“Hungry?” I said, trying to be nonchalant.
“Not really.”
“When was the last time you ate?” He only shook his head. “You ought to eat something.”
“Sure, Mom.” He gave me the briefest flickers of a glance—half accusing, half apologetic. I must have glared at him. I didn’t appreciate the label. I didn’t appreciate having to behave like that label.
He cleared a spot on the table where I deposited the pizza.
I pulled my stack of papers out of my bag and set them between us. I’d put the one about Cormac’s father on top. A grainy, black and white picture of the man occupied the middle of the page. He’d been lean and weathered, with short-cropped, receding hair. In the picture, a candid snapshot, he was smiling at something to the left of the camera, and wearing sunglasses.
Ben stared at it a moment, his expression blank. I thought I knew him pretty well by now, but I couldn’t read this. He was almost disbelieving. Then, his lips quirked a smile.
Finally, he said, “I’d forgotten about that picture. It’s a good one of him. Uncle Doug.” He shook his head, then looked at me. “You’ve been busy.”
“Yeah. It’s funny how much of your family’s history is plastered all over the newspapers.”
He started shuffling through the articles. “Real busy.”
“Just remember that the next time you think you can keep a secret from me.”
“Why go to the trouble?”
“I wanted to make sure that you and Cormac aren’t bad guys. I have to say, you have kind of a creepy past. When you say this stuff doesn’t matter, I really want to trust you.”
“I’m not sure that’s such a great idea. You might be better off on your own. Get out of Dodge while the getting’s good.”
We were pack. I’d see this through. “I’ll stick around.”
“I haven’t seen my father in over ten years. We had a throw-down screaming match over this Patriot Brigade garbage. I was twenty, first one in my family to go to college and so full of myself. I was educated.” He gave the word sarcastic emphasis. “I knew it all, and there I was to throw it back in the face of my poor benighted father. And he was so full of that right-wing nut-job rhetoric… I left. Cormac was still there, helping him work the ranch.
That’s the only reason he got tangled up with that crowd, was because of my father. When I left, so did he. I still don’t know if it was something I said that convinced him. Or if we’d just spent so much time looking out for each other—we were already kind of a team, then.
“Dad called me right before that last trial. I’d just passed the bar. He wanted me to represent him. I said no. I’d have said no even if we were on good terms. He really needed someone with experience. But all Dad heard was that his only son, his own flesh and blood, was turning his back on him. The funny thing about it all, I wanted to convince him he was wrong. There wasn’t a government conspiracy out to get him, I wasn’t trying to sell him down the river. But everything that happened, from the FBI wiretaps to me walking out on him, confirmed everything in his mind. He’s too far gone to come back.”
“You haven’t been to see him. You haven’t talked to him at all,” I said. “Do you want to? Do you think you should?”
He shook his head. “I made a clean break. We’re all better off if it stays that way. Cormac and I always kind of knew that something he’d done in the past would come back to haunt him. I didn’t think it would be this.” He tossed the printouts back on the table.
“Where’s your mom?”
“She divorced my dad after thirty years of marriage, sold the ranch to pay his legal expenses, and is now working as a waitress in Longmont. And that’s the whole story of my sordid, screwed up family.” He shook his head absently. “You know what’s always gotten to me? My dad and I aren’t that different. It’s where we came from, that whole independent rural culture. I remember telling him, yeah, sure, take back the government, put it back in the hands of the people. That’s great. But you’re not going to do it with a stockpile of dynamite and hate speech. Me—I went to law school. Thought I’d work the system from the inside, sticking it to the man.” His smile turned sad. “Maybe we were both wrong.”
I wanted to hug him and make silly cooing noises. That Mom thing again. He had this traumatized look to him. Instead, I hefted the grocery bag. “I brought beer.”
“My hero,” he said, smiling.
We settled down to beer and pizza. “What have you been working on?”
“Precedents,” he said. “You’d think in a state where half the population totes around guns in their glove boxes this sort of thing would have come up before. We have a Make My Day law for crying out loud. But there isn’t too much out there to cover if you shoot something thinking it’s a wild animal, then it turns out to be a person.”
“Except for the werewolf that killed Cormac’s dad.”
“Which isn’t going to help Cormac’s case at all if the prosecutor digs it up, so I’d really appreciate it if you didn’t draw anyone’s attention to it. Judges get nervous when weird things keep happening to the same person.”
I turned an invisible key at the corner of my mouth. “My lips are sealed.”
He gave me a highly skeptical look. I wanted to argue—then realized I couldn’t, really. We fell into a moment of silence, eating and drinking. He stared at the computer screen as if it would offer up miracles.
“How did the rest of your day go?” I asked, not sure I wanted to know.
“Pretty well, I think,” he said, but the tone was ambivalent, and he still looked exhausted instead of fired up. “Tony’s going to stick around to give a statement, Alice is downright enthusiastic about testifying. She seems to think she owes you a favor. But you know what? I keep running into that same problem.”
“What problem? I don’t see a problem. Eyewitnesses, that’s what you need, that’s what you have. Isn’t it?” I had the feeling he was about to tangle me up in some legal loophole.
“Why were we all there in the first place?” he said.
I wasn’t sure I could explain it anymore. It seemed so long ago. “We were going to remove Alice’s curse. Tony said he had a ritual.”
“Magic. Witchcraft,” he said curtly. “So how do you convince the legal system that this is real? That when Tony and Alice talk about casting their spells, they’re serious, and it’s real. That they’re not crackpots. I’m afraid Espinoza’s going to use that angle to discredit their testimony. He’ll say, of course a couple of people who are out in the woods at dusk lighting candles and burning incense are going to think up some story about how this woman really turned into a wolf. Of course they’ll say that even shot through the chest and dying she was a threat because she was a skinwalker. He’ll say they’re as deluded as Miriam was and therefore their testimony is suspect.”
He was twisting the words, manipulating the story. Just like a lawyer. Just like Espinoza. Ben was thinking of all the angles, but none of them seemed to work in our favor.
“So you can’t use their testimony.”
“Oh, I’m going to use it and hope for the best. Maybe I’m wrong and Espinoza won’t shoot them down.”
This was looking grimmer and grimmer. Grasping at straws. “What about Marks? He had it in for me in the first place—that’s why we were at the cabin when Miriam attacked. Can’t you use that to discredit him as a witness?”
“If you want to sue Alice and Sheriff Marks for harassment, I’m all for it. I think you have a good case against them. You don’t even have to bring up magic to prove that leaving dead dogs in someone’s yard is harassment. But it’s a different case. I’ll certainly bring it up, but the judge might decide that a suit against Marks doesn’t have any bearing in the case of Miriam Wilson’s death.”
The pizza had gotten cold and I’d lost my appetite. Ben wasn’t eating either.
“The whole thing seems rigged,” I said. “It’s not fair.”
“Welcome to the Am
erican justice system.” He raised his bottle of beer, as if in a toast.
“Cynic.” I pouted.
“Lawyer,” he countered, grinning.
“Ben. Drink your beer.”
I went to see Sheriff Marks the next morning. I told Ben I was taking a walk to the grocery store for donuts.
Carefully, I approached the front desk at the sheriff’s department like it was a bomb. I asked the woman working there, a nonuniformed civilian, “Hi, is Sheriff Marks in? Could I speak to him?”
“Yes, I think he is. Do you have an appointment?”
“No,” I said, wincing. I fully expected Marks to refuse to see me. But I had to try.
The receptionist frowned sadly, and I tried not to be mad at her. She was just doing her job. “Then I’m afraid he probably won’t be available, he’s very busy—”
“It’s all right, Kelly.” Marks stood in the hallway to the side, just within view. His expression was guarded, pointedly bland, like he’d expected me to be here all along and didn’t mind. He knew his place in the world and I couldn’t shake it. “I’ll talk to her. Send her back.”
He turned and went down the hall, presumably to his office.
“Go on back,” Kelly the receptionist said. I did.
Marks disappeared through a doorway halfway down the hall, and I followed him into a perfectly average, perfectly normal cluttered office: a desk with a computer sat against the wall. There was an in-box overflowing with papers and files, bookshelves, also overflowing, certificates and plaques on the wall, along with a huge map labeled Huerfano County. Colored pins marked various spots; a red pin was stuck about where I guessed my cabin was.
Marks sat at the desk and gestured me toward a couple of straight-backed plastic chairs by the opposite wall.
“Thanks” I said, sitting. “I didn’t think you’d even talk to me.”
He gave an amiable shrug, donning the persona of a friendly small-town cop. “I figure the least I can do is hear you out.”
“The least you can do is let Cormac go.”
“Have you seen that guy’s file? You know what he’s done? He should have been locked up years ago.”
“And if he had, I’d be dead, and so would you and four other people.” I matched him, glare for glare. “He saved my life, Sheriff. That’s all I’m paying attention to right now.”
His glare set like stone, unrelenting. “That man’s a killer.”
Yes, but… “You can’t deny he saved my life.”
“That girl couldn’t have really hurt anyone,” he said, giving a huff that was almost laughter.
“Didn’t you see what she did to me?”
“You had a few cuts,” he said.
Then I realized, maybe he hadn’t seen. It had been dark; I hadn’t even known how bad it was until I got inside and saw all the blood. Marks simply might not have seen it. Once again, I kicked myself for not taking pictures.
I said, “Then you don’t believe she really turned into a wolf. You’re buying the ‘insane woman in a wolf skin’ version.” He answered with a cold stare that said it all. “How can you believe in werewolves but not in skinwalkers? How can you believe in magic enough to curse my house, but not enough to believe what she was? You just want to put Cormac away because you can, without giving him the benefit of the doubt or anything!”
“Ms. Norville, I think we’re done here.”
“You’re a hypocrite—you’ve broken the law yourself, in the name of protecting people, when you did those things to me. Well, Cormac was doing the same thing.”
Marks leaned forward, hand on his desk, his glare still hard as stone. Nothing could touch this guy, not when he was like this. “He shot and killed an injured, dying woman in cold blood. That’s what he’s being charged with. Goodbye, Ms. Norville.” He pointed at the door.
I glared at him, my throat on the edge of a growl, and he couldn’t read the stance. All he saw was an angry, ineffectual woman standing before him. And maybe that was all I was.
I left, gratefully slipping out of his territory.
I went back to the hotel, where Ben greeted me with, “Where are the donuts?”
I’d forgotten. Crap. I shrugged and said, “Didn’t get them. Got lost.”
“In Walsenburg?” Clearly, he didn’t believe me. I just smiled sweetly.
Later, we returned to the county jail to see Cormac. I hadn’t had a chance to talk to him, not after the attack, not before or after the hearing. It had been frustrating, sitting five feet away in the courtroom and not being able to say anything to him.
I had hoped Marks would be there to meet us. That he’d have seen the error of his ways and come to make amends by releasing Cormac. That all this would just go away. Wishful thinking. He wasn’t there, and Cormac was still locked up.
“Has Marks talked to you?” I asked Ben. “Maybe changed his mind about all this?”
“Are you kidding? He’s not even returning my calls.”
So much for my grand speech at him having any influence and giving us that Disney happy ending.
Still, Ben had a plan. “I have to go to New Mexico. Talk to people who knew Miriam Wilson. Find out if they knew what she was, and if she killed anyone there. Espinoza’s not going to have to dig too much to prove that Cormac’s a dangerous man. So I have to prove that he didn’t have a choice but to kill her.”
“He didn’t,” I said. “Did he?”
“That’s what I have to prove.”
A deputy ensconced us in a windowless conference room, like a thousand others in police stations and jails all across the country. I bet they all had the same smell, too: dust and old coffee. Strained nerves. Ben got me in by claiming I was his legal assistant. Then the deputy brought Cormac.
Ben and Cormac sat across from each other. I hid away in the corner. I both did and didn’t want to be there. I hated seeing Cormac like this. I didn’t know exactly what this meant. Objectively, he looked the same as he always did, half slouching, appearing unconcerned with what went on around him—moving through the world without being a part of it. That orange jumpsuit made him look wrong, though.
Ben had a pen and paper out, ready to take notes. “I need to know everything that happened while you were gone. Between the time you left the cabin in Clay and when you got back in time to shoot her.”
“I told you before.”
“Tell me again.”
“I got in my Jeep, I drove all night to Shiprock. Stopped to get some sleep at a rest stop. Went back to the place where we’d gone to bait them.” As in, the place where Ben was attacked. “I spent a lot of time just looking around. I honestly didn’t think she’d leave the area. That was her territory.”
“Except she wasn’t a lycanthrope. She didn’t have a territory.”
“Sure, we know that now.”
“Go on.”
“I talked to the werewolf’s family. The people who hired me. The Wilsons. Trying to find out more about the second one. They wouldn’t tell me anything. They wouldn’t believe me when I said there was a second one running around. They thanked me for freeing their son from his curse, and that was it. End of story. I didn’t know anything about Miriam. I didn’t know they were related.”
I hadn’t intended on interrupting, but I did. “You shot this guy and nobody said anything. Nobody hauled you in on murder charges there.”
“No one reported it. No one witnessed it. Bodies just vanish out there.”
That was just weird. But I’d never understood Cormac’s “profession.”
“They didn’t mention their daughter?” Ben asked. “Not once?”
“Not once. I spent a couple more days looking. Then I got your message.”
“Not checking your phone?”
“I was in the backcountry most of the time. I didn’t have reception. I came back as soon as I did get it. I don’t think she followed us. How could she?”
“You heard what Tony said. She was a witch. It may have taken her a few days, but
she found us.”
Then Cormac asked, “What are the odds they can pin this on me, Ben?”
Ben shook his head. “I don’t know. The primary witness has it in for you, Espinoza’s a hot young prosecutor who’d love to land a Class One felony conviction. We don’t have a whole lot in our favor.”
“We have a bunch of witnesses,” I said.
“And Espinoza will do everything he can to discredit them.”
“You’ll figure something out,” Cormac said. “You always do.”
Ben’s shoulders bent under the weight of Cormac’s trust. “Yeah, we’ll see about that,” he said softly.
After an awkward moment, Cormac said, “What happened back there, at the hearing—should I be worried? Are you up for this?”
They stared at each other, studying each other. “If you want to get someone else—”
“I trust you,” he said. “Who else is going to understand this shit?”
Ben wouldn’t look at him. “Yeah. I’ll be fine. Somehow. Not getting bail was a setback, but you’ll be okay.”
He didn’t sound confident, but Cormac nodded, like he was sure. Then he made a sour-faced grimace and muttered, “I can’t believe they dug up that Brigade shit.”
I jumped on him. “Yeah, what the heck is up with that? Those guys are insane. It just doesn’t seem like your style.”
“And what would you know about it?” Cormac said.
Before I could fire back, Ben said, “She spent yesterday in the library digging up every article the Denver Post ever printed on the Brigade. Got the whole story.”
“Talk too much, and you’re nosy as hell,” he muttered.
“I also found the story about your father,” I said, almost chagrined at the confession, because when he put it that way, it did seem like going behind their backs. But what else was I supposed to do when no one would tell me anything? “I’m really sorry, Cormac. About what happened to him.”
He waved me away. “That was a long time ago.”
“And now she knows everything about our dark, secret past,” Ben said.
“Shit, I was having fun being all mysterious.”