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Almost dying really changes your perspective.
There's no quicker way to light a big, blazing fire under your ass than almost biting the bullet. So, as soon as the paramedics check out Mrs. Jenkins, just to be safe, and I talk to the state troopers, fill out a report, see Mrs. Jenkins back home again, and get back into my own car, I only have one thought in mind.
Only one place I'm going.
Only one person who matters to me, in this moment.
I'm out of the car in front of Callie's parents' house before I even get it in park. I jog across their front lawn, pull open the screen door, and knock on the oak one. And I don't stop, until it opens.
And then she's there. Standing blond and beautiful in the doorway, the scent of roses and vanilla surrounding her. It's what my youth, what love, smells like. Her smile is sweet and a surprised sparkle shines in those green eyes . . . the ones I want to drown in all over again.
"Garrett . . . I was just--"
This time, I don't hesitate. I don't wait.
I step closer, wrap my arms around her and kiss her with everything I am, and everything I ever was.
Her mouth is so fucking warm, and soft--new and familiar all at the same time. Callie's lips move with mine, pliant but eager. And that connection, that bond, that live-wire spark that was always there between us flares up again, bright and strong. I cup her jaw in my palm, stroking her smooth cheek with my thumb, leaning in closer, tasting her deeper.
And I was right. She tastes even better--like warm honey, melted sugar.
Slowly, savoringly, I ease out of the kiss, brushing my lips against hers one last lingering time. Callie's eyes are closed, our foreheads are pressed together, and our breaths are the same--harsh and needy.
"Did you think of me?"
Her eyes open slowly, blinking up at me in that way that makes me want to kiss her again--and then do a hell of a lot more than kiss.
"What?"
"All those years, all this time, did you think of me? Because I thought of you, Callie, every fucking day. I would hear a song or pass a spot in town and some perfect memory of us would come back. And I would wonder where you were . . . how you were . . . and I would think of you . . . every single day."
She doesn't close her eyes, she meets my gaze head on, wets her lips with her small pink tongue--and nods.
"I would hear you in my head, whenever I needed you . . . and sometimes for no reason at all. And I would think of you, all the time."
And there it is--that same feeling I get on the field after a really great play--the thrilling, electric excitement of being exactly where I'm supposed to be, doing exactly what I was born to do.
"I missed you," I whisper. "I didn't even know how much . . . until you came back."
She smiles, her eyes going shiny with wetness. Because Callie's a crier . . . happy or sad, sometimes both at the same time . . . she always was.
"I missed you too, Garrett."
And she doesn't hesitate either. She reaches up, clasps her arms around my neck, and kisses me hot and hard and wet, with years' worth of wanting. It's almost a full-on make-out session right there on Callie's parents' front step. Her fingers slide through my hair, and my hands skim down her arms, gripping her waist, pulling her closer, rediscovering the feel of her.
The feel of us.
And we feel spectacular.
Chapter Ten
Callie
High school parking lots are one of the most dangerous places on earth. I don't have statistics to back that up, but I know it's true.
I pull into the school parking lot Monday morning in my dad's giant, newly repaired mint-green Buick, with "Back in Black" by AC/DC blasting from the speakers. I feel tough, powerful--like I'm driving a tank.
I'm a badass teacher--I'll run you down even if you're a student--I've got twenty-nine more in class just like you.
The outfit helps too--leather boots, blue jeans, a starched white blouse, and a black leather jacket. It's my armor. The morning air is cool and crisp today, but I barely feel it. I'm locked and loaded and ready to roll.
As I march towards the main entrance, I spot Garrett and Dean and Alison Bellinger outside the doors. They pause when they see me, waiting.
"Damn," Dean chuckles. "Callie's got her shit-kickers on. Did you dig them out of a mosh pit from 1993?"
Garrett crosses his arms. "Somebody's channeling Michelle Pfeiffer in Dangerous Minds."
He looks fantastic. His hair is tousled from the breeze and kisses his brow, and he's wearing a dark-blue sweater that's snug around his biceps and soft, worn, light-blue jeans. I remember his arms around me yesterday on my parents' porch. The wonder and exhilaration of the moment.
Of him.
The intensity in his eyes, the desire and possessiveness in the grasp of his hands. The scorching feel of his mouth, his wet, talented tongue that made my stomach swirl and my head spin.
So much for not complicating things.
But I'm not going to play head games with myself or Garrett--we're too old for that shit.
I have feelings for him--I always have--our breakup had nothing to do with either of us not wanting each other desperately. But these aren't just leftover echoes of a sweet, first love--this is something new. A throbbing, breathless attraction to the amazing man he's become. I want to be near him. I want to know him, inside and out, all over again.
And he feels the same way. Garrett wants this version of me as much as he always did--maybe even more. I heard it in his whispered words and felt it in his kiss.
I don't know if we have a future, if it can go anywhere. We have separate lives on opposite ends of the country. But I'm not going to worry about that--for now, I'm going to take each day as it comes and enjoy every moment we can.
Except for now. Now is not the time for enjoying or worrying or relationship building . . . now is the time for focusing. Now is the time to be ice and steel--don't smile, don't waver.
"Little fucknutters don't know who the hell they're dealing with," I growl.
Alison pumps her fist. "That's the spirit."
Garrett opens the door for me. "Go get 'em, Gangster's Paradise."
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The first few periods go great. This mean-teacher shit actually works.
I scowl and frown and lay down the law. I make them take notes on stage direction and famous playwrights--the boring stuff. Fun, dramatic, silly exercises? Not today, kiddies . . . maybe not ever again. I imitate the Soup Nazi from Seinfeld--no fun for you!
I tack homework passes on the wall, to be given out at my discretion. There really isn't any homework in theater--the only homework my drama teacher in high school, Mr. Pelligrino, ever gave us was practicing pratfalls. But these kids don't seem to realize that. They respond to my attitude, to the role I'm playing--I am Pavlov's bell and they're the dogs.
Until . . . fifth period. My D&B class.
They're different.
It's not just because they're the meanest of the bunch. But I see something in them, in each of them. The performer in me senses it. There's emotion simmering in this room, talent just waiting to be tapped into.
It's in David Burke--the slouching rebel, the Hamlet and leader of the pack. The other kids defer to him, wait for him, even if they don't realize it. If I win him over . . . I win them all.
It's in Layla Martinez--she's a Juliet--quiet, tragically pretty, with the most expressive eyes I've ever seen.
It's in Michael Salimander--the dark-haired, clever kid who probably only took this class to drive up his GPA. He reminds me of Puck, there's brilliance in him, and if the comic doodles that cover his notebook are any indication, creativity too.
It's in Simone Porchesky--the Medea, with her blue-black hair and blood-red lipstick, and a resentful chip on her shoulder.
They could emote. They could perform. They would draw all eyes to them.
They could be magnificent.
"What do you want?"
I d
on't yell the question, but project my voice through the rectangular room, grabbing their attention from the scattered chairs they sit in. When they don't answer, I take off my jacket, hang it on the back of my chair, walk around to the front of my desk and fold my arms.
"We want a striptease! I wanna see titties!" Bradley Baker yells from the back of the room.
Garrett was right--he is a dipshit.
I ignore him. "You have to be here; I have to be here. So, what do you want to do while we're here?"
"We want you to cry again." Simone sneers.
I nod. And look to the rest of them for answers.
"We want to do something that doesn't suck," Toby Gessler offers, popping an earbud out of one ear.
"We want to get out of this room," Michael says.
"Okay. Anyone else?"
"We want money." David smirks. "You get paid for coming here; we should too."
The gears in my mind go spinning. With Alison's advice and the token system my sister used with her kids when they were little, and Garrett's words.
"The key to controlling your class, is figuring out what each kid wants . . . and giving it to them . . . letting them know . . . you have the power to take it away."
"You know what I want?" I ask.
"We don't care." Bradley laughs, but no one else joins in.
"I want to put on a play. At the end of the year. With just the theater students."
Julie Shriver hadn't put on a play at Lakeside for years. Quickly, I flip through scripts in my head--something with a small cast, with catchy songs, something with an underdog . . . something they would like.
"Little Shop of Horrors. Do you guys know it?"
A few of them shake their heads. The others don't respond.
"It's about a plant from outer space. And a guy, a florist, who had been pushed around his whole life, finds it and takes care of it. Then . . . he chops up everyone who's ever been mean to him and feeds them to his plant."
They laugh.
"Dayum! Like Saw on Broadway," Toby says.
"Gruesome." David nods. "Is there blood?"
"There is." I nod.
"No way am I getting up on a stage," Simone scoffs. "I'd rather have my belly-button ring slowly ripped from my body. And my nose ring too."
Bradley flinches and covers his nose.
"You wouldn't have to," I shoot back. "Not all of you will be actors. We'll need . . . a director's assistant--someone to keep things running smoothly. A stage crew to make and move the sets. Sound crew, light crew. We'd need makeup crew and costume design."
"I'll be in your play." Bradley holds up his hand. "But only if I get to kiss a really hot chick."
I've been on enough stages to know when my audience is captivated. Right now, this one is, so I keep it going.
"The second boy I ever kissed was in a play, a stage kiss. He shoved his tongue down my throat, even though he wasn't supposed to, in front of an auditorium full of people."
"That's messed up," Simone says.
"It was. After the performance, my boyfriend kicked the crap out of him."
Layla's voice is quiet, and lilting, but I hear her. "That was Coach Daniels, right? You guys used to go out when you were in high school?"
I chuckle a little. How do they know these things? No point in denying it now. "That's right."
Then I clap my hands. "So, how about this? You work with me and I'll work with you. We start working on the play, and I'll award a one-hundred-dollar gift card to the best theater student at the end of each semester."
"Can you do that?" Michael asks.
I shrug. "We'll call it a scholarship. I won't ask Miss McCarthy if you won't. If we don't know we're breaking the rules, we're not really breaking them, are we?"
There's more than one way to skin a cat . . . and there's a bunch of ways to teach a class.
"Five hundred dollars," David says from the back, daring me with his eyes.
I lift my chin and nod sharply.
"Done."
My voice is brisk and authoritative, without even trying, as I walk back behind my desk.
"Michael, I'd like you to be my assistant. Auditions will start next week, and we'll need to get crew sign-up sheets posted. Are you good with that?"
"Uh . . ." His eyes are round behind his glasses, like an owl who has no idea how he ended up on this particular branch. "Yeah. Sure."
"Good. As for the rest of you, before auditions, there's some basic acting techniques we need to go over." I snap my fingers and point at the small elevated platform in the corner--the makeshift stage. "David, you first."
He rolls his shoulders and flips his dirty-blond hair, then he rises and hops up on the stage. He lifts one leg, like a flamingo, holds his right arm over his head and his left arm straight out to the side.
I sit back in my seat and fold my arms.
"What are you doing?"
"I'm being the tree." He grins smart-assedly. "Isn't that what theater is all about? Feel the tree . . . be the tree . . ."
The kids laugh, and I join them.
"Theater is about taking something that's been done a thousand times before--Shakespeare, Oscar Wilde, Arthur Miller--and making it feel like something new again. Making it your own. So forget the tree . . . be the leaves instead."
You got this, Callie.
And I think I just might.
Chapter Eleven
Garrett
Slowly, firmly, I slide my tongue into Callie's warm, waiting mouth. Her lips are rose-petal soft, and with every inhale I breathe in the sweet, delicious scent of her.
I forgot about kissing. Just kissing.
How good it can be--how hot--all by itself. The kind of hot that feels like my heart is going to punch out of my chest and my cock is going to bust through my zipper.
I forgot . . . but with every brush of her lips, Callie reminds me.
I feel the tip of her wet tongue stroking mine and I moan. I lean forward over her, my arms pulling her closer, my hands sliding into the silk of her hair, cradling her head--holding her right where I want her. Where I need her to stay--tight, flush against me, chest to chest, breath to breath. Right here, right there.
One hand stays fisted in her hair, while the other slips down, brushing her neck where her pulse thrums against my fingertips, and across her collarbone.
Over the years, I've touched lots of breasts. Hundreds. Probably thousands, if you count them separately. I'm a connoisseur of breasts, an expert. If tits were restaurants--I'd be fucking Zagat's.
But these . . . these are Callie's breasts.
And that makes it different. More. Better.
My fingertip circles her nipple, feather light and teasing, making it stiffen beneath the cotton of her blouse. I slide the rigid point between my thumb and forefinger, softly at first, then harder, pinching. And then I open my palm and cup Callie's breast in my hand, massaging and rubbing.
Hello, sweet friend, how I've missed you.
She's perfect . . . fucking perfect in my hand--all soft and full, warm and firm. I want to drop to my knees and worship her. Lick up her stomach, suck the hard, scorching point of her nipple into my mouth, and feast on her until she screams my name.
Callie's hips rotate, rubbing against me, searching for friction, and the sexiest purr rolls from the back of her throat.
That's it, baby. Give me those sounds. Fuck me, this is good.
It's also insane.
Riiiiiiing
The bell screams outside the heavy door, disturbing our happy place--sucking face in the fucking janitor's closet. Ray's whack-job palace. This is what we've been reduced to, this is who we are--two horny teenagers stealing kisses and dry-humping the first chance we get.
Between Callie taking care of her parents and their house, me grading papers--which is more fucking time consuming than the world will ever know--football practices and the extra one-one-one practices with Parker Thompson, our after-school availability is practically nil. We talk on t
he phone every night--long, good, deep conversations that end when we're yawning more than speaking. Phone sex isn't on the table just yet, so I've made do with jerking off to the memory of Callie's sultry, sleepy voice after we hang up. I also had dinner at Callie's parents' place on Tuesday. We all watched Jeopardy and ate KFC together while I copped a feel of Callie's smooth, bare leg under the dining room table.
It's ridiculous. Like high school all over again. I'm seriously considering sneaking through Callie's bedroom window tonight. I wonder if Mr. Carpenter still has that shotgun.
"Shit," I pant, pressing my forehead to hers, trying to catch my breath--and get the steel pipe of my dick under control.
I need to find a textbook to hide behind. Male teachers walking the halls with too-obvious-to-be-missed boners are generally frowned upon by the school board.
"Damn it, I have to go." Callie straightens her clothes and pats at her freshly fucked looking hair. "I need to be at the auditorium before the late bell and traffic in the C-wing is always a bitch."
I nod, blowing out a slow breath. "Yeah, okay. So, you're definitely not making it to the game tonight?"
"No, I can't. My dad has a cold. My mom might hurt herself trying to take care of him, because of course he says he's dying." She shakes her head, muttering, "Men."
"Hey, take it easy on us. Colds hit us harder than women; everyone knows that. Our immune systems are fragile . . . like our egos. Present company excluded, of course."
"Of course." She smiles as she kisses me one last time. "But I'll be listening to the game on the radio. Good luck tonight, Garrett."
"Thanks. We're gonna frigging need it."
I crack the door and take a quick look into the hallway to make sure it's empty. But I don't look hard enough--because when Callie and I step out, it's into the direct path of Miss McCarthy. And she's got David Burke with her, probably hauling his ass to the office for vaping in the bathroom or something.
McCarthy narrows her eyes, like a snake.
And I don't have to worry about that textbook anymore--my hard-on runs for his life.
"What's going on here?"
"We were just looking for . . ."
"Spackle." Callie finishes, her eyes wide like quarters.
She's a stage actress so you'd guess she'd be good at lying. But she's really not. She never was.
"Spackle?" Miss McCarthy asks.