His entire hand cupped my sex while his mouth continued its drugging assault on my clit. His index and ring fingers spread my lips wide as he thrust his middle finger inside of me. That one stroke of his finger inside of me was like setting off a detonation, making my entire world explode around me. Inner walls that had never been touched, never been stretched, were hyperaware of being invaded and convulsed from the sheer pleasure of his talented digit. My body seized up as flashes of lights and stars drifted across my vision.
“O-oh God,” I moaned. “H-Ha-wk.”
He lifted his head an inch and watched me while I had my first orgasm. Having his hungry eyes on me like that while I experienced something so incredibly erotic made it that much more intense. Oh God, it’s so good.
I wasn’t sure how much time past before my muscles relaxed and I opened my eyes. Fudge, I didn’t even remember closing them. Meeting Hawk’s gaze, my sex seemed to catch fire all over again as I watched him lick my desire off his lips and groan as if it were his favorite flavor of ice cream.
“You are so fucking beautiful, Gracie,” he growled and moved up my body to press his lips to mine. I caught the taste of my release on his tongue as he thrust into my mouth and was surprised that I liked it. I tasted like that? All sweet like honey?
The kiss was over way too soon. Hawk got to his feet quickly and started pulling off his clothes. His shirt hadn’t even landed across the room where he’d carelessly tossed it to by the time that he had his jeans and boxers off. My eyes were instantly drawn to his lower abdomen.
Oh goodness.
The man was a freaking god; there was no other way to explain it. Why else would he have been so beautifully well-endowed? His tip was thick and pink, the long shaft bulging with blue and purple veins that seemed to pulse with every breath he took. Lower, his testicles were round and tight. I wanted to reach out and touch him, to see if the shiny liquid dripping from his tip was as thick and hot as my own desire felt. I wanted to lick him as he had licked me, my mouth watering as I wondered if it tasted as sweet as mine did.
As if he could see the need in my eyes he reached for my hands and kissed each palm. “I want you to touch me just as much as you want it. But one stroke of your silky fingers down my dick and I am going to go off like a roman candle, baby. Later you can touch, taste, and suck all you want. Right now I need to be inside of you or I’m going to go insane.”
All the air left my lungs in a rush as I felt my entrance flooding all over again with need for this wickedly delicious man. I thought when it came time for me to lose my virginity I would be scared. After what had nearly happened at that frat party all those weeks ago, I was sure that something like this would send me screaming in terror. Yet there I was, completely naked with my legs spread wantonly, while the most beautifully masculine man I’d ever set eyes on stared down at me as if he was about to eat me alive.
I wasn’t scared or even all that nervous. I wanted Hawk Hannigan more than I’d ever wanted anything in my life and I knew he would never hurt me. I was safe here in this man’s arms. He’d already proven to me that he would always protect me, take care of me.
His strong, hard body covered mine tenderly on the bed we’d shared for months. The heat radiating off his body burned me, but I loved it. His fingers shook a little as he spread my thighs wider, as if he were actually nervous. That thought brought a small smile to my lips and he lowered his head to kiss me softly.
“I’m going to be a little selfish here, Gracie.” His lips trailed across my collarbone as his fingers found my clit once again and quickly made me mindless. “I want to feel you, all of you as I take you this first time. I swear to you I’m clean or I would never even think about it.” Warm lips skimmed over one nearly painfully tight nipple, soothing the aching tip.
I didn’t question him. All I wanted was him inside of me, filling me as I was meant to be filled. One hand caressed down my body, his fingertips leaving a trail of gooseflesh from my shoulder down to my hip. I couldn’t take my eyes off of his dick as he grasped his shaft in one hand and rubbed the mushroom shaped tip over my damp folds.
“Y-yes,” I moaned. “Please. That feels so good.”
“I’m going to make this as good for you as I possibly can,” he growled, positioning himself at my entrance and pushing forward just a little. I watched in a fascination as the tip disappeared and my opening flooded even more, making his entrance easier.
Inch by inch he moved forward, stretching me deliciously. I’d expected it to hurt, but all I felt was a slight burning as he filled me and I wanted him far too much to worry about that slight discomfort. I watched in dazed enthrallment as he became one with me. Watching hiked up my own pleasure and I was starting to squirm, wanting him all the way in, wanting him to touch every inch of my inner being as much as he was touching my skin.
Sweat broke out across his rock-hard chest and dripped down his ripped stomach. With each exhale it sounded as if he were growling and that excited me even more. I loved the way he was stretching me, the way my sex kept sucking him deeper as if it had a mind of its own and knew that this man belonged right where he was…
Hawk stopped so suddenly I let out a small whimper in protest. Why was he stopping when it was feeling so damn good? Lifting my eyes I found his jaw clenched, his eyes wild with passion. “What’s wrong?” I asked. Had I done something wrong? Was I bad at this? Didn’t he like it?
“Just…letting you…get used to…this,” he gritted out. “Don’t want to…hurt…you.”
I might have thought I was in love Hawk until then, but in that moment I knew that I was. My heart truly, completely, forever belonged to this man. I didn’t want it back. If he was holding back like this, when I could see that it was costing him a lot to do so, then he must love me too.
Right?
“Y-you’re not hurting me,” I assured him and kissed his sweat-dampened chest. “Please, Hawk. I need you inside. All of you. Fill me up with your thickness.”
His eyes closed and he bit out a curse that described exactly what we were doing… No, I thought as he moved just a little deeper and met the barrier that I could give to only one person. No, this definitely isn’t fucking. This is making love. Hawk is making love to me.
When the tip brushed over my virginity I let out a small yelp, for the first time feeling truly uncomfortable. It wasn’t painful, but it definitely wasn’t the mind-numbing pleasure that I’d been experiencing up until right then. He stopped again and I could feel how tense he was from holding back for me. The man was about to explode.
I bit my lip as he rocked his hips slightly from side to side. It took my mind off the brief discomfort and my body began to catch fire again. This was so good, so incredibly good. I’d loved when he’d had his mouth on me there, but having him inside of me was ten times better.
Hawk dropped forward, holding himself up with his powerful arms so that he could kiss me. “I’m sorry, baby. I’ll do it quick so it won’t hurt as bad.” His lips covered mine as he thrust his hips forward, hard.
All the pleasure I’d been feeling was gone in the blink of an eye. My body tensed with something other than desire and I cried out into his mouth. A few tears fell from my eyes, but the pain and intense burning faded just as quickly as it had come, and I realized that Hawk was completely inside of me.
Above me Hawk was breathing roughly, his big, hard body trembling as he continued to wait for me to adjust to having him so deeply inside of me. Warm, damp lips brushed over my cheek, kissing away one stray tear. “I’m sorry,” he growled. “I hoped I wouldn’t hurt you as much as this.”
I stroked my fingers down his sides, hoping that it would soothe him as he was trying to soothe me. “I’m not sorry. I’m fine, Hawk.”
“You sure?” He licked just under my ear, making me shiver. He was starting to get scruffy from a day’s growth of beard and it tickled in a delicious kind of way. “I…can wait.”
Licking my lips, I shook my head. “No, don’t
wait. It doesn’t hurt now, just a little tender.” I was going to be sore as hell in the morning, but right then it seemed worth it. My body was on fire for him. It knew how much pleasure was waiting on the other side and I wanted to go there again and again.
If I hadn’t been half crazy with passion I might have laughed at myself. One orgasm and I was turning into a sex-crazed nympho. I didn’t care, though. As long as it was Hawk giving me the orgasms I wanted as many as he would willingly give me.
“Thank fuck,” he groaned and moved his hips, pulling out of me a little and sliding back carefully. “I’m about to go insane, baby. You feel…so fucking good. Nothing’s ever been…this good.”
A shot of jealousy tried to invade my pleasure high, but I quickly squashed it back. I didn’t want to think about Hawk with other women, didn’t want to imagine him inside of someone else like this giving that female just as much pleasure as he was giving me. He was with me now, had asked me to become his ol’ lady. That meant something in his world, something big.
I was his and he had promised me that he was mine.
That might not be an avowal of love, but coming from a man as emotionally hard as Hawk I knew it might be as close as I would ever come to it. For now, that was good enough.
Hawk pulled his hips back again, almost completely leaving me. I whimpered in protest, not wanting to lose the fullness having him deep inside of me brought. Thrusting forward slowly, he caused me to cry out as he stretched me once more, his thickness rubbing over hypersensitive tissue in a way that made my nails sink into his sides as I tried to hold on to consciousness.
He sucked in a deep breath before laughing unevenly. “Like that?” All I could do was nod. I couldn’t have produced coherent words right then if my life depended on it. “More?” Again I nodded, my nails sinking even deeper as he thrust in and out of me a little rougher.
Oh damn. This is so fudging good!
“That’s it baby. Dig those nails into me. Make me bleed while I take you to heaven.” His thrusts became faster, harder and I loved every moment of it. If I closed my eyes I could actually picture his dick moving in and out of me. Each time he pulled away from me, my body tried to suck him back in. When he thrust so forcefully into me over and over again it welcomed him back with a small contraction.
“You’re killing me,” he growled, increasing his speed just a little more. “Fuck, girl, I can’t get enough.”
“Ah-h…” I moaned in reply. He chuckled, causing his chest to vibrate and rub across my hardened nipples. “Ah-h-h-h!” I moaned again.
“Yes, Gracie. Fuck, baby. That’s it. You’re so close.” He buried his face in my neck, licking and sucking and making me that much more mindless. “Come for me, baby.”
Just hearing his voice, so rough and growly in my ear pushed me closer to the edges of a release that promised to be a million times bigger than my first. His thrusts became harder and the sounds of our bodies hitting together, the wet sounds of him entering me so forcefully over and over again filled the room along with my soft cries of ecstasy. My legs wrapped around his waist, wanting him even deeper, never wanting to be apart from him again.
I was so close, so close…
“Fuck, Gracie.” He shifted and one large hand moved between us. When his thumb caressed over my clit the world exploded around me. My back arched as I threw my head back and cried out his name.
I didn’t feel Hawk go still, didn’t notice as he completely stopped to watch while I came apart for him. My body convulsed around his thick length deep inside of me and I felt like my entire body was going to shatter into a million pieces as it began to shake from the force of my release.
“Hawk!” I screamed his name and went helplessly limp on the bed.
“Fuck that was beautiful,” he muttered, as if to himself. “Hold on, baby. I’m about to join you.”
It felt like it took all my strength to open my eyes. He kissed my lips and began to move, his body rigid as he thrust into me harder than ever. His hands cupped my ass, lifting me off the mattress a few inches and he pounded into me at a deeper angle. My body that had been a puddle of mushy muscles woke up, surprising me when I felt another orgasm take hold.
Hawk tossed his head back as my inner walls started contracting around him again. His eyes began to roll back, his muscles tightening up and he went absolutely still for a second…
“Gracie!” He bellowed my name to the roof. His face seemed to contort from the pleasure as I felt the first shot of his white-hot release jetting deep inside of me. He dropped on top of me, his body trembling from the force of his orgasm.
I could feel his heart pounding in his chest and realized that it matched the beating of my own. Warm lips brushed over my neck over and over again as his breathing slowly became normal once more. I lay there, enjoying the feel of his sweat-dampened body covering my own, tracing my nails up and down his back.
I wasn’t a virgin anymore. I wasn’t sweet, innocent little Gracie Morgan any longer.
Now, I was Hawk Hannigan’s woman.
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The sound of running water coming from the bathroom woke me a few hours later. Hawk wasn’t beside me in bed, but the door to the bathroom was slightly ajar and I could see his shadow moving around. A glance at the clock beside the bed told me it was just after two in the morning. I yawned and stretched...
Only to wish I that hadn’t. My lower body was one big ache. When I moved, my inner muscles tightened and protested and I bit back a small moan as I tried to find a more comfortable position.
The bathroom door opened and Hawk came out with a towel wrapped around his narrow waist. Seeing that I was awake, he smiled. “Hey there, beautiful.” He sat down on the edge of the bed beside of me and bent down to brush his lips over mine.
The kiss was softer, sweeter than any he’d ever given me before, yet it affected me in a more powerful way than if he’d ravaged my mouth. When he lifted his head I was panting, wanting him just as badly as I had only a few hours before. Between my legs, my sex protested and I couldn’t help the small, pain-filled whimper that escaped.
Green eyes darkened with concern. “How bad are you hurting?”
“I’m okay,” I told him, but he lifted a skeptical brow at me and I sighed. “What do you expect? You’re a very big man, Hawk Hannigan.” He chuckled as I’d hoped he would and brushed his lips over mine once more, but when I tried to deepen the kiss, he stood. “Where are you going?” I whined, wanting him to cuddle with me.
“Just relax, baby. I’m going to take care of you.”
From the bathroom, I heard the water turning on again and a few minutes later smelled the bubble bath that I used every now and then. I listened as he moved around, already knowing what he was doing, and falling even more in love with my biker for taking care of me like this. I’d never thought a member of the Angel’s Halo MC would ever run me a bubble bath, let alone the MC’s new VP. It was a part of Hawk that I’d come to realize I was the only one that got to see.
After a few minutes, he came back into our room and lifted my naked body from our bed. I loved being in his arms, but my body protested at the movement. I refused to moan as he shifted me in his arms and carried me into the bathroom. The room was full of steam and the sweet smell of the bubbles still rising in the hot water.
Carefully, as if he was afraid he might break me, Hawk placed me in the bathtub. The heat from the water felt delicious on my aching muscles, but caused my recently abused inner tissue to sting for a minute. I bit my lip to keep my whimper in, not wanting him to know his sweet gesture had just caused me agonizing pain.
The sting quickly faded, thankfully, and I relaxed my back in the tub. Hawk disappeared and came back several long minutes later with a bottle of water and several Advil. He was wearing a pair of pajama bottoms, so I knew he must have gone downstairs.
I felt pink filling my cheeks as I realized his sister was most likely up and had probably heard us making love earlier.
Seei
ng my blush, Hawk chuckled. “Relax. Raven didn’t hear us. These walls are pretty thick. Which was how she and Bash were able to sneak around for so long when she was younger without us realizing it.”
I relaxed again. “I guess we were pretty loud earlier,” I murmured before taking another sip of water.
Hawk crouched down beside the tub on his knees, his eyes raking over the tops of my breasts since they were the only part of my body exposed because of the thick bubbles. My nipples tightened at his caressing gaze. “I loved having you screaming in my ear. Don’t ever hold back, baby.”
I bit my lip when he produced a washcloth and started washing me. I’d never had someone bathe me before and I felt vulnerable as he began to wash my arms and then my stomach. “I can do this,” I whispered as his hands dipped into the water again, skimming the soapy cloth over my thighs.
“Yeah, I know. But I like doing this. I want to take care of you.” He lowered his head and pressed a kiss to my exposed shoulder. “Indulge me, baby.”
For the next ten minutes he washed every part of me he could reach, lingering on the tender areas. He was so gentle, so loving, that I had to blink back a sudden rush of tears. He couldn’t take care of me like this, couldn’t hold me and make love to me, unless he felt something just as strongly as I felt…
Right?
The water started to grow cool and the bubbles were nearly gone. Hawk lifted me from the tub and dried me with a towel. Sometimes his hands lingered in certain areas but he never touched me in any way sexually. I didn’t know whether to be thankful that he was giving my body time to heal a little after our earlier lovemaking, or to be disappointed. I wanted him again, wanted the ecstasy that he could give me and wanted to give it back to him.
Once I was dry he pulled one of his white T-shirts over my head and lifted me into his arms again. When he laid me on the bed again I held onto his neck, making him fall down beside me. Laughing, he grabbed the covers and pulled them over us before tucking my back against his front.