I say?" she asked him.
His face was a study in neutrality. Armored neutrality. But his eyes were an odd shade of green.
She marched along the halls, failing to notice the striking elements of singular beauty that could be found in it—if someone actually cared. At the moment, Kaylin didn't.
"What do you seek?" Andellen asked her after they'd been walking for five minutes in a grim silence.
Without looking at him, she said, "The heart of the High Halls."
"I would have said you found it."
"Funny, so would I."
He stopped walking, which she barely noticed. Severn did, however, and caught her arm. She turned, not even bothering to hide her growing irritation. Because it was a lot like agitation. So much so, that she wasn't sure she could separate them.
"There is a risk in this, Lord," Andellen said quietly.
She stared at him. For a long time. And then she asked him a question. "Where do the ferals come from?"
He frowned.
Severn frowned, too.
"The fiefs," Andellen said eventually.
She turned to Severn. "So, what we faced weren't ferals?"
"They were ferals."
"They weren't real?"
Severn's frown deepened in that I-don't-like-where-this-is-going way. "They were real," he said at last. But he said it as if it were dragged out of him.
"You don't want to go, stay in the room," she told Andellen and Samaran curtly. And in Elantran. "But I have to go."
"Why?"
"Because I had a dream, okay?"
"Kaylin—"
"And I want to see how much of a dream it was."
"The Lord of the High Court—"
Kaylin told Andellen what the Lord of the High Court could do. Given it was anatomically possible, Andellen shut up.
For five seconds. "You had best hope that whoever's listening doesn't speak Elantran, Lord Kaylin."
"At this point? I don't give a rat's ass."
He looked oddly nonplussed. And she realized that he was trying to take the comment literally. She snorted. For smart, immortal people, they could be awfully dense.
She stomped off, and everyone followed. They even followed quickly. Had she been wearing her boots, they wouldn't have had much choice.
The tower arch opened up before them out of nowhere.
And it looked different. The keystone was still there, but the rest of the arch beneath it seemed to have been rebuilt; it was wider, thicker, and a lot more craggy.
But it was the same arch. Kaylin knew it the moment she laid eyes on it. She glanced at Andellen. He said nothing.
Beyond them, beyond the arch, was an unfamiliar set of stairs, and it offered only one passage: down. There were no brass rails to gird it either; a clumsy person would get down much more quickly than they probably wanted.
And Kaylin, looking at those stairs, had a very strong feeling that jumping was not a viable option, unless the goal was suicide. She glanced at the wall the stairs ran up against; it had the look of sheared stone, rather than worked stone, as if this had been taken, whole, from a cliff face. Or was part of one.
There was a rune there, as she had expected. In fact, there were several. None of them were the one she now thought of as hers. She looked at Andellen again. Caught his stiff profile.
"This isn't a test," she told him quietly.
"It is, Kaylin. It is not the test of Lordship, however."
"What do they say?"
He shook his head. "I recognize only one of the thirteen."
"And that one?" i "Death."
"Great." She lifted one arm, and shoved the sleeve up to her elbow; it went with ease. "That's… this one, right?"
Andellen looked at her arm. "No."
And she deflated. "No, why?"
"The shape is right. The center portion is slightly wrong. Here," he added. "And here." He paused, and then offered her the faintest of smiles. "I cannot read the old tongue."
"But you recognized—"
"Yes. But this," he said, his hand above her arm without touching skin, "is older still. The Dragons could tell you some of what it said—but I have grave doubts that they would allow you to retain the arm."
She'd heard it before. And wished that the Dragon who had said it—Lord Tiamaris—were beside her. Wearing the Hawk.
He wasn't. "Will you risk a second time what you risked a first?"
Lord Andellen nodded.
"Samaran?"
"It is not my test," he began. And then he straightened out. "Nor, I think, is it yours. The High Halls will decide. If we can pass through the arch with you, we will."
"Good enough." And she turned and walked through the arch, while the keystone flickered above her. They followed.
One difference, one immediate difference, was that the arch didn't vanish at their backs. Kaylin considered this a sign, but wasn't certain whether or not it was good or bad. "The light here sucks," she said to no one in particular.
Severn glanced at Andellen, who raised a brow. "Light is seldom a difficulty for the Barrani," he finally conceded when Severn failed to look away. The Barrani Lord lifted a hand, and light began to trail from it, as if it were mist. Or liquid.
Kaylin cursed.
"It is not magic," Andellen told her. "It is part of the High Halls."
"I can't do it."
"In a century, it will come naturally."
She wanted to kick him but refrained. Instead, with the comfort of light—even this odd, amorphous light—she began to make her way down the stairs. The darkness that waited beneath her feet was eaten away by the light, but only slowly; her progress was difficult. She didn't, however, remove her shoes. She didn't want to touch the stone steps themselves; they seemed to shine in a way that implied light without actually giving any.
Severn was unwinding his chain.
Andellen, when she looked up to see him, had already drawn his sword, as had Samaran. She, like a human noble, didn't actually have a weapon, and looked up at Severn, who indicated his dagger sheaths. He must be nervous; he wasn't willing to let go of the chain to get them himself.
She pulled them free, and continued to walk, hoping she didn't trip and impale herself. On the whole, though, there were probably worse things.
Like, say, that distant sound of growling.
The expression "hair stood on end" did not do Kaylin's justice; the skin on the back of her neck seemed to ripple, and not in a good way. As if it were Leontine fur.
"It's not ferals," Severn said. One look at his face made it clear that this wasn't meant as comfort.
"Severn?" Two more steps passed beneath her before she turned, her back against the wall. "I told you about the Old Ones, right? And the beginning of life? The Barrani and the Dragons? That they were made of stone, and lifeless, until they were given their names?"
He nodded slowly.
"Why did they only make two?"
"Two races?"
She nodded.
His expression shifted.
And Andellen said quietly, "They didn't."
The heart of the High Halls was a dark, dark place. It wasn't precisely a dungeon; it wasn't, however, enough like anything else that Kaylin bothered to find a word for it. The steps did not, as she had feared, descend forever; they walked for some time, but reached the end. The growls had grown in volume, but they weren't near enough yet.
And because they weren't, Kaylin now agreed with Severn's assessment. Not ferals.
They stood in a stone corridor that looked more like a tunnel. Evidence that it wasn't natural existed; there were runes on the walls at odd intervals, although some had been cracked or damaged. And there were no rats.
The hall's ceiling, such as it was, looked like it had been gouge
d out of rock by large hands, it was that uneven. In places, it went high enough that it couldn't be seen by the light Andellen offered; in places, it was low enough that it skirted Barrani hair. The ground was also uneven, but not as much; someone intended people to walk here.
Where people was a very broad description.
The growls were closer now. Which meant they were heading in the right direction. Or the wrong one, given that there was only one; there were no branches, no other halls, nothing at all in the rock itself.
She thought she would be happy to see a door.
Until she did.
Even Andellen took a step back as they approached it. Because it was made of ebony, or seemed to be, and it absorbed every damn bit of light that wasn't the single rune on it. She cursed in a loud, loud voice that echoed in the cavernous ceiling above.
Andellen caught the bits that weren't swearing and shook his head. "It isn't a door-ward," he said calmly.
She stopped midstream, her hand half raised. "What is it?"
"A warning."
And she realized then where she'd seen this type of black before. The portcullis in Castle Nightshade. This occasioned less swearing and more actual worry. But she looked at the door, and said softly, "He came here."
They all looked at her, as if waiting for more.
"The Lord of the Green. He came here. So we have to go, too." And sucking in air as if she might not get more of it, she walked into the door, just beneath the glowing rune.
Chapter Eighteen
She expected to be dizzy and disoriented. She expected the world to change. She expected to be spit out someplace different.
But the passage through this door was entirely unlike the passage through the portcullis, because it looked like it wasn't going to end. She was trapped in darkness; mired by it; it clung to her in ways that nothing should be able to cling. She felt it almost on the inside of her skin, and had she been able to, she would have taken her skin off just to be rid of it.
She hoped that she wasn't trying. She could see very little, and feel very little. She could hear growling, which didn't help much. This wasn't a place. She couldn't step forward—or back, which at this point seemed preferable. She wasn't really aware that she was moving at all, or even that she could; she couldn't feel her feet. Couldn't tell if she was shouting, either, because she couldn't feel her lips.