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  'Get up then, Maggie, lass, get up wi' thee. Tha ma'es too much o' th'bod.'

  A young man approached, wearing rough khaki and kneebreeches. He was

  Danish looking, broad at the loins.

  'I's come back then,' said the father to the son; 'leastwise, he's bin browt back, flyed ower the Griff Low.'

  The son looked at me. He had a devil-may-care bearing, his cap on one side, his hands stuck in the front pockets of his breeches. But he said nothing.

  'Shall you come in a minute, Master,' said the elderly woman, to me.

  'Ay, come in an' ha'e a cup o' tea or summat. You'll do wi' summat, carrin' that bod. Come on, Maggie wench, let's go in.'

  So we went indoors, into the rather stuffy, overcrowded living-room, that was too cosy, and too warm. The son followed last, standing in the doorway. The father talked to me.

  Maggie put out the tea-cups. The mother went into the dairy again.

  'Tha'lt rouse thysen up a bit again, now, Maggie,' the father-in-law said - and then to me: ''ers not bin very bright sin' Alfred came whoam, an' the bod flyed awee. 'E come whoam a Wednesday night, Alfred did. But ay, you knowed, didna yer. Ay, 'e comed 'a Wednesday - an' I reckon there wor a bit of a to-do between 'em, worn't there, Maggie?'

  He twinkled maliciously to his daughter-in-law, who was flushed, brilliant and handsome.

  'Oh, be quiet, father. You're wound up, by the sound of you,' she said to him, as if crossly. But she could never be cross with him.

  ''Ers got 'er colour back this mornin',' continued the father-in-law slowly. 'It's bin heavy weather wi' 'er this last two days. Ay - 'er's bin northeast sin 'er seed you a Wednesday.'

  'Father, do stop talking. You'd wear the leg off an iron pot. I can't think where you've found your tongue, all of a sudden,' said Maggie, with caressive sharpness.

  'Ah've found it wheer I lost it. Aren't goin' ter come in an' sit thee down, Alfred?'

  But Alfred turned and disappeared.

  ''E's got th' monkey on 'is back ower this letter job,' said the father secretly to me. 'Mother, 'er knows nowt about it. Lot o' tom-foolery, isn't it? Ay! What's good o' makkin' a peck o' trouble over what's far enough off, an' ned niver come no nigher. No - not a smite o' use. That's what I tell 'er. 'Er should ta'e no notice on't. Ty, what can y' expect.'

  The mother came in again, and the talk became general. Maggie flashed her eyes at me from time to time, complacent and satisfied, moving among the men. I paid her little compliments, which she did not seem to hear. She attended to me with a kind of sinister, witch-like graciousness, her dark head ducked between her shoulders, at once humble and powerful. She was happy as a child attending to her father-in-law and to me. But there was something ominous between her eyebrows, as if a dark moth were settled there - and something ominous in her bent, hulking bearing.

  She sat on a low stool by the fire, near her father-in-law. Her head was dropped, she seemed in a state of abstraction. From time to time she would suddenly recover, and look up at us, laughing and chatting. Then she would forget again. Yet in her hulked black forgetting she seemed very near to us.

  The door having been opened, the peacock came slowly in, prancing calmly. He went near to her and crouched down, coiling his blue neck. She glanced at him, but almost as if she did not observe him. The bird sat silent, seeming to sleep, and the woman also sat hulked and silent, seemingly oblivious. Then once more there was a heavy step, and Alfred entered. He looked at his wife, and he looked at the peacock crouching by her. He stood large in the doorway, his hands stuck in front of him, in his breeches pockets. Nobody spoke. He turned on his heel and went out again.

  I rose also to go. Maggie started as if coming to herself.

  'Must you go?' she asked, rising and coming near to me, standing in front of me, twisting her head sideways and looking up at me. 'Can't you stop a bit longer? We can all be cosy today, there's nothing to do outdoors.' And she laughed, showing her teeth oddly. She had a long chin.

  I said I must go. The peacock uncoiled and coiled again his long blue neck, as he lay on the hearth. Maggie still stood close in front of me, so that I was acutely aware of my waistcoat buttons.

  'Oh, well,' she said, 'you'll come again, won't you? Do come again.'

  I promised.

  'Come to tea one day - yes, do!'

  I promised - one day.

  The moment I went out of her presence I ceased utterly to exist for her - as utterly as I ceased to exist for Joey. With her curious abstractedness she forgot me again immediately. I knew it as I left her. Yet she seemed almost in physical contact with me while I was with her.

  The sky was all pallid again, yellowish. When I went out there was no sun; the snow was blue and cold. I hurried away down the hill, musing on Maggie. The road made a loop down the sharp face of the slope. As I went crunching over the laborious snow I became aware of a figure striding down the steep scarp to intercept me. It was a man with his hands in front of him, half stuck in his breeches pockets, and his shoulders square - a real farmer of the hills; Alfred, of course. He waited for me by the stone fence.

  'Excuse me,' he said as I came up.

  I came to a halt in front of him and looked into his sullen blue eyes. He had a certain odd haughtiness on his brows. But his blue eyes stared insolently at me.

  'Do you know anything about a letter - in French - that my wife opened - a letter of mine - ?'

  'Yes,' said I. 'She asked me to read it to her.'

  He looked square at me. He did not know exactly how to feel.

  'What was there in it?' he asked.

  'Why?' I said. 'Don't you know?'

  'She makes out she's burnt it,' he said.

  'Without showing it you?' I asked.

  He nodded slightly. He seemed to be meditating as to what line of action he should take. He wanted to know the contents of the letter: he must know: and therefore he must ask me, for evidently his wife had taunted him. At the same time, no doubt, he would like to wreak untold vengeance on my unfortunate person. So he eyed me, and I eyed him, and neither of us spoke. He did not want to repeat his request to me. And yet I only looked at him, and considered.

  Suddenly he threw back his head and glanced down the valley. Then he changed his position - he was a horse-soldier. Then he looked at me confidentially.

  'She burnt the blasted thing before I saw it,' he said.

  'Well,' I answered slowly, 'she doesn't know herself what was in it.'

  He continued to watch me narrowly. I grinned to myself.

  'I didn't like to read her out what there was in it,' I continued.

  He suddenly flushed so that the veins in his neck stood out, and he stirred again uncomfortably.

  'The Belgian girl said her baby had been born a week ago, and that they were going to call it Alfred,' I told him.

  He met my eyes. I was grinning. He began to grin, too.

  'Good luck to her,' he said.

  'Best of luck,' said I.

  'And what did you tell her?' he asked.

  'That the baby belonged to the old mother - that it was brother to your girl, who was writing to you as a friend of the family.'

  He stood smiling, with the long, subtle malice of a farmer.

  'And did she take it in?' he asked.

  'As much as she took anything else.'

  He stood grinning fixedly. Then he broke into a short laugh.

  'Good for her' he exclaimed cryptically.

  And then he laughed aloud once more, evidently feeling he had won a big move in his contest with his wife.

  'What about the other woman?' I asked.

  'Who?'

  'Élise.'

  'Oh' - he shifted uneasily - 'she was all right - '

  'You'll be getting back to her,' I said.

  He looked at me. Then he made a grimace with his mouth.

  'Not me,' he said. 'Back your life it's a plant.'

  'You don't think the cher petit bébé is a little Alfred?'

  'It might
be,' he said.

  'Only might?'

  'Yes - an' there's lots of mites in a pound of cheese.' He laughed boisterously but uneasily.

  'What did she say, exactly?' he asked.

  I began to repeat, as well as I could, the phrases of the letter:

  'Mon cher Alfred - Figure-toi comme je suis desolée - '

  He listened with some confusion. When I had finished all I could remember, he said:

  'They know how to pitch you out a letter, those Belgian lasses.'

  'Practice,' said I.

  'They get plenty,' he said.

  There was a pause.

  'Oh, well,' he said. 'I've never got that letter, anyhow.'

  The wind blew fine and keen, in the sunshine, across the snow. I blew my nose and prepared to depart.

  'And she doesn't know anything?' he continued, jerking his head up the hill in the direction of Tible.

  'She knows nothing but what I've said - that is, if she really burnt the letter.'

  'I believe she burnt it,' he said, 'for spite. She's a little devil, she is. But I shall have it out with her.' His jaw was stubborn and sullen. Then suddenly he turned to me with a new note.

  'Why?' he said. 'Why didn't you wring that b - - peacock's neck-that b - - Joey?'

  'Why?' I said. 'What for?'

  'I hate the brute,' he said. 'I had a shot at him - '

  I laughed. He stood and mused.

  'Poor little Elise,' he murmured.

  'Was she small - petite?' I asked. He jerked up his head.

  'No,' he said. 'Rather tall.'

  'Taller than your wife, I suppose.'

  Again he looked into my eyes. And then once more he went into a loud burst of laughter that made the still, snow-deserted valley clap again.

  'God, it's a knockout!' he said, thoroughly amused. Then he stood at ease, one foot out, his hands in his breeches pockets, in front of him, his head thrown back, a handsome figure of a man.

  'But I'll do that blasted Joey in - ' he mused.

  I ran down the hill, shouting with laughter.

  You Touched Me

  The Pottery House was a square, ugly, brick house girt in by the wall that enclosed the whole grounds of the pottery itself. To be sure, a privet hedge partly masked the house and its ground from the pottery-yard and works: but only partly. Through the hedge could be seen the desolate yard, and the many-windowed, factory-like pottery, over the hedge could be seen the chimneys and the outhouses. But inside the hedge, a pleasant garden and lawn sloped down to a willow pool, which had once supplied the works.

  The Pottery itself was now closed, the great doors of the yard permanently shut. No more the great crates with yellow straw showing through, stood in stacks by the packing shed. No more the drays drawn by great horses rolled down the hill with a high load. No more the pottery-lasses in their clay-coloured overalls, their faces and hair splashed with grey fine mud, shrieked and larked with the men. All that was over.

  'We like it much better - oh, much better - quieter,' said Matilda Rockley.

  'Oh, yes,' assented Emmie Rockley, her sister.

  'I'm sure you do,' agreed the visitor.

  But whether the two Rockley girls really liked it better, or whether they only imagined they did, is a question. Certainly their lives were much more grey and dreary now that the grey clay had ceased to spatter its mud and silt its dust over the premises. They did not quite realize how they missed the shrieking, shouting lasses, whom they had known all their lives and disliked so much.

  Matilda and Emmie were already old maids. In a thorough industrial district, it is not easy for the girls who have expectations above the common to find husbands. The ugly industrial town was full of men, young men who were ready to marry. But they were all colliers or pottery-hands, mere workmen. The Rockley girls would have about ten thousand pounds each when their father died: ten thousand pounds' worth of profitable house-property. It was not to be sneezed at: they felt so themselves, and refrained from sneezing away such a fortune on any mere member of the proletariat. Consequently, bank-clerks or nonconformist clergymen or even school-teachers having failed to come forward, Matilda had begun to give up all idea of ever leaving the Pottery House.

  Matilda was a tall, thin, graceful fair girl, with a rather large nose. She was the Mary to Emmie's Martha: that is, Matilda loved painting and music, and read a good many novels, whilst Emmie looked after the house-keeping. Emmie was shorter, plumper than her sister, and she had no accomplishments. She looked up to Matilda, whose mind was naturally refined and sensible.

  In their quiet, melancholy way, the two girls were happy. Their mother was dead. Their father was ill also. He was an intelligent man who had had some education, but preferred to remain as if he were one with the rest of the working people. He had a passion for music and played the violin pretty well. But now he was getting old, he was very ill, dying of a kidney disease. He had been rather a heavy whisky-drinker.

  This quiet household, with one servant-maid, lived on year after year in the Pottery House. Friends came in, the girls went out, the father drank himself more and more ill. Outside in the street there was a continual racket of the colliers and their dogs and children. But inside the pottery wall was a deserted quiet.

  In all this ointment there was one little fly. Ted Rockley, the father of the girls, had had four daughters, and no son. As his girls grew, he felt angry at finding himself always in a house-hold of women. He went off to London and adopted a boy out of a Charity Institution. Emmie was fourteen years old, and Matilda sixteen, when their father arrived home with his prodigy, the boy of six, Hadrian.

  Hadrian was just an ordinary boy from a Charity Home, with ordinary brownish hair and ordinary bluish eyes and of ordinary rather cockney speech. The Rockley girls - there were three at home at the time of his arrival - had resented his being sprung on them. He, with his watchful, charity-institution instinct, knew this at once. Though he was only six years old, Hadrian had a subtle, jeering look on his face when he regarded the three young women. They insisted he should address them as Cousin: Cousin Flora, Cousin Matilda, Cousin Emmie. He complied, but there seemed a mockery in his tone.

  The girls, however, were kind-hearted by nature. Flora married and left home. Hadrian did very much as he pleased with Matilda and Emmie, though they had certain strictnesses. He grew up in the Pottery House and about the Pottery premises, went to an elementary school, and was invariably called Hadrian Rockley. He regarded Cousin Matilda and Cousin Emmie with a certain laconic indifference, was quiet and reticent in his ways. The girls called him sly, but that was unjust. He was merely cautious, and without frankness. His Uncle, Ted Rockley, understood him tacitly, their natures were somewhat akin. Hadrian and the elderly man had a real but unemotional regard for one another.

  When he was thirteen years old the boy was sent to a High School in the County town. He did not like it. His Cousin Matilda had longed to make a little gentleman of him, but he refused to be made. He would give a little contemptuous curve to his lip, and take on a shy, charity-boy grin, when refinement was thrust upon him. He played truant from the High School, sold his books, his cap with its badge, even his very scarf and pocket-handkerchief, to his school-fellows, and went raking off heaven knows where with the money. So he spent two very unsatisfactory years.

  When he was fifteen he announced that he wanted to leave England and go to the Colonies. He had kept touch with the Home. The Rockleys knew that, when Hadrian made a declaration, in his quiet, half-jeering manner, it was worse than useless to oppose him. So at last the boy departed, going to Canada under the protection of the Institution to which he had belonged. He said good-bye to the Rockleys without a word of thanks, and parted, it seemed, without a pang. Matilda and Emmie wept often to think of how he left them: even on their father's face a queer look came. But Hadrian wrote fairly regularly from Canada. He had entered some electricity works near Montreal, and was doing well.

  At last, however, the war came. I
n his turn, Hadrian joined up and came to Europe. The Rockleys saw nothing of him. They lived on, just the same, in the Pottery House. Ted Rockley was dying of a sort of dropsy, and in his heart he wanted to see the boy. When the armistice was signed, Hadrian had a long leave, and wrote that he was coming home to the Pottery House.

  The girls were terribly fluttered. To tell the truth, they were a little afraid of Hadrian. Matilda, tall and thin, was frail in her health, both girls were worn with nursing their father. To have Hadrian, a young man of twenty-one, in the house with them, after he had left them so coldly five years before, was a trying circumstance.

  They were in a flutter. Emmie persuaded her father to have his bed made finally in the morning-room downstairs, whilst his room upstairs was prepared for Hadrian. This was done, and preparations were going on for the arrival, when, at ten o'clock in the morning the young man suddenly turned up, quite unexpectedly. Cousin Emmie, with her hair bobbed up in absurd little bobs round her forehead, was busily polishing the stair-rods, while Cousin Matilda was in the kitchen washing the drawing-room ornaments in a lather, her sleeves rolled back on her thin arms, and her head tied up oddly and coquettishly in a duster.

  Cousin Matilda blushed deep with mortification when the self-possessed young man walked in with his kit-bag, and put his cap on the sewing machine. He was little and self-confident, with a curious neatness about him that still suggested the Charity Institution. His face was brown, he had a small moustache, he was vigorous enough in his smallness.

  'Well, is it Hadrian!' exclaimed Cousin Matilda, wringing the lather off her hand. 'We didn't expect you till tomorrow.'

  'I got off Monday night,' said Hadrian, glancing round the room.

  'Fancy!' said Cousin Matilda. Then, having dried her hands, she went forward, held out her hand, and said:

  'How are you?'

  'Quite well, thank you,' said Hadrian.

  'You're quite a man,' said Cousin Matilda.

  Hadrian glanced at her. She did not look her best: so thin, so large-nosed, with that pink-and-white checked duster tied round her head. She felt her disadvantage. But she had had a good deal of suffering and sorrow, she did not mind any more.