Chapter three
ADAMS
Please, don’t focus your life on the symbols of wealth, they will come and go, they are temporary, they are never met to last, once you focus your life on them you will be living in the illusion of it and that will become your reality. “Except the Lord build the house, the builder is only building in vein” a life without God is worthless, is of no use, and has lost his savour.
I love Tari so much, I told her to focus on my word that in my presence there is fullness of joy, is it at my right hand that you will have pleasure for ever more. What happen to the dream you had with Kelvin, why do you think he is not good enough for you anymore?
Tari told me that, Kelvin is jobless, has no money and lives in an apartment that she can’t take that anymore. I told her but all that are symbols of wealth, things will definitely change at the set time, what happen to the fear of God, and the love you had for him in the beginning and remember how much he loves you.
The beginning of a race cannot determine it winner, not until the race is over. I told her, I gave you all things that pertains unto life and godliness, I blessed you, I never did that for you to destroy your relationship, I blessed you to enjoy your relationship, what else are you looking for in Adams that Kelvin doesn’t have, excepts for the symbols of wealth that you based your complain on. She said nothing. Then why did you need more, I asked her, she told me this is her own, the one she worked for. That was how her ego took charge over her life.
Her fears has taken over, her new status, the job title is now dictating her life, all she see is how to live up to that status, forgetting how she got there, it has now become by her strength, losing consciousness of how she prayed and fasted, believing God for a good job, and also not remembering the role played by the love ones in her life. The benefit of her job has now become for me, myself and I, the three identification of the ego.
I never gave up on Tari, I love her so much, but she lost her vision, she allows the dictates of her Ego, “her social mask, “the role her-self is playing” “her self-image” to dictate her life.
The ego is an illusion in your mind, it is not the real you. It becomes glaring when you conform to the system of this world. The ego always seek for the approval of others, what people say has become you focus, rather than what God is saying. On the bases of not losing your self-worth or value, you invite fear into your life. So you will do anything not to lose that self-image, unknowing to you the offspring of fear has become your own relatives.
Where do you think frustration, aggressiveness, insecurity, loneliness, uncertainty, resentment, and emptiness that you go through all the time, came from, didn’t I tell you that I did not give you the spirit of fear. Let me tell you, in case you’ve forgotten, it is from that illusion from your ego, that you’ve identify your thoughts and feelings with, putting your life in the hand a greedy political business circles, under the name of a deceiving democratic system, headed by those seeking their own gain, thinking of themselves rather than the relationship of the people that made up the world called earth, putting your life in a system that is base on lust rather than love.
Tari’s lost control of her thoughts, her true-self and feelings; she thought she can get a lasting, peace, Love and joy, from only acquiring the symbols of wealth. Sorry it is not meant to work that way, “love only seek love to be satisfy” and not the symbols of wealth. ‘Lust cannot give love’ it is impossible, they are never related.
What about Adams?
Adams? To Tari, he was a big spender. And that is all that matter to her, so he uses his financial influence to negotiate the relationship, and it was very easy for Tari to fell for him, he bought her all kinds of gifts from expenses designers clothing’s to Jewellery, bags and shoes, she doesn’t need her money for that anymore.
So Tari was financially insecure, despites she has money of her own?
Yes, Udutimi, no matter how much money you have, it is never enough to secure you, to be financially secured you don’t need more money, “Godliness and contentment is great gain” when you use money as your reference point in life, then you are not different from what Tari is doing. Money is a symbol of wealth, it is not real, and it is a reward for the problem you solved. When you stop solving that problem it will stop coming, look around you everything is solving a problem, and for some the reward for that is money. When you are hungry and you enter a restaurant to eat, you use money to settle your bill, meaning you gave the restaurant owner money for solving your hunger problem. That is why I say it is a reward for offering a solution and for solving a problem. A means of exchange created by men for materials things and not for spiritual things like love, money can come and go, it is never made to last once it becomes your idol, you will chase it till you die, it will never satisfy or secure you.
Thinking that money can secure you financially, is something you identify with, from that poverty mentality consciousness of yours, that the system of this world is feeding you with, only for you to always come for more, because you are afraid of losing it, and since you are afraid of losing it, you exchange your freedom for it, thinking it is life, merry go round, making you a slave rather then a master of life which you were.