I Don’t Wanna Be with You
By Jason Wallace
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Published by:
I Don’t Wanna Be with You
Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace
I don’t wanna be with you.
You left me here,
Cut in two,
And now, I’m so afraid
Of you really wanting to come back home.
This all alone kind of life
Has finally been a bit alright,
Far better than anything, back then, I always knew
When we were promising all of time or two.
You did nothing but wrong, but that’s o.k., too.
I’m so fine on my own, here, without you, so don’t come or go.
You’re not welcome, and if that’s selfish, you know what you can do.
You’ve lost it. You’re locked up, imprisoned in your own Hell,
You made yourself.
I was never anything you wanted to have to have.
You’re fake. Face it. You make
Me hate it, every time I ever have to think of you.
I was well past this pastime, the last time
You ever said, “I love you.”
You leave me so much not knowing what to do,
But I do know I don’t wanna be with you.
After years of heartache and pain,
Sleepless nights, and going bitterly insane
And much more since you left me here, in shame,
You’d think you’d, at least, get over the blame, but
Maybe, you did, and that’s why you aren’t as mad
As you used to be.
I am and have been, since then, still the same.
I loved you more than I could ever say.
You were the one that I hated to see walk away.
I’ve had to relive it all, frame by frame, and
Everyone you had behind my back, name by name.
If you, at all, wanna be with me,
You need to know this one thing, and it is nothing new,
Of all the ones I could ever pick, I don’t wanna be with you.
Our love
Was on its last leg
Before you left and let
All of it slip on down the drain.
I’d had enough of your rough cuts,
Slicing me up and stabbing me deeper
To watch my pain.
I held on
For so long,
Hoping it wouldn’t be so strained and stained
With all of the abscess, the cold mess, regrets,
And forgetting how to say
Anything more than the worst words,
Any thoughts of what would only hurt,
Never wishing for any more than getting on, day by day.
You call me up to say that me, you love.
You want me back, no matter that
You were the one that spewed out so much hate.
It’s too late, and there is no memory to get to me.
I can’t wait
Until your misery and your missing me
Get to be anything that lets you know
What it’s like to feel so left alone and wasted away.
You don’t have to ask me to know it’s true…
You’re the last on my list, and I don’t wanna be with you.
After years of heartache and pain,
Sleepless nights, and going bitterly insane
And much more since you left me here, in shame,
You’d think you’d, at least, get over the blame, but
Maybe, you did, and that’s why you aren’t as mad
As you used to be.
I am and have been, since then, still the same.
I loved you more than I could ever say.
You were the one that I hated to see walk away.
I’ve had to relive it all, frame by frame, and
Everyone you had behind my back, name by name.
If you, at all, wanna be with me,
You need to know this one thing, and it is nothing new,
Of all the ones I could ever pick, I don’t wanna be with you.
I’m begging please,
Don’t you remember me.
Don’t put me in your agony
And build me up like you wish I’d be.
I don’t know what it is you heard,
I’m nothing anymore.
Yet, I’m better than I was before,
But I’m not out of your league. I’m out of your world.
After years of heartache and pain,
Sleepless nights, and going bitterly insane
And much more since you left me here, in shame,
You’d think you’d, at least, get over the blame, but
Maybe, you did, and that’s why you aren’t as mad
As you used to be.
I am and have been, since then, still the same.
I loved you more than I could ever say.
You were the one that I hated to see walk away.
I’ve had to relive it all, frame by frame, and
Everyone you had behind my back, name by name.
If you, at all, wanna be with me,
You need to know this one thing, and it is nothing new,
Of all the ones I could ever pick, I don’t wanna be with you.
After years of heartache and pain,
Sleepless nights, and going bitterly insane
And much more since you left me here, in shame,
You’d think you’d, at least, get over the blame, but
Maybe, you did, and that’s why you aren’t as mad
As you used to be.
I am and have been, since then, still the same.
I loved you more than I could ever say.
You were the one that I hated to see walk away.
I’ve had to relive it all, frame by frame, and
Everyone you had behind my back, name by name.
If you, at all, wanna be with me,
You need to know this one thing, and it is nothing new,
Of all the ones I could ever pick, I don’t wanna be with you.
I Don’t Wanna Be with You
By Jason Wallace
******
Published by:
I Don’t Wanna Be with You
Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace
I don’t know how to be abused.
I learned from the best, and you had the rest
To use, all of them, everyone.
All I want from anyone
Is for them to not be anything like you.
I wish I could just erase your face,
Hit some button that says, “undo,”
But I can’t, so here it is. I’m really through.
Leave me like I’m a road on which you can no longer go.
I’m the past. I’m the last that really wanted you,
But I don’t wanna be with you.
I don’t wanna be with you.
I don’t wanna be us again, in some “some day” or two.
I don’t wanna be alone,
But I don’t wanna be so thrown away.
I don’t wanna be your “another day.
I don’t wanna be with you.
I don’t want…
I don’t want…
I don’t wanna be with you.
Everything Bad
When did it all go wrong
I can barely even breathe
Even after all this time
I can sometimes clearly see
That we were never meant to be
All along
Not that it was something I ever believed
How can one person
Be som
eone else's destiny
How can someone leave
And leave you so weak
When you used to be so strong
He was always the one
When it was all said and done
After years with me
You went running back to him
You two weren't together that long
And you knew
He never wanted you
He still told me he would never be tied down
But he took you
From my house to his
And gave up ten years
Of what I thought was friendship
By taking
Everything I had
And together
You two are...
Everything Bad
You never seemed to care
Just who you hurt
I thought I was first
The one you needed in your life
The one to make you smile
Everything you promised yourself
Because you couldn't have someone else
You ran from him to me
Because he told you
I was all you would need
He urged me to take you
And make a life with you
And years down the road
Watching rivers of tears
As they flowed
So much I went blind
And completely lost my mind
You ran away from here
Because you were living in fear
Of never realizing the feelings
You thought you'd given up
And he stirred back up
He was always the one
When it was all said and done
After years with me
You went running back to him
You two weren't together that long
And you knew
He never wanted you
He still told me he would never be tied down
But he took you
From my house to his
And gave up ten years
Of what I thought was friendship
By taking
Everything I had
And together
You two are...
Everything Bad
He must have lied to you
Like you lied to me
Because he still stole you
As you pretended
That you tried to be
Working on us
I was stupid to trust
And now I know
Everything was a show
And everything was done
He was always the one
When it was all said and done
After years with me
You went running back to him
You two weren't together that long
And you knew
He never wanted you
He still told me he would never be tied down
But he took you
From my house to his
And gave up ten years
Of what I thought was friendship
By taking
Everything I had
And together
You two are...
Everything Bad
And everything and everyone
I thought I could trust
Though you both hurt me for years
And lied so many times
That I never felt I knew
Either one of you
I want to move on
But the law doesn't allow
Moving on for so long
If we never said I do
I might be over you
I might be stronger now
He was always the one
When it was all said and done
After years with me
You went running back to him
You two weren't together that long
And you knew
He never wanted you
He still told me he would never be tied down
But he took you
From my house to his
And gave up ten years
Of what I thought was friendship
By taking
Everything I had
And together
You two are...
Everything Bad
Evermore
I couldn't make you
Love me
Your love had to fade
I told you
We could make it all work
But you just wouldn't wait
I still...
Wanted you to stay
But I guess
What you felt
Turned into hate
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
I wouldn't force you
To do what
You don't wanna do
But you convinced me
So many times
To give
More chances to you
Then when I asked you
To give me the same
You said you couldn't
And had to go away
I can't help it
If I scream your name
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
I couldn't make you
Love me
If it's not in the cards
What I had in mind...
It's too hard
You turned back
When we'd made it so far
So good
Would it ever do
Did you believe
That I loved you
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
I can't make you
Adore me
Like you once did
Despite all you did for me
You must admit
You knew it would end
The wounds couldn't mend
And you'd find your way out
I can't say I'll see your face
All of time could never replace
The feelings I have
The love that I know
We both have had our doubts
I guess they showed
I couldn't get you
To love me
Evermore
You placed
Others above me
What did you...
Do that for
Feelings don't last
And the past,
It will haunt you
It doesn't always matter
That someone wants you
Evermore
We may be together
Never again
But I will love you
Evermore
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