Goodbye Love
By Jason Wallace
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Goodbye Love
Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace
I'm glad we
Finally got some clarity
The way I acted
Wasn't fair to be
And the only thing I wish
Is to take it all away
Please understand
That with all sincerity
I'm so sorry for being so very mean
And I know that no words that I can say
Will ever make you want me again
Probably not even as your friend
And that kinda pain
Is worse than my body could ever feel
I messed up with the girl of my dreams
And no matter what anyone else thinks or how it seems
I knew you were the one I wanted, the only one
That's ever been so real
I never meant to hurt you so much
And if my life was half enough
To make up for that
You could take that life away
Any shred of dignity
I might have had
Got erased by this misery
And I hope you can still
Find a brighter day
Forget what I've done to you
Even though this thing is through
I still want to find some words to say
To tell you that I'm not what you think I am
The good ones are so far and few
And none could compare to you
But so fast I no longer fought the fears
That have built inside so many years
And all I can do is hope and pray
That you forgive a wretch like me
And find someone better who won't let you be
So unhappy day to day
So I now must say goodbye to you
And know that no matter what I do
I'll be lucky to have anyone even a bit
As good as what I threw away
Again Alone
I have nowhere to go
No place to be
The only home that I know
Is an empty place
Of Misery
The one that I lost
Was the best one for me
I let her leave
Because of my jealousy
I just could not compete
If that was reality
Why would she want me
If she could have
Someone who wouldn't
Melt from the heat
So alone
I'm turning to stone
The blood in my veins
Just spilled on the ground
And no one's around
But pain I caused
For us both
It's a demon whose face
Has already shown
I thought being grown
Meant making mistakes
But taking the blame
And erasing the pain
And when that seed's sown
Knowing that all that's known
Is a lesson to learn
About how not to be
And what from yourself
Never again to condone
But a lesson that's learned
Can come with a loss
The prize you hold onto
Slips out of your hands because the cost
Is more than you feel you can pay
But at the end of the day
The regret you let creep in your way
Is that you've let someone else become burned
So alone
I'm turning to stone
The blood in my veins
Just spilled on the ground
And no one's around
But pain I caused
For us both
It's a demon whose face
Has already shown
On the road to the unknown
This scar I'll have on my hand
Isn't half as hard as the one I'm bearing inside
From messing up the greatest thing
I ever tried
What maybe just could've been
Is going to be a thought that
Comes with the memory
Of the way this all had to end
And the lie that I will pretend
Doesn't get me down
And make me drown in my sin
So alone, more broken and frozen,
I'm turning to stone
The blood in my veins
Just spilled on the ground
Spots and drops of red
Staining as it surrounds
And no one's around
But pain I caused
For us both
It's a demon whose face
Has already shown
And I know I'm at fault
For being again alone
I can't get how
What was maybe almost love
Was at best just a loan
Recalled and repossessed and cutting
Straight to the bone
And when both wounds heal
I won't have her hand to hold
Because I am again alone