Arba had long since gotten used to Leota’s brisk manner and grinned. “Yes, ma’am.”
“There’s nothing wrong with me that a good, long rest won’t cure.”
“The children won’t be coming over tomorrow, Leota. I’m picking them up early and taking them in for dental checkups.” There was an immediate protest at her announcement.
“We’re right in a good part of the story!”
“Ah, Mama.”
“I don’t need to go to the dentist.”
Arba hushed them again. “Thank Grandma Leota and head for home.” They said their sad good-byes and filed out of Leota’s house, following Arba like little ducklings. Leota chuckled and closed the door. No doubt they’d feel better when Arba opened that box of pizza.
Annie called half an hour later.
Leota frowned. “Did Arba call you?”
“She said you were looking tired.”
“I am tired. And since I answered the telephone, you know I’m not sick or dead.”
“I’ve been thinking . . .”
Leota could imagine. With Annie’s soft heart, she was probably worrying about those papers she’d signed and what they might mean. The poor dear probably thought her grandmother had covered all the bases and now intended to zing off like a fly ball, right over the center fielder’s head and out of the park. Home run, straight into the Lord’s arms. Well, not a chance. Not now. Not when she had a faint glimmer of hope. Thanksgiving had given her that.
“Sometimes thinking too much can get you into trouble, honey. What you did will help me sleep nights, Annie. Now, don’t feel you have to call me every single day. Spend more time painting something wonderful and stop worrying about this old hag.”
For all she said to Annie, she couldn’t sleep. Tired as she was, her mind was whirring. There was a constant buzzing in her ears, like a hive of busy bees. She finally gave up and got out of bed. She still needed to write letters to Eleanor and George, explaining why she had done things as she had.
She sat at the nook table, wrapped snugly in her bathrobe. Her feet were cold, despite her slippers. She didn’t want to turn the heat up yet. She never turned it up until seven in the morning. It was barely three.
The note to Annie was easy . . . precious Annie, open and free of all resentment, a breath of fresh air in this house of stale memories. George’s letter was a little harder. He reminded her so much of Bernard, holding all his troubles inside. What could it be? Business? Thank God he anesthetized himself with television sports rather than alcohol. Or was that any better? She hoped Jeanne would break through to him before his children were grown and gone.
Eleanor was another matter. Leota drafted three letters and discarded them all. Every time she tried to think of ways to explain herself to Eleanor, she felt deeper despair. No amount of explaining would get through to someone who had already made up her mind, and Eleanor’s was set in stone. Finally, Leota wrote simply what was in her heart. The only thing she could do was state the truth. Simple, brief, heartfelt. Let Eleanor do with it as she would. Folding the letter, she tucked it in an envelope. Then she put the letters where she hoped they would one day be found.
She felt strange. She sat on the edge of her bed, troubled. The buzzing in her ears had grown worse. She felt an odd sensation . . . then a ping in her head, one small stab of pain, and finally a strange warmth—like someone’s hand cupping her ear. Her right arm was numb. When she stood to go into the bathroom, she had no feeling or strength in her right leg. There was just dead weight, pulling her down, down, down . . .
She heard a thud, but could make no sense of it. How had she ended up on the cold, wood floor?
Corban noticed two newspapers on the porch when he came up the steps. The mailbox attached to the side of the house next to the front door was jammed full. Frowning, he rang the doorbell and waited. No response. Usually, Leota was watching television on Wednesday mornings. He didn’t hear a sound coming from inside the house. Frowning, he went around to the back. Sometimes she sat at the nook table and worked crossword puzzles while waiting for him.
The shade was down. It was never down during the day.
He uttered a curse and ran around to the front door again. “Leota!” He pounded on the door. Still no response, not a single sound. He dug in his pocket for his keys, jingling through them until he found the one she had given him. He jammed it in the lock and opened the door.
“Leota?” He stepped into the house for the first time uninvited, leaving the door slightly ajar behind him. The stench assaulted his senses, as if the toilet had overflowed. Breathing through his mouth, he called her name again. When he stepped into the corridor, he saw her lying crumpled beside her bed. She looked dead.
Sick at heart, he went down on one knee. He took her wrist. Her skin was paper thin and she was cold. Her eyes were open and seemed blank until he put his hand gently over them, intending to close them. She made a grunting sound, and his body jerked back in surprise.
“I’ll get help,” he said. He didn’t want to leave her on the floor, but he was afraid to lift her and put her on the bed. What if she’d broken bones when she fell? Moving her could hurt her even more. Standing, he yanked the spread off the bed and covered her carefully. “Hang on, Leota. Don’t you die on me!”
After making the call, Corban opened the front door and went back into the bedroom to sit on the floor beside Leota. “Just hang on.” He held her hand and rubbed it. “Hang on.” He kept saying it like a mantra—“Hang on; hang on”—while his mind was screaming, Hurry, hurry! It took ten minutes for the fire truck and paramedics to arrive, the longest ten minutes of Corban’s life. He stood and moved back out of the way, feeling helpless while the EMTs worked. They were swift and efficient, but it was clear things didn’t look too good.
“Too dehydrated to get a line in her,” one said.
“Pulse reedy . . .”
“Let’s get a move on!”
“Are you a relative?”
“A friend. I’ll notify the family. Where will you take her?”
The technician gave him the name of the hospital.
“Wait a minute!” Corban stepped over before they wheeled Leota out the door. He was afraid they were wheeling her right out of his life for good. He took her hand, his own shaking. “Leota.” Her gaze wandered to him, dazed, confused. He wondered if she could understand anything. “I’ll call Annie, Leota. Then I’ll come to the hospital.” He squeezed her hand gently. “Hang on!”
Annie knew something was wrong the moment the classroom door opened and Susan came in. “Corban called. Your grandmother collapsed. They’ve taken her to the hospital in an ambulance.”
Scrambling to put her art supplies away, Annie tried not to cry. “Is she going to be all right?”
“I don’t know, Annie.”
Everyone was staring, some with sympathy, others annoyed at the interruption. The instructor came over. “Go ahead, Miss Gardner. I’ll gather up your things and leave them at the office for you.”
“Which hospital?” Annie said, racing down the hallway with Susan. She started to cry. “Oh, Suzie. I knew something was wrong when Arba called me Monday night. I should’ve gone back then.”
“Your grandmother told you herself she was fine.”
“I shouldn’t have believed her. I should’ve gone to check on her. I should’ve called her last night.”
“Annie, you can’t be everywhere at once. Besides, no one ever knows when their time comes.” She grimaced. “Sorry.” They went out the doors into the misting afternoon air. The sky was overcast with a heavy chance of rain.
“I’d better drive,” Susan said when they reached the parking lot. “You’re in no condition to get behind the wheel.”
“You’re on the schedule to work.”
“Let them fire me!”
Annie took a deep breath, forcing herself to calm down. Lord, You’re in control. I know You’re in control. No matter what happens, I know my grandmother?
??s life is in Your hands. “I’ll be okay, Suzie. I knew this would happen someday.” Oh, God, not so soon. I’ve only had a little time with her. I want more!
“Give me your hands.” Susan planted herself in front of the car door and held hers out, a determined glint in her eyes. “I’m not letting you go until you stop shaking.” Annie did as she asked. Susan held her hands lightly for a moment. “Okay.” She kissed Annie’s cheek. “Just go slowly, would you? It won’t do any good if you have a wreck getting to the hospital.”
“I’ll be careful. I promise.” She opened the car door and slid in.
“Safety belt.” Susan was holding on to the door and watching her.
“Yes, mother,” she said dryly. “Oh! Did you call my mother?”
“I’ll call her as soon as I get to work. That’ll give you enough time to get to the hospital before she does.”
If she does. Annie couldn’t help the thought. Would her mother even bother to come?
Oh, God, if Mother doesn’t come now, I’ll go and drag her by the hair to the hospital!
Fighting back tears, Annie started the car and backed out of the space. Aware of Susan’s watchful gaze, she shifted carefully and drove slowly from the lot. As soon as the traffic cleared, she pulled out and was on her way.
Hang on, Grandma. Oh, Lord, don’t take her yet. Please, don’t take her!
When he arrived at the hospital, Corban couldn’t get much information on Leota’s condition. The first question was always “Are you a member of the family?” As soon as he said he was just a friend, they refused to tell him anything. Even when he said he was the one who had found her and called 911, they were hesitant to reveal anything.
Frustrated and worried, he decided to sit it out in the waiting room. When Annie arrived, she would tell him what was going on and how Leota was doing. He wasn’t going home until he knew.
She arrived, racing down the corridor, her face ashen. “My grandmother was brought in. Leota Reinhardt. Where is she, please?” When he touched her arm, she turned. “Oh, Corban!” She flung herself into his arms. “Thank God you found her!” The nurse gave him an apologetic look and told Annie her grandmother was still undergoing tests. She would notify the doctor that Mrs. Reinhardt’s granddaughter had arrived.
They sat in the waiting room together, but Annie couldn’t sit still for very long. She paced, sat, got up and looked out the window, paced some more, sat. Corban saw Eleanor and Fred before Annie did. Eleanor Gaines looked pale and stressed, her eyes dark but not red-rimmed from crying, as Annie’s were.
“Mother!” Annie said. Corban noticed she didn’t fling herself into her mother’s arms, but kept a safe distance from the cold front. “Thank God you’ve come.”
“What’s he doing here?”
At Annie’s quick blush, Corban clenched his hands. How had a woman like Eleanor Gaines ever produced a daughter like Annie?
“Corban found Grandma. He’s the one who called 911.” Annie gave him a grateful smile. “He’s been waiting to find out how Grandma Leota’s doing.”
“How is she doing?”
“Nice of you to ask,” Corban said before he could stop himself.
“That’s uncalled for,” Fred said quietly, his hand firm beneath his wife’s elbow.
“Sorry.” Corban ran a hand back through his hair. He conceded he had spoken too quickly, but Eleanor Gaines’s attitude made him boil.
Annie was crying again. She turned away from her mother and stepfather and sat down on the sofa, burying her face in her hands. Eleanor looked uncomfortable.
“Anne-Lynn.” She approached hesitantly, her hand hovering over Annie’s hair, then sat down slowly on the sofa beside her daughter. “This wasn’t unexpected.”
“It was to me,” Annie said, hiccuping a sob.
“Get ahold of yourself, dear.” Eleanor glanced quickly around at the others sitting in the waiting room. Her eyes grazed Corban’s with dislike.
The feeling is mutual, lady.
She took a fancy handkerchief from her leather purse and offered it to Annie. “Your grandmother is very old. Things are bound to go wrong with her health. We all go sometime, dear.”
Annie looked at her mother, drawing back slightly. “She’s your mother! Don’t you even care that you might lose her?”
Eleanor went white at Annie’s words. She sat frozen when Annie jumped up and paced again.
“Of course, I care about her,” Eleanor said belatedly, her eyes dark with some indefinable emotion.
Annie turned and stared at her. “Since when have you cared, Mother? Did you care about making Thanksgiving special for your mother? Not on your life. You only came to Thanksgiving dinner because you couldn’t convince Uncle George to stay away, and I wouldn’t come home!”
“Don’t you dare speak to me like that!” Eleanor rose from the sofa.
“Why, Mother? Because it’s the truth?” Tears ran down Annie’s cheeks, and Corban had to fight off the strong urge to go to her and hold her close. “You did everything you could to ruin the day for Grandma and make everyone else miserable. You even threw the turkey away!”
Eleanor’s face turned deep red. She glanced around again, clearly aware that everyone in the waiting room had stopped watching Annie and was now looking at her. “Stop this tantrum right now, Anne-Lynn.”
Corban’s eyes widened. Mrs. Gaines’s voice was actually trembling.
Annie’s voice, on the other hand, was firm. “Why? Because you’re embarrassed? You should be.”
“You’re making a fool of yourself.”
“So what? Do you think I care if I look foolish? I’m just taking after my mother!”
“Annie . . . ,” Fred said gently.
She turned on him. “Don’t defend her! Maybe if someone had bothered to tell her the truth a long time ago, she wouldn’t be so hard-hearted.”
“How can you accuse me of that?” Eleanor was crying now. “After all I’ve sacrificed for you.”
“You sacrificed, Mother. And you never let Michael and me forget it. You reminded us every step of the way. But what was it all about? All you ever cared about was making Michael and me into your little trophies. Look at what Eleanor accomplished! Not once did you ever make a sacrifice of love. Not the way Grandma Leota did for you and Uncle George.”
“You don’t know anything about the way it was!”
“You’re the one who doesn’t know, Mother! You never knew! You never cared to know!”
Face agonized, Eleanor grabbed her purse and tucked it beneath her arm. “I won’t stay and listen to this!” She sailed from the room like the Titanic, full steam ahead, straight for the iceberg.
“That’s right, Mother! Run away!” Annie called after her. “That’s what you always do when things don’t go your way, isn’t it? Go ahead. Leave!” With that, she sat again, weeping.
“There are things you don’t know, Annie.”
At Fred’s quiet comment, Annie’s eyes flashed at him. “Don’t you dare say a word against my grandmother, Fred. All you know about her is what my mother’s told you.” She clasped her hands tightly as though trying to hold in the violence of her emotions.
His face was filled with compassion. “I wasn’t going to speak against Leota.” He sat down beside Annie and put his hand over hers. “Your mother loves Leota more deeply than you can understand, honey. She’s just afraid of showing it.”
“Well, she better hurry up and learn how!”
Corban couldn’t listen any longer. He needed to get out of the room and walk. Somewhere. Anywhere. All the emotions pouring out of Annie and Eleanor had his own in a riot. He’d had to grit his teeth not to leap up and join in the fray, so instead he went down the corridor and stopped at the emergency counter. “Any word?”
“We’ll let the family know as soon as we hear anything, Mr. Solsek.”
“Thanks. Thanks a lot.” He stalked away, banging the doors open and striding outside.
Eleanor Gaines was hunched aga
inst the wall, her coat drawn tightly around her, her face ravaged by tears. When she saw it was Corban, she turned her face away.
Mouth tight, he walked on.
Leota tried not to let fear reign, but that was difficult in an unfamiliar environment surrounded by strangers. Lights and sounds . . . a tunnel. What on earth were they doing to her? She faded in and out, dreaming peacefully of her garden for a while. Then someone would move her and she’d wake up, confused and annoyed at so rude an interruption. Finally, she roused from sleep, found light coming in a window, and saw Annie sitting in a chair beside her bed.
“Hi, Grandma.” She leaned closer, smiling. “You’re going to be all right.”
“Where am I, dear? What’s happened?”
Annie frowned. “I don’t understand, Grandma.” She looked frightened.
Well, no more than Leota was frightened, hearing the garbled sounds coming from her own mouth. What was wrong with her tongue? Frustrated, she tried again, but only confused words came out.
Leota started to cry.
Annie’s blue eyes welled with tears too. She stroked Leota’s arm—at least Leota could see her doing it, but she couldn’t feel a thing.
“Am I dying?”
Annie glanced up at someone out of Leota’s range of vision. “Does she understand me?”
“There’s no way to know,” a woman said. “Just keep talking to her. She’s responding. That’s a good sign.”
“Can I tell her what’s going on?” Annie said in a quieter voice.
“It can’t hurt. It might make her less restless.”
Leota could hear the sound of wheels rattling softly.
“Corban found you, Grandma. He called the paramedics. You’re in the hospital. You’ve had a slight stroke. Your right side is affected; that’s why you can’t move very much. And it affected your speech, I guess. Do you understand, Grandma?” She wiped the tears from her cheeks. “They’ve given you medication that will help. And you’re on an IV drip. You were dehydrated, so they want to get your fluids up to normal again.”