Dream A Little Dream
Piers Anthony and Julie Brady
To the true dreamers and Ligeias
who hang on to life by a thread.
Please don’t give up your dreams.
You may one day find a reason for hanging on.
1.Nola
2.Mich
3.Madrid
4.Kudo
5.River
6.Belief
7.Kafka
8.Nymph
9.Worm
10.Demon
11.Tina
12.Reility
13.Johnboy
14.Dream
15.Charlie
16.Volant
17.Love
18.Capture
19.Trek
20.Curbie
21.Twin
22.Drake
23.Indecision
24.Creators
25.Dam
26.Decision
Authors’ Notes
Nola lay facedown on her bed, staring at the knife in her hand. Its steel blade shone in her face. She had honed its edge every night, for the past year and a half, until she could use it to shave the fuzz from the back of her hand. She knew it would cut her flesh like butter.
Her eyes were filled with stinging tears and her throat still throbbed. This was the second time that John had choked her until she had blacked out.
He had come home four hours late, as usual, and complained that she had not kept his dinner warm. This being their second year as a couple, she had decided to make a special meal for him and decorate the apartment with candles. He had promised to be home on time for her surprise.
Nine o’clock came and went. Nola turned down the oven and sat at the table. She straightened the napkins and blew out the candles. She had hoped that just once he would surprise her by coming home on time and give her a big hug and kiss and say “I love you.” But the only time he kissed her anymore was when they were going to make love.
Nola choked on the thought, make love. They never made love anymore. That had stopped the middle of the first year. They didn’t even have sex. To her, it was a chore. Something that had to be done, but not enjoyed. If she didn’t agree to do it, she was forced to, and that often led to injury and doctor bills—and worse, guilt and anger.
He had loved her once; she was sure of that. Somewhere deep inside, she was always hoping that he would change, that if she loved him enough her love would make him realize that he loved her still.
She had seen this happen to the women on TV. She remembered wondering why these women would stay with abusive men. The women knew that they could be seriously injured or killed, yet they remained. Why?
Now she knew. It was something that just couldn’t be explained. It was like living in a prison that she had built herself, yet leaving the security of the prison meant death. She could never quite bring herself to leave.
Now, she was at a point of despair. It was rare when John came home at all at night. She suspected he was sleeping with someone else, but she could never confront him about it. That would surely cause him to beat her. Again.
She had spent a day at the doctor’s last week, being treated for an infection that she was sure John had given her. She often found pieces of paper in his pockets with girls’ numbers on them.
This night he had come home not just hours late for her surprise; he was drunk and crazy as well. He threw his food on the floor and screamed at her. She told him that she was worried because he had promised to be home on time and he was late. She realized that when she said she was worried, he would take that to mean she was accusing him of cheating.
He got that look. That look of evil that burned into her memory and would remain there forever. He lunged at her, his huge hands grasping her neck. He squeezed tightly, staring at her all the while with angry, dead eyes. She clawed his wrists, unable to draw breath, until she became asphyxiated and passed out. He wouldn’t come home for a week now. She always had to track him down and bring him home. He always told her he ran away because he felt guilty about hurting her. She knew in her heart that this was a lie. He ran away, hoping that he had succeeded in killing her, and he didn’t want to be found at the scene of her death.
Well, maybe this time she would oblige him. Nola sat up, putting the tip of the knife to her wrist. She pushed down until she felt the pain of slight penetration and dragged the blade across. The cut was not deep and did not bleed much, but she liked to watch it ooze. She squeezed her fist and relaxed, drawing more blood to the cut.
Death fascinated her. She thought constantly about being dead. What bliss it must be! To have no thoughts, to have no pain or heartache. Death would finally let her have the peace she craved so much.
There was only one thing that kept her from cutting deeply. The thing that would often cross her mind when things were at their worst.
If she died, she would lose the one thing in her life that she loved more than anything else: her dreams. Not her ambition-type dreams, but the dreams she experienced when she slept. The wonderful escape from reality, her one tie to sanity and to life. Dead people didn’t dream. She couldn’t quite bring herself to lose those dreams, though she could no longer face life.
It would soon be time to make a decision. Should she continue to try to live, even though all of her attempts to do so were bound to fail, or should she let herself go and lose her dreams forever in the process?
She thought of Esprit. His real name was Spirit, but she affectionately called him Esprit. He was as much a part of her as was her soul. Esprit meant “spirit” in Latin, but meant “vivacious” in English, and that pretty much described him.
He was her best friend, a piece of her. A huge black creature, half unicorn, half Pegasus or winged horse. He was all black, except for his green eyes. He loved her and took care of her in her dreams. When she ‘d have a nightmare about John, Spirit would come flying down from the clouds and come crashing through the window. She’d get on his back and he ‘d fly her away. She ‘d look back and see John’s disappointed and amazed expression. It filled her with longing.
Most times, he’d fly her to a castle, wherein lived her dream man, Michael. Mich was always glad to see her and he ‘d comfort her in his warm embrace. He was the only man she could trust with her love. He loved her more than anything in the world. If she killed herself, the dream, and the love, would die with her.
But that was all just dreams. She knew that things were not that way in life. Though her dreams comforted her in the night, she always awoke to a cruel reality, one of abuse and death wishes.
She was faced with the question again. Live or die? Was it time to cut her losses? She wondered what Esprit would want. She thought he would want her to hang on. If she died, so would he, because there would be no one to dream of him then. But it was more than that. They shared everything best friends would share. He was a part of her. He could read her thoughts, emotions, and her pain as sharply as if they were his own, yet he was stronger than she. He would tell her to cheer up. He ‘d tell her that she had the ability to make her life all that she wished, if she could only discover how.
Nola put the knife aside and went into the bathroom, where she washed the drying blood from her wrist. As she dressed it, she made a decision.
Spirit was right. She had to try; she had to try to do something, to go somewhere. But she was trapped here. She had no other place to go. What could she do? She decided the closest thing to leaving was to take a short vacation. The beach was only a few hours away. She could stay there for a few days. Yes, that would be heaven.
First, she had better go after John.
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nbsp; Nola walked across the street to Chris’s apartment. Chris was John’s marijuana source. They were good friends.
Chris looked at her. “John hasn’t been to see me today.”
That was odd. It didn’t follow the pattern.
She tried to call him at his home. His mother answered. Nola could hear the disapproval in the woman’s voice: she thought Nola was a bad influence on John. She had not heard from him either.
This was downright unusual. She usually found him hiding there. He always felt safest there. Was something wrong, by his twisted definition? No, he must just have found a new hiding place.
Well, she had tried. What more could her conscience ask of her? Her rational mind informed her that she owed John nothing. Too bad she wasn’t rational.
She made a call to a hotel that sat right on the beach and had a wonderful view of the waves. She called the bus station and booked a seat.
She had saved some money, by taking bits of the grocery money that John gave her and hiding it away. She would use that for a bus ticket and a night’s stay at the beach. She riffled through John’s closet looking for the credit card he kept for emergencies. She found it jammed into a coat pocket.
She clutched the card a moment and shivered. John would certainly give her a few more bruises if he found out that she took it. Well, she would just have to make sure he didn’t. Good thing she was always home before him. She could easily intercept and dispose of the credit card statement when it came.
Her cat, Kudo, sauntered into the closet and rubbed against her leg. Nola picked her up and kissed her head. “It would be so nice to be you!” she said, putting her down again. “What a life. No one to beat you up, no worries about cooking the food just right. You just eat, sleep and be loved.”
She went into the living room and called her friend Lori, asking her to watch Kudo for her. Lori promised she would take good care of her while Nola was away.
Her mother knew nothing of her life and her suicide attempts. Nola preferred never to tell her. It would hurt her too much, and she would never understand why Nola stayed with John. Nola didn’t really understand that, either.
After the phone call, Nola climbed into bed, with Kudo nestled at her feet. She fell into the welcome arms of her dreams. She didn’t know that the world she so wished were real was in dire jeopardy.
In another city, Tina stirred, aware of something. It had bothered her at odd moments in the past few days. Not exactly déjà vu, but an urge that wasn’t of the body. There was somewhere she wanted to go, something she wanted to do. Something nice. A friend she wanted to meet, maybe. But she had no idea who, what, or where. Who would want her for a friend, anyway?
Then she saw a car slow, as if its driver was looking for something. There was a prospect. Her fleeting fond awareness faded as she walked toward the car. Another day, another dollar.
King Erik Edward sat on his gold throne wondering what he should do about the new crisis. His crown sat askew on his head, and the way he let his dull brown beard grow made him look like Father Time. His brow was etched with deep furrows as he worried over the problem of the Fren.
The Fren lived north of the Shattered-Glass Glade, near the River of Thought. They lived in an ominous place called the Fren Cliffs. The cliffs were a new addition to the Kafkian landscape, and an unwelcome one. The cliffs were rough and ugly and they marred Kafka’s appearance like a great wart on the nose of a goddess.
The Fren were cruel and evil creatures with no positive emotions whatsoever. They cared little for anyone except themselves. Their king, Reility, was cruder than all his minions put together. He had some strange power that Edward was not yet sure of. But he knew Reility was using it for evil.
Reility would send his motley, vicious armies into the wilds of Kafka to crush villages and do what they pleased with those who were unlucky enough to survive his attacks.
Now King Edward had an even bigger problem. The River of Thought was receding from its banks, and Edward knew that Reility was behind it. He also knew that if something wasn’t done soon the river would dry up, and that could spell big trouble for Kafka and its neighbor, Earth.
He had never seen Earth, nor had he known anyone else who had. His sorceress, Madrid, knew of it. She had a big picture book with paintings of it. The creatures that lived on it were somehow connected to Kafka, and he knew that if one realm was destroyed, the other would also go.
Edward reached down to stroke his son’s pet basilisk, Snort, who raised his scaly chin in response. He stretched his leathery wings and exhaled a little puff of steam. Most basilisks in Kafka could kill with a glance, but Snort had been tamed by his son as a baby and he was as lovable as any grass dragon. In Kafka the distinction between dragons and other reptilian creatures could become fuzzy, and Snort was a good, if ugly, example.
Edward looked across to the entry hall where his guards stood holding their swords.
“Guard!” he called. “Has my son returned yet?”
“I will check, Sire.”
One of the guards stepped out of the throne room and called to someone down the hall. Another guard came in, followed by a young man. Snort half crawled, half slithered over to Edward’s son and insisted that he be petted. The young man obliged with a vigorous scratch behind an ugly ear.
Edward brushed back the loose folds of his robe and stood up. “Mich,” he said, “have you been able to find out anything useful?”
Mich smiled. “Yes. More than I’d hoped. The river isn’t drying up. It’s being dammed.”
“I suspected as much. Is anything being done about it?”
“There is nothing we can do, Father. It’s being dammed at its source.”
King Edward scratched his beard. At its source? This could be very bad news indeed. No one had ever been to the source or even knew where it was. The river splayed into many different streams in the glade, but no one knew where the water came from. No one, except—
“That’s not all,” Mich went on. “It is rumored that the dam is being built of dreamstone.”
“Dreamstone?” The hairs on King Edward’s chin stood on end. “How have the Fren gotten their claws on dreamstone? I have men guarding every deposit in Kafka!” He paused a moment, then doubled his panic attack. “Unless there is a deposit in the cliffs! What’ll we do if the Fren are controlling a dreamstone deposit?”
Mich smiled in that unconsciously patronizing way he had. “Don’t get so excited, Father; it’s only a rumor.”
The king regained his composure and cleared his throat. “That may be, but you know how easily rumors turn into fact around here.” He sat back down on his throne and smoothed his robes. “The dam must be destroyed.”
“But how? We don’t know where the source is and even if we did find it, it is impossible for us to destroy, if the rumor is true.”
“Impossible for us, yes, but for them, no.”
“Them who?”
“Earthling humans.”
“Father, what are you saying? That we get an Earthling to destroy it?”
Edward nodded gravely.
Mich looked his father in the eye and squared his jaw. “Yes, Father,” he said sarcastically, “that would work. Just let me know when you find out how to reach one.”
King Edward rubbed his ear. He loved his son, but from time to time the lad needed to be taken down a peg. “I know how you can find out for yourself.”
Mich backed away a few steps and his face became pale. “No, Father, please don’t say what I think you’re going to say.”
Edward smiled. “You can ask—”
“Don’t say it!”
“Madrid.”
Mich kneeled on the floor and clasped his hands in a dramatic pose. “Please don’t send me there! She hates me!”
The king’s smile deepened. “Oh, I wouldn’t say that, son.”
“You know what I mean. She’ll try to-—to kiss me!”
“Get up, son! It’s not that bad! Actually, she’s kind
of pretty . . .”
Mich gave his father a you’ve-got-to-be-kidding look.
“ . . . if your eyes are closed!” the king finished with a laugh.
Mich knew how his father liked to tease him about Madrid. She was a sorceress who lived in the Mountains of Mangor. She had a very old body, but a vivacious spirit. She also had a thing for young princes, especially Mich. She was a very good person at heart, but one would not know it if one had just met her. She was rude and had a very foul mouth. However, the land of Kafka depended on her advice and help, and therefore always treated her with respect. In order for King Edward to maintain good relations with her, he often sent Mich to visit, and Mich hated every second.
“Son, you know if there was another way to do this, I would gladly do it, but she is the only one in this world who can help us find an Earth person and she is the only one who may have seen the source of the river.”
“But, Father, you know she will ask that I keep her company through the night, as payment for her help.”
“Yes, I know. But she never harms you and she would never do anything you don’t want her to.”
“That doesn’t stop her from trying,” Mich grumbled.
“It is a long way. It would be best if you got a good night’s sleep and began your visit to Mangor in the morning.”
With that, the conversation ended. Mich hugged his father good night. Snort followed him through the corridor and up the winding stairway to his room.
The next morning, Mich bathed and prepared himself. He bid farewell to his friends and set out on his steed, Heat. He brought with him a three-day ration of food, a lightweight steel sword, and Snort for protection. “You may come in handy if the sorceress tries to go too far,” he said.
Snort snorted a ferocious jet of fire, looking outraged. Mich laughed.
Mich urged Heat to go faster and they broke into a trot. The palace stables fell behind. It wasn’t until he was some distance from it that he could get the whole castle in view.
It was a large castle in the most extreme way. He, his father, the palace scribe, three cooks, the gardener, the guards, Misty the resident friendly ghost and a few assorted pets were its only inhabitants. They had no choice about its size. It had been built beside the River of Thought, out of dreamstone, at the time he was born, and it had never deteriorated.