“I thought so.”
We remain standing next to each other for another minute or so, the distance between us almost nonexistent. It would be so easy to reach out and hold his hand. The sound of an incoming call breaks the silence, bringing us back to reality.
He takes his cell phone out of the inner pocket of his tuxedo jacket and ignores the call after noting the name of the caller. He lifts his gaze to meet my own.
“Sorry about that.”
“It’s okay. I should go … I’m here with someone,” I reply, not really wanting to leave him just yet.
“Yes, that’s probably a good idea.”
I frown. He didn’t have to be quite so blunt. The stranger extends a hand toward me, holding something in his fingers.
“Here … ”
I open my hand as I feel the edges of what I assume is his business card poke the skin of my palm. “What’s this?” I ask stupidly.
“My business card, of course.”
“Obviously … but why?”
He smiles, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. “Let’s just say that I’m an interested buyer.”
And then he’s gone.
He turns and walks away from me, disappearing into a sea of colorful gowns and black suits. As the sounds of the party infiltrate my ears once more, I lower my gaze to stare at the simple cream-colored card in my hand. Its simplistic and elegant design draws attention to the name printed in bold black letters on the paper.
Lawrence Rothschild.
I smile and let my fingertips trail his name. It depends on what you’re willing to pay, Mr. Rothschild.
I’m still reeling from my encounter with the stranger when I spot Walker standing in the same place and with the same crowd as before. I run a hand through my hair nervously as I try to quiet the voices inside my head. Should I go back? Will I see him again? Afraid that I’ll turn around and go in search of Mr. Rothschild because, let’s face it, I’m fickle, I decide to join Walker and his friends.
Eyes on me, gazes filled with admiration or disapproval, it doesn’t matter one way or another—I’m untouchable. It also doesn’t change the fact that they can’t look away from my body exposing itself through the thin layer of lace that covers every decadent inch of pale skin.
Walker looks my way, his ice-blue eyes finding mine and darkening with ravenous desire. We smile at each other. We can’t look away. We fuck each other with our eyes while filthy images of his cock and where I want it flash through my mind. Dirty, so dirty. Gradually, I observe a smug smile as mouthwatering as the sweetest of sins spread across his face and it makes me feel like I’m flying. Yet, as I close the distance between us … as the buzzing of voices gets louder in my ears … as I grow wet with the promise of his taste on my tongue …
I decide not to throw Mr. Rothschild’s business card away.
One never knows when it will be time for an upgrade.
I stand next to Walker, his hand reaching out for mine, linking our fingers and pulling me closer to him. Lowering his mouth to my bare shoulder, he lets his breath hit my skin before kissing it.
“I was beginning to wonder if someone stole you away,” he whispers in my ear.
I glance at him sideways, a small smile playing on my lips. “I’m here, aren’t I?”
“Yeah, you sure are, baby.” He grins.
People cough around us. The men who saw him kiss me with familiar ownership stare at me while their partners pretend that I don’t exist.
“Ugh, Walker, get a room,” a female not much older than me says.
Lifting my eyes, I stare at a girl who looks eerily like me—black hair, blue eyes, pale skin but no curves. She reminds me of winter.
“Everyone, this is Bla—”
“As I was saying, Eleanor, before Walker interrupted us …” The girl turns to look the other way, talking over him without acknowledging my presence or the fact that Walker was about to introduce me to them. Her girlfriends follow suit, ignoring me as well.
Walker squeezes my hand but doesn’t say a word in my defense. Suddenly feeling very small and exposed, I want to let go of him, cross my arms over my chest while I walk away and never turn back. Maybe I’m not as untouchable as I thought.
I’m ready to leave when, out of the corner of my eye, I see the woman named Eleanor snicker and thank God for that because it lights up an angry fire inside me. And that fire wants to burn everything and everyone in its path. I’ve been here before. I’ve been bullied, I’ve been purposefully ignored, I’ve been made fun of, but this time I won’t let them win. No, I’m not that girl anymore. And maybe it’s my fault because of the way I dress, or the way I let him touch me, but that doesn’t give them the right to be rude to me when I barely know them. I haven’t done anything to warrant their cruelty. But if she wants a reason to be a bitch to me, so be it. I’ll give her and to her group of plastic friends a reason, no problem.
I let go of Walker’s hold to run my hands over my hips, seemingly fixing my dress when in reality I want to draw the men’s attention to the curves of my body. A taunting smirk in place, I make eye contact with Eleanor’s husband. Payback time. He seems to have been waiting for this to happen because the moment I do, he raises his glass of champagne in salute and takes a sip, his stare unwavering. Smiling at him even though I don’t feel like it, I lick my lips slowly, almost as if I could taste the bubbly liquid going down his throat on them. He seems satisfied as the usual look of greedy want glazes over his eyes, his dick likely growing hard in his tuxedo pants. He’s probably the kind of man who lies down on his back and lets the woman do all the work while he pants about what a bad, bad girl she is. Yawn.
Satisfaction warms my bitter heart when I see the woman tugging his arm forcefully, jealousy marring her pretty features in the angry blush coating her cheeks. I chuckle. If I really wanted to screw with them, I could drop a hint to the same gentleman who’s removing my clothes with his eyes and meet him in a dark corner …
But I don’t. I have nothing to prove to them.
Nothing.
When I’m about to look away, Walker lets his hand land on the curve of my ass. Molding his palm like a second skin on mine, I can feel his middle finger beginning to graze the back of my thighs, slowly making its way under my skirt—closer to my hot core. The tightly packed crowd is Walker’s perfect cover to his assault.
“I don’t like the way Arthur is staring at you,” he whispers in my ear. “At all.” And then his finger is inside me.
I stare ahead of me, seeing nothing but feeling everything, and try to focus on the handsome man with black hair who happens to be holding the hand of the girl who looks like me. Walker is right. He’s indeed watching me.
“He wants you,” Walker whispers once again, pushing his finger all the way in. It hurts, but I love it. It sends a chill coursing up my spine, making my hand tremble as I lift a flute of champagne to my lips.
After I take a sip, I turn to look at him. “They always do.”
The moment the words leave my mouth, I’m gripped by a sense of melancholy—emptiness. They all want me—my body, my face, my mouth—but none of them want me. None of them care to know what lies underneath it all. There’s nothing there.
“Too bad.”
Not caring that people might be staring at us and listening to our hushed conversation, he lowers his face and lets the tip his nose trace the curve of my neck before adding in a soft voice, “I want to fuck you.”
Not a romantic statement, yet I can’t help blushing.
Walker straightens, slowly dragging his finger out of me. “It was great catching up,” he says, addressing the group, “but I’m afraid Blaire and I have to leave.” He looks at me before adding, “I’m done sharing her.”
More uncomfortable coughs. More angry stares. More disdain.
Less of me.
“Good night. It was great meeting you,” I address the group but stare at the girls in particular.
Walker grabs my waist, ready to le
ave when the black-haired girl speaks. “Walker, one word before you go. Don’t forget that Arthur and I are hosting a dinner party at our apartment on Tuesday to welcome back Emma from Europe,” she says, smiling maliciously at me.
He tightens his hold on my waist. “I haven’t forgotten. I’ll be there.”
Usually, I wouldn’t care what he does with his time, but the way the girl is staring at me with triumph in her eyes makes a bad feeling settle in the pit of my stomach.
When we walk out of The Met, leaving that nightmare behind us, we are greeted by a dark sky illuminated with fabricated lights. The sounds of a busy night in the city crowd my ears: the angry honking of yellow cabs, hip-hop music coming from a car with its windows all the way down, a frustrated deliveryman on a bicycle ringing his bell as he tries to scatter the crowd blocking his path, the smell of Chinese food drifting out of the white plastic bags sitting behind him.
After we climb down the stairs of the museum, Walker pulls me in for a hug. With his hands wrapped around me, he lowers his mouth until his lips touch mine. Opening my mouth for him, I welcome his kiss and the delicious assault of his tongue. I wish I could say that this kiss, or any of his kisses for that matter, makes my heart sing or fills me with light, obliterating the darkness inside me, but that’s not the case. I don’t think it will ever happen. But his kiss makes me feel wanted, needed, yearned for. It’s a kiss that doesn’t ask for anything other than a physical reaction.
Twisting my hair in his hands, he gives it a tug, making me stare at him. “I—”
One moment he’s gazing into my eyes and the next we’re tangled in leashes and dogs while they yap and howl around us, trying to break free.
“Shit!” I hear a girl curse. “Chanel! Down girl, down!”
“What the fuck?” I hear Walker protest angrily as a huge German Shepherd stands on its hind legs, placing its paws on the lapels of Walker’s pristine tuxedo, attempting to lick his face.
A giggle escapes my mouth as I watch my cool boyfriend struggling to remove the dog from his chest without any success. I’m about to help him when a black mastiff comes out of nowhere and leaps on me, the force of his jump making me lose my balance.
“Ow, ow, ow!” I exclaim, flapping my arms in the air like a duck.
My ass is close to hitting the ground when I hear a man curse. Before I make a total fool of myself by falling on the street, a firm body is behind me, breaking my fall. His arms are like corded steel bands around my waist, protecting me.
“Are you okay?” the man asks, close to my ear. The way his breath, soft and warm as a summer’s breeze, hits my skin makes funny things happen inside me—of the tingly kind.
“I’m sorry. What did you say?” I ask, turning to look at him.
He chuckles. “I asked if you’re all right.”
Oh. Oh. “Oh, yeah, yes. I’m okay. I’m sorry.”
I break the uncomfortable staring contest we have going on by lowering my gaze to the arms around my waist. “Your … um, your arms,” I say, sounding like a total idiot. Seriously, Blaire? Seriously?
“What about them?” he says, tightening them.
I swallow hard, clearing my mind, and I place my hands on his to try and move them. But they won’t budge. It’s like they’re stuck to me. “You can let go of me now.”
He laughs as he releases me, the warmth of his touch gone. “My bad.”
I turn to look at him and watch as the stranger smirks in a way that totally negates his apology. The small smile makes his eyes crinkle at the corners, a complete telltale. The asshole totally liked it.
I run a hand down my dress, smoothing it. “Thank you for—”
“Actually, don’t worry about it. This has been the best part of my day.”
Don’t smile … don’t smile …
I smile.
How could I not?
We continue to smile at each other as the angry sounds of dogs yapping and barking surround us. But then I remember Walker. Grimacing, the same thoughts seem to cross the stranger’s mind right before we turn around and watch an angry looking Walker going off on the poor dog walker. She’s holding the leashes to at least ten dogs, pulling and tugging in every possible direction. It’s easy to see why she lost control of them.
I’m about to defend her and tell Walker to calm down, but the angry flash I see in his eyes makes me think it would be a bad idea.
“Chill, man. It’s not the girl’s fault that the dog jumped you,” I hear the stranger say, becoming my personal hero.
I can’t help but compare how different they are. With his impeccable black tuxedo, blond hair, and blue eyes, Walker seems coolly untouchable. The stranger is wearing an old looking black suit, messy brown hair that sticks up at the top, and the softest of brown eyes that seem to be as warm as the earth.
I watch as he kneels and pats some of the dogs, trying to mellow them. “There … there … calm down,” he coos softly.
Walker doesn’t bother answering him. He turns to look at the terrified girl. “Next time, learn how to do your job properly. It doesn’t seem like it requires a lot.” He turns my way, grabs my hand, and starts to walk away without giving the guy or the dog walker a second thought.
“No need to be such a fuckin’ asshole, man! She said she was sorry!”
“Walker, wait … that wasn’t nice. You shoul—”
“Keep walking, Blaire.”
I glance back and watch the stranger standing in the middle of the street with the biggest fucking grin on his face while the dogs play around him, forgotten. I drown out Walker’s tirade as I grin back.
AFTER HE THROWS THE KEYS OF his Aston Martin to the doorman outside his building, Walker drags me to the elevator. As the doors close in front of us, he lets go of my arm and stands next to me without making eye contact. But the moment we walk into his place, Walker lifts me by the ass and carries me to his bed.
He unzips his pants, pulls them and his briefs down in one swift movement, his cock already hard. He doesn’t bother to take my clothes off, placing me on his lap, and entering me in one hard thrust. With his hands on my bare ass, he drives my movements, propelling me to ride his cock mercilessly. Up and down. Tilting slightly back, my fingers grip his thighs as I watch his cock pulling in and out of me, the erotic visual drugging my senses. All I see is him penetrating me, his glistening cock entering me, and all I want is more. And harder. The slap of our skin fills my ears as he fills me. He’s fucking me so hard it hurts, but it’s a pain that borders on delicious pleasure, like all good things in life.
“Fuck … I’m going to come … I’m going … fuck …” he groans as I feel him tense underneath me with the power of his climax.
After he comes inside me, he pushes me off his lap, making the bed bounce as I land on it. Without looking at me, he stands up, his dick still hard and coated with his cum and my arousal, and makes his way to the bathroom.
I stare at his dark blue ceiling, trying to steady my heart and put my rambling thoughts and emotions in order. After a peculiar night filled with so many strange encounters, I’m drained. Yet I feel this sort of crazed energy pumping through my veins, keeping me awake. Walker’s behavior after the accident outside the museum was nothing but odd. He didn’t speak one word to me on the entire ride back to his apartment.
When I hear the toilet flush, I turn in the direction of the bathroom door and watch Walker shut the light off and make his way back to bed. I feel my cheeks flush as I watch him walk toward me in all his naked glory and it makes me want to fuck him again. The thought of him moving inside me as his fingertips grip my skin, crushing my bones with their ruthless power, fills me with a sick yearning for more. Always more.
“You never disappoint, Blaire. Did you see the way Arthur was staring at you? How fucking jealous he was of me?” He laughs, running a hand over his disheveled hair. “He wanted you so bad.”
I stand up and take my dress off, throwing it on the floor, and cleaning myself up. Once that’s ta
ken care of, I get back in bed. Reaching for the white silk sheet twisted by my ankles, I pull it up to my chin, the fabric cooling my hot skin even though I’m cold on the inside. He gets under the sheets next to me, tangling our legs together. As I’m running my foot along his calves, feeling his smooth skin graze my toes, he pulls me close until my breasts touch his chest and my core grazes his soft cock.
“Is that why you started fingering me in front of your business colleagues while he watched?” I ask carelessly. The coldness inside me keeps spreading, numbing me more and more.
“That was something else. Only someone like you would let me do that in a room full of people.” I can hear the smile in his voice.
“And what kind of person am I, Walker?”
“Oh, you know what I mean …”
“No, actually I don’t. Could you please explain that to me?”
“You know, wild and gorgeous.”
“You forgot the easy part. You forgot to add how easy I am,” I answer, surprised at how cool and detached my voice sounds.
“Blaire, baby … you know that I love everything about you. Everything about you drives me insane. From your gorgeous brown eyes to the way you—”
I yawn, beginning to feel drowsy from a deep physical and mental exhaustion. “Walker, I’m too tired. We should turn the lights off. I need to go to sleep. I have work tomorrow.”
“Take tomorrow off and spend it with me,” Walker says before planting a peck on my lips. “I’m sure they won’t miss you when they already have so many hostesses on staff.”
“I can’t. Lana’s studying for finals, and I promised Carl I’d cover for her.”
“Suit yourself.” He gives my ass a tight squeeze, then rolls away from me to sleep on his side.
As I begin to fall asleep, the usual loneliness that has been my companion for as long as I can remember takes over me, and I welcome it. It’s soothing and familiar. Every relationship I have is similar to this. Fuck, play, fuck, play, with no emotions attached to anything we do. But I’m okay with it. It’s better that way because that means there’s less of a chance of me ever getting hurt by anyone.