Gage pulled Whittaker off for a private confab with the boys and Noelle stepped up next to me.
“So? Work your spell on him yet?” Noelle asked.
“You told him about me?” I said.
'Yeah. I thought maybe you guys could get to know each other,“ Noelle said with a shrug. 'Whit could be good for you. He's very. .. cultured.”
I ignored the implied insult in that statement.
“Noelle! I'm with Thomas, remember?” I said. I no longer cared that she didn't want me to be with Thomas. The fact that he had mysteriously disappeared kind of negated all other concerns.
Her expression turned hard. “Right. And Thomas is . . . where?” she asked, looking around.
“I... I don't know,” I said, my stomach responding with a clench. Over her shoulder, I watched Ariana, Kiran, and Taylor approaching, clearly interested in the topic of our private tete-a-tete.
“Exactly. Some boyfriend, bailing and not even telling you where he's going. Or that he's going,” she said. She rolled her eyes
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again and took another sip of beer, allowing this to sink in. “Look, Whit is a great guy. He's a nice guy.”
“Unlike some people,” Kiran said snarkily.
Even with his mysterious disappearance they couldn't let their disdain for Thomas go. They had never liked him. They never would.
“Plus, Whit can give you things,” Ariana put in. “Things you might not otherwise have access to.”
Give me things, huh? Well, color me curious.
Ariana gazed at Whit with her clear blue eyes and I wondered if he felt it. If it gave him the chills the way it always did me.
“Like what?” I said.
“Like a life,” Kiran said with a snort.
“Kiran!” Ariana scolded.
“Just go talk to him,” Noelle said. 'You don't have to marry the guy."
I took a deep breath and drained the last dregs of my beer, all the while keeping an eye on Whit. He seemed nice. Polite and mature. Plus the guys clearly loved him. And yeah, maybe he was a little overweight, but who was I to judge?
“Bring him some of this,” Kiran said, handing over a spare flask of her Hayes Special. “Whittaker loves my recipes.”
The flask was ice cold and sleek to the touch. I held it in one hand, my beer in the other. Maybe it was time to give a Billings- sanctioned guy a chance. After all, I was a Billings Girl now too. It seemed high time I started acting like one.
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SOMETHING TO IMPRESS
“It was eye opening, I have to say, living among the locals,” Whittaker said as we strolled away from the clearing. “They have nothing. Nothing but a wooden bowl and a cup of rice to eat, but they have spirit, you know? Such spirit.”
“So you slept in the village?” I asked, keeping my eyes trained on my feet. I was on the fourth beer now, and things were starting to get the slightest bit bleary. “That's so cool.”
I couldn't remember whose idea it had been for us to go off alone and get to know each other. His? Mine? Noelle's?
“Oh, no. We went back to the hotel, of course,”Whit said. “Do you realize the number of diseases one can pick up in a place like that?”
I looked up waiting for him to acknowledge the irony. “But I thought you said you lived among them.” Just then, my foot hit a rock and slid, twisting my ankle inward. I stumbled and fell sideways into Whittaker. “Oh. Whoops!”
“Are you quite well?” he asked me, using both meaty arms to steady me.
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I cleared my throat. Around me the trees tilted and swayed. “Yes. Quite,” I said, mimicking his tone. Who talked like this?
“Perhaps we should sit,” he suggested.
Now the ground tilted. Why did anyone ever say drinking was fun? This was actually quite nauseating. “Yes. Perhaps we should.”
Whittaker led me over to a thick log that had fallen sometime in the past century and was now overgrown with moss and vines. He lowered me down slowly until I was steadily seated, and only then did he let me go. I braced one hand on the cold, rough wood to keep from falling over and shook my hair back. Whittaker smiled as he sat next to me, studying my face.
“Noelle didn't lie. You really are quite beautiful,” he said. “You have a classic look about you. Like Grace Kelly.”
“Grace who?” I asked.
Whittaker's smile widened slightly. “She was an actress. And a princess. Actually, it was quite an incredible story. She started out as a poor farm girl, then became hugely famous in Hollywood, married a European prince--”
“Sounds good to me,” I said blearily, lifting my beer bottle in a toast.
“Then died in a fiery car crash,” Whittaker finished.
“Oh.” Nice. Thanks a lot.
Whittaker suddenly flushed and looked away, taking a drink from his flask. “Would you like some?” he asked.
Somewhere in my brain I knew it probably wasn't a good idea
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to drink anything else, but I also knew that Kiran mixed some kind of juice into her special concoction. And somewhere else in my brain, something decided that it might be a good idea to consume juice. Since it had vitamins and all.
“Sure,” I said. “Why not?”
I placed my nearly empty beer bottle down on the ground and almost fell over. My palm hit the dirt and I pushed myself back up, trying to cover, but my equilibrium was shot. When I reached for the flask, I tipped over into Whittaker's arms. My eyes closed in embarrassment and the ground shifted. Great. Now my brain was totally misfiring.
“Sorry,” I said.
“That's all right,” he replied. “Here. Let me help.”
He placed one of his solid arms around me and I instantly felt more secure, less wobbly. I managed to get the top off the flask and took a long drink. Mmmmm. The Hayes Special was yummy. And Whittaker was so warm. I closed my eyes, savoring the moment, and tipped the flask back. Once again the ground shifted. I jerked and the liquid went down the wrong pipe. All airways closed off and I choked, spitting alcohol everywhere.
“Are you all right?” Whittaker asked.
“Fine! Fine!” I choked, doubling over. Whittaker fished out a handkerchief from his pocket and handed it to me. I coughed into it and wiped my face. The handkerchief was soft, smelled of musk, and had his initials embroidered into it. Old school all the way.
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No one I knew even owned handkerchiefs, but somehow I was not surprised.
“I'm so sorry,” I said, finally catching my breath. I tried to hand the handkerchief back to him, but he closed his hand over mine, which closed over the cloth.
“Keep it. It's yours,” he said.
I flushed. “You must think I'm a total loser,” I said.
“Quite the contrary,” he said, looking into my eyes. “I think you're extraordinary.”
And then he was kissing me. Okay. Not good! I was not supposed to be kissing Walt Whittaker. I was supposed to be kissing Thomas. Thomas, my boyfriend. Thomas, the perfectly gorgeous guy who had taken my virginity. If only he were here. If only I knew where the hell he was.
Thoughts of Thomas flooded my mind. Thomas, Thomas, Thomas. Thomas's lips, Thomas's hands, Thomas's fingers, Thomas's tongue . ..
And suddenly, I was kissing him. His sweet, warm mouth-, his strong, lean arms. Even with everything we had gone through in the past few days, I missed his touch. That was the one thing with Thomas th
at was never wrong.
Half delirious, I slipped my hands around Whit's thick neck. The second I did he got confident. His mouth moved over mine in a rough, unpracticed, awkward back-and-forth motion, so fast it was as if he was trying to create fire with our lips.
Ugh. Very not Thomas. I grabbed his face between both my
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hands to stop the madness and he took it as a sign of enthusiasm. Suddenly his tongue was everywhere, parting my lips and darting between my teeth.
This poor kid. He had no idea what he was doing. I wanted to push him away, but I didn't want to embarrass him. Instead I let him go and hoped he would either suddenly improve or get winded and stop.
Then his large hand fell right on top of my breast and squeezed. Hard. Like he was juicing an orange.
Just like that, Thomas was back. Right there in front of me. With his sexy smile and his practiced, gentle touch and his skin against mine. What the hell was I doing? Who was this person who was groping me like I was some kind of CPR doll?
My stomach lurched. I held my breath. Oh, God. I was going to throw up. I was going to barf in Walt Whittaker's mouth.
My hands flew up and I shoved him away from me. He was just letting out a confused murmur when I turned around, keeled over, and retched all over the bed of leaves behind the log. My eyes stung; my throat burned; my stomach wrenched in pain. Whittaker stood up and moved away, turning his back to me to give me privacy. Thank God. The last thing I wanted was for the guy I had just kissed to watch me puke all over the place.
And then, finally, it was over.
“Are you all right?” Whittaker asked me.
It was like his refrain of the evening.
I nodded slowly, too mortified to speak.
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“Can I walk you back to Billings?” he asked.
I nodded again. Whittaker held out his hands and helped me up. He wrapped his arm around me as we walked back to the clearing and I leaned in to him, mushy as overcooked pasta. Everyone stared at our arrival. I could only imagine what I looked like. For a fleeting moment my unfocused gaze fell on Josh. He looked as grim as death.
“Aw! Look at you two, all coupley,” Noelle said with a knowing smile.
I watched as Josh quickly looked away, swigging his beer.
“I'm going to walk her back,” Whittaker announced, sounding proud.
“Nice,” Dash said under his breath.
“Take care of our girl,” Noelle said, patting Whit on the back.
From somewhere deep inside of me, I summoned a trace of a smile. Even in my extraordinary state of queasy shame, I felt the warmth of Noelle's approval. And though I knew it was totally spineless to bask in it, I did. Noelle's approval was always a good thing.
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CINDERELLA LIVES
The first thing I recognized was the dirty gutter taste in my dryas-talc mouth. The second was the blinding pain in my skull. The third was the fact that I was freezing. The fourth was the banging.
The banging. The banging. The incessant banging.
“Wake up, new girl! It's after six! You're never going to get anywhere with this attitude!”
Each bang reverberated in my skull and shot a new stab of pain through my head.
I wrenched my eyes open, then blinked a couple hundred times against their painful dryness. In front of me was the cream-colored wall of my dorm. Below me was my mattress. Nothing else was right.
“That's right, sleepyhead. Vacation's over! Get your sorry ass out of bed!”
It was Noelle. Noelle was yelling over the banging. I flipped over onto my back, the pain in my head nearly blinding, and looked up. I had to swallow back a sudden influx of bile in my throat. Not just Noelle: Kiran, Taylor, Ariana, Natasha, and four other Billings Girls whose names I couldn't remember in my
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current state of excruciating pain hovered over me. Kiran was pounding a red and black steel drum with the handle end of a pair of scissors. Noelle had folded something white and ruffly over her arm. Taylor held a Dust-Buster with grim determination, her eyes hollow and rimmed with hangover red. Natasha gripped my covers in her hands at the end of my bed--thus the goose bumps and shivers.
'What the hell are you guys doing?" I whimpered, squeezing my eyes closed. The banging, mercifully, had stopped. I pressed both palms into my forehead to keep my brain from gouging its way out.
“It's chore time, new girl,” Noelle said.
As my brow screwed up in confusion, I felt another shock wave of pain through my temples. “What?”
She grabbed both my wrists and yanked me up into a seated position. My head exploded and I was seized by an overwhelming urge to heave. As I gasped for breath, sweating and praying that I wouldn't puke in front of everyone, Noelle slipped her frilly something over my head, then tied it behind my back. When I was able to open my eyes again, I was wearing a white French maid--style apron over my pajamas. Pinned to the left strap was a big red button that read NEED help? just ask! my name IS GLASS-licker.
I groaned. It was about all I could summon the energy to do.
'You didn't think you were done, did you?“ Kiran asked. Her highlighted hair was piled atop her head and her dark skin shone against the white silk of her robe as if it had been polished. The girl had imbibed more than anyone last night and yet this morning she looked gorgeous enough to be photographed. ”No, no, no, no, no. Why did you think we let you in here? Now we have access to you
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twenty- four seven. And that means that you get to do whatever we ask you to do twenty-four seven. That is how it works, isn't it?" she asked with mock seriousness, looking around at her friends.
“Well, yes. I believe it is,” Ariana said, her light southern accent softening the betrayal of her words.
They had to be kidding me. They were really going to drag me out of bed in the middle of my first hangover to work? After everything I had done for them just to get in here, there was still more? I had thought this proving-myself thing was over. That I was officially one of them. Apparently the torture was just beginning.
Suddenly I felt hollow inside, which, on top of the excruciating head pain and the gut-clenching nausea, was not fun. But what was I going to do? Say no? Yeah, right. I'd be back in Bradwell and at Sophomore-Nothing status before you could say, “Suck it.”
“Here,” Taylor said, shoving the Dust-Buster at me. Her hangover had aged her normally nubile and chipper self at least ten years. “I haven't dusted under my bed since I've been here. It's starting to affect my sinuses.”
Dumbly, I took the contraption from her and held it against my chest, petrified of what might happen if I moved again. The detachment of my head from my body seemed likely.
“And when you're done with that you can make all the beds,” Noelle said. “And vacuum the halls before breakfast. The real vacuum is in the hall supply closet.”
I stared up at them, my temples throbbing, hoping they would all laugh and tell me it was just a joke. They gazed back at me with impatience.
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“You're serious,” I croaked.
Noelle scrunched her nose, waving her hand in front of it. “I suggest you Listerine first,” she said. “I don't want your toxic breath stinking up my room.”
“Glass-licker, huh? Still?” one of the nameless girls asked, tilting her head. “Don't you think we should change the nickname
to something more apropos? Like Glass-cleaner?”
“Or Glass-scrubber,” Taylor suggested.
“Glass-wiper?” Natasha added.
Noelle narrowed her eyes, considering. “Nah. They just don't have the same ring. She's Glass-licker all the way.”
I flinched as she patted my shoulder. Hard.
“Let's go, ladies,” Noelle sang.
Together they all traipsed out. Everyone but Natasha, who dropped my sheets on the floor and stepped on them with her bare feet on her way to our shared bathroom. I wanted to get up. I did. But between the pain in my skull, the churning in my belly, and the dryness in my throat, it didn't seem physically possible.
“Oh, and if you don't get it all done before breakfast, you'll be taking a toothbrush to the toilets tonight,” Noelle said, pausing by the door. “Your toothbrush.”
“I'm up!” I said, standing straight. Instantly the entire room caved in around me, crushing my cranium. I closed my eyes against a new wave of nausea.
“That's my girl,” Noelle said.
Then she made a point of slamming the door.
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INSIDE THE INSIDE
“I like my pillows fluffed,” Cheyenne Martin told me as she pinned her diamond studs through her ears. Studs she had chosen from an impressive collection of gorgeous, sparkling jewels she had tucked away in a velvet box inside her dresser. She turned toward the mirror and smoothed down her perfectly straight blond hair, giving herself an imperious once-over. Ever since I entered the suffocatingly flower-scented room she shared with Rose Sakowitz, she had been directing me, yet she hadn't looked at me once. “And do the sheets nice and tight. I do not want to get into a wrinkly bed.”
I drew my hand over her raw silk comforter, evening out the lumps. All I wanted to do was fall into it. This was my fourteenth bed. Rose's would be number fifteen. My own, sixteen. After the vacuuming. Unfortunately, I had a feeling I would never get to my bed as the vacuuming would strike me dead of an aneurysm. Death by Dyson.
“Did you hear me, Glass-licker?” she asked, gracing me with a corner-of-the-eye glance.