When I finish, Crya leans back casually, disinterested; Brione leans forward, plants her elbows firmly on the table in front of her; and Wilde doesn’t move at all. None of it seems to surprise her.
“Thank you,” Wilde says. “We already knew much of what you told us, but this…cure…that is interesting news indeed.”
My mouth gapes open. “You already knew most of it?” I say in disbelief. “Then why haven’t you done anything about it?” I feel a surge of heat rise up in my chest as I remember Raja and t’other lifers, innocent prisoners.
“Do something?” Crya says, standing, her tone as sharp as a Hunter’s blade. “What the scorch is that supposed to mean? You think we give two blazes about the Heaters? Think again.”
I shrink back against her stare, sensing a history of violence behind Crya’s fierce eyes. She’s not one to be trifled with. “Sorry—I—I just—it’s all so fresh,” I finish lamely.
“It’s alright,” Wilde says. “Down, Crya.”
Gritting her teeth, Crya sits. Brione looks amused by the exchange. “Crya’s our Killer,” Brione says, and I’m not sure whether she means someone who kills or a real Killer, transformed into a human girl. Perhaps it’s both.
Wilde turns back to me. “Unfortunately we can’t do much to help the Heaters. The Greynotes have the village by the prickler, so to speak. We’re just doing our best to survive. We only monitor what’s happening in the village to ensure they don’t find us. I’m sorry, Siena, there’s not much we can do for those in Confinemement—at least not yet, not until our numbers are greater.” Her voice is so steady, so calm, so truthful. I believe every word she says.
“I understand,” I say. “How many, uh, Wilde’s are there?”
“One hundred and sixty two, including you,” Wilde answers.
I raise my eyebrows. “So many,” I say. Although there’ve been plenty of rumors ’bout the number of “kidnapped” girls being on the rise, no one knew the extent. Probably part of the cover up by the Greynotes.
“Seventeen more arrived from yer Call group,” Skye adds helpfully.
I scuff the ground with my shoe. There are so many questions I wanna ask, but I’d prefer to talk to Skye ’bout them, so I stay silent.
Chapter Thirty
That night there’s a welcome party. Apparently they’ve been delaying it till my arrival—the last from my Call group. All t’others snuck out of the village the day ’fore the Call, but my mother’s illness prevented her from helping me to do the same.
When night falls, torches are lit in a circle ’round a massive fire pit, as big as the one in the center of the village. The afternoon was rainy, but tonight the sky is clear; the edge of the moon goddess peeks over the top of the canyon, surrounded by her servants. At first everyone just sits ’round the fire, eating fried prickler and scrubgrass soup, and drinking collected rainwater and prickler juice.
Earlier that afternoon Skye told me how the Wildes don’t eat meat. Though they can Hunt, they choose not to. Instead they plant and harvest pricklers, scrubgrass, fireweed, and other roots and plants. Most of the year they grow them in the big prickler field I ran into earlier, but during the hot summer days, they dig them up and maintain them within the canyon, so they don’t get burnt up by the unforgiving sun. So not only are the Wildes not feral, they don’t eat meat. It sickens me how my father and the Greynotes use rumors and lies to spread fear in the hearts of the Heaters.
I’m not sure how I’ll feel after a few full moons of eating only plants, but tonight the prickler, which is garnished with some aromatic herb, is delicious. I eat everything on my plate and go back for seconds, which is allowed as part of the celebration. “No burnin’ rationin’ tonight!” Skye says. “Tonight we dance!”
I laugh, thinking she’s had a bit too much of the fireweed she’s been puffing on ever since we sat down, but then the music starts. It’s just a coupla drums at first, slow and thumping, but soon escalates into a cacophony of entangled sounds including a dozen sand shakers and at least that many reed flutes.
Skye is the first one up, and tries to pull me with her, but I wrench my arm away, embarrassed. She shrugs and starts dancing, moving her hips provocatively, raising her arms above her head and wriggling them like snakes. For a brief moment she’s the only one dancing; but soon dozens of other girls clamber to their feet, shrieking and laughing and dancing. Soon Lara, me, and t’other new Wildes are in the minority of non-dancers. Captivated, I watch as the beautifully toned bodies writhe and twist under the firelight. As the music’s tempo gains momentum, the girls dance faster’n faster, until their movements are wild and animal, some of them carrying sticks tipped with fire, waving them ’round, painting beautiful fire art in the air. Their shadows wash the canyon walls with gray and black, coursing left and right, pulsing, pulsing.
Although I’m still sitting, there’s energy in my veins and my heart’s beating wildly. I wanna jump up, join them, be free, but old habits die hard and my father’s voice echoes through my head: Bearers are solemn, controlled, living and dying for their Calls and their children.
Suddenly, the music stops.
We stare, wide-eyed, as every face turns toward us. Wilde steps out from the crowd to face the new arrivals. “Why do you not dance?” she demands, her voice echoing in the canyon.
None of us answers.
“Tonight you become Wildes,” she says. “Tonight you dance and be free!”
As the music starts up again, the Wildes rush forward, pull us to our feet, start moving ’round us. At first I just stand there, awkward and stiff, as Skye shakes and bobs ’round me. But then I spot Lara, the first of the new Wildes to start dancing. She’s smiling and laughing and moving. She’s got no rhythm, looks completely out of step with the music, but no one seems to care. Skye grabs her hand and twirls her ’round. Excited bubbles churn through my stomach and chest, and my feet lighten.
I start dancing. Just a shake and a shimmy at first, but then more. Lara, me and Skye dance together at first, spinning and twisting and churning, but soon we lose each other in the melee. And then I’m just part of the bodies, sliding and slipping amongst them, feeling more alive’n I’ve ever felt in my life.
The night is warm and everyone’s sweating ’cause of the fire, but no one gives one lick about it. The bodies are so close and so foreign and yet so familiar, somehow. A cry goes up and I watch as Lara’s britches are torn above the knee, leaving her muscly legs bare like all t’other Wilde’s. Next they shred her shirt, uncovering her stomach, so she only has a strip of cloth ’round her flat chest. Instead of looking shocked and ashamed, she gives me the biggest grin and dances even harder. T‘other new Wildes are succumbing to the clothing adjustment, too, allowing the others to rip them to pieces.
My heart stutters and I sneak toward the edge of the dancers, planning to slip away when no one’s watching. I’m ’bout to make a break for it, when a voice says, “Not so fast.”
I look back and it’s Wilde, looking anything but ordinary now. Under the firelight her eyes are reddish orange and her hair is streaked with dancing bursts of light. Her skin is warm brown and perfect. She’s perfect, like a god fallen from the sky. How I ever thought she looked average is beyond me.
“I’m just, uh, gotta go to the bathroom,” I lie.
“Drank too much fire juice?” she says.
“Yeah, way too much.”
“You seem fine to me,” she says. A beautiful smile flashes across her face and she grabs me by both hands, pulling me back into the spectacular fray. Three other Wildes surround me, pulling at my britches and shirt, tearing the cloth away. No, no, no, no, no! Stop, no! In my head I’m screaming, but nothing’s coming outta my mouth ’cause I’m on the verge of tears. I know how this’ll go down. The laughter, the names, the pointing. When they see my tent-pole arms and scrubgrass legs the music’ll stop. Everything’ll stop and I’ll be run outta the canyon.
Alone and friendless again.
I feel a
rush of air against my legs, my torso, my arms.
I close my eyes. It’s over. The acceptance, the new friends, the freedom.
Someone grabs my hand, spins me ’round, laughing, laughing, laughing…but not at me. At life, at dancing. I open my eyes.
My legs and arms and stomach are, in fact, bare. It feels weird, being so exposed in front of so many people, like a nightmare. But no one’s laughing or staring or shouting names at me. They’re looking at me, yeah, the same way they’re looking at everyone else. Smiles in their eyes and on their cheeks and in their lips.
I dance.
~~~
“Uhhhh,” someone groans. My eyes flash open. Skye. She’s sprawled out next to me, clutching at her head.
“Skye, what is it? What’s the matter?” I say. I scramble to my knees and hover over her.
“Too much burnin’ fire juice,” she moans.
The laugh springs out of my throat ’fore I can stop it.
“Not searin’ funny,” she says.
I put a hand over my mouth to stifle another laugh. It kind of is funny. “Why’d you drink so much?” I ask.
“Stupid,” she says, rolling over. “I burnin’ do it every time there’s a welcome party. And every time I say I won’t do it the next time.”
I shake my head. Again I think how she ain’t the sister that disappeared. She’s changed and not all in good ways—but not all in bad either. She’s independent, making her own decisions, paying for the bad ones with fire juice headaches.
“I’m gonna get something to eat,” I say.
“Wake me up in a quarter full moon,” Skye mumbles.
The camp is already bustling when I crawl outta our tent. Any evidence of the party from the night ’fore’s been hauled away, cleaned up. I stand and feel the gentle touch of air on my skin. I gasp, duck back down, hug my knees. I’m practically naked!
It all comes back to me. The ripping of clothes, the shedding of skin, so to speak. In the wildness of the night, of the music and dance, my inhibitions fell away and I almost felt secure in my own Scrawny body. But now, in the stark light of the morning, I feel like a fool for thinking I’ll be anything but a Weakling. ’Specially here. ’Specially among these strong girls.
I start to push back into my tent to find something to cover up with, when someone grabs me from behind. “Not so fast,” the familiar voice says, using the same words as last night.
Grudgingly, I back out, rise unsteadily to my feet, hug myself. Wilde stands ’fore me, smiling. She’s normal again. I mean, she’s still strong and has pretty features, but gone is the night magic that made me think of her as a god.
“You look beautiful like that,” she says. “Like one of us.”
I wait for the punch line. More like half of one of us! Or maybe, As beautiful as a tug leg! Those I’ve heard ’fore.
Instead, she says, “C’mon,” and grabs my hand. Unprepared for the movement, I stumble, but Wilde holds me up, doesn’t laugh, just keeps pulling me along. I don’t know what to say so I keep my mouth shut.
She leads me to the central fire pit and I expect her to stop, to sit me amongst t’other new Wildes, who are in a tight cluster, eating and talking, but she pulls me past them. When I see Lara she waves, and I try to flash a confident smile, but I think it comes across crooked and nervous.
When we exit the camp, Wilde releases my hand and slows to let me catch up. The canyon walls narrow and squeeze us closer together. “Do you know why we don’t eat meat?” she asks.
I stare forward, wracking my brain. I don’t think Skye mentioned why and I didn’t think to ask. “’Cause animals are hard to catch?” I guess, remembering back to my pathetic attempts at the ’zards and burrow mice.
She laughs and it reminds me of rain falling at night when I’m trying to sleep, soft and soothing, like a natural lullaby. “Trust me, the Wildes are more than capable of Hunting if we choose to,” she says.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean—”
“It’s okay,” she says. “You apologize too much. There’s no need for that here. We all make mistakes, but we learn from them.” Her words make me relax, my shoulders slumping. For a moment I forget that I’ve hardly got any clothes on.
“Sorry, I won’t apologize anymore,” I say. “Sorry, I just did it again.”
“And again,” she says. Rain falls although the sky is clear. “No, the reason we don’t eat meat is because we don’t want to rely on it. The village is so reliant on the success of the Hunters, on the ebbs and flows of the tug hurds. One day the Hunters won’t find the tug, because they’ll be gone. They’ll vanish, their numbers decimated by the harshness of fire country or the Killers or by the Hunters’ own hands. But we’ll survive because we’re independent. We grow our own food, more than enough to satisfy every hungry mouth. We’re protected from the summer fires in our haven. We build our tents from things that grow, braided plants. Our beds are nests of grass, easily replenished every spring. We’re smart. We’re capable.”
Her words are like a poem that speaks straight to my heart, but right away I see the flaw. “Yeah, but you rely on the village to replenish your numbers. If they die, you die, too.” I’m still talking ’bout them as if I’m not one of the Wildes, but I know I am. I have no place else to go.
“You ask a lot of questions,” she says, stopping. We’re directly below the lovers’ hands, the desert framed by the rock formation. The prickler fields beckon to us, green and full of hope.
I look her in the eyes. “That wasn’t a question,” I say.
She smiles. “We do rely on the Heaters,” she says. “One day the Fire will catch up with us and we’ll start to die. If there’re no Heaters to provide us with runaway girls…” Her voice trails off and her smile vanishes like a snake caught by a vulture out in the open.
“Goodbye Wildes,” I say.
“Yes,” she admits. “But you’ve given us hope.”
It doesn’t take a hut builder to know what she’s talking ’bout. “The Cure.”
“Exactly.”
“My father won’t give it up. Even if we tell people ’bout it, they won’t believe us. We’re outcasts, ferals, freaks.” She seems taken aback by my honesty, but I don’t stop. “At least that’s what the villagers think. And we have no proof ’bout the Cure, ’cept what my mother told me. And she’s dead.” My voice breaks on the word and I hafta take a deep swallow and blink furiously to keep my composure.
“It’s not your father I’m thinking of,” Wilde says. “I’m thinking bigger.”
I angle my head and frown. It clicks. “You mean…”
She nods. She wants to go straight to the Icies.
“Can I ask you something?” I say, taking advantage of the situation.
She nods. “Hit me,” she says, and I almost laugh ’cause I think of Skye saying almost the same thing but in a completely different context.
“You know the Marked leaders, right?”
“Riiight,” she says slowly.
“Ever heard of a guy named Brev?”
Her eyebrows lift. “He started the Marked, a long time ago, seventeen, eighteen years I think,” she says.
“You know him?”
“Only from what others have said about him. He died in a hunt before I started the Wildes. Before I even knew the Marked were real.”
~~~
I’m more nervous’n a new Midder on her first day of Learning. My opponent is another new Wilde named Char, but she’s got me in both height and weight. And not by a little. By miles and miles. After this fight the ol’ nicknames’ll come back for sure.
“You can do it, Sie!” Skye shouts. I wish she wasn’t here to watch me get my butt kicked.
Lara pats me on the back and nods encouragingly. I wish she wasn’t here either. I just watched her pin her opponent in ’bout three seconds flat. She nudges me into the circle drawn in the sand.
Brione stands in the middle, the instructor for the hand-to-hand combat portion of our training. Af
ter my heart to heart with Wilde, I ate breakfast with Skye, who managed to drag her throbbing head out of bed. That’s when she sprung it on me. “Training starts immediately,” she said.
I wanted to throw up my prickler salad, herb garnish and all.
Brione grabs our hands, pulls them together, forces us to shake. “The only rule is don’t kill each other,” she says with a gruff laugh, as if she hasn’t been making the same joke for every match so far. I’m the last to fight which means my concern has reached a fever pitch. I laugh nervously. The girl across from me just squeezes my hand until it hurts. When she finally releases it, my fingers are mangled and stiff.
Brione backs away. “Fight!” she growls.
Char moves forward and I move back, my legs tangling ’fore I take more’n two steps. I fall backward, landing butt-first in the durt. Not a good start.
She pounces, throws her weight on me, one hand shoving my face into the ground and the other punching at my hopelessly unpadded ribs. I cry out, try to roll away, but she’s got me pinned and the count is on. “One,” Brione says. “Two!” I squirm and buck and try to roll away, but I’m stuck like a bug trapped under a foot. “Three!”
There are a few claps, a few cheers. Char gets off of me, grinning. She starts to walk away, triumphant, but Brione stops her. “Help her up,” she orders. Char stops, looks back, surprised. “Do it!”
Her smile wiped away by Brione’s harsh tone, Char offers me a hand. “Thanks,” I mumble, taking it. She pulls me up.
“We’re in this t’gether,” Brione says. “There’re no victors, no winners. We’re one person, only as strong as she who’s weakest.” I blush. She’s talking ’bout me. I wanna get away, dig a hole, and stick my head in it. “We support each other, help each other. Understand?”