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  In the schoolyard Kathleen came alive but in the oddest way, showing an alarming tendency to play with boys. Hurling sootballs, schoolbag raised as a shield, shrieking with joy in her linen sailor dress, ringlets flying, for ever banishing herself from the society of girls.

  Blackened knees and torn silk were the stuff of high spirits, and James never scolded her for ruining her clothes, but when Kathleen came home and said, “Pius MacGillicuddy gots a finger in a jar what his da found in the mine, that he b’ought up from a wee tiny sprout,” it was time to send her to Holy Angels in Sydney.

  The Sisters of the Congregation of Notre Dame were in the business of educating the whole girl: from grammar to botany, physics to French. But above all, Holy Angels offered an excellent music program. James had been going to wait a few years, till Kathleen turned twelve and he’d saved enough for tuition, but there was no help for it, she’d be tarnished by then. He’d find the money.

  He started a garden in the backyard on the far side of the creek. He bought a new old horse and cart. He travelled across the island to the Margaree and collected topsoil with no trace of coal-dust. The missus would have to learn to make soap, butter and her own clothes. From now on they’d have to pay only for meat, and Benny always gave them a special price. Benny gave James a special price on manure too.

  “For you, free. That’s kosher cow shit, mind you, you’re going to have kosher carrots and potatoes, you’ll be a Jew in no time — you want, I’ll throw in a circumcision, no charge.”

  James went out to the woods and cut down a young apple tree. Stripped it of branches, sharpened it at both ends and drove it into the centre of the garden. Nailed a plank of driftwood across it, and dressed it in one of Materia’s old frocks that she’d grown out of and a fedora he found blowing over a field. It wasn’t effective till he fashioned a head and torso from two flour sacks stuffed with straw to fill out the clothes, and impaled them on the stake. Every so often he changed its attire, now a dress, now a pair of trousers, but always the hat, keeping the birds on edge.

  “Kathleen, come.”

  Materia no longer spoke Arabic to the girl. What for? Kathleen followed her mother into the kitchen. The big tin tub was full and steaming. Tomorrow was Kathleen’s first day at Holy Angels and James wanted her spick and span. That meant hair. Materia used to dread washing the child’s hair because of all the fuss. James would holler from outside the kitchen door, “Are you trying to kill the poor child?” But Materia was used to the girl’s hysterics, and performed the task briskly, scouring the scalp, dunking the head, wringing the tresses, getting the comb through, keeping her still. James could holler, but he would never intrude on his daughter’s ablutions.

  This evening there were the customary protests — “Don’t pull! — my eyes are stinging! O-o-ow, stop i-i-it!” — but when Materia took Kathleen by the hair as usual and plunged her head backwards for the first rinsing, she kept it under long enough to say into the submerged green eyes, “Do you renounce Satan? Yes. And all his works? Yes. I baptize you in nomine Patris, et Filii et Spiritus Sancti, amen.” There. In an emergency, any Catholic can baptize a child. And after nine years, Materia considered it an emergency. Now the child would be safe. Now God could love her, even if Materia couldn’t, and the nuns wouldn’t think ill of her. Materia let go and Kathleen’s face broke the surface, gasping.

  Kathleen didn’t cry or complain. She stood unwontedly docile as her mother towelled her dry, careful to attend roughly to the bad parts of the body.

  In the wee hours of that night, Kathleen woke up screaming. She was still screaming when her daddy picked her up, and she clung to him as he walked her up and down the hallway, struggling to make out what she was saying.

  “Who’s coming to get you?” he asked.

  And when he had deciphered some more, “Who’s ‘Pete’?”

  And she told him through her sobs.

  He carried her downstairs, out the kitchen door, across the coal clinkers in the back yard, over the little foot-bridge to the garden and right up to the scarecrow.

  “Now beat the can off him,” James ordered.

  Kathleen was shaking uncontrollably, almost gagging with fear. The scarecrow’s hat cast a shadow over its featureless face. She couldn’t see if it was smiling or frowning.

  “Make a fist, go on,” said James.

  She did, still crying.

  “Now whack the bejeesus out of him!”

  She struck out and knocked the scarecrow’s head to the ground, hat and all.

  “That’s the stuff!” said James, and he tossed her into the air and caught her with a war whoop.

  Kathleen laughed as wildly as she’d been crying a moment before. It wound up in one of their yelling contests, only there were neighbours now and before long the lights came on in a nearby row of company houses and cries of protest, obscene and otherwise, were raised. James replied at the top of his lungs, “Shut up the lot of you and listen to this!”

  And he had Kathleen sing:

  “Quanto affetto! Quali cure!

  che temete, padre mio?

  Lassù in cielo presso Dio,

  veglia un angiol protettor.

  Da noi toglie le sventure

  di mia madre il priego santo;

  non fia mai divelto o franto

  questo a voi diletto fior.”

  That’s how James got a reputation as a drinker, although at that point he was a teetotaller.

  The next day he stuck the straw head back onto the stake and jammed the hat on the head. There were no more nightmares.

  What great love! What care!

  What do you fear, my father?

  In heaven above, with God,

  I have a guardian angel.

  We are protected from all misfortune

  by the holy prayers of my mother.

  This flower that you love so much

  will never be uprooted or destroyed.

  The Pit

  Even though it was just an old cart, he painted it red with gold trim so she’d have something handsome to ride back and forth to school in. He did her initials in fancy gilt on the side and their joke was “Your carriage awaits without, ma’am.” It meant giving up some piano pupils, but he drove her the nine miles to Holy Angels every morning and he was there every afternoon when the big double doors opened and she came running down the steps to meet him. On Friday afternoons they’d linger in Sydney, wandering down to the yacht club wharf to look at the ships in the harbour.

  “One day you’ll get on one of those liners, my darling, and go.”

  She wanted him to come with her, of course, but he didn’t patronize her. “You’re going to sing for people all over the world. I won’t always be there, but I’ll always be your daddy.”

  At which she would cry and he would take them for ice-cream at Crown Bakery, her eyelashes still wet but her eyes smiling once more. She never stayed sad for long. People stared wherever they went because she was beautiful, and the two of them were so obviously the best of friends.

  James knew that someday he’d have to hand her over to professionals, send her far away, but for now…. There was a God. James consecrated his life to being a worthy caretaker of God’s gift. It was how he could endure teaching the offspring of the petty bourgeoisie to mangle “Für Elise.” I’ll do anything, he told God and himself. I’ll cut off my arm, I’ll sell the teeth in my head, I’ll enter the pit. I’ll allow my wife to get a job.

  “Okay,” said Materia.

  He prepared himself for the fact that she’d likely get work cleaning and cooking in someone else’s house, or at a hotel. He told her to use her maiden name. “If people think you’re married, they’ll pay you less,” he explained. It mustn’t be known that Kathleen Piper’s mother was a maid.

  Imagine his surprise when Materia left the house a few evenings later wearing her good dress, her hair combed and done up under her hat.

  “Where’re you going, missus?”

  “Work.”<
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  On Plummer Avenue, the main drag of the boom town, inside the Empire Theatre, the silver screen flickered, and down in the orchestra pit so did the piano. Trills and triplets seemed a natural counterpart to the frenetic dance of light and shadow above.

  The audience leans slowly back as the locomotive appears on the horizon, tinkling towards them at first, birds singing — just another day in the country — then the first hint of doom as the train looms larger; a switch from major to minor, chugga chugga, here it comes rattling and rolling, whistle screeching, punctuated by the warning woo-woo, escalating through the landscape in a melody of mad elation, hurtling over the keys till all erupts in chaos, notes and birds fly asunder and the speeding iron horse thunders right over our heads and past us.

  The audience is breathless, eager for the next terror, all you can take for a nickel. Materia can’t believe she’s getting paid for this.

  The next scene is more terrifying. A man in evening clothes has cornered a young woman in a slinky nightgown halfway up a clock tower. No narrative preamble required, all ist klar, the shadows lurk, the tower lists, the music creeps the winding stair, the villain spies a grace-note of silken hem and he’s on the chase in six-eight time up to where our heroine clings to a snatch of girlish melody, teetering on the precipice of high E, overlooking the street eight octaves below. Villain struggles with virgin in a macabre waltz, Strauss turned Faust, until, just when it seems she’ll plummet, dash her brains on the bass clef and die entangled in the web of the lower stave, a vision in tenor crescendos on to save the day in resolving chords.

  Before long, Materia was playing for local ceilidhs and travelling vaudeville troupes.

  In December 1909, James boarded Kathleen at Holy Angels because children were dying in the boom town. Scarlet fever, diphtheria, cholera, typhoid, smallpox, tuberculosis. Leaving a wake of little white coffins. Outbreaks of disease were far from uncommon but this was something else, this was an epidemic brought on by the miners’ strike. Rows of company houses sat empty, their striking tenants evicted, yanked naked some of them, pulled off the crapper and out of the cradle, credit cut off at the Company Store. Pinkerton guards and special company constables went door to door till there was more furniture on the streets than in the houses. Even miners who had bought their own homes were evicted, the coal company having put the fear of God into the mortgage company. Families hunkered down in ragged tent cities out in the fields, no running water, less food, scant shelter from the Atlantic winter winds. Scarlet blotches bloomed on the thin cheeks of children, they suffocated on pus or died worn out from coughing.

  But nothing could convince the miners back to work. Not even a Royal Canadian machine-gun mounted on the steps of the Immaculate Conception Church over at Cadegan Brook — and though Father Charlie MacDonald claimed he was away at the time, the Catholic church did its bit all the same to end the needless suffering of the strike: the bishop sent a special envoy to the boom town to empty the convent, the school, the rectory and the church of the miners’ families that the parish priest, Father Jim Frazer, was sheltering there. Then the bishop transferred Father Frazer right off the island.

  James acted fast. There was no money to board Kathleen at Holy Angels but money would be found. She’d not be kept here in the boom town to catch her death from the miners’ brats. Or wind up crippled, or scarred in the face, please God no. They’ve brought it on themselves, stubborn bastards, and that’s why I have to board my daughter at the school I already can’t afford to send her to, and who’s to help me do that? The piano teachers’ union? The Piano-Tuners-of-the-World-Unite Party? Jesus Christ on the cross, no. I’m on my own.

  “Sweetheart, you’re going to live in at school for just a little while.”

  She didn’t want to.

  “No, I won’t be there, and it’ll be a while before I can visit.” He would observe strict quarantine. “It’ll be fun, you’ll see, you’ll make some buddies.”

  She cried. He said, suddenly severe, “Giuditta Pasta was lame, and when she was asked how she was able to sing so beautifully and act so brilliantly night after night, yet give no sign of her affliction, she said what?”

  “‘It hurts.’”

  He patted her on the head, “That’s the stuff.”

  It would be months before he saw her again. He thought to himself, it’s good training for the both of us.

  He took the ill luck the strike had dealt him and turned it to his own purposes. Before dawn one winter morning he shouldered three sparkling new picks, an undented shovel and a length of rope. He filled a teapot-style lamp with whale oil, clipped it to his peaked cap, hooked a lunch can to his belt and walked with three Pinkerton guards to the Number 12 gate, where khaki-clad Tommies guarded the coal with fixed bayonets.

  The soldiers who let him in were no friendlier than the gauntlet of striking miners he’d left outside, though the soldiers didn’t spit or rave and call him “scab,” and accuse him of murdering their children. Nor did they promise to throw his balls to the pigs.

  He entered the mouth of the pit, following the trembling light of the open flame at his forehead and the shadows of the men ahead, down the sloping shaft of the main deep along the rail tracks, reaching out to touch the steel rope now and then. The airless smell of ponies, damp wood and earth, through trap doors that swung open magically, it seemed, until a child’s voice said, “Hey buddy, what’s the time?” Left turn, right turn, right, then left again, down, down, through the maze of hollow branches that blossomed into dark chambers. He heard a bird chirping.

  Number 12 Mine was terribly wet and gassy but James had nothing to compare it to. He shovelled coal onto a cart in a dripping room he didn’t know was under the ocean. He worked alongside one other man who happened to be experienced. It was this man’s job to undercut the wall, then to bore and lay and light the charges without blowing up the mine. James couldn’t place the man’s accent and never realized he was black, from Barbados, just knew he was Albert who never got them killed. Barbados, Italy, Belgium, Eastern Europe, Quebec…. The Dominion Coal Company had reached far and wide to break the strike. Very few English voices in the darkness and those that there were were heavily accented. James drank cold tea and chewed tobacco to keep down the dust, and at first concealed, then shared, his meat sandwiches. The cart held just over a ton, and when it was full he and Albert pushed it from the coal face to the headway and hitched it onto a trip. At the end of ten hours they surfaced into more darkness.

  The foreign men were escorted to their stockaded work camp nearby, called Fourteen Yard, to sing, sleep or gamble while the Royal Canadian Regiment stood guard. James walked home with the Pinkerton sons of bitches, passing between lines of mangy men who would have torn him limb from limb given half a chance — for as they saw it James had no excuse, he wasn’t starving and he wasn’t a foreigner — past women who stood on front stoops and gave him the evil eye, muttering, “May God forgive you.” One said a prayer for him, then hurled an iron door-stopper, missing him by a hair.

  James was making many times what he’d made teaching piano. For the first few weeks he wept silently at the beginning of every shift, until his body got rebroken to the work. Every night at home, after he’d turned white again, he’d get on his knees, fold his hands and beg his mother’s forgiveness for going underground.

  The Price of a Song

  “You’ve got a bit thinner. That’s good,” James said to Materia over supper.

  She shrugged.

  “What are you day-dreaming about?” James used the term loosely, she was always gawping at everything and nothing.

  “Houdini,” she said.

  “Who?”

  “Houdini.”

  He didn’t bother to pursue it. Ask a silly question. He’d long ago given up on conversation and now merely thanked God that the idiocy and swarthiness had bypassed his daughter. And that his wife had learned to cook.

  “What’s this?”

  “Kibbeh nayeh.”
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  “This a Hebrew delicacy?”

  “Lebanese.”

  Benny had smuggled her the recipe.

  Anyone can make kibbeh nayeh, anyone can make anything by following directions, but to make it right … that takes a blessed finger. Some say it’s in the length of the cook’s fingers, others claim it’s in the scent, as unique as a fingerprint, that every person carries. It is definitely a gift.

  Kibbeh was the national dish of Syria and Lebanon, it had to be made from the most trustworthy meat, therefore the Mahmouds bought only from Luvovitz’s Kosher Canadian Butcher Shop. While Mrs Luvovitz and the boys minded the shop, Benny made his deliveries in Sydney, always going last to the Mahmoud house on the hill. There, a dark little round woman with a greying bun of black hair would open the kitchen door to him. Benny didn’t speak Gaelic and Mrs Mahmoud’s English was still halting, but they managed to chat. Benny would go along with the pretence that Mrs Mahmoud’s interest in the Piper family was purely casual.

  “Oh sure I know the Pipers, she’s a nice lady Mrs Piper, Lebanese too, I guess you must know her — no? — ah well, yes they’ve got a lovely daughter, Kathleen, goes to Holy Angels, sings like a bird.”

  And this morning, when Benny asked Mrs Mahmoud for the kibbeh recipe “for my wife,” she didn’t raise an eyebrow but went immediately to her cupboards and pointed out ingredients. Benny noted it all on brown butcher paper as Mrs Mahmoud mimed the whole process, including the imprinting of a cross on the prepared meat. Benny laughed and shook his head and drew a Star of David for her instead.