Not that she cared for the male form, she told herself. But when he’d come out of the shower and she saw him standing there so tall and massive with the wide planes of his bare chest and broad shoulders beaded with water, her stomach had done a funny little flip. Only because he’s aesthetically pleasing to the eye, she told herself uneasily, remembering it now. With those sculpted abs and his long, muscular legs he’s a damn near perfect specimen. Lady Malroth is certain to be impressed.
But no matter how much she tried to tell herself she was only admiring him in a purely artistic sense, it couldn’t be denied that her stomach had never done that funny little flip when she saw a naked female. Her lack of reaction to others of her sex had led her to believe that she might be mostly asexual. Indeed, though she enjoyed playing with her clitoral stimulator, she never fantasized about other women or anyone else as she did so. She simply enjoyed the pleasurable sensations of the buzzing little vibrator until she reached a gentle orgasm and drifted off to sleep.
So why did she feel so strange when she watched Thrace move around in that tiny, thin towel? Trin had no answer. But the memory of his big, muscular body, nearly naked and beaded with water certainly did something for her. Maybe it was because he was so big or so different from her. He was hard where she was soft and his voice was so deep…it was strange but just the thought of him lying there at the foot of her bed was almost enough to warm her up. Almost.
Trin shivered again.
“Goddess, I’m so cold. What’s wrong with me?” she muttered, burrowing deeper into the covers.
“I’ll tell you what’s wrong with you,” a deep, familiar voice murmured from the darkness.
“What?” Trin sat up, shivering. “Thrace? I thought you were asleep.”
“Nah. I’m just lying here listening to you thrash around trying to get warm. But you’re never going to manage it.”
“What? Why not?” Trin demanded. “And how do you know, anyway?”
“I know because I know about passion berries—they’re native to my home world. You’ve still got some of the residue from that sip of wine you took in your system. The cold you’re feeling is an aftereffect and it’ll probably last for a few hours, if not the rest of the night.”
“The rest of the night?” Trin felt a surge of despair. She needed to sleep so she could wake up fresh and start preparing for the ordeal ahead of her on Yonnie Six. She had no time for lying in bed sleepless and besides, she felt like a block of ice. The cold wasn’t just uncomfortable—it was downright painful. “What can I do about it?” she demanded, pulling the thermal blanket closer—not that it did any good. “Since you know so much about passion berries.”
“Nothing,” he said flatly. “There’s nothing you can do.”
“Well, then what—?”
“But there’s something you can let me do.”
“What do you mean?” Trin felt uneasy.
“You can let me hold you. The passion berry compound demands physical contact to counteract its symptoms. That’s how I was able to warm you up before—by holding you.”
Trin vaguely remembered waking up and finding herself held in the big Havoc’s lap. He’d put her down pretty quickly, however—before she could start feeling too awkward. But now he was asking to get into bed with her and hold her in his arms. It seemed dangerous somehow, and not just because she was worried about having to use the pain collar to keep him in line.
He was silent for a long moment as she thought about it. Did she want to do this? Did she dare? Did she dare to let him climb in her bed and press his big, muscular body against hers? His big, muscular, warm body, whispered a practical little voice in her head. That’s the operative word, Trin. It may be awkward but at least it’s warm.
But what if he tries something? Like the things he was talking about while you had him chained to the cot? a voice in her brain demanded. What are you supposed to do then?
The thought gave her pause. As intriguing as she was beginning to find Thrace and the male form in general, she still had absolutely no wish to be penetrated by a male. Ever.
“If you’re worried, I’ll try something, don’t.” His voice was calm and matter-of-fact in the darkness. “I told you I don’t take females against their will and besides, you’ve got the remote.”
Trin cleared her throat.
“Of course I’m not worried about that,” she lied. “It’s just…I only have on one of my night dresses—the kind you said bothered you so much. I just thought—”
“That I wouldn’t be able to control myself if I felt your body pressed to mine with only a thin little scrap of fabric between us?” He gave a rumbling laugh. “Don’t worry, Mistress, I know my place. And we males aren’t nearly as animalistic as you’ve been led to believe. I can reign myself in.”
“Well…” Trin still hesitated but the cold was spreading and now her teeth were starting to chatter. “A-all r-right,” she said at last. “Come here. But if I ask you to l-leave and go b-back to the floor, I expect instant obedience.”
“Yes, Mistress,” he murmured. And then he was sliding into bed, under the covers beside her and gathering her into his arms.
At first Trin stayed curled in a protective ball with the pain collar remote clutched tightly in one hand and held to her chest. It seemed the most prudent thing to do and besides she felt awkward and uncertain, allowing a male into her bed no matter how valid the reason.
Thrace didn’t seem to care about her awkward pose. He simply gathered her close, wrapping his long arms around her and holding her to his chest. His body heat went to work on her at once and little by little, Trin felt her frozen extremities starting to thaw.
At last he spoke softly in the darkness.
“It would be better if you’d relax a little. If you’d come a little closer I could warm you to the core—that’s what you need.”
Trin did long to feel the delicious heat she felt coursing through her arms and legs warming the rest of her.
“Well…all right,” she said at last. Slowly and carefully, she allowed her body to unknot.
“That’s good,” Thrace murmured. “Now, here…” He drew her close to him, her back to his chest, and wrapped his arms around her in a firm but loose hold that clearly let her know she was free to go at any time. He pressed his legs to the back of her thighs and knees and settled her securely against him, so that her head was resting on his muscular bicep. “How’s that?” he murmured.
Trin hardly knew how to answer. The sensation of being held by the huge Havoc was both odd and comforting at the same time. She felt completely surrounded by him—cradled and protected by his big body. It reminded her of being a very young child because that was the last time in her life she’d been small enough for another person to so completely surround and cradle her.
It was a little scary to feel so tiny and vulnerable in the arms of a male she knew could break her in half with one hand. And yet…she didn’t feel threatened by Thrace. Not at all. She somehow knew he would use his strength to protect her, not to hurt her.
Of course, all that was much too complicated to say in answer to his question.
“This is nice,” she said at last. “Warm…or warmer, I suppose. My face is still cold though. Those damn passion berries are awful—the tip of my nose is like ice.”
“That’s easy to fix.” Before she could protest, he flipped her over so they were face to face—or face to chest, in this case since he was so big—and pulled her close again.
Trin started to protest but the heat radiating from his big body was immediately addictive. It felt like she’d been standing in the doorway with her face in a cold wind and someone had suddenly turned her towards a roaring fire. Now her frozen skin was beginning to thaw and she found she lacked the will power to tell him to stop and let her go at once.
Just a minute or two, she told herself. I’ll just lay like this a minute or two and then once I’m completely warm I’ll send him back to his place on the floor.
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Feeling better about the situation now that she had imposed a time limit, Trin snuggled closer. She took a deep breath and the Havoc’s warmth surrounded her—he seemed to radiate heat like a furnace. And along with the heat, came his warm, spicy scent.
Trin breathed it in—it was rich and dark with hints of leather and some kind of musk she didn’t recognize. There was something about it…something other. A primal, masculine fragrance she’d never encountered until she met Thrace. Maybe it was hormonal in some way or maybe it was just a Havoc thing but for whatever reason, it smelled damn good. Trin found herself inhaling it eagerly, even pressing her face to his chest to get closer to the source.
At the same time, the rest of her was getting closer too. Her breasts, bare beneath the thin silky night dress, were pressed shamelessly to his hard abs and somehow her arms had slipped around his trim waist, the remote clasped loosely in one hand. Her pelvis was pressed to his and their legs had become entwined so that one of his long thighs was between hers.
Though she had never been this close to a male before, this somehow seemed perfectly all right to Trin. After a moment, though, she realized that something long and hard was branding her hip through her night dress and the thin fabric of Thrace’s sleep trousers.
What’s that? At first her mind could make no sense of it. She was too busy enjoying the sensation of warmth and closeness. She couldn’t remember the last time she’d allowed herself to cuddle with another person this way. There had been a few times when she was in the piloting academy when she had paired off with a classmate but they were all female and the female form, though beautiful, did not attract her. She had found early on that it did nothing for her sexually to have the soft, small frame of another female pressed against her own.
On the other hand, having Thrace’s big, hard body surrounding her own made her tingle everywhere in a most disturbing way.
The big Havoc shifted restlessly and the hard ridge of flesh poked her hip again. Trin frowned. Something long and hard between his thighs, pressing against me…what…? This time her brain made the connection.
“Oh!” She jumped back from him at once, putting a foot of space between them.
“What’s wrong?” His voice seemed slightly hoarse, although it was hard to tell since it was already so deep.
“You…your…” Trin didn’t know what to call it. “Your male equipment is poking me.”
“Yeah, well…” His shoulder lifted in a kind of half shrug which she could barely make out in the dim light from the floor glows. “It’s to be expected.”
“Expected? What are you talking about?” Trin demanded. She felt upset… betrayed. “You told me you could control yourself!”
“I am controlling myself,” he growled. “I’m holding a beautiful, half naked female in my arms and I’m not doing a damn thing but lying here. Believe me, that takes a hell of a lot of control.”
“But…your equipment…”
“My shaft gets hard when I’m aroused—it’s automatic. I can’t stop it.” He shrugged again. “Sorry—there are limits to what I can control, even for you, Mistress.”
“So…you’re admitting you’re aroused?” Trin didn’t know how to feel about that.
“I can’t help it,” Thrace rumbled. “You’re fucking gorgeous and you smell incredible. What can I say? Holding you makes me hard.”
“If you knew that holding me would make you…feel that way, then why did you offer to do it in the first place?” Trin demanded. “Was it just to…to get off?”
“Have I grabbed you in any way?” he demanded, sounding offended. “Have I cupped your breasts or put my hand between your thighs to feel your soft little pussy?”
“Well…” Trin could feel her cheeks getting hot. “No,” she admitted at last.
“If you’re thinking I wanted to cop a cheap feel, you’re wrong,” Thrace said flatly. “I could’ve just gone to sleep and let you freeze all night long but I didn’t want to do that because I feel—” He shook his head. “Never mind.”
“No, go on,” Trin said softly. “What do you feel?”
“I feel protective of you.” He sighed. “I realize you might not want to hear that since your people don’t feel like they need a male to protect them in any way but I can’t help it. Ever since the Demon’s Eye, I just feel the need to look out for you. To keep you safe, no matter what.”
“Well…” Trin didn’t know whether to be offended or touched. It was irritating that he felt like he had to look after her. One moment of weakness in the Demon’s Eye didn’t mean she wasn’t perfectly capable of looking after herself. On the other hand, it was kind of nice too.
“Well…?” he echoed and she knew he was waiting for her verdict.
“I guess that means you’ll make an excellent body-slave,” Trin said at last. “I have heard a few of the mistresses of Yonnie Six say that the best body-slaves are bound to their mistresses by true bonds of affection, not just the imminent threat of the pain collar.”
“Is that what they say?” he rumbled. “Bonds of affection, hmm?”
“Y-yes…” Trin’s teeth chattered as she tried to speak. They’d been apart for too long—the cold was creeping back into her bones and she was beginning to shiver again. Thrace seemed to recognize her problem at once.
“Come here.” He reached for her in the darkness but Trin resisted.
“W-wait. What about—?”
“I’ll keep my hips angled back so I don’t touch you,” he promised. “Just let me warm you up again so you don’t freeze. It takes a long time for the passion berry’s effects to completely leave your system.”
Reluctantly, Trin allowed him to draw her into his arms once more. It was like being held by warm, flexible steel bands. Almost immediately, her shivering stopped as his body heat seemed to penetrate her skin. Thrace kept his hips well back so that only the top parts of their bodies touched this time and after a little while, Trin found herself relaxing again.
“Mmm, this is nice,” she admitted, pressing her cold cheek to his chest. “You’re so warm.”
“Glad to be of service, Mistress,” he said, his deep voice slightly sarcastic in the gloom. “Just doing my best to be the perfect body-slave.”
“You are acting like a good body-slave would,” Trin said earnestly. “And I don’t want you to think I’m ungrateful. I know you could’ve let me freeze and ignored my pain and you didn’t. It’s just…I’m not that used to male anatomy and you…startled me.”
“You didn’t seem to have a problem with it when you had me chained down,” he pointed out.
“Yes, but back then I thought of you as a pet—like my stallion, Swift,” she admitted. “I was just helping you. And you never…er, got hard until that last time.”
“If you’ve got a big, male animal as a pet back home then you’ve certainly seen a hard shaft before,” he rumbled.
“Yes, but not directed at me,” Trin said. “Not because of me.”
He sighed. “Sorry about that. Like I said, it’s an automatic response. The same way your pussy gets wet and your nipples get hard when you’re with another female you like.”
“I don’t…” Trin cleared her throat, embarrassed by his frank words. “I don’t have that kind of reaction to other females.”
“But I thought that females from Zetta Prime always mated with each other and since there are no males—”
“You’re right—they do. And a mating between two females can be a beautiful and fulfilling thing,” Trin said. “I’ve always wished I could have that,” she admitted in a low voice. “But I just can’t…can’t seem to feel that way for another female. I’ve tried but it never works and that’s not fair to the other girl. Women want a loving commitment and all I could ever offer was friendship. So I decided to keep to myself—it’s better that way. Easier.”
“And it never occurred to you to even try with a male since you’re clearly not wired to love the company of your own sex?” Thrace sounded incr
edulous.
“Why would it?” Trin demanded. “You know what my people think of males—the misconceptions they have. Why, I bet not one female in a hundred back home would believe me if I told them you were able to carry on an intelligent and thoughtful conversation like this. They’d as soon believe that I taught my pet stallion, Swift to talk.”
“Huh.” He grunted thoughtfully. “I guess that makes sense then. You wouldn’t want to form a relationship with a creature you considered no better than an animal.”
“That’s what the other daughters of Zetta Prime would think—not what I think,” Trin protested. “Not anymore. You’re not what I was taught to expect, Thrace. You’re intelligent…interesting…protective…different.”
“Glad you find me so entertaining,” he murmured dryly but there was a trace of humor in his voice.
“I didn’t mean it that way and you know it.” Trin sighed. “But it’s not just the misconceptions that stopped me—having a sexual relationship with a male is actually against my religion—well, the religion I was raised in, anyway.”
“Your religion?” Thrace sounded incredulous. “Forgive me but you don’t strike me as the religious type. And I thought your people worshiped the Goddess. The same one the Kindred revere?”
“We do worship a Goddess—the Goddess of Judgment,” Trin said. “I don’t know if our beliefs coincide with the Kindred—I doubt it. Our belief is that the Goddess wanted us to leave Yonnie Six because of all the sexual depravity going on between the mistresses and their male body-slaves and eschew contact with males as much as possible. That’s why we broke off from them in the first place and moved to a whole other planet.”
“So why did you go looking to buy a male body-slave then if you’re so devout?” he asked.
“I didn’t go looking to buy a male to…to penetrate me,” Trin pointed out. “I simply needed one as a prop, so I could trade with the entitled, snobbish mistresses of Yonnie Six.”