Make them mine on this wonderful day
And if tomorrow dark clouds does bring
I will always try to remember
That once upon a time I did sing
For God alone has given me this day
And always and forever more
Bright in my memory it will stay
The Stranger In The Mirror
I wait in darkness sublime
For the end draws near
In this place and this time
I am alone, so alone it's true
There is no one here
I am alone, so alone and blue
The darkness breathes and grows
I batter it's walls
And almost come to blows
I hate the dark but it's my lot
It eats and consumes me
As I sit here in this spot
In this dark I've lost my way
I can't find the way out
Though I try night and day
There's a mirror there and in it I see
The eyes of a stranger
Staring soullessly back at me
That stranger I hate more then the dark
He sucks away my soul and life
Then he snuffs out the spark
Who is this soul crushing one?
How'd he get in my mirror
And from where does he come?
Familiar are the lines of his face
But his eyes are so empty
Of his soul there's no trace
All there is is pain so vast
Not a hint of a future
Nor a trace of a past
Tortured is he that much is clear
He has paid a price
That must have been dear
Why in the mirror is it he that I see
When all that I search for
Is a glimpse of what's me?
The Tide
The flames stretch out so high
Way up into the darkened sky
To step into them, oh so sweet
Exquisite pain from head to feet
All this would end, never more
Losing all despite the score
The black will reign ever supreme
Cease to exist or so it will seem
Pain and darkness call my name
Nothing will ever be the same
Why Oh Lord can't I die?
Ascend to You in the sky?
I just can't take it no more
My soul a tide eroded shore
The Wings Of Time
Across the wings of time
I can only speak in rhyme
Of the torturous depths of hell
The ringing of death's own bell
The loss of every tiny hope
End of the ability to cope
Loneliness that bleeds the soul
Despair extracts a heavy toll
No other soul can understand
Lest they've lived it first hand
It's clear no recourse is there
To cease to be is all that's fair
The Unquiet Mind
It never sleeps
It never stops
All over the map
In great big hops
Round it goes
And round again
Never pausing
I just can't say when
Turning that way
Turning this
Even though
The wheels go hiss
Restless thoughts
Running around
No peace is there
It cannot be found
No sleep for it
No rest at all
It'll never stop
Yeah though it fall
It never slows
Though it falls behind
That's why it's called
The unquiet mind
The Vortex
The current pulling, round and round
The air vibrates with intensity of sound
Trapped by it's evil chilly mighty grip
Far too late to hope to give it the slip
Spinning ever quicker the spiral tightens
Gasping for air the fear inside heightens
Dragged inward, downward by omnipotent force
Fate set in stone, no escaping this course
Surrender now, the path for which was longed
Taps has played, siren's sung, bell has gonged
The time is now, for each beginning an end
No pain, no tears, nowhere more love to send
There at the core a ravenous icy dark mass
Devours all life, letting nothing get past
Writhing, seething evil, blacker than black
Malignant, chaotic, with no need to attack
An overpowering vacuum that lets nothing escape
Even rainbows of light does it shred and rape
Ripping, shredding, destroying all that's held dear
Nothing left at all, no love, life, pain and no fear
The Walls Keep On Growing
The walls keep on growing
But cracks are now showing
To each one I apply plaster
Going faster and even faster
They spread ever quicker
Keep growing ever thicker
Soon the walls will shatter
It will no longer matter
Leaving me no place to hide
At last I will have died
The Wheel
The wheel turns and you never know
Where it will stop or when it will slow
Come one, come all, everyone must play
There can be no bystanders, now or any day
It knows your desires, It decides your fate
You cannot escape, it's already too late
So step on up and lay down your best bet
Come lay it on down there, see what you get
Hold nothing back, It will not avail you
It's all at risk, even life's on there too
For you what does this devilish wheel hold?
Is it health and prosperity, riches and gold?
Is it joy and happiness, love stronger then steel?
Is contentment for you to be found on this wheel?
Or is there heartbreak and pain in the next turn?
Will the outcome of this spin make your heart burn?
Will madness and insanity be there where it stops?
Will crippling disfigurement show up at the top?
You've risked it all whether you like it or not
So watch the wheel closely to determine your lot
Spin after spin it laughs at us mortals
And waiting for all is death's portal
The World Tipped And I Fell Off
Flipping and spinning and whirling
Into the cold, empty vastness of space
Where, desperate, I hooked a moon beam
Threw a leg over and climbed aboard
Grasping tightly I mastered it
Turned it to my own designs
Together we headed outward
Onward to the stars
Perchance to pause at Pluto
Dad always said we were from Pluto
Maybe family awaited a reunion
Even though it's no longer a planet
But the maelstrom stuck out a tentacle
And snatched me right off my moon beam
Dragging me into the storm
I was buffeted and beaten
Tossed about like flotsam in the rapids
Gale force winds tore at me
Mad currents took me as slave
To do with what they will
Jaggedly sharp streaks of lightning
Cracked and shattered it all
Vicious flames of hell scorched my soul
While storm lashed downpours soaked my flesh
East, West, North, South
Up, down, left, right
Lost all meaning, time
lost all meaning
Reality lost all meaning
As all descended into utter chaos
And seconds, minutes, years, eons later
I was regurgitated into a strange, new universe
One I no longer recognize
No wonder I feel out of place
I am an alien here... this is NOT my world
Nor is it my universe
Then He Sat Back And Laughed
He was all powerful, all seeing
All knowing, the great and powerful Oz
He created a land of milk and honey
And gave light unto that land
And He filled it with the birds of the air,
The fish of the seas and all manner of beasts
He filled the fields with flowers and grasses,
and caused vast forests to grow
He made great and beautiful mountains to spring up
And vast chasms of awe and majesty to form
There were deserts and grasslands,
Rivers and seas, vast reaches covered in ice
And everywhere life teemed.
He saw it but was not pleased.
Something was missing,
This would not serve His purposes
So he filled all the lands with people
Made in His own image
He gave them dominion over all
And the power to love and care for all that He'd created
And it was good.
But still He was not pleased.
All was good, too good for His purposes.
So He created the night, the black
And He gave to mankind hatred and warfare
And all manner of black and vile things
He released despair and loneliness
He set forth as much evil as He'd released good
Evil to torture those souls that He'd created
Then He sat back and laughed.
There To Peruse The Lands Of Oz Once Again
Drifting lazily under a bright summer's sky
Tiny wavelets lapping the side of the boat
Lines cast out from the rods dangling over the stern
Oars tucked snugly inside the boat, safe from the water
On the horizon trees cast shadows upon the water below
Quiet and stillness, solitude and serenity, peace
Calm suffuses my body, reaching down to my very bones
Muscles relaxed I drift in a daze,
Nodding off at times to amazing dreams,
Dreams of the world of Oz where all is right with the world
Stressors forgotten all that remains is peace
Peace and the softy muted sounds of the water,
The quiet chirps of birds as they pass over head
The splash of a duck as it lands upon the stillness of the water
Disturbing it for a brief time only, the disturbance rapidly passes
And once again all is stillness and calm, serene solitude
A bobber dips, the line it's attached to quivers
But it's ignored in order to maintain the peaceful perfection of it all
Such total relaxation as can only be found here, in solitude
Away from the worries of the world, away from pressing needs,
Needless deadlines, stressed out bosses, excited kids,
Needful spouses.
Tip my hat down low over my eyes and drift some more
Drift into dreamland there to peruse the lands of Oz once again
There Will Be Not A Trace
Close the doors, secure the locks
Latch the windows, lower the shades
Off with the lights, no more shocks
Shutter my life, do it in spades
Let no one see what's real and inside
Lock them away, keep them at arm's reach
The mask is my shield, behind it I hide
Let no one know, there's a story for each
Very soon to a head will all things come
Plans come to a head, it all falls into place
Tiny careful baby steps taken one by one
And then left of me there will be not a trace
This Moment In Time
This moment in time
Is all that we're given
Treat it dearly
Before it is riven
Don't look back
Last moment is passed
Like a stone in the sea
It has been cast
There may not be
A next moment for you
So worry you not
Over that one too
Make this one count
Live it to your best
Ability to do so
Don't take it in jest
Lord grant you the wisdom
To live fully today
So that I missed it
You won't have to say
This Time I Made It
The breeze came a blowing
And the darkness went a flowing
It's the same old thing
same cycle, same ring
In comes the evil, the bad
It breaks my heart, makes me sad
causes pain I wish I never had
Makes me feel weak and always so bad
Makes me hate me and more then that
Makes me want to hit my head with a bat
Then the darkness fills me
And nothing thrills me
But next comes the breeze,
It comes and puts me at ease
A breath of fresh air
And no pain no where
It blows through my soul
The darkness pays the toll
It leaves me to be
At peace you see
No hurt, no pain
It's all been slain
By that breath of fresh air
That comes from some where
Now normal I feel
I am braced like steel
For the return of the black
For it always comes back
Next time I may not survive
But this time I made it.
Thoughts
The world skipped and I was not.
You'll shed no tears for me
For I won't even be a memory
Eternal night
Sink, sink until I drown
A blink and I never was
The world will little remember
I'll just fade away
Into the night
And the dark will swallow me
'Twill be as though I never existed
Never dreamed, never born
Naught but vapor, a lost memory
Passing away
Not lost, not forgotten
Never existed
Gone, never was, never will be
This is reality
I am but a nightmare
The answer to my prayers
Is nothing
They don't exist
I don't exist
The stuff of nightmares
And dreams, hopes, wishes
What are wishes but hopes for the impossible?
Where am I? What am I? WHY am I?
No purpose, no reason
I am not. The world has skipped.
Through A Glass Darkly
The glass is dark and grungy
It filters out all of the light
It turns all beyond to shades of gray
Darkens all that was ever bright
Through the glass seen only dimly
Scenes of a life pass oh so slowly
The life they show is so treasured
Even though it be ever so lowly
The scenes passing by in gray and black
Reflect a life that lived has been
One where joy and light once was found
One that happiness once was in
But as they roll by they grow darker
The joy and happiness begins to fade
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p; The light it is in full retreat
There's only tears in which to wade
The black it grows and starts to devour
All the life that shows in these scenes
The sanity fades and madness creeps in
Like a babe as off the tit it weans
The darkness begins to take over
Soon all is black and hard to distinguish
Starving it devours all of the light
All the fires of life it will extinguish
Soon this life will reach an end
Who will mourn it and wish it back
Surely it's owner will never so wish
For the fires of life he will lack
And so we soon come to the end
All is black, nothing can be seen
The black of the grave has engulfed it all
There's nothing left on which to lean
Through A Raindrop Filtered
Through a raindrop filtered
Softened and muted the world
From the world sunlight pilfered
Gray shades over soul are furled
Drowned inside that sodden tear
Lost amid dead ghosts of past
Out there is naught but a smear
While inside a hole so vast
Through a raindrop distorted
All things bathed in unreality
Life has long since been aborted
Just a twisted, broken fatality
Today Will Remain Ever The Same
It's another day, another dollar
Always the same or so does it seem
It's never changing, always the same
Just one more day in an endless stream
Is it Tuesday today or is it Wednesday?
Sorry to say but I just don't know
Everything's the same each step of the way
Never changing wherever I go