Lois got good cream from the Whiteheads, who had several Jerseys. She thought chickens were disgusting, but eggs were divine, and she didn’t waste her egg whites on angel-food cake—she preferred meringues and soufflés. As for the yolks, well, nothing like a smooth hollandaise or some vanilla ice cream. When Rosanna came over on her birthday, and Lois served chocolate mousse with whipped cream instead of angel-food cake, Rosanna didn’t say a disapproving word, ate every last bite. Lois’s Joy of Cooking had already fallen to pieces; Minnie had bought her Betty Crocker, which Lois read after dinner as if it were a novel. Then Minnie brought home a copy of a magazine for gourmets, which were people who liked to eat, and Lois pondered these recipes, whispering words to herself—“mortadella,” “tagliatelle,” “scaloppini.” She made one recipe, noodles with a fancy sauce. They had all the ingredients (beef, pork, veal, bacon, onion, carrots, celery), except for something called a truffle, which Minnie maintained was like a mushroom. At the end, she stirred in some Jersey cream. It was good.
Now Joe saw her looking up into the butternut trees, though they wouldn’t blossom for another month. Her mother had baked with butternuts all the time, and so, last fall, she had done it herself, and Joe had to admit that the cookies were delicious. Rosanna wouldn’t taste one; she had said, “Is there poison ivy in the salad, then?”
Lois saw him and called out, “Did you see my rolls? I think they turned out fine.”
To go with the Parkerhouse rolls, she had warmed up the pot roast from the night before with the last of the spinach. There was less than a cup of peas—the first of the season—but they were sweet, light, and delicious. For dessert (how could Lois serve a meal without dessert?), there were some shortbread cookies. Joe took only one of those. Annie ate happily—a serving of pot roast, a spoonful of peas, half a roll, half a cookie, a cup of milk. Like Lois, she was lean and tall. Lois herself ate only a roll, a bite of pot roast, and some peas.
Joe said, “Are you feeling okay, Lo?”
Lois shrugged, then said, “Okay enough. Just not hungry.” She reached over and wiped Annie’s mouth. Then she said, “I have something to tell you.” She said it in her normal way, calmly and straightforwardly.
Joe waited.
Annie wiggled, and said, “Down!”
“Down, please!” said Lois.
“Please!” said Annie.
Joe stood up and removed the tray of the high chair and set Annie on her feet. She ran into the living room. Lois said, “I’m pregnant.”
Joe sat down again, and pushed away his plate. Then he said, “How long?”
“Couple months.”
“So…due in November?”
“Mid-November.”
Joe nodded, got up from his chair, and carried his plate into the kitchen, where he set it on the drainboard. He went out the back door. The weather was warming up—a nice breeze from the west was fluttering through the daffodils and the apple blossoms. He stepped into his boots. He thought about putting his jacket back on, but decided he wasn’t going to be needing it. Two more days of warm weather and he could plant the long field north of the house that had been in beans last year. Corn this year. Not seed corn, but field corn. Mid-November. Well, that was a good time. All the fall work would be done by then. Annie would be almost three. Joe had heard that three years was a good space between two kids. Close enough to be friends (eventually), but far enough apart not to be in each other’s business every minute of the day. On balance, the news was good. Joe pushed his cap back and headed for the barn, trying not to be too happy, trying to remember a farmer’s first principle, that many things could go wrong, to focus on the fact that there were a few things that he could stand to fix on the planter—little things, nothing major. But he skipped a few strides, just because he couldn’t contain himself.
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THIS YEAR, Frances Upjohn had talked Andy into spending August on Long Island—the Upjohns had a big place on Gin Lane in Southampton—but Andy had refused to be a guest for thirty-one days, so, because they were late getting started, all they could find was a house in Sag Harbor, and nowhere near the beach, which was fine, said Andy, because she hated the beach. It was a dark place, facing north, with beat-up summer-house furniture. Frank came Friday nights, went home Sunday nights; today he was looking after the boys while Andy and Janny went shopping.
Frank sat about halfway up the stairs, nursing a beer, watching them. They had eaten lunch, and now they were watching TV, Richie rolled up in his blanket and Michael sitting cross-legged. Neither was quite as far along as their cousins Timmy and Deanie had been at their age—Frank had to admit that Timmy was a phenomenon in some ways, the son Frank would never have. When Timmy was two and a half, which was what Richie and Michael were now, he had liked to get up on the back of the couch and walk along, pretending he was on a tightrope, his hands above his head. Richie and Michael ran around, but Richie sometimes stumbled and fell for no reason, and Michael had a sort of rolling gait—nothing efficient. Andy told him he was too critical of them, but he liked them better than he liked Janny, who was stiff and remote, the spit and image of his father right down to the tip of her rather large nose. She had started kindergarten early, though, and could now read “at fourth-grade level,” and that would serve her well. He could send her off to Rosemary Hall for high school, then Radcliffe, and then her equally boring uncle Henry could find her something to do.
No, it was true, Frank thought. You didn’t have to be a farmer or the son of a farmer to know that breeding was always a gamble. He and Andy should have begotten a race of gods and goddesses. He finished his beer and called down to the boys, “Wanta have a contest?” Richie, with rounded, placid eyes, looked up the stairs.
Frank moved a couple of armchairs, then pushed most of the dining-room chairs against the wall. He took one of them and set it in the middle of the kitchen. The boys were still lolling. He turned off the TV—it was one he hadn’t seen before coming to this house, a portable GE with a clock. He took each of the boys by the hand and stood them up. Richie knew better than to cry when Frank took his blanket away from him and tossed it toward the stairs.
Frank said, “Okay, fellas, here’s the course. You start here, at the bookcase, and then you run to the green chair—that’s the green chair—turn right—this way”—he demonstrated right—“and then run straight into the kitchen and go around the chair, and come back to this spot.” With his toe, he pointed out the threshold between the dining room and the living room. He said, “Let’s try it.”
Still grasping the boys, he led Michael and half dragged Richie over to the bookcase. Then he trotted them (slowly) toward the center of the room, turned right at the green chair, and trotted them (even more slowly) through the dining room into the kitchen. Michael stumbled as they went around that chair, but regained his feet right away. Frank exclaimed, “Come on, boys! This is the home stretch! Put on some speed!” He dropped their hands, and they half ran across the “finish line.”
“Okay!” said Frank. “That was the warm-up!”
He walked them back to the base of the bookcase and stood them about a foot apart, both facing ahead. Now he whispered in Michael’s ear, “Keep your feet—you can beat him easy! Got me?” He backed away, made eye contact, and stared at Michael until Michael nodded. Then he whispered in Richie’s ear, “If he stumbles, Rich, you just keep going. Slow and steady wins the race. You listening?” Richie nodded.
Frank stepped back and held out his arm, then he said, “Ready? Set? Go!” He dropped his arm, and the two boys took off. Richie understood the course better than Michael—he did make the right turn and head into the dining room while Michael was still wondering what to do—but then Michael spun around and overtook him at the chair in the kitchen, and, in fact, poked him in the side with his elbow, causing Richie to stumble. When they got to the finish line, they were about a step apart, Michael in the lead. Frank stood in the middle of the living room, scowling and shaking his head. He said, ??
?What a pair of slowpokes! This race is going to have three heats. That was number one. Go back to the start.” He pointed to the bookcase.
He sent them off again. This time, Michael had learned something—he turned at the proper spot and headed for the kitchen with Richie on his heels. But Richie had learned something, too, and when they came to the chair, he turned his hip and popped Michael, sending him sprawling. He crossed the threshold by himself, grinning, and said, “I won! I won!”
“You did!” said Frank. “You won! Can you beat him again?”
Richie nodded emphatically.
Frank said, “Okay, then. You each had one win. Richard, you go stand by the bookcase and wait.”
He went into the kitchen, where Michael was sitting on the floor, his face hot and flushed. Frank squatted down and said, “Michael? You mad?”
Michael nodded.
“Are you really, really mad?”
Michael nodded again.
Frank said, “Okay, then, you go beat him. You are faster, and you can do it. You got that?”
Michael nodded and clambered to his feet. When he arrived at the bookcase, he stuck his tongue out at Richie, who responded in kind. Frank said, “Save it, boys. Just run fast!” Then, “Ready? Set? Go!” This time, the squabbling commenced almost immediately—Michael bounced Richie into the green chair, but Richie kept his feet, followed Michael, and grabbed his shirt. Frank said nothing. Michael smacked Richie on the arm and then pushed him, but they both kept running through the dining room and into the kitchen. At the kitchen chair, Richie did a smart thing—he pushed the chair a couple of inches, so that Michael had to duck to one side to avoid it. In the meantime, Richie, having shortened his own course, was two steps into the dining room while Michael was still going around the chair. But Michael was faster, and when he caught up to Richie, he reached out and grabbed his hair and pulled him down. Frank barked out a single laugh. He had to give Richie credit, though—instead of crying, he crawled forward as fast as he could and grabbed Michael’s pant leg and brought him down. Then he crawled over the finish line first. Frank now laughed out loud, and both boys turned and stared up at him. Frank said, “I guess Richie wins. Richie wins by a neck.” Richie started laughing, too, but Michael’s face began to crumple, so Frank said, “What’s the prize, boys? What does the winner get?” Both boys looked at him. He said, “The winner gets tickled!” He fell upon Richie and played his fingers over the tiny ribs until Richie was squirming away and laughing. After a moment, Frank stood them up. He wiped tears off Richie’s face with the tail of his shirt—he didn’t want Andy to see those—and then he got a Kleenex and wiped both their noses. “You boys tough?”
Both boys nodded.
“Are you really tough?”
They nodded again.
“All right!”
But they were still angry at one another; when they went back to watching TV, Frank had to sit them on cushions a couple of feet apart so they wouldn’t continue the argument. By the time Janny walked in, and then Andy, they were quiet enough. Andy said, “Whew! It’s nice and shady in here. We could have stayed home, it’s so hot. You guys have a nice afternoon?”
“We did,” said Frank. The boys nodded; undoubtedly, “nice” was not the word to describe the particular pleasures of their time together. But “nice” was not for boys, Frank thought. “Educational,” “stimulating,” “active.” Right out of Dr. Spock, Frank was sure.
1956
GRANNY ELIZABETH WAS BOUND and determined to go visit Henry in California (and Eloise, too—ever since Eloise had lived with Rosanna and Walter back in the old days, helping with Frank and Joe, Granny Elizabeth had had a special fondness for her), and so Claire found herself on New Year’s Day, her seventeenth birthday, helping Granny down the steps at the station in Oakland or Berkeley or somewhere damp, dark, and chilly. Granny had on her furs—a set of four minks with heads and tails, biting each other around her neck. The thing was ten years out of style, but she was enormously proud of it—“It’s the dog she never got to have,” said Joe. Claire, carrying both the suitcases, had to hurry to keep up with her grandmother as she clicked down the platform toward the waiting room. “California!” she exclaimed. “You know, Claire, in a day or two, I will stand on these eighty-year-old feet and stare out over the Pacific Ocean, and that is a thing no Chick or Cheek has ever seen before! Stuck in the mud as always, just like hornbeams on the riverbank, looking at the lucky creatures drifting by! There he is!”
The Chicks and the Cheeks were Granny’s ancestors back in England. Secretly, Claire always thought maybe the names were a joke, that they were really “Smiths” and “Johnsons.”
Henry was laughing as he took the bags from Claire. Then Eloise was hugging her, and Rosa kissing her, and Henry was saying, “How was your trip, Granny?”
“Not long enough by half,” she said, “but I hear this is as far as you can go.”
The next morning, Henry showed up at Eloise’s. As soon as they finished their coffee, they piled into Eloise’s car, and Henry exclaimed, “Westward ho!” Two hours later, they were standing in the brilliant sunshine, at a place called Drakes Bay. The weather was not hot but, compared with Oakland, almost heavenly.
Claire kept her eye on Rosa, who slipped off her shoes and socks and set them beside an oddly shaped rock—they would pass it going back to the car. They were the only people on the beach. Rosa was five months younger than Henry, almost twenty-three, but years more mature. “Ah, the beach!” exclaimed Granny, with joy. But to Claire it was a stark, strange thing: flat, cool sand running under flat, cold water, the brilliance of the clouds and the sea and the sun almost too much to look at. Granny Elizabeth stood up straight, her arms thrown in the air. Henry touched something in the sand with his toe and bent down. It was a shell—concave, pearly on the inside, and rough gray on the outside. Claire said, “What’s that?”
“Only an oyster shell. But you know how they know that Francis Drake stopped here? Shards of broken porcelain from vessels he would have been carrying on the ship. By the time he got here, he had one ship, the Golden Hind. He started out with five. These cliffs here”—he swept his arm around, and Claire noticed the tall, pale cliffs looming over the grayish-yellow sand—“reminded him of Dover, England, where there are also cliffs, so he called this ‘Nova Albion,’ which basically means ‘New England,’ and claimed all this coast for Queen Elizabeth.”
“Was that before the Pilgrims?” said Claire.
“Forty-one years before.” Henry scraped his toe through the sand again.
Since moving into Henry’s old room at home, Claire had looked through some of his books. She couldn’t believe how boring they were. She thought it was really too bad that Henry should be so good-looking—he was twenty-three and looked like a blond James Dean, except he didn’t—James Dean walked around like he had a plan, and Henry walked around like he was going to the library, which he was.
He did everything Rosa said. Rosa had her nose in the air, Claire thought, and when she smiled, it was only to laugh at you, or even less than that—she smiled to herself because it wasn’t worth it to notice you. Right now, she was walking ahead of all of them, her hands in her pockets, sometimes shaking her head to make her hair blow, and then gazing out to sea as if she saw something that she was going to go write a poem about. Aunt Eloise might look a mess, but she was nice. How did her daughter turn out not to be? Claire wondered.
Granny Elizabeth came up beside Claire and took her hand. “Claire, honey,” she said, “I do think this is the most beautiful place that I have ever seen. You are a sweetheart for bringing your granny all the way out here.”
Claire said, “It was fun. It is fun, I mean.”
“Albion means ‘white,’ you know. I don’t know why that means England, too,” said Granny Elizabeth. And then she sat down in the sand and burst into tears.
Claire stopped dead and squatted down. After a moment, she put her hand on Granny’s knee and pulled the
hem of her blue crepe dress down a little. Granny’s crying sounded to Claire like something falling—dishes out of the cupboard, or ice down a frozen slope. Claire didn’t like crying at all; she hadn’t cried since the day her father died under the Osage-orange hedge.
“You know what I did when I was your age, Clary?” said Granny Elizabeth. “I played the piano. We had this old-style parlor piano, not even eighty-eight keys, but I played it every day. I played it for your grandpa, and I thought he liked it, and then, when we were married for about six months, he said it was irritating. He didn’t ask me to, but I did stop, because I didn’t want him to hear me, even through the window.” Then she cried again, and said, “Oh, Wilmer!” Claire knew that there was more to the story—her father’s two brothers, men she’d never met, had died young, which was strange to think of. Claire took Granny Elizabeth’s hand.
“Walter was such a good little boy. I thought the worst day of my life was the day your father went away to the army in 1917, even worse than when little Lester died. I was only nineteen when that happened.” She fell silent. “Then, of course, Howard went in the influenza after the war.” She pulled her handkerchief out of her sleeve and blotted her eyes, then said, “Oh me. How many times did I wish that it had been me to go? I had that flu, too.” Claire dreaded what might start now—Granny Elizabeth had outlived all of her children, and if they were to talk about that, and then get on to Claire’s own feelings about the death of her father, she didn’t know if she could stand it. She felt Granny’s hand tighten around hers. But then Eloise noticed them. A look of alarm suffused Eloise’s face as her lips formed the words “Henry! Rosa!” The other two turned around abruptly.