Chapter 16
The next day is the second Saturday of July. There’s a party today because a while back nobody’s birthday was in July, and people felt strange going so long without a birthday party, especially with the nights being so beautiful apart from the bugs, so it’s become a tradition to decide the weekend before that the next weekend we’ll all meet up for supper down at the one spot on the beach with actual sand.
It’s barely dawn when I walk in to the smell of onions and something astringent. I scrunch up my nose and find my zizi chugging around in the back.
“What are you cooking?”
“Pasta salad for tonight, you want to taste?”
“No, it smells really disgusting,” I say without breathing.
“What? No it doesn’t.” She sniffs, then nods in confirmation. “Things smell bad when you’re pregnant, you know.”
“I’m not pregnant.”
“I know, I know. I’m just telling you for later. Now you know what it’ll be like.”
“I’ll get a gas mask before I get pregnant, if this is how it smells. Ugh, I think I’m going to throw up.”
“It’s really not that bad. If you can’t stand it then don’t stay in here.”
“I’ll still be able to smell it,” I groan, rolling my forehead on a countertop.
“You just have to take your mind off it. Go milk the cows for me. I also need someone to feed them. Then go smell some flowers or something, for your delicate little nose. Then you can…”
“Ok, ok, I’m going.” I roll my eyes as I make my way to the back door.
“I’m just trying to help you, sweetheart. I have lots more ideas for what you can do if you get bored again. Now, are you going to the barn or not? Because I need some of that milk. Oh! Take someone with you. Sal, go!”
I pretend I didn’t hear that last part and hope my cousin Sal is no more awake than he looked. Instead, I slip to the door, still barefoot and in Cassie’s shirt, hair already sticking to my pinkened neck in the thickness.
“Leave that door open,” my zizi calls. “Salvatore, what are you doing? I didn’t ask you to sweep the floor.” There’s a sizzle as she squeezes a half of a lemon into her cauldron. It adds a bitter, acrid flare to the muddy smell of a moment ago.
I hold my breath, grab a hunk of bread, and get out of there.
Once in the yard, I take a few thin-skinned strawberries from the bush and amble through the trees to the old graveyard. I sink down and bite into a berry. Ah. It’s cooler with my back on the rocks. I roll my legs back and forth over the damp, tender grass.
I can hear my cousin Cecilia outside of her house informing two of my uncles that she specifically asked for the best mussels, not the half-dead ones they’ve brought her. I smile at a headstone.
Her mussels will go along with my Uncle Westerly’s bread for tonight. We’ll have that plus my zizi’s pasta salad with lemon and oil and marinated vegetables and little nuts, someone will make a crumble and someone else will make the whipped cream, and my Uncle Avery will have his lemonade for us.
That’s what we usually make for this party. Plus other unexpected things that people want to bring. I think I smell my grandfather Pawcatuck’s firepit, and I wonder if he’ll be cooking some sausages. Last time I didn’t like them, they were way too spicy.
Either way though, the food will be good. The weather is supposed be nice.
I’m looking forward to it.
“Crusa, honey, there you are.”
“Huh?” I start, even though the voice is familiar. My Uncle Groton lifts one leg over the dilapidated wall. I stand up. I have no idea why he’s out here. Nobody comes out here. Except for me. For no real reason, I feel I’ve been caught doing something I wasn’t supposed to.
“Hi, I was just-”
“How are you dear?” my uncle holds open his arms for a hug, so I go to him. He pinches my chin gently.
“What are you doing out here?” he wonders.
“Uh…”
“You know these people have been dead a very long time. There’s one here that’s sixteen-hundreds.”
“Yeah.” It’s the stamp-like one right over there. It’s a little odd getting a tour of my own secret hideout.
“Crusa, dear, I want to tell you something. I’m getting you a guard.”
He’s not surprised when I’m confused. He just says it all again, slower this time, and adds a bright smile. None of this really helps, though.
A guard? I’ve had chaperones. Babysitters, someone to walk with me through the wooded paths at night, and my zizi of course to keep track of me always, but the word guard seems, I don’t know, a bit much. Especially here, on the island.
“Ah,” my Uncle Groton puts an arm around me, taking my fingers in his hand. He holds them lightly, in no hurry, I guess, because instead of going on, he bounces my hand around. Then he strokes each finger.
He starts humming to himself, nudging and tapping my nails with a calloused fingertip, as if fascinated. I guess because compared to his, so hearty they have bristles, mine are no more substantial than a ghost’s. Or maybe he’s just bored.
“I’ve brought him to you, since you ran in and out so fast this morning. You were in such a hurry. You should slow down, dear. Let’s see, he’s around here somewhere…Lium!” he calls. And the boy in question wanders out from behind a large tree. What the…?
He strolls through the clearing, gawking at everything.
Spiraling over to us, he says, “Hey, sweetie.”
“I’m not sweet.”
My uncle laughs, “Yes, you are, so you really can’t fuss about being called it. Niece, this is your guard. His name is Lium. I’ve tested him out and I think he’ll be perfect for you. Plus, he has a brother already, so if you end up needing two, there you go. Although I have that one busy for me right now, so try just to need one, ok?”
“I don’t need a guard. Any guard.”
“Honey. Sweetie,” I think he winks over my head. Dumb men. “I don’t want anything to happen to you now that you’re engaged. I didn’t want to tell you, but your zizi, she worries. The other side of the family, you never know. They say to me many things. They sometimes say they will kidnap my niece, so she cannot marry the rich foreign man. They say they have someone of theirs for her, but they really just want the gifts your husband’s family is so generous to send here, for him to share with his new family. But if they take you over there, then they think they will get all this. That would never happen, but they think it, still.
“So you see, they talk too much. They make me myself worry about you, my own lovely young niece who I love more than anything. It’s very cruel. So, I found a strong man to watch over you, to ease my mind, and there you go. Now we can all rest in peace,” his eyes glimmer.
Good God.
“Uncle Groton. Nobody’s going to kidnap me. People haven’t done kidnapping for years.”
“Years are not that long ago, to an old man like me. What’s wrong with him? Do you not like the one I chose?” he seems hurt.
I examine Lium. Smiling like my grandmothers at a pleasant garden party. He lifts his eyebrows.
“He doesn’t want to do this,” I tell my uncle.
“Nonsense. It’s an honor to do this.”
I open my mouth to say something, but then I have only enough time to skirt my gaze to my side, as Lium has already interrupted me.
“Yup, an honor. Also, following a…you…” he bows, “around is much better than shop duty, which your uncle said was my other option.”
Awesome. Good to know I’m preferable to fish guts and miniscule beads on hooks. Confidence booster, there.
I sigh and say calmly, “I’m going to talk to Zizi.”
My zizi thinks it’s a fantastic idea. She’s always wanted me to have a guard. She wishes she could find two more, for Cassie and Eleni, who, when asked, support her statements wholeheartedly. Whole hearts of evil, is what I tell Eleni. Not Cassie. Ca
ssie cried because she realized a guard is just the thing to keep the squirrels at bay. I suggest Benito or Gino, and she darts off, muttering about things that pit-pit-patter in chimneys.
I stop speaking to my zizi at some point midafternoon, but when people begin to drop by on their way down to the beach, she somehow gets every single one of them to agree with her. Now, she tries not to smile while I glare at the bowl we’re carrying down the path.
Betrayed by my whole family, I spend the cook-out minding my own business, and then help my aunts wash the dirty bowls in the whimpering surf.
At one point, Eleni comes over and gets mad at me because I told her I have to help and won’t go swimming with her. She tells me I’m no fun, so I tell her something mean that just slips out. Then I get banished from dishwashing duty, but that doesn’t mean I’ll swim with her, so I stomp off and go stew on the bluff.
I’m facing the drop-off, so I don’t hear the person approaching through the underbrush.
“Hey, babe. What’re you doing?”
“Plotting to kill my cousin.” And I’m sorry, but that’s the kind of answer you get when you interrupt someone who’s stewing.
“Doesn’t look like that’s going too good.”
Impressed by his intuitiveness, some of the bite goes out of me. “No, it’s not. I’m too mad to be able to think of anything.”
He laughs. He tried to hold it in, I guess, but I heard that burble. Clearly. He coughs several times. I sigh, or rather, growl. And clench my fingernails into the meat of my palms.
“Come over here.” The boy’s arm comes over my head, pulling me onto my toes when he squeezes.
It’s odd coming from him, but actually very nice. I feel my insides start to melt and I don’t mind it when he touches me again to stop my hair from blowing all over our faces.
I turn into his side. It’s hard to look him in the face, as he makes me uncomfortable for no reason and it would be rude if I let him see that. At the moment, I cover myself by twisting and untwisting a bit of cloth I’ve pinched up from his shirt. Which is his, not mine. I pat it back down.
“It’s nice up here.”
I shrug.
He’s quiet, then, and it makes me squirm.
“You don’t have to guard me or whatever,” I say in a rush.
“If I do this, they’ll let us stay here.”
Oh. That makes sense. His service, generously given, for a favor, generously granted. Very much my uncle. Very much the island. No wonder everyone thinks it’s such a great idea. Of course, nobody’s thinking what I am right now, which is, awesome, I’m homework.
I’ve never been homework before. I should apologize to my textbooks, if this is how it feels.
“And how are you qualified?” I snap. “My chaperone at school had to pass a national certification test. Have you taken a certification test?”
He moves me back to arm’s length. I have to bend my spine rather unnaturally, but it’s worth it because my pride doesn’t want to move.
“What do you think the other night was? On the docks,” he says.
Oh.
I say, “And falling off a dock means you pass?” I am a terrible person. But I don’t want a guard babysitter man following me around.
“I didn’t fall.”
“No? What did you do, then?”
“I…crash-landed.”
“Oh, well. So you’re an expert crash-lander, plus your pirate experience, correct? That’s what got you the job?”
“I was never a pirate.”
“Oh,” I deadpan.
“I was captured by pirates.”
I squint while he listens to how that sounds. His mouth is hanging open, and he’s turning red. I wonder if I’ve embarrassed him. I have mixed feelings about that. Pirates are very dangerous, so he shouldn’t feel too bad.
In a low tone, he says, “What I’ve done, isn’t meant for your ears. You wouldn’t like to hear it.”
I blush, hard.
“I’d like to hear anything, if you’d say it.”
He considers that, which I wasn’t really expecting him to. I was hoping he’d just be more offended.
Very carefully, he says, “I was on a shipping vessel. But before that, I worked, for years, in a professional rodeo.”
“And did you guard the cattle?”
“No,” he says, yet he appears conflicted. Men.
“What’d you do then?” I frown, curious, “And where do they have rodeos that are professional?”
“South. At least, I was born more north of that, less north of this, but Hale and I went out west together, to get jobs. That’s how we got picked up by the rodeo.”
“So you lived at a rodeo? That sounds kind of interesting. Was it fun?”
Slowly, he nods. “When we were younger, it was. We did odd jobs, tickets, and selling stuff, I wheeled a cart around one season, where we sold tacos made of the bulls’ meat.” He stuffs his fists in his pockets, so when he goes on, his shoulders start dancing, “I always had to change the sign to say meat of the winner or meat of the loser, or meat of the king or however they wanted to sell it. The guy could never make up his mind. We got to help with the shows, too. It traveled around so we saw lots of places, lots of people.”
Sweetly, I say, “Oh, how nice.”
He shrugs, noncommittal, “They’re ok.”
I imagine him as a little boy, herding livestock, riding a horse and lassoing things. I’m not really sure what else happens at a rodeo.
“Can you ride a horse?” I ask.
He perks up, “Yeah, yeah, I used to all the time.” He stares at me, and I think he looks fresh from a centrifuge. I remind my stupid brain that it already took the general science boards last spring. “But what they kept us for, was the after hours events.”
He doesn’t explain further. I wonder out loud in my chipmunk voice, before I can think that I shouldn’t. “Which were those?”
“Hale and I did the fighting events. Animal, man, weapon. Most all of them.”
“Oh,” is all I manage. Because what can I say? He was right. I don’t like hearing that. I swear to myself not to ask any more questions.
I swear it a thousand times over, as meanwhile, he goes on.
“Our father’d trained us young, so we were good. Most of the challengers, they paid to take us on, they weren’t traditionally trained. And I was fine when they’d do the votes for create-your-own, man versus bull, or wild horse, weapons or not, a lot of the times they’d have Hale and me in the corral together.”
I feel horrible for making him talk like this. For making him all bunched up muscles and splotchy red like that, even with the salty whipping breeze that’s usually enough to distract me. I reach for one of his wrists, gathering it up in both my hands. He fidgets, but then he pulls his hand out of his pocket, and twists it palm to palm into mine. He gives me a squeeze and leaves it there. I feel better for it, pleased even.
Especially because, for a moment there, I thought I’d broken him.
“I’m sure you’re both wonderful fighters.”
“We are.”
I rack my brain, but I can’t think of anything sweet to make him feel better.
With a touch of my zizi’s training, I say, “Maybe, if you want to stay fresh, you could always show Benito and Gino something. I know they’d love it, they’re Cassie’s new guards.”
Though surprised, he seems to like the idea. He says, “Sure, let’s go find them.”
I suppose this is what I meant for. I warn him not to teach them anything too...much. He tells me not to worry. He grins. I’m not exactly reassured, though I can’t help but smile. His smiles are nothing if not genuine. Genuinely obnoxious, mostly, but still. And this one’s so purely delighted that I catch some of it and blush.
My guard drags me down from the bluff, all the while talking to me about apparently whatever pops into his head. The thorn bushes that I tug him from, the frigid water he just dunked hi
mself in, did I go in it, the nap he took yesterday out on the green, how much he loves naps, do I think naps are great, whose birthday is it? I tell him about how today became a tradition. He asks why don’t we just schedule it? I ask why do we need to if it always works out so perfectly? He asks if I don’t find it annoying. I don’t. He does.
On the sand, we find Gino and Benito and they’re thrilled. Lium tells them to race each other across the beach ten times. They sprint off. Lium takes my arm then, and we both take off our shoes. We dart in and out on the edges of the waves, waiting until the last second to be chased off. They’re always faster than you think, I say, giggling and screaming like a girl when the next one catches my heals. Lium laughs at me, but I don’t really mind. I still feel a need to make up for what I did to him earlier. And plus he screams like a girl once, too.
Hale wanders over and spends some time watching us. Mostly though, he watches the sun set.
“He’s a good brother, miss Crusa.”
“Of course. I can tell he is,” I say. Lium wrestles with some impulse that makes his eyes shine. He gives up, wagging his head, “Since we set north, he hasn’t been himself, though. I was the one talking with the pirate lady, yes, and it was me that knocked over the rum, but he’s the one that got distracted by a m-, excuse me, palm tree on our way out.”
“Oh, dear.”
“Exactly. So, I’ve been trying not to leave him to his own self ever since. It’s less him I’m concerned about than other people, if you catch me. He was just so goddamn good in the ring. To get so good at something, you have to think about it all the time, you know? And he just keeps on getting better and better.” He picks up my sandals for me, then insists on carrying them as we walk. I’m glad they’re not my stinky boots.
“Now me, I’m retired. I consider this my retirement home. I hear these places sometimes have golf. I wish you had golf.”
“I’ll ask about it,” I frown.
He nods. “Of course, now you’ve come along, princess, and ruined my system. You know, because I can’t leave you by yourself, and I don’t want to put the two of you together…it would be awful if my own brother screwed up my job. If you knew him before, honey, you’d have liked him. You’re a lot alike. Anyway, my point was, I’m a professional at keeping tabs on crazy people, so there’s no way anyone will be able to get you from me. That good enough for you?”
Oh. Whoops. I suppose I deserved that. I set myself up for it, I think. I’m far too pushy, just like my aunts.
“Yes, of course,” I tell the boy. Too bad he didn’t lead off with his point, though. I would’ve reassured him it wasn’t necessary. Way back at the beginning.
“So relax,” he says.
I should be polite.
“You’re very bossy,” I tell him while I think. I shouldn’t ask any more questions. I swore a whole lot of times that I wouldn’t. But he keeps answering, right? So maybe he wants someone to. Or maybe he’s just a very open person.
“Lium?”
“Yes, miss Crusa?”
Pushy and nosy.
“How are you not like your brother?”
He considers. He’s handsome when he’s so serious. “I’m better at focusing on what’s in front of me…that’s what saves me.”
I nod and say that sounds very nice. Then I direct us off on a detour, all the way out and around the pier, until he tugs my hand and says again?! I confess, half-distracted by trying to memorize the color of his eyes well enough to recall them without external cues, which is a rather challenging, rather fun game, that I’m trying to implant a kinesthetic knowledge of the dimensions of the docks into his brain. So he doesn’t fall off anymore!
He relocates me rather impolitely to a bonfire, then. I’m surprised that it’s already dark.
We roast marshmallows with some of the others. They’re dry on the inside from being in the base storage unit so long, so they’re a little hard to shove onto the sticks. This turns out to be fixable though, if you have a highly-capable personal guard with you.
Once they’re roasted, they’re great.
“Honestly, how many marshmallows does a military base really need?” Eleni, long hair wet and combed, asks as she sits down on a blanket.
Hale, previously nodding off on that very same blanket, laughs in a tense kind of way that I find disturbing. Eleni screams.
I jump. Great grandmothers. My guard pats me on the knee. Eleni’s marshmallow is on fire, but Hale has gone to the rescue. Poor guy is smiling, which is creepy, but his eyeballs are huge when he glances at my cousin, which I can totally relate to.
Hale and Eleni fiddle with the fire. I’m getting chilly in my sundress, until Lium puts his arm over my shoulders. He rubs my goosebumps, and his hand is rough. In a nice way. Like warm pumice stones, or crawling on the sand.
Sweet forefathers, I need to go, I don’t know, home or something. Yup, that’s it. I need to ground myself. I’m slightly put out, but it’s for my own good. Preparing for my future husband has made me annoyingly girlish.
“What’s wrong with you?” the cause of my grounding inquires.
“Nothing.”
“You eat too many marshmallows?”
“No.” Probably. “You can’t eat too many marshmallows, that’s impossible.”
“I’ve never met anyone who can hold their sugar as well as you, sweetheart.”
“Behold,” I hold out my arms.
“You want another one, sugar princess?” he rummages around behind us.
I groan and bury my head in the blanket, “Sweet ancestors, no.”
He starts rubbing my back. He’s a very tactile kind of person. I bet that’d be his modality if he were an AIS recruit. Tactile-kinesthetic. Not a common one. I don’t really mind it. With everyone here being family, I’m used to it. And it makes me feel like we’ve known each other for a long time, which I hope we will someday. But now’s not then and I’m about to tell him to knock it off, when a marshmallow squishes against the back of my neck.
I respond as any girl would.
After I’ve run out of ammo and desperately reminded Lium that he’s supposed to be guarding me, not attacking me, we sit side by side with just Eleni and Hale and some seagulls. The embers glow deep inside the black heap, and we’ve gone the same.
“Where’s Cassie?” my cousin yawns. “We need to go get her.”
This, however, looks like the last thing she herself is about to do. Hale, who she’s draped artistically about, looks equally less drape-like. In an odd way, it’s pleasing to the eye.
“Why?” I mean to get up but Lium is too comfortable a chair-back and my plan fails.
“I’m babysitting her.”
I frown, “This whole time?”
“Yes.”
“Well then, you should have been watching her. What if she got into trouble? Did you even make sure she cut up her meat at dinner? And it’s cold, did you bring her sweatshirt? When did you last see her?”
“Swimming.”
“Swimming.” Am I the only one who sees all the horrible ways that could end?
“Yes,” she says primly.
“Great ghosts of the grandmothers, Eleni. Come on.” I crawl close enough to yank her ankle, and scramble up.
I wipe the sand off my legs. Still seething, I trudge off with my cousin into the cool sand. It keeps our feet from sinking down too much, so we cover a good amount of the beach before we start arguing about whether Cassie will have hypothermia or not when we find her.
She says it’s summer. I say that the water is below body temperature. She tells me not to be a smarty pants.
Most people have taken their children and grandparents and left a while ago, so when I scan the area and don’t see Cassie’s curly-headed shadow, I get a glimmering hit of adrenalin. We check around the second bonfire, but she’s not there. Larissa tells us she last saw her playing in the waves around sunset. Then we hear some people on the docks, so we yell at each other to dou
ble back.
“What was she wearing again?”
“Red and white dress, I think.”
Ok. I let my eyes go blank for a second.
Despite not being in the lab, my mind recognizes the game I want to play. It’s the same, really. I open my gaze, let it splay wide, wide, wide, and fill it with my attention. And I grasp that image of Cassie, that pattern, as tight as I can.
It’s not an easy position to hold. And I’m better with my ears.
But I’m sure she’s not there. Neither is she with our cousins on the docks. The boys get up to help us, and I notice that at some point both Hale and Lium started trailing along behind us.
We start calling out her name. Two of my boy cousins jog off into the woods behind the bluff. I turn back down to the waterline, those horrible imaginings from earlier making me seasick.
Yelling for Cassie, getting nothing back but taunting from the milky blue expanse…I hear my zizi railing. Because as they say, the island is a finite area. It’s the ocean that’s not.
I notice the spit of rocks that juts out into the water at this end of the cove. I figure I can get a good view of the whole beach from a little further out, so I run to the very edge of it and clabber on, hands and toes clinging. They’re slimy with green and black ick.
I stand and twist around. There’s the pinpricks of torches, the yellow haze of the streetlights, the mound of embers, the bonfire. All making the darkness that much thicker. There are forms coming over the rocks after me, which is frustrating because it’s sort of a one-lane kind of situation. Agitated, I push on the crick in my neck.
And that’s when I see the dusky red figure scrabbling in the inky surf.
She’s really, really far out. All the way at one of the buoys that marks an underwater rock for the boats. I hadn’t been looking that far out because there is no way she could’ve gotten there.
This is not good. I can make out her little arms reaching straight up in the air. Then they’re dunked under the water. I don’t know if she is playing or drowning, but it doesn’t matter.
I step onto my toes and launch through the air. My arms brace over my head and I feel my own heaviness against nothing for a moment, before I slash into the bitter cold. The impact tugs my skirt and sweeps back my hair. Underwater is bubbles and quiet. I breathe a trail out my nose and wiggle, fingers to feet with my dive’s rush.
The saltiness pops me up again, too soon. I gasp and take off arm over arm, keeping my eyes and nose above the surface as best I can.
I aim for the buoy and the splashes. Open ocean swimming is not like swimming down the lanes of the academy pool. That’s why so many drowned when they put us in the sea. Inlanders. This unforgiving water here, it’s why I didn’t.
I kick hard and cut through it ruthlessly. I know the feeling is deceptive, of course, but I can’t help the thrill it gives me. Thrill is good, I tell myself, in the surge of strength and warmth. It fades to an ache that’s cold. Then surges again.
Shoving my hair away, I see Cassie’s arms and head, thank goodness. I’m so close. She slips under with the next roll of the moon-dappled surface, and dread hardens me from the inside, even as the cold hardens me from outside. There is something else near her. Garbage? No. Another person. Eleni. Forefathers, how did she beat me?
I redouble my efforts, not breathing at all, muscles that should be burning but are just rubbing, rubbing, rubbing.
I finally breathe. Ten more lengths.
“Len! Cassie!” I screech, voice scratched with salt.
I get no response, but I can see Cassie’s head and her moving arms.
“Say something back!”
Still no response. Panic or they can’t breathe. I hope that they just don’t care to answer me. I scramble forward, falling out of form in exhaustion, but I don’t care about form. The cold, hard ocean rocks, oblivious, sliding over my back, flooding my mouth with metal, thready seaweed fingering my numb limbs.
I spit and cough water and air. I’m right here, just not close enough. Eleni is latched to the buoy with one slender arm, reaching out for our drifting, splashing cousin.
“Len! Cassie!”
I reach for Cassie’s dress and catch the hem in my stiff fingers. I twist and yank, and it swings us together. I’m close enough to grab the buoy’s chain, now. I try to get my arm around Cassie’s chest, too, but she thrashes. Her heel connecting with my stomach.
I gag. “Cassie, relax, it’s me, Crusa.”
She doesn’t say anything even though I’m right up against her closed eyes and open mouth, as they stream above the surface. She coughs wetly and gurgles, mouth dropping back underwater. Her dress still tight in my fist, I shove her up, bracing myself with the chain. Still, the move dips me under, all except for the crown of my head. I think, my scalp isn’t sure.
Eleni has let go of Cassie, I notice when another roll carries her and me up, and Eleni just washes secure against the buoy. We dip, Cassie panics and starts to climb my body, dunking me without warning.
My own panic flares at the burning salt shoved up my nose, so while I realize I have what I think is Eleni’s foot, I claw at it to pull myself up. Up, and gasp. And lock my legs around Cassie. Haul her up.
I shove her into the buoy and she clings reflexively. I loop my own arm around the chain down below.
I hear Eleni whimpering. I hear myself rasping, short echoes against the pilled plastic. I don’t hear Cassie. My eyes are the only hot part of me when I put my ear against her wet lips. I can’t tell if she’s blue because of the cold or the darkness or some reason. I think I feel her…ouch. She coughs into my ear. Again.
My legs swoosh out from under me. I loop a knee around the chain, but some current still insists I fly out to sea. I sense Eleni straining, too. Body streaming out behind her.
Apparently, I’m not as amazing of a swimmer as I thought. No, the reason I got out here so fast is that the ocean brought me.
We’re all caught in a rip tide.