“Olivia.”
“No, no, bad choice of words. You’re not pretty.I’m pretty. Pretty and dull. You have something more.”
“A long face.”
“Not really. Not as much as when you were small, at least.” Olivia tilted her head to the side. And said nothing.
Nothing. Olivia.
“What is it?” Miranda asked suspiciously.
“I think you’ve grown into yourself.”
It was what Turner had said, all those years ago.Someday you’re going to grow into yourself ,and you will be as beautiful as you already are smart . Miranda hated that she remembered it. And she really hated that it made her want to cry.
Olivia, seeing the emotion in her eyes, misted up as well. “Oh, Miranda,” she said, embracing her tightly. “I love you, too. We shall be the best of sisters. I cannot wait.”
By the time Miranda arrived at breakfast (a full thirty minutes later; she vowed she had never spent so long dressing her hair, and then she vowed she never would again), her stomach was roaring.
“Good morning, family,” Olivia said cheerily as she took a plate from the sideboard. “Where is Turner?”
Miranda sent up a silent prayer of thanks for his absence.
“Still in bed, I imagine,” Lady Rudland replied. “The poor man. He’s had a shock. It’s been a dreadful week.”
No one said anything. None of them had liked Leticia.
Olivia picked up the silence. “Right,” she said. “Well, I hope he does not grow too hungry. He did not dine with us last night, either.”
“Olivia, his wife just died,” Winston said. “Of a broken neck, no less. Pray give him a spot of leniency.”
“It is because I love him that I am concerned for his welfare,” Olivia said, with the testiness she reserved only for her twin brother. “The man is not eating.”
“I had a tray sent up to his room,” their mother said, putting an end to the squabble. “Good morning, Miranda.”
Miranda started. She’d been busy watching Olivia and Winston. “Good morning, Lady Rudland,” she said quickly. “I trust you slept well.”
“As well as can be expected.” The countess sighed and took a sip of her tea. “These are trying times. But I must thank you again for spending the night. I know it was a solace to Olivia.”
“Of course,” Miranda murmured. “I was happy to be of help.” She followed Olivia to the sideboard and fixed herself a plate for breakfast. When she returned to the table, she found that Olivia had left her a seat next to Winston.
She sat and looked up at the Bevelstokes. They were all smiling at her, Lord and Lady Rudland quite benignly, Olivia with a hint of shrewdness, and Winston…
“Good morning, Miranda,” he said warmly. And his eyes…They held…
Interest?
Good heavens, could Olivia have been right? Therewas something different in the way he was looking at her.
“Very well, thank you,” Miranda said, completely unsettled. Winston was practically her brother, wasn’t he? He couldn’t possibly think of her like—And she couldn’t, either. But if he could, then could she? And—
“Do you intend to remain at Haverbreaks through the morning?” he asked. “I thought we might go for a ride. Perhaps after breakfast?”
Dear God. Olivia was right.
Miranda felt her lips part with surprise. “I, er, I hadn’t decided.”
Olivia kicked her under the table.
“Oh!”
“Has the mackerel gone off?” Lady Rudland inquired.
Miranda shook her head. “Sorry,” she said, clearing her throat. “Ehrm, it was just a bone, I think.”
“It’s why I never eat fish for breakfast,” Olivia announced.
“What say you, Miranda?” Winston persisted. He smiled—a lazy, boyish masterpiece that was certain to break a thousand hearts. “Shall we go for a ride?”
Miranda carefully edged her legs farther from Olivia and said, “I didn’t bring a habit, I’m afraid.” It was the truth, and it was really too bad, because she was beginning to think that an outing with Winston might be just the thing to banish Turner from her mind.
“You can borrow one of mine,” Olivia said, smiling sweetly over her toast. “It will be only a little too big.”
“It’s settled, then,” Winston said. “It shall be splendid to catch up. It has been an age since we have had the chance.”
Miranda found herself smiling. Winston was so easy to be with, even now, when she was befuddled by his intentions. “It’s been several years, I think. I always manage to be in Scotland when you’re home from school.”
“But not today,” he announced happily. He picked up his tea, smiling at her over the cup, and Miranda was struck by how very much he looked like Turner when he was younger. Winston was twenty now, just a year older than Turner had been when she’d fallen in love with him.
When they’d first met, she corrected. She hadn’t fallen in love with him. She’d merely thought she had. She knew better now.
11 APRIL1819
Splendid ride with Winston today. He is much like his brother—if his brother were kind and considerate and still in possession of a sense of humor.
Turner had not slept well, but this did not surprise him; he rarely slept well anymore. And indeed, come morning, he was still irritable and still angry—mostly with himself.
What the hell had he been thinking? Kissing Miranda Cheever. The girl was practically his little sister. He’d been angry, and maybe just a little bit drunk, but that was no excuse for such poor behavior. Leticia had killed many things within him, but by God, he was still a gentleman. Otherwise, what had he left?
He hadn’t even desired her. Not really. He knew desire, knew that gut-wrenching need to possess and claim, and what he’d felt for Miranda…
Well, he didn’t know what it was, but it hadn’t been that.
It was those big brown eyes of hers. They saw everything. They unnerved him. Always had. Even as a child, she had seemed uncannily wise. As he’d stood there in his father’s study, he’d felt exposed, transparent. She was just a chit, barely out of the schoolroom, and yet she saw through him. The intrusion had been infuriating, and so he lashed out in the only way that had seemed appropriate at the time.
Except nothing could have been less appropriate.
And now he was going to have to apologize. God, but the thought of it was intolerable. It would be so much easier to pretend it had never happened and ignore her for the rest of his life, but that clearly wasn’t going to wash, not if he intended to maintain ties with his sister. And besides that, he hoped he had some shred of gentlemanly decency left within him.
Leticia had killed most of what was good and innocent within him, but surely there had to be something left. And when a gentleman wronged a lady, a gentleman apologized.
By the time Turner went down to breakfast, his family had departed, which suited him fine. He ate quickly and gulped down his coffee, taking it black as a penance and not even flinching when it rolled hot and bitter down his throat.
“Will there be anything else?”
Turner looked up at the footman, hovering at his side. “No,” he said. “Not at this time.”
The footman stepped back, but he did not exit the room, and Turner decided at that moment that it was time to depart Haverbreaks. There were too many people here. Hell, his mother had probably given instructions to all the servants to keep a close eye on him.
Still scowling, he shoved back in his chair and strode out into the hall. He’d alert his valet that they would be departing posthaste. They could be gone in an hour. All that remained was to find Miranda and get this bloody business over and done with so he could go back to skulking about in his own home and—
Laughter.
He looked up. Winston and Miranda had just entered, rosy-cheeked and practically blooming with fresh air and sunshine.
Turner quirked a brow and stopped, waiting to see how long it took them t
o notice his presence.
“Andthat ,” Miranda was saying, clearly coming to the close of a story, “was when I knew Olivia could not be trusted with the chocolate.”
Winston laughed, his eyes surveying her warmly. “You’ve changed, Miranda.”
She blushed prettily. “Not so very much. Mostly I have just grown up.”
“That you have.”
Turner thought he might gag.
“Did you think you could go away to school and find me just the way you left me?”
Winston grinned. “Something like that. But I must say I’m pleased with the way you’ve turned out.” He touched her hair, which had been coiled into a neat chignon. “I daresay I won’t be yanking on this anymore.”
She blushed again, and, really, this simply could not be tolerated.
“Good morning,” Turner said loudly, not bothering to move from his spot across the hall.
“I believe it is now afternoon,” Winston replied.
“For the uninitiated, perhaps,” Turner said with a mocking half smile.
“In London morning lasts until two?” Miranda asked coolly.
“Only if the evening prior was disappointing in its results.”
“Turner,” Winston said reproachfully.
Turner shrugged. “I need to speak with Miss Cheever,” he said, not bothering to look at his brother. Miranda’s lips parted—with surprise, he supposed, and perhaps a bit of anger as well.
“I should think that is up to Miranda,” Winston said.
Turner kept his eyes on Miranda. “Inform me when you are ready to return home. I will escort you.”
Winston’s mouth opened in dismay. “See here,” he said stiffly. “She is a lady, and you would do well to offer her the courtesy of asking permission.”
Turner turned to his brother and paused, staring until the younger man squirmed. He looked back to Miranda and said it again. “I will escort you home.”
“I’ve—”
He cut her off with a pointed look, and she acquiesced with a nod. “Of course, my lord,” she said, the corners of her mouth uncharacteristically tight. She turned to Winston. “He wanted to discuss an illuminated manuscript with my father. I’d quite forgotten.”
Clever Miranda. Turner almost smiled.
“Turner?” Winston said doubtfully. “An illuminated manuscript?”
“It’s a new passion of mine,” Turner said blandly.
Winston looked from him to Miranda and back, then finally gave in with a stiff nod. “Very well,” he said. “It has been a pleasure, Miranda.”
“Indeed,” she said, and from her tone, Turner knew that she did not lie.
Turner did not relinquish his position between the two young lovers, and Winston shot him an irritated glance before facing Miranda and saying, “Will I see you again before I return to Oxford?”
“I hope so. I have no firm plans for the next few days, and—”
Turner yawned.
Miranda cleared her throat. “I am sure we can make arrangements. Perhaps you and Olivia can come by for tea.”
“I would enjoy that very much.”
Turner managed to extend his bored mien to his fingernails, which he inspected with a significant lack of interest.
“Or if Olivia cannot visit,” Miranda continued, her voice impressively steely, “perhaps you can come by yourself.”
Winston’s eyes grew warm with interest. “I would be delighted,” he murmured, leaning over her hand.
“Are you ready?” Turner barked.
Miranda moved not a muscle as she ground out, “No.”
“Well, hurry it along, then, I haven’t all day.”
Winston turned to him in disbelief. “What is wrong with you?”
It was a good question. Fifteen minutes earlier, his only aim was to escape his parents’ house with all possible haste, and now he’d all but insisted that he take the time to escort Miranda home.
Very well, hehad insisted, but he had his reasons.
“I am quite well,” Turner returned. “Best I’ve been in years. Since 1816, to be precise.”
Winston shifted his weight uncomfortably from foot to foot, and Miranda turned away. 1816 was, they all knew, the year of Turner’s marriage.
“June,” he added, just to be perverse.
“I beg your pardon?” Winston said stiffly.
“June. June of 1816.” And then he beamed at both of them, a patently false, self-congratulatory sort of smile. He turned to Miranda. “I will await you in the front hall. Don’t be late.”
Chapter 3
Don’t be late?
Don’t be late??!
For what, Miranda fumed for about the sixteenth time as she yanked on her clothing. They hadn’t set a time. He hadn’t even asked to escort her home. He’d ordered her, and then, after he’d instructed her to tell him when she was ready to leave, he’d not bothered to wait for an answer.
Was he so eager to have her gone?
Miranda didn’t know whether to laugh or cry.
“Are you leaving already?”
It was Olivia, slipping in from the corridor.
“I need to return home,” Miranda said, choosing that moment to pull her dress over her head. She didn’t particularly wish Olivia to see her face. “Your habit is on the bed,” she added, the words muffled by the muslin.
“But why? Your father won’t miss you.”
Kind of her to point it out, Miranda thought uncharitably, even though she’d voiced the same opinion to Olivia on countless occasions.
“Miranda,” Olivia persisted.
Miranda turned her back so that Olivia could do up her buttons. “I don’t wish to overstay my welcome.”
“What? Don’t be silly. My mother would have you live with us if it were possible. You will, in fact, once we go to London.”
“We’re not in London.”
“What has that to do with anything?”
Nothing. Miranda clenched her teeth.
“Did you have a row with Winston?”
“Of course not.” Because, really, who could have a row with Winston? Aside from Olivia.
“Then what is the matter?”
“It is nothing.” Miranda forced herself into a calmer disposition and reached for her gloves. “Your brother wishes to ask my father about an illuminated manuscript.”
“Winston?” Olivia asked doubtfully.
“Turner.”
“Turner?”
Good heavens, was sheever without questions?
“Yes,” Miranda answered, “and he plans to leave soon, so he needs to escort me now.”
The last bit was entirely fabricated, but Miranda thought it rather inspired, under the circumstances. Besides, maybe now he’d have to go back to his home in Northumberland, and the world could go back to its usual position, tilting contentedly on its axis, spinning ’round the sun.
Olivia leaned against the doorframe, situating herself in such a way that Miranda could not ignore her. “Then why are you in such a beastly mood? You’ve always liked Turner, haven’t you?”
Miranda almost laughed.
And then she almost cried.
How dare he order her about like some recalcitrant trollop.
How dare he make her so miserable here, at Haverbreaks, which had been more of a home to her these past few years than it had to him.
She turned away. She couldn’t let Olivia see her face.
How dare he kiss her and not mean it.
“Miranda?” Olivia said softly. “Are you all right?”
“I’m perfectly well,” Miranda choked out, brushing quickly by her as she flew toward the door.
“You don’t sound—”
“I’m sad about Leticia,” Miranda snapped. And she was. Anyone who had made Turner that miserable surely deserved to be mourned.
But Olivia, being Olivia, would not be swayed, and as Miranda hurried down the stairs to the front hall, she was right at her heels.
“Letici
a!” she exclaimed. “You must be joking.”
Miranda skidded ’round the landing, holding tight to the banister to keep herself from flying.
“Leticia was a nasty old witch,” Olivia continued. “She made Turner dreadfully unhappy.”