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‘Who are you fooling with your crocodile tears, sly son

  of Aison?

  Nothing could suit you better than abandoning Herakles. You planned the whole thing yourself, so that Herakles’

  fame in Hellas,

  if we make it back, can never eclipse your own. But

  why waste

  breath on you! We’re turning around, and damned if

  I’m asking

  permission of the man who helped with your stinking

  plot.’ As he finished,

  Telamon leaped at Tiphys’ throat, his eyes ablaze with anger. In a minute we’d all have been fighting

  our way back to Mysia,

  forcing the ship through the rough sea, bucking a stiff

  and steady

  wind. But then the sons of the North Wind, Zetes and

  Kalais,

  shot quick as arrows between the two, and checked

  Telamon

  with a stinging rebuke. Traitor! Mutineer!’ Kalais

  shouted.

  ‘Are you now seizing the command the Argonauts chose

  by vote?

  Have northern seas made the Argo a ship of barbarians, where loyalty’s muscle, and keeping faith to old vows

  is a matter

  of size?’ Poor devils! A terrible punishment was coming

  to them

  when Herakles learned that their words cut short our

  search. He killed

  the North Wind’s sons when they were returning home

  from the funeral games

  for Pelias; and he made a barrow over them, and set up

  the famous

  pillars, one of which sways whenever the North Wind moves across it, struggling to dig up his sons. —But

  all that was

  later.

  “The wind grew stronger, bringing up clouds;

  harsh sea-waves

  hammered at the Argo, slammed at our gunwales till

  the magic beams

  of Athena’s ship were howling in fury at Poseidon.

  Orpheus

  played, but the sea wouldn’t hear. Then Idmon, younger

  of the seers,

  stood up, wild-eyed, and clinging to the mast, he yelled

  out, ‘Listen!’

  We listened, and heard … God only knows. But as if

  in a dream

  I saw a hand six paces broad rise un from the water and grasp the Argo’s side, and the ship was still as a

  stone

  despite the terrible wind, the churning, pitch-dark waves. Then a voice heavier than thunder said: ‘Hear me,

  Argonauts!

  How dare ye, in proud defiance of Almighty Zeus, purpose to carry fierce Herakles to Kolchis? His fate assigns him Argos, where he’s doomed to serve

  Eurystheus,

  accomplishing for him twelve great tasks; and if, in the

  few

  remaining, he happens to prevail, he shall go back to

  Zeus, his father.

  Forget regret. As for Polyphemon, it is his fate that he found a famous city among the Mysians, where

  the Kios

  disembogues to the sea. He will die, when the gods see

  fit.

  far from his home, in the broad land of the Khalybes. As for Hylas, a nymph has taken him—too much in love to ask permission of the bold and glorious Argonauts.’ So he spoke. The thunderheads rumbled as if in a laugh.

  The huge hand

  sank. Dark water swirled around us, broke into foam, tumbled past rails and coamings and hurled us on.

  ‘Then Telamon

  came to me, weeping, and clutched my hand and kissed

  it, saying:

  ‘Forgive me, lord. Do not be angry if in a foolish moment I was blinded by love for dear friends lost. The

  immortal gods

  know best, I hope. As for my offense, may it blow away with the wind, and let us two, who have always been

  friends, be friends

  again.’

  “I said nothing for a long time, the god’s laughter— soft and dangerous as thunder on the open sea—

  still ringing

  in my ears. It seemed that only I, of all the Argonauts, or only Idas and I (I saw the madman’s eyes), fully understood that our grand mission was insanity— and Akastos, perhaps, my cousin, Pelias’ son. (He sat, thin arms folded, staring full of sorrow at the grinding

  sea.)

  It seemed to me that we alone had grasped the message of the voice that came from the storm: Love truth,

  love loyalty

  so far as it suits our convenience. I’d lose still more of

  them.

  Such was the prophecy of the seers on the day we’d

  left. I’d watch them,

  one by one, drift off, slip past recall. And if

  I told them now it was all a mistake—those glory-seekers gathered from all Akhaia (Telamon’s brother Peleus, waving proudly to his son, brought down to see us off by Kheiron’s wife, old Kheiron beaming, waving his two huge arms; Hylas, beaming at his hero; Herakles rowing, the muscles of his face like knots) … But I was still

  their captain,

  the one will that resolves the many, even when the many are mad. Sense may emerge at last, in human labors, or may not. Meanwhile, there must be order, faith in

  the mission;

  otherwise, deadly absurdity. I couldn’t afford mere humanness, the comfort of admitting confusion.

  I would

  lose more that way. The eternal gods can afford whimsy. Not us. Not I, as captain.

  “I got control and said:

  ‘Good Telamon, you did indeed insult me grievously when you accused me, here before all these men, of

  wronging a loyal

  friend. They cut to the quick, those heartless words of

  yours.

  But I don’t mean to nurse a grudge against you. It was

  not some flock

  of sheep, some passel of worldly goods you were

  quarrelling about,

  but a man, a beloved comrade of your own. I like to

  think

  if occasion arose you’d stand for me against all other

  men

  as boldly as you did for him.’ Then, not too hastily, like a man setting his rankling wrath aside, I embraced

  him.

  He wept fiercely, like the child he was. And I too wept, moved by the childlike heart in that towering warlord.

  Orpheus

  studied his golden instrument, knowing my mind too

  well.

  “I learned later that all turned out in Mysia exactly as the voice in the storm foretold. Polyphemon built

  his city;

  Herakles resumed the labors he’d dropped in haste at

  the gates

  of Mykenai—but before he left, he threatened to lay all Mysia waste if the people failed to discover for him what had become of poor Hylas, alive or dead. The

  Mysians

  gave him the finest of their eldest sons as blood-bond

  hostages

  and swore they’d continue the search.

  “So much for the steadfast faith

  of Herakles.

  “All that day, through the following night,

  gale winds carried us on. When the time for daybreak

  came

  there was no light. The wind died suddenly, as if at a

  sign

  from Zeus. The sky went green. There was hardly air

  enough

  to breathe. No man on board had the strength to row.

  We sat,

  soaking in sweat, praying to all the gods we knew. There were voices—sounds from the flat sea, from

  passing birds,

  the greenness above us: Where’s Herakles? Where’s

  Hylas? We started,

  prayed with our parched lips to the sixteen powers of

  the sea.

  It was unjust—insane. ‘What do they
want of us?’

  I asked the seers.

  ‘Where’s Herakles? Where’s Hylas?’ they said, but in

  voices not

  their own. We waited—how many days I couldn’t say. My cousin Akastos sat at my side, on watch, as if to guard me from some grim foe outside, though he

  knew pretty well,

  like Idas, like Phlias with his hand on my shoulder,

  where my enemy lurked.

  “In that senseless calm, Orpheus remembered

  Dionysos: sang

  how Zeus once put on his darker form, the dragon shape of Zeus Katachthonios, called Hades, whom he himself

  expelled

  from heaven, and went in that evil form to the shadow

  of Hera,

  the serpent Demeter, deep in the earth, whom Hera

  hated

  and who was Hera, though both of them had forgotten.

  In her

  he planted Persephone, later his Underworld queen,

  by whom

  Hades-Zeus had his son Dionysos, who was born

  many times,

  always unlucky. At times he was torn apart by Titans, at times by animals, at times by women gone crazy

  with wine

  and lust. Once, leading virgins on a violent, drunken

  hunt,

  he captured his quarry and, tearing it apart alive,

  discovered

  in amazement and terror that the beast had a dark

  human face and horns,

  that is, it was himself. It was he who invented wine, crown of his father’s creation—Dionysos’ glory, and

  his ruin.

  “Like Dionysos, the founder of Thebes was midnight

  black;

  his queen was white as snow. Because their marriage

  was perfect,

  Zeus came down to their daughter Semele in the guise

  of a man

  and fed her the heart of his once-again-slain son.

  Queen Hera

  saw that the girl was pregnant, and in jealous rage

  forced Zeus

  to visit Semele in his true celestial form—a thunderbolt. The girl was consumed, but not before Zeus had

  snatched his child,

  whom he sewed into his thigh and carried to the time

  of delivery

  and then returned to Kadmos and Queen Harmonia.

  “Though the matchless couple had seemed so flawless

  they could never die,

  in time they grew old and short of breath. Then the

  child Dionysos

  cried out in sorrow to Zeus. The father of the gods

  came flashing

  out of heaven, and in smoke and flames the two were

  transmogrified, changed

  to a dragon and a monstrous snake, now rulers of the

  dead, chief thanes

  of Dionysos. Thus began Hera’s rage at Thebes, and

  the sorrows

  of Kadmos’ line: Oidipus weeping blood, Jokasta hanged, Antigone buried alive.

  “So Orpheus sang

  the age-old riddle of things, and it seemed that the still

  sea listened.

  “Then, for no reason, there was air again, and the sail

  bellied out,

  and the ship began to move. Toward noon, we spotted

  land.

  “As we beached the ship, a huge old man came out

  to us,

  his arms folded on his chest, his gray beard brustling

  from his chin

  like a bush. Without even bothering to ask what race

  we were

  or what had brought us to his shore, he said: ‘Listen,

  sailormen:

  There’s something you should know. We have customs

  here, in the farming country of the Bebrykes.

  No foreigner daring to touch these shores

  moves on, continuing his journey, until he’s first put up his fists to mine. I’m the greatest bully in the world,

  you’ll say—

  not without justification. I’m known, throughout these

  parts,

  as Amykos, murderer of men. I’ve killed some ten of

  my neighbors,

  and here I am, remorseless, waiting to kill, today, one of you. It’s a matter of custom, you see.’ He

  shrugged as if

  to say he too disliked it; and then, cocking his head, wrinkling his wide, low brow, he said: The world’s

  insane.

  It used to fill me with anguish when I was a boy. I’d

  stare,

  amazed, sick at heart, at the old, obscene stupidity— the terrible objectness of things: sunrise, sunset; high-tide, low-tide; summer, winter; generation,

  decay…

  My youthful heart cried out for sense—some signpost,

  general

  purpose—but whatever direction I looked, the world was a bucket of worms: squirming,

  directionless—it was nauseating!’

  He breathed deeply, remembering well how it was.

  He said:

  ‘I resolved to die. I stopped eating. For a number of

  weeks

  (I kept no count; why should I?) I spurned all food as

  if it were

  dirt. And then one day I noticed I was eating. It

  seemed mere

  accident: my mind had wandered, weakened by my fast, and pow! there I was, eating. Absurd! But after my first amazement, I saw the significance

  of it.

  The universe had within it at least one principle: survival! I leaped from my stool, half mad with joy,

  ran howling

  out to the light from my cave, leading all my followers. I exist!” I bellowed. “Us too!” they bellowed. We ate

  like pigs.

  But soon, alas, we were satiated. Though we rammed

  our fingers

  down in our throats and regurgitated, still, the feast was unappetizing. They looked up mournfully to me

  for help.

  For three long weeks, in acute despair, I brooded on it. And then, praise God!, it came to me. My own existence was my first and only principle. Any further step must be posited on that. I examined my history, searched voraciously night and day for signs, some hint of pattern. And then it came to me: I had killed four

  men

  with my fists. Each one was an accident, a trifling event lost, each time, in the buzzing, blooming confusion

  of events

  that obfuscate common life. But now I remembered!

  I seized it!

  Also, I seized up the follower dodling nearest to me— meaningless dog-eyed anthropoid, source of calefactions, frosts, random as time, poor worm-vague brute existent, “friend” in the only sense we knew: I’d learned his name by heart. By one magnificent act, I transmuted him. I defined him: changed him from nothing-everything he

  was before

  to purpose—inextricable end and means. I seized him,

  raised

  my fists, and knocked him dead; and this time I meant

  it. No casual

  synastry. My disciples were astonished, of course. But

  when

  I explained to them, they fell, instantly, grovelling

  at my feet,

  calling me Master, Prince of the World, All-seeing Lord. On further thought, I came to an even higher

  perception:

  As the soul, rightly considered, consists of several parts, so does the state. It follows that what gives meaning

  and purpose

  to the soul may also give meaning and purpose to the

  state. I needn’t

  describe the joy that filled my people on learning this

  latest

  discovery of (if one may so express oneself) their Philosopher King. To make a long story short,

  we began

  a tradition—a custom, so to speak. Namely, no foreigner

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  these shores is allowed to leave without first putting up

  his fists

  to mine. Regrettably, of course, since you’re so young.’

  He shrugged.

  ‘Who’s ready?—Or, to shift to the general: Who’s

  your sacrifice?’

  He waited, beaming, pleased with himself—his

  enormous fists

  on his hips. None of us spoke. We simply stared,

  dumbfounded,

  the old man’s crazy philosophy bouncing in our heads.

  At last

  Polydeukes stepped forward, known as the king of all

  boxers.

  It seems he’d taken Amykos’ boasts as a personal affront.

  “ ‘Enough!” he said, eyes fierce. ‘No more of your

  polysyllabic

  shadowboxing. I am Polydeukes, known far and wide for my mighty fists. You’ve stated your rules—your

  ridiculous law—

  and I stand here ready, of my own free will, to meet

  them.’

  The king

  frowned darkly, not out of fear of our brilliant

  Polydeukes,

  but annoyed, it seemed, by some trifling verbal

  inaccuracy.

  ‘Free will,’ he said, and laughed. ‘I made the ridiculous

  rules,

  not you. I have free will, not you. You bump against my laws like a boulder bumping against a wall.’

  “ ‘Not so,’

  Polydeukes said, voice calm. ‘I choose to meet you.

  A man

  may slide with the current of a mountain stream or

  swim with it.

  There’s a difference.’ Old Amykos stammered in rage.

  In another minute

  they’d have started in without gloves, unceremoniously, but I intervened with persuasive words. They cooled

  their tempers,

  and Amykos backed away, though even now he glared at Polydeukes, his old eyes rolling like the eyes of a lion who’s hit by a spear when they hunt him in the

  mountains and, caring nothing

  for the crowd of huntsmen hemming him in, he picks

  out the man

  who wounded him and keeps his furious eyes on him

  alone.

  “Polydeukes was wearing a light and closely woven cloak, the gift of his Lemnian wife. He laid it aside. The fierce old man threw down his dark double mantle

  with its

  snake-head clasps. They chose a place—a wide, flat field, and the rest of us then sat down, two separate groups.

  “In looks,

  no two could have been more opposite, the old man

  hunchbacked,

  bristled and warted like an ogre’s child, the younger

  straight

  as a mast, bright down on his cheek. He seemed no more

  than a boy,