Outside, the cold was a relief, and Cody was grateful for the lumbering noise of the traffic in the street. He stood between Jenny and Ruth and accepted the murmurs of strangers. “Beautiful service,” they told him.
“Thank you,” he said.
He heard a woman say to Ezra, over by the church doorway, “I’m so sorry for your trouble,” and Ezra said, kindly, “Oh, that’s all right”—although for Ezra alone, of the three of them, this death was clearly not all right. What would he fill his life with now? He had been his mother’s eyes. Lately, he had been her hands and feet as well. Now that she was gone he would come home every night and … do what? What would he do? Just sit on the couch by himself, Cody pictured; or lie on his bed, fully dressed, staring into the swarming, brownish air above his bed.
Jenny said, “Did Ezra tell you we’re meeting at his restaurant afterward?”
Cody groaned. He shook an old man’s hand and said to Jenny, “I knew it. I just knew it.” Hadn’t he told Ruth, in fact? In the car coming down, he’d said, “Oh, God, I suppose there’ll be one of those dinners. We’ll have to have one of those eternal family dinners at Ezra’s restaurant.”
“He’s probably too upset,” Ruth said. “I doubt he’d give a dinner now.”
This showed she didn’t know Ezra as well as she’d always imagined. Certainly he would give a dinner. Any excuse would do—wedding or engagement or nephew’s name on the honor roll. “Dinner at the Homesick Restaurant! Everyone in the family! Just a cozy family gathering”—and he’d rub his hands together in that annoying way he had. He no doubt had his staff at work even at this moment, preparing the … what were they called? The funeral baked meats. Cody sighed. But he suspected they would have to attend.
The old man must have spoken; he was waiting for Cody to answer. He tilted his flushed, tight-skinned face beneath an elaborate plume of silver hair that let the light shine through. “Thank you,” Cody said. Evidently, this was the wrong response. The old man made some disappointed adjustment to his mouth. “Um …” said Cody.
“I said,” the old man told him, “I said, ‘Cody? Do you know me?’ ”
Cody knew him.
It shouldn’t have taken him so long. There were clues he should have picked up at once: that fan-shaped pompadour, still thick and sharply crimped; the brilliant blue of his eyes; the gangsterish air of his pinstriped, ill-fitting navy blue suit.
“Yes,” the old man said, with a triumphant nod. “It’s your father speaking, Cody.”
Cody said to Jenny, “I’m not sure if Ezra remembered to set a place for Dad.”
“What?” Jenny said. She looked at Beck Tull. “Oh,” she said.
“At the restaurant. Did he remember?”
“Oh, well, probably,” she said.
“Nothing fancy,” Cody told Beck.
Beck gaped at him.
“Just a light repast at the Homesick.”
“What are you talking about?” Beck asked.
“Dinner afterward, of course, at the Homesick Restaurant.”
Beck passed a hand across his forehead. He said, “Is this here Jenny?”
“Yes,” Jenny told him.
“Jenny, last time I set eyes on you you were just about eight years old,” said Beck. “Was it eight? Or nine. Your favorite song was ‘Mairzy Doats.’ You babbled that thing night and day.”
“Oh, yes,” Jenny said distantly. “And little lambs eat ivy.”
Beck, who had drawn a breath to go on speaking, paused and shut his mouth.
“You remember Ruth,” said Cody.
“Ruth?”
“My wife.”
“Why should I remember her? I’ve been away! I haven’t been here!”
Ruth stepped forward to offer her hand. “So Cody’s married,” said Beck. “Fancy that. Any children?”
“Well, Luke, of course,” Cody said.
“I’m a grandfather!” He turned to Jenny. “How about you? Are you married?”
“Yes, but he’s left to pick up the little ones,” Jenny said. She waved goodbye to somebody.
“And Ezra?” Beck asked. “Where’s Ezra?”
“Over there by the steps,” Cody said.
“Ah.”
Beck set off jauntily, running a hand through his crest of hair. Jenny and Cody gazed after him.
“If I just saw him on the street,” Jenny said, “I would have passed him by.”
“We are just seeing him on the street,” Cody told her.
“Well. Yes.”
They watched Beck arrive before Ezra with a bounce, like a child presenting some accomplishment. Ezra bent his head courteously to hear Beck’s words, then gave him a mild smile and shook his hand.
“Imagine!” they heard Beck say. “Look at you! Both my sons are bigger than I am.”
“Dinner is at my restaurant,” Ezra told him calmly.
Beck’s expression faltered once again, but recovered itself. “Wonderful!” he said. He moved toward the teen-agers, who had got wind of what was going on and stood in a clump nearby—silent, staring, hostile as usual. Beck seemed not to notice. “I’m your grandpa,” he told them. “Your Grandpa Tull. Ever heard of me?” Probably they hadn’t, unless they’d thought to inquire. He moved down the line, beaming. “I’m your long-lost grandpa. And you are—? What a handsome young fellow!”
He pumped the hand of the tallest teen-ager, who unfortunately was not a grandson at all but one of Ezra’s salad boys.
Cody and Ruth and Jenny led the way to the restaurant on foot. The others lagged behind untidily. The first group turned onto St. Paul Street and passed various bustling little buildings—a dry cleaner’s and a drugstore and a florist. All the other pedestrians were black; most held jangling radios to their ears, so that scraps of songs about love and jealousy and hardhearted women kept approaching and fading away. Then Ezra’s wooden sign swung overhead, and the three of them climbed the steps and walked in.
In the chilly light from the windows, the restaurant seemed glaringly empty. One long table was covered with white linen, set with crystal and china. Thirteen places, Cody counted; for Jenny’s Joe would be bringing more children, those too small to have sat through the service. A sweet-faced, plump waitress in a calico smock was drawing up a high chair for the baby. When she saw them come in, she stopped to give Jenny a hug. “I’m so sorry for your trouble,” she said. “You and all your family, hear?”
“Thank you, Mrs. Potter,” Jenny said. “Do you know my brother Cody? And this is Ruth, his wife.”
Mrs. Potter clicked her tongue. “It’s a terrible day for you,” she said.
Cody turned toward the door in time to see Beck and Ezra enter, trailed by teen-agers. Ezra had obviously relaxed and grown talkative; he never could be cool to anyone for long. “So I tore out that wall there …” he was saying.
“Very nice. Very classy,” said Beck.
“Stripped down these floors …”
“I hope you don’t serve that kind of food a fellow can’t identify.”
“Oh, no.”
“A mishmash of food, one thing not separate from another.”
“No, never,” Ezra said.
Cody watched with interest. (Ezra very often served such food.) Ezra led Beck through the room, waving an arm here and there. “See, these tables can be moved together if anyone should … and this is the kitchen … and these are two of my cooks, Sam and Myron. They’ve come in especially for our dinner. At night I have three more: Josiah, Chenille, and Mohammad.”
“Quite an operation,” said Beck.
The others, meanwhile, hung around their table. No one took a seat. Cody’s son, Luke, and Jenny’s son Peter—both unnaturally formal in white shirts and ties—wrestled together in an aimless, self-conscious way, tossing hidden glances at Beck. Probably these children saw him as a brand-new chance—a fresh start, someone to appreciate them at last. Yet when they finally sat down, no one chose a place near Beck. It was shyness, maybe. Even Ezra sett
led some distance away. Since Joe and the younger ones had still not arrived, this meant that Beck found himself flanked by several empty chairs. He didn’t seem to notice. Kinglike, he sat alone, folding his hands before his plate and beaming around at the others. A tracery of red veins, distinct as mapped rivers and tributaries, showed in his cheeks. “So,” he said. “My son owns a fancy restaurant.”
Ezra looked pleased and embarrassed.
“And my daughter’s a doctor,” said Beck. “But Cody? What about you?”
Cody said, “Why, you know: I’m an efficiency consultant.”
“A, how’s that?”
Cody didn’t answer. Ezra said, “He checks out factories. He tells them how to do things more efficiently.”
“Ah! A time-study man.”
“He’s one of the very best,” said Ezra. “He’s always getting written up in articles.”
“Is that so. Well, I sure am proud of you, son.”
Cody had a sudden intimation that tomorrow, it would be more than he could manage to drag himself off to work. His success had finally filled its purpose. Was this all he had been striving for—this one brief moment of respect flitting across his father’s face?
“I often wondered about you, Cody,” Beck said, leaning toward him. “I often thought about you after I went away.”
“Oh?” said Cody, politely. “Have you been away?”
His father sat back.
“Any how,” Ezra said. He cleared his throat. “Well. Dad. Are you still working for the Tanner Corporation?”
“No, no, I’m retired. Retired in sixty-five. They gave me a wonderful banquet and a sterling silver pen-and-pencil set. Forty-two years of service I put in.”
Ruth murmured—an admiring, womanly sound. He turned to her and said, “To tell you the truth, I kind of miss it. Miss the contacts, miss the life … A salesman’s life has a lot of action, know what I mean? Lot of activity. Oftentimes now it doesn’t seem there’s quite enough to keep me busy. But I do a bit of socializing, cardplaying. Got a few buddies at my hotel. Got a lady friend I see.” He peeked around at the others from under his tufted eyebrows. “I bet you think I’m too old for such things,” he said. “I know what you’re thinking! But this is a really fine lady; she puts a lot of stock in me. And you understand I mean no disrespect to your mother, but now that she’s gone and I’m free to remarry …”
Somehow, it had never occurred to Cody that his parents were still married. Jenny and Ezra, too, blinked and drew back slightly.
“Only trouble is this lady’s daughter,” Beck told them. “She’s got this daughter, no-good daughter, thirty-five years old if she’s a day but still residing at home. Eustacia Lee. No good whatsoever. Lost two fingers in a drill press years ago and never worked since, spent her compensation money on a snowmobile. I’m not too sure I want to live with her.”
No one seemed able to think of any comment.
Then Joe arrived. He burst through the door, traveling in an envelope of fresh-smelling air, carrying the baby and towing a whole raft of children. Really there were only three, but it seemed like more; they were so chattery and jumbled. “Mrs. Nesbitt almost didn’t let me out of school,” and “You’ll never guess what the baby ate,” and “Phoebe had to stay in for being prejudiced in math.” “Who’s this?” a child asked, facing Beck.
“Your Grandpa Tull.”
“Oh,” she said, taking a seat. “Do us kids get wine?”
“Joe, I’d like you to meet my father,” Jenny said.
“Really?” said Joe. “Gosh.” But then he had to figure out the high-chair strap.
The last two children slipped into the empty chairs on either side of Beck. They twined their feet through the rungs, set pointy elbows on the table. Surrounded, Beck gazed first to his left and then to his right. “Will you look at this!” he said.
“Pardon?” Jenny asked.
“This group. This gathering. This … assemblage!”
“Oh,” said Jenny, taking a bib from her purse. “Yes, it’s quite a crowd.”
“Eleven, twelve … thirteen … counting the baby, it’s fourteen people!”
“There would have been fifteen, but Slevin’s off at college,” Jenny said.
Beck shook his head. Jenny tied the bib around the baby’s neck.
“What we’ve got,” said Beck, “is a … well, a crew. A whole crew.”
Phoebe, who was religious, started loudly reciting a blessing. Mrs. Potter set a steaming bowl of soup before Beck. He sniffed it, looking doubtful.
“It’s eggplant soup,” Ezra told him.
“Ah, well, I don’t believe …”
“Eggplant Soup Ursula. A recipe left behind by one of my very best cooks.”
“On this day of death,” Phoebe said, “the least some people could do is let a person pray in silence.”
“She cooked by astrology,” Ezra said. “I’d tell her, ‘Let’s have the endive salad tonight,’ and she’d say, ‘Nothing vinegary, the stars are wrong,’ and up would come some dish I’d never thought of, something I would assume was a clear mistake, but it worked; it always worked. There might be something to this horoscope business, you know? But last summer the stars advised her to leave, and she left, and this place has never been the same.”
“Tell us the secret ingredient,” Jenny teased him.
“Who says there’s a secret ingredient?”
“Isn’t there always a secret ingredient? Some special, surprising trick that you’d only share with blood kin?”
“Well,” said Ezra. “It’s bananas.”
“Aha.”
“Without bananas, this soup is nothing.”
“On this day of death,” Phoebe said, “do we have to talk about food?”
“It is not a day of death,” Jenny told her. “Use your napkin.”
“The thing is,” Beck said. He stopped. “What I mean to say,” he said, “it looks like this is one of those great big, jolly, noisy, rambling … why, families!”
The grown-ups looked around the table. The children went on slurping soup. Beck, who so far hadn’t even dipped his spoon in, sat forward earnestly. “A clan, I’m talking about,” he said. “Like something on TV. Lots of cousins and uncles, jokes, reunions—”
“It’s not really that way at all,” Cody told him.
“How’s that?”
“Don’t let them mislead you. It’s not the way it appears. Why, not more than two or three of these kids are even related to you. The rest are Joe’s, by a previous wife. As for me, well, I haven’t been with these people in years—couldn’t tell you what that baby’s name is. Is it a boy or a girl, by the way? Was I even informed of its birth? So don’t count me in your clan. And Becky down there, at the end of the table—”
“Becky?” said Beck. “Does she happen to be named for me, by any chance?”
Cody stopped, with his mouth open. He turned to Jenny.
“No,” said Jenny, wiping the baby’s chin. “Her name’s Rebecca.”
“You think we’re a family,” Cody said, turning back. “You think we’re some jolly, situation-comedy family when we’re in particles, torn apart, torn all over the place, and our mother was a witch.”
“Oh, Cody,” Ezra said.
“A raving, shrieking, unpredictable witch,” Cody told Beck. “She slammed us against the wall and called us scum and vipers, said she wished us dead, shook us till our teeth rattled, screamed in our faces. We never knew from one day to the next, was she all right? Was she not? The tiniest thing could set her off. ‘I’m going to throw you through that window,’ she used to tell me. ‘I’ll look out that window and laugh at your brains splashed all over the pavement.’ ”
The main course was set before them, on tiptoe, by Mrs. Potter and another woman who smiled steadily, as if determined not to hear. But nobody picked up his fork. The baby crooned softly to a mushroom button. The other children watched Cody with horrified, bleached faces, while the grown-ups seemed to be thinki
ng of something else. They kept their eyes lowered. Even Beck did.
“It wasn’t like that,” Ezra said finally.
“You’re going to deny it?” Cody asked him.
“No, but she wasn’t always angry. Really she was angry very seldom, only a few times, widely spaced, that happened to stick in your mind.”
Cody felt drained. He looked at his dinner and found pink-centered lamb and bright vegetables—a perfect arrangement of colors and textures, one of Ezra’s masterpieces, but he couldn’t take a bite.
“Think of the other side,” Ezra told him. “Think of how she used to play Monopoly with us. Listened to Fred Allen with us. Sang that little song with you—what was the name of that song you two sang? Ivy, sweet sweet Ivy … and you’d do a little soft-shoe. The two of you would link arms and soft-shoe into the kitchen.”
“Is that right!” said Beck. “I didn’t remember Pearl could soft-shoe.”
Mrs. Potter poured wine into Cody’s glass. He set his fingers around the stem but then couldn’t lift it. He was conscious of Ruth, to his right, watching him with concern.
Then Ezra said, “So! What do you think of this wine, Dad?”
“Oh, afraid I’m not much for wine, son,” said Beck.
“This is a really good one.”
“Little shot of bourbon is more my style,” said Beck.
“And best of all’s the dessert wine. They make it with these grapes that have suffered from a special kind of mold, you see—”
“Well, wait now,” Beck said. “Mold?”
“You’re going to love it.”
“And what is this here whitish stuff?”
“It’s kasha.”
“I don’t believe I’ve heard of that.”
“You’ll love it,” Ezra said.
Beck shook his head, but he looked gratified, as if he liked to think that Ezra had traveled so far beyond him.
Then Cody pushed his plate away. “I’ve got this partner, Sloan,” he said. “A bachelor all his life. He never married.”
Everyone took on an exaggerated attentiveness—even the children.