“Hasufin Heltain.” Tristen drew a great breath, knowing well how their enemy—Mauryl’s enemy—had entered a dead babe in Althalen, King Elfwyn’s son…and nothing might have prevented him, except he had grown too sure of himself, too early…a boy’s faults of haste, betraying a very, very dangerous spirit to the only wizard capable of dealing with him…of killing him, before his adulthood.
“He’s dead,” Emuin said. “But he was dead before he fought you at Lewenbrook. That’s only mild inconvenience to him. A woman dabbles in sorcery, far past her knowledge. A foolish woman lets down the wards, in all senses, and bargains for power…and what better chance has a wandering spirit? You caught Orien at her sorcery once. We don’t know how often and to what ends she opened that window in your apartments. We know Hasufin used Aséyneddin on the battlefield, but that was the right hand of his effort, and it fell too quickly, far too quickly. I suspect this babe for the left, his second and surer gateway, one he already knew he had, and which he didn’t risk at Lewenbrook. That babe is half-Aswydd and half-Marhanen…wizard-gift matched with all the Marhanen faults—and strengths.”
“I hear the child in the gray space. Surely you do.”
“I hear him. A son, I do agree with all you said, below in the hall, though I’m a little less reckless in inquiring.”
“There seems no harm in him.”
“Oh, indeed there isn’t. Right now he’s Tarien’s child…an innocent. What better way to breach our defenses? What better way to gain entry to this warded fortress? What better way to defend himself, than by our virtue, and our scruples, and our reluctance to do harm to innocence? If we harm him…we damn the virtue that’s in us, and we turn ourselves down a bloody dark path. If we kill this child.—Hush, boy!” It was Paisi he meant, for a startled shiver had leapt into the gray space, and Emuin whirled about and seized Paisi by the shoulder.
“We ain’t to kill it!” Paisi cried, wincing from Emuin’s grip, and the danger of flying into the gray space with Orien and Tarien only a few stone barriers away from them brought Tristen’s sharp no! and with it he imposed a hush so deep Paisi struggled for his next breath, mouth open, eyes wide.
“Be calm,” Tristen said, and made his wish gentler, so the boy could get his wind. “Be calm. You mustn’t go there with what we say here. Be very quiet. Listen. Understand him.”
“I brung Gran Sedlyn up th’ hill, an’ she had a look at the lady, an’ she says it’s an Aswydd babby an’ a wizard. But she ain’t sayin’ it’s evil!”
“Gran Sedlyn is the midwife,” Emuin reminded him. “And canny as they come. No, boy—” This, to Paisi, whose eyes were round as moons. “—we haven’t any ill intent: that’s the point. Wizardry. Wizardry, lad, is a matter of seasons and timing, and this…this one event is set. That child will be born in his time, and as much as Gran Sedlyn can assure it, it will be the child’s time, not Tarien Aswydd’s wishing. It won’t please her, but it pleases me, and it gives the child his best chance.”
Tristen had misgivings of his own, but none that he chose to discuss in Paisi’s hearing. He laid his hand on Paisi’s other shoulder, wishing him calm and steady and confident. “Trust Emuin,” he said to Paisi. “And don’t talk about this. Don’t think it in the gray space where the Aswydds might hear you.”
“Oh, gods,” Paisi said, and his eyes rolled toward the west wing, where the women were.
“Do you understand your lord?” Emuin said sternly, drawing his attention back. “Look at me, boy! Think of filching apples.”
“Apples, sir?”
“I’m sure you’ve stolen apples in the market. In fact I know you have.”
“Aye, master.”
“And didn’t get caught.”
“No, master.”
“Why weren’t you caught?”
“I was careful.”
“And slipped in very quietly and didn’t disturb anyone. Is that it?”
“Wi’ my hands,” Paisi said, making a flourish of his fingers, and a twist of the wrist that tucked an imaginary apple up his sleeve.
“Clever lad. Well, now you’re the merchant, and you don’t want some clever lad making off with any apples. So what do you do?”
“I watch wi’ out seemin’ to watch. Old Esen down in market, ’e’s a canny ’un. He always looks as if ’e’s watchin’ somethin’ else, an’ ’e’ll nab ye quick as ye can say—”
“So can Orien Aswydd. Do you understand me?”
Paisi’s head bobbed slowly. “Aye, master, that I do.”
“Think as if you were going to steal something from her apartment.”
“Oh, no, sir, I ain’t.”
“As if you were, wretched boy. As if! Pretend that’s what you’re about, and go very, very quietly, because she’s the merchant and you’re the thief, and she’s very, very dangerous.”
“Aye, sir. Aye, master. Yes, m’lor’.” This, with a bob of his head first to Emuin, then to Tristen. “M’lord.”
“He’s learning,” Emuin said. “The fair mother tongue suffers less every day, and he’s learned to wash his hands and the vessels, and not in the same water.” Emuin reached out a hand and tousled Paisi’s unruly hair. “I kept you here to hear this, boy, because I’ll not have you overhearing half we say and then wondering about it or peeking and prying about the gray space, which, gods know, is the worst thing you could do. Salubrious fear. Do you know the word salubrious?”
“No, Master Emuin.”
“It means healthful. Good for you. Trust that now you know everything there is to know, or at least as much as your lord and your master together know, and don’t try to find out anything except from me: it wouldn’t at all be helpful or salubrious for you to pry into Lady Orien’s affairs. So don’t!”
“Not salubrious, sir. I understand.”
“Good!” Emuin said, and to Tristen: “I’ll write to Cefwyn, and you write whatever you find to write. The sooner Cefwyn knows, the safer for us all.”
The Aswydd ladies walked to Henas’ amef for safety, Tristen wrote, with the brazen dragons looming over his desk and Aswydd green draperies open on a blood red sky. Men attacked the convent at Anwyfar. Lady Tarien is with child, a boy, and yours, which I do not know otherwise how to inform you, except that Emuin and I are taking care here and you should also take care.
With the help of all the southern lords and the earls of Amefel I hope soon to release the Dragon Guard from their watch at the river. I hope also to be sending the Guelens as soon as the weather permits. I know I have many of your best men. You can trust the officers Uwen put over the Guelens, but not the ones I sent away. I hope you will not restore them to their office. Orien says it was Essan who attacked the nuns at Anwyfar, and I think she is telling the truth in that.
I hope that you are well. All the lords with me wish you well. So does Uwen. Master Emuin is writing his own letter to go with this one. Be careful for your safety. We are doing everything we can here to carry out your orders, which I have never forgotten.
He put the pen in its holder, out of words, at least of those he would write. He heated wax and made the seal.
But on an impulse of the heart he took a fresh sheet of paper and wrote: To Her Grace of Elwynor, a wish. And he wrote it only with his finger, with no ink, but in the manner of a ward, and sealed it with his seal and with a ward. He had no idea whether a wizard could receive it, but he thought one could. Most particularly he thought Ninévrisë might have gift enough, and that no one handling it would understand the message: Cefwyn is in danger. Here is refuge if you need it.
CHAPTER 5
Snow, and snow: that was the view from the windows of Tristen’s apartment, as persistently depressing a sight every morning as the Aswydds’ brazen dragons and green draperies within…not that he failed to see the beauty in it, piled high and white across the land; yet with all the monotony of it, the beauty of the ice had never palled. He wondered at the new traceries of frost on the windows every morning, meticulous and fine as
the work of some fine expert craftsman. The sun in the afternoon melted it, and a miracle renewed it in the morning: he was sorry when he fed his pigeons that their flapping and fluttering at the window spoiled the patterns on the little side pane, where he put out the bread.
Yet every morning it was new, and every morning there was a little more snow sifting down from the heavens, after a fall at night. The sight of it all still seemed marvelous to him, this changing of the seasons and the confidence of ordinary Men that they would see the land change back to what it had been before. This was the last of seasons that he had not seen in his life and between concerns, he enjoyed it absolutely for what it was, wondering what every day would show him, expecting new patterns in the frost.
But nothing about the weather had changed in a number of days now, and the skies that had once appeared to obey his lightest wish now seemed obstinate and ominous in their resistence. The storms that came at night grew worse with every effort he made to change the weather.
And it was now three days since Crissand, among other lords, had left him—certain lords to their holdings, all without a by your leave, m’lord—but Crissand not to his own land and with no more request than the others.
Crissand’s absence, which had been a niggling concern the first day, had become a worry in the two days since, and last night the silence from that quarter had urged him to venture the gray space in earnest—to no avail.
Now, with the weather resisting him, with the sky dawned gray again, the doubts that had begun to assail him niggled away at his confidence in all else that he knew as certainties.
He regretted his folly in seeking after Crissand, telling himself that when Crissand would, Crissand would hear him—and this morning, in this pearl-colored morning like the last three, he could only remind himself how much harm he could do if he reached out recklessly and drew sorcerous attention to Crissand when he was near the enemy’s territory.
In his venture last night he had learned only that Crissand was asleep somewhere…and what else did he hope for, at night, and in a snowstorm that sent down thick, fat lumps of snow, that obliterated tracks and buried fences?
He had slept very little after that. Sleep had eluded him—so, too, had the dreams that sometimes sent him winging over the land on Owl’s wings, dreams that might have found Crissand, dreams that might have discovered whether Crissand was snugged down warm and well fed at Modeyneth or fallen in some ditch along the way—whether the lack of urgent danger he had felt in that sleep was the safety of a friendly roof and hearth, or the peace of a mind too frozen and faded to worry.
Too, the gray space was not the place of light and cloud it had been, but a place as leaden and violent as the heavens. It was as if he fought the weather in that realm, too, and could make no headway in it with Orien and her sister close at hand.
Whether Orien knew he tried to find someone close to him, she never confronted him there. Whether Crissand might be attempting to reach him through it—he never heard. And now, as of yesterday, so Uwen said, Crissand’s men had set out down the north road looking for him, to ride as far as Modeyneth or the river if they must. And he took that for his comfort this morning: if Crissand were in danger, injured on the road, they would find him.
And if it was otherwise…he could only think that it was no accident that Crissand had gone into the land of Bryn, and down the track that Cuthan Lord of Bryn had taken in his exile.
But toward the holding of the new lord of Bryn, too—equally troublesome. Crissand was a young man of high passions and sudden impulse—agreeable to young Drusenan’s appointment to the honor, but the feuds and contentions of the lords in this ancient province had cropped up in unexpected ways before now. Tristen thought there was no resentment there and no possibility of a feud, but he was not utterly certain.
And the snow sifted down and the worry of it gnawed at his peace. He wished better weather to speed Crissand home, and wished it to ease the suffering of townsfolk and shepherds, those whom Crissand had not ridden out to visit, in the village of Levey, among others; and farmers across the land, and craftsmen and householders, and the humblest ragpicker in the town, for they all were his responsibility, hapless folk who had done nothing to involve themselves in the quarrels of wizards and kings.
Last night Lusin had reported a roof in the town market had given way, and a man’s goods were all damaged: today the man had sent begging intercession with his creditors, for nothing had gone well for him, even before his roof came crashing down. Tristen wished it might go better for him, but he feared even to wish for that, his wishes for weather having gone so far opposite to his intention. He stood at his window looking out over the snowy, weight-laden roofs, the ledges, sparsely tracked by wandering pigeons near at hand, and asked himself had he harmed all those he wished to benefit.
He knew that down in the stable yard Master Haman’s boys clambered up to the shed roofs twice a day to shovel them clear for fear of their collapsing. He knew that Haman himself must go out to the meadows where the horses of the assembled army were sheltered, to be sure of the older boys and men who cared for those more remote sites—stablehands whose plight was perhaps worst of all the hardships the army suffered in its winter camp at Henas’ amef. Out there it was a lonely and cold duty of breaking ice for the horses to drink, hauling hay from the stacks, and generally keeping their charges from suffering in the cold, while at night their small hearths and their small shelters were beacons to vermin and true shadows that prowled the night.
The soldiers had the cold to fight—beyond the walls, and under canvas, the muster of Amefel, of Ivanor, Imor, and a handful of rangers from Lanfarnesse had all come here in better weather, which his wishes had maintained. But now they suffered from the cold, and endured misery of frozen ground.
He could at least relieve the soldiers of some of their hardship: at his own charge, the taverns near the gates had set up kettles in their kitchens, for hot suppers. It incidentally used less wood, which cost heavy, snowy labor to get more of. But prodigious quantities of wood fed the camps’ other needs: warmth, and the laundry kettles. Reasonable cleanliness for so many men required another small camp of attendants, where kettles sent up steam that froze on any nearby surface—a man needed not bathe all winter, one of the Lanfarnessemen was heard to remark, only stand downwind of the washing kettles, and be drenched to the skin. And in that vicinity the laundrymen battled ice: clothes and blankets froze rather than dried, and had to be hung in the smoke downwind to dry at all—so that anyone with a nose could tell which men had come from the camps: the men, the tents, and their blankets smelled of woodsmoke: so did the lords who lived with their men.
Yet—one of the day’s good reports—the men were in good spirits, by reason of the abundance of food and the moderate but cheerful quantity of ale: the men needed not stay on hard watch, so Uwen said, and they might have the ale to keep them happy. And the ground being frozen so hard at least meant that mud, that bane of soldiers, was all but absent from clothes and tents—except the mudholes around the laundry, in which pigs might be content.
They managed, with this continued assault of winter on the army he had gathered. But he could not improve it. And this was yet another iron gray day, with snow veiling all but the nearest towers. Neither he nor Emuin nor both of them together with all the grandmothers in the lower town had been able to change it…and, what was far worse for wizardry, he was beginning to doubt he could. He longed to stretch out, search the gray space, meet his enemy if he could find one…
But, oh, there was risk in that, mortal risk to all who depended on him. There were so many things at hazard, so many lives, so many things he did not yet understand. If someone had the better of him in the matter of the weather, it was because that wizard had the better of him in other ways, and knew things he did not, and outmaneuvered him with sheer knowledge and experience—as Emuin had done, while Emuin sufficed.
This…this opposition…was stronger than Emuin.
It was stronger than Mauryl—at least that it had caught Mauryl at his weakest.
But had not Mauryl had to go to the north and bring down the Sihhë-lords to have a chance at subduing it?
And had not the Sihhë-lords failed, ultimately, to contain it?
He hesitated to say that evil was out at the back of this storm. He had read about evil in Efanor’s little book, and how it permeated the doings of Men, but he had never found such doings evil, rather good and bad…but none without self-interest, none he could not understand even in terms of his own will to have his way. Misguided and foolish governed most actions he had met: spiteful and selfish. These were bad traits; but none quite descended to that worst word in Efanor’s book.
Was selfish enough to say for the creature that had stolen one child’s life and that might have caused this one to exist?
Was foolish enough to say for the creature who had overthrown all the good that was Mauryl—all the kindness, all the wit, all the learning, all the skill—was foolish and spiteful and selfish enough to compass Mauryl’s enemy?
And was selfish enough to describe the desire that had wrecked Elwynor and slaughtered the innocent and driven hapless peasants into the snow?
It might be. Wicked might describe his enemy. But had he not killed? Had he not driven Parsynan out onto the road, and Cuthan across the river? And did not the soldiers who fell to him have kindness of their own, and wit, and learning, and skill?
The sword had found its place to stand in this fortress, too. It lurked by hearthsides, the alternative to peace and reason.
Truth it said on one side. Illusion was engraved on the other, and the Edge was the answer to the riddle it posed. It was the answer to the riddle he posed. It answered all he was, and there was no word for him but the Edge of that riddle.
Perhaps there was such a word for his enemy, neither evil, nor wicked, nor even selfish, but some edge between absolutes. Perhaps that was why wizards could not compass it.