He hated having to put it on the line to her, but she left him no choice. Deep down, he knew he was helping her far more than she would understand until much later. “I’m not coming back to stay, and I’m not coming back without you being here. You really don’t have a lot of options.”
“I can’t do it,” she stated with a hint of desperation in her voice. “My job is waiting for me in Washington.”
His voice was firm and unmoving. “You have to, Lindsey.”
She balled her hands up at her sides as she pushed to her feet, and glared at him, desperation in her voice. “Why are you doing this?”
It was hard pushing her, knowing she hated him at this very moment. But he knew it was for the best. “You asked for my help. I’m offering it.”
“Help?” she demanded. “You call this help?” She glared. “I have a job to get back to. I asked you to take back your old responsibilities, minus me. This,” she waved around the room, “is yours, not mine. Take it back.”
He kept his expression blank. She spoke like the firm was a material item to simply give or take. It was so much more complex. “I can’t do that,” he said softly.
Her hands flattened on the desk, her voice a low, angry promise. “I’m not staying. You can have this damn place. There is no use mentoring me because I’m not staying. Mentor someone else.” Her voice softened. “Please.”
Their eyes locked. There was a long, tense silence. “You and I both know Edward wouldn’t allow me to take the firm without you.”
“I’ll convince him.”
“I’ve got a news flash for you, Lindsey. I’m walking away from consulting work to do this. My being here is no small request. I am not the enemy.” He paused, and then added, “I’m a friend.”
Her lips pursed. “Yeah, right. Friend?” She crossed her arms in front of her body, and turned her face away from him. “I don’t think so.”
Mark pushed to his feet and covered the distance between them as she backed up against the credenza. He stopped directly in front of her, intentionally not giving her room to escape. She looked up at him, surprise in her eyes. She didn’t move. He didn’t move. They were so close that their legs almost touched.
He could smell the soft scent of her perfume. He could taste the torment eating at her. And he could feel the connection between them . . . and damn, it was hard to push her, when he just wanted to comfort. But he had no choice. “Do we have a deal, Lindsey?” he asked in a quiet, steady voice.
She closed her eyes. “What choice do I have?”
He grabbed her chin gently in his fingers, making her eyes dart open. “You have a choice. I can walk out of the door and never see you again.” He paused to give her a minute to digest his words. Part of him wanted her to tell him to do just that. He was in uncharted territory. The very fact that he was here, unable to fight the urge to help her, was enough to make him want to cut and run. Another part of him knew he couldn’t leave without seeing this through. “It’s your choice Lindsey. Do I stay, or do I go?”
She swallowed. “Can I have some time to consider?”
He couldn’t help but smile. “What do you think?”
She sighed. “I figured as much.” She diverted her eyes for a second and then looked back up. “Stay.”
He smiled and released her chin. “So be it, then.” He looked at his watch. “Unfortunately, I have to go see a client.” He sighed and returned his gaze to her face. His hand went to her cheek, his fingers caressing her perfect skin. He heard her intake of breath with satisfaction. She was not unaffected by his touch.
Fighting the urge to see just how far he could push, he forced himself to take a step backwards. He turned and started walking towards the door. He turned to face her before leaving. “Line up a partners meeting for Wednesday at five-thirty.” He wanted a plan to get close to her, to force her to start dealing with the past and the future. “I’d like to meet with you at five today to review how we will split things up.”
Taking orders from him was eating her up. He bit back a smile as she nodded and gave him a terse acceptance. “One last thing,” he added. “I want you to first chair the Williams case.” She started to protest, but he up a staying hand. “It’s non-negotiable, Lindsey.”
And then he turned and left her there, staring after him, and no doubt cursing his very existence.
* * * * *
In silence, they sat side by side at the conference table in Mark’s office. He seemed to have slipped back into his old environment with comfort.
Lindsey watched as he tugged at the top button of his shirt and loosened his tie as if he couldn’t stand it a second longer. Inwardly, she moaned, pulling her bottom lip into her teeth. The man was simply gorgeous. And smart. It was a damnable combination that seemed to wreck havoc on her desire to hate him.
Studying him, she noted the tightness of his jaw, now covered with light stubble. His hair looked as if he had been running his hands through it, perhaps from frustration. Somehow that only served to enhance his appeal. It also made her wonder what he’d found on his first day back to Paxton.
“So,” she said stretching out the word. “Have you had time to make any assessments today?”
He leaned back in his chair, letting out a heavy sigh. The look on his face said he didn’t want to tell her what was on his mind. He hesitated, and then, “The books are a wreck, and I still don’t know what Edward thought he was proving by choosing some of these cases.”
She shook her head and swallowed. “What exactly is the problem?” She was almost afraid to hear the answer.
A muscle in his jaw jumped. “Over the last few years, Edward started taking on cases for people who had zero financial means. It has gotten worse, not better, since I have been gone.”
Her eyes went to the space above his shoulder as she thought out loud. “I noticed the oddity of the cases.” Then, refocusing on Mark, “I was hoping you could offer some insight. Daddy was always about money.”
“He took on a new philosophy this past year. Work for free is what it basically boils down to.” The pure frustration in his voice was enough to set her on edge. He started rolling up his sleeves. Like he needed to get ready for some serious work. “Let’s set the subject of the books aside for now. Tonight we need to focus on the Williams case. He happens to be one of the few clients who actually can pay his bills.”
A puzzled expression filled her face. “Yes, he does, which is odd considering the rest of the caseload.”
He agreed. “Right. A professor at NYU who comes from a wealthy family.”
“I can’t figure out how he fits in with the other cases.” She frowned. “If I understood the logic of the case choices, I might feel a little better.”
Mark seemed to want to say something—she could see it in his eyes, but then he withdrew, as if he had talked himself out of whatever it was. She frowned, wondering what he was thinking and not saying.
“I reviewed the file today and nothing has been done,” he said. “We don’t have a choice but to file for a continuance.”
Even a quick glimpse at the file had told her as much.
“I already have the papers being drafted.”
He didn’t acknowledge her words. Instead, he gave her a level stare and cleared his throat. “I’ve changed my mind. I want you to second chair.”
“Wow,” she said putting on the brakes. “Why the sudden change of heart?” She felt the pinch of indignation. “You think I can’t handle it now?”
Surprise filled his face. “I thought you would be happy.”
She waved off his words. “That’s not the point.” She jabbed her pen against the pad of paper in front of her as her agitation grew. “There’s something you’re not saying, and I don’t like it. Not one bit. Are you afraid I’ll collapse during trial or something ridiculous like that?” She didn’t give him time to respond. “I won’t, you know.”
He shook his head in disbelief. “I do not think you will collapse in trial. Damn, woman, what does it t
ake to please you?”
Lindsey grimaced, not liking the idea of being considered incompetent one bit. No, she didn’t want to go back to court, but she wanted to fail even less. “Look, after you dropped your little bomb on me, and then ran out the door unwilling to face me, I might add, I spent all afternoon getting myself prepared to face this damn case. So don’t go turning back the clock now.”
He laughed in disbelief. “First of all, I did not run off. I had a meeting.”
She smirked and crossed her arms in front of her body. “Uh-huh.”
“To be clear,” he said, his voice now more intense, his eyes direct as they held hers, “I trust your abilities in and out of the courtroom.” He let the words linger a moment. “Probably more than you trust yourself.”
“You have a terrible way of showing it.”
Mark opened the file that sat in front of him. He spread five pictures out on the table, and leaned back in his chair. Watching her. “What do these girls have in common?”
The dark reality of the images made her swallow hard. She’d seen plenty of crime scene photos, but these brought back memories she preferred to avoid. “They’re dead,” she said flatly, her eyes lifting to his. She’d seen enough.
“What else?” Mark shot back.
She swallowed, and forced herself to look down. “They all fit a profile, of course.”
“What profile, Lindsey?” he pressed.
“I’ve seen the file,” she said in a clipped tone, giving him a hard stare. “I know these are the women Williams is accused of killing.”
“They fit another profile too, though, don’t they?” He was challenging her. Waiting for her reaction.
She glanced up at him and then back down at the photos, her stomach churning with realization. Her response was a harsh whisper. “They fit the Hudson profile.” She dropped her pencil and ran her now-damp palms down her thighs.
His eyes narrowed. “We both know the other obvious factor.” It was a question, but not really. They both knew the answer.
He wanted her to admit it out loud, and she knew it. Why, she wasn’t sure. She stiffened, feeling the tension of the moment. And frustration, even a hint of anger. She didn’t want to deal with this, but he was making her. “You think I don’t know they all look like me?”
He leaned forward. “Then you understand why I am going to first chair.”
She snapped, heat filling her gaze. “Stop trying to protect me. I am perfectly capable of handling this damn case.”
* * * * *
Lindsey was, if nothing else, unpredictable.
Just this morning, she had all but refused to first chair the Williams case. She’d been ready to choke him when he had made his announcement. He’d seen it in her eyes. Who would have figured she would now be accusing him of being protective?
“You can scream, throw things, do what you will, but I am not—I repeat, I am not—letting you first chair.” His eyes dared her to argue. She wanted to, too. After a long, tension-filled moment, he asked, “How well have you read the file?”
The question took the wind out of her sails. The truth was, and they both knew it, she hadn’t even been able to bring herself to read it cover to cover. “I started to . . .” her voice trailed off.
“But you didn’t.” He let the words linger in the air. “I’ll first chair. You can ease back into the courtroom, and deal with the implications of the past with less pressure. It’s for the best.”
“Just this morning—”
He cut her off. “I hadn’t seen the pictures of those women.” He reached for the photos, ready to get them out of sight. The way they resembled Lindsey was downright scary. “Now, I have. Now you second chair.”
A knock sounded. Ms. Moore, her father’s assistant, peaked around the door. “Sandwiches are here,” she said in her normal, cheerful voice.
“Come on in Maggie,” Mark said, waving her forward as a boyish grin filled his face.
Mark had a soft spot for Maggie. She was like everyone’s grandmother, a sweet, older woman with a nurturing tendency. Near sixty, she needed to retire, but refused. She liked being busy. Even seemed undaunted by Edward’s constant harsh ways.
Maggie was smiling at Mark as she rushed into the room. “I have your favorite, Mark,” she said smiling. “And I remembered: no mayo, extra mustard.” Then she held up a bag of cookies. “And I got oatmeal raisin cookies. I know how you love them.”
“Thanks Maggie,” he said. “You are always so good to me.” She’d been one of the few bright spots at Paxton.
Maggie turned her attention on Lindsey. “I remembered what you liked, too. Egg salad on wheat.”
Lindsey blinked. “I’m impressed. It’s been years.”
Maggie patted Lindsey on the back and winked. “I had to have a good memory to handle all the things your father threw at me, honey. Besides, how could I forget my little Lindsey? Seems like yesterday you were a little one running around here with your Barbies.”
Lindsey laughed. “Yes, well that was a long time ago. I was always at your desk bugging you though, wasn’t I?”
Maggie buzzed around the table like a busybody, giving them each napkins. “Yes,” she sighed. “I miss those days. You both,” she waved a finger between Mark and Lindsey, “work far too hard, but I will shut up because neither of you will listen anyway.” She sighed with regret as Mark and Lindsey exchanged an amused glance. “You both have tea to drink. I’ll be leaving now, unless there is anything else either of you need?”
Mark chuckled. “I think we are fine now. Thanks again, Maggie. Have a nice evening.”
“Okay, don’t stay too late. See you both in the morning.” Maggie started towards the door, but turned back. “It’s nice to have you both back.”
Lindsey smiled. “Thanks Maggie,” she said, with a hint of emotion in her voice. “Goodnight.”
Maggie waved and left the room, humming as she pulled the door shut. Lindsey stared at Mark as he opened his mouth to bite into his sandwich. He stopped midway to his mouth and sat his sandwich down on the wrapper. “What?” he asked as a puzzled look settled on his face.
She motioned with her head towards the door. “What was that?”
“What was what?” he asked holding up his hands in question.
“Maggie?” she questioned in astonishment. “Daddy never called her Maggie.”
He grunted. “I’m not Edward. Never was, never will be.”
“You were quite nice to her,” she commented as she started opening the paper around her sandwich.
“And that surprises you?”
Guilt registered in her expression. “I’m sorry. That was bad of me. Your reputation says you like to win, not that you like to be mean while you do it.”
“I guess you have a lot left to learn about me,” he said, only half-kidding. Part of him was bothered that she would have thought him capable of being anything but nice to Maggie.
A few minutes passed as they busied themselves eating. Lindsey scribbled some notes as Mark thumbed through the file. “It really is amazing how she remembered what I always ordered so far back,” Lindsey commented.
He gave her a half-smile “That’s Maggie for you.”
“Yeah, I guess so. She is one of the few things about this place I missed.”
He rested his elbows on the table and watched her a long moment. “I bet there is more than you realize.”
She glanced at him. “I doubt it.” Changing the subject, she said, “We were talking about the Williams case. There has been no research whatsoever completed to date that I could see. Is that your take?”
Mark shook his head in agreement as he took the last bite of his sandwich and crumpled up his wrapper. He swiveled in his chair and shot the balled-up paper into the trashcan. Swoosh, it went into the can. “Yes,” he said, about his success.
Lindsey rolled her eyes, and laughed. “King of trashcan basketball. Just where do your skills stop?”
He smiled, seeing an opp
ortunity and taking it. “I’m good at lots of things.” He leaned in a little closer to her, a sudden awareness between them. “Spend some time with me and you might be surprised what you discover.”
She didn’t seem to know how to respond. They sat here, attraction lacing the air, eyes locked, until she averted her gaze. “I was thinking I would do some field investigating tomorrow. We don’t have time for someone else to do it. I’ll hit the streets bright and early.”
“We’ll hit the streets,” he said, drawing her gaze. “You aren’t going without me. This is a murder investigation, remember?”
“I don’t need a bodyguard,” she said with irritation lacing her words. “I make my living protecting others.”
He held up a finger. “Did you ever go out into the field alone while you were investigating a violent crime?”
She fidgeted in her chair. “Well . . .”
“Exactly. I’ll pick you up in the morning. Write down your address for me. It’s that or I’m hiring a buddy of mine to do the field work.”
“We don’t have time for someone else to get up and running.”
Mark’s tone was confident. “Royce Walker doesn’t need time to get up and running.”
“Royce Walker, as in the state security liaison?”
Mark grinned. “Yep, the one and only.”
“I still think I can do a better job in less time.”
He shrugged. “Then you will have to put up with me tagging along.”
Lindsey grimaced but wrote down her address and phone number. “If you get lost, call me.”
He gave her a ‘you’re-kidding’ look. “I won’t get lost.”
“Of course not. Not Mark Reeves,” she mocked.
Mark ignored her. “Nine o’clock.”
She nodded her agreement. “Lose the suit,” she said pointing to his jacket.
Mark stood up and started to take off his jacket.
“Stop!” Lindsey shouted. “What are you doing?”
“You said lose the suit,” he said, playfully dumbfounded.
“You knew what I meant,” she insisted. “Don’t wear a suit for the field work.”
He frowned. “You sure? I’ll be happy to lose it now.” Amusement danced in his eyes.