“From what I’ve heard,” Lubin said, “he was just—a typical dad.”
“Do you know where he is? Where they are?”
“They died twelve years ago. Tularemia.”
“Of course.” A soft laugh. “I guess that was one of my qualifications, right? No loose ends.”
He stepped around her, watched her face come into view.
It was wet. Lubin paused, taken aback. He’d never known Lenie Clarke to cry before.
Her capped eyes met his; a corner of her mouth twitched in something like a rueful grin. “At least, if you were right about βehemoth, the real culprits are in for it along with everyone else.” She shook her head. “It’s the weirdest thing I’ve ever heard. I’m some killer asteroid in the sky, and the dinosaurs are actually cheering for me.”
“Just the little ones.”
She looked at him. “Ken … I think maybe I’ve destroyed the world.”
“It wasn’t you.”
“Right. Anemone. I was just the mule for a—an Artificial Stupidity, I guess you’d call it.” She shook her head. “If you believe that guy downstairs.”
“It’s an old story,” Lubin reflected. “Body snatchers. Things that get inside you and make you do things you’d never do, given the—”
He stopped. Clarke was watching him with a strange expression.
“Like your conditioned reflex,” she said quietly. “Your—security breaches …”
He swallowed.
“Does it ever haunt you, Ken? All the people you’ve killed?”
“There’s—an antidote,” he admitted. “Sort of a chaser for Guilt Trip. Makes things easier to live with.”
“Absolution,” she whispered.
“You’ve heard of it?” In fact, he’d never found it necessary.
“Saw some graffiti down in the Dust Belt,” Clarke said. “They were trying to wash it off, but there must’ve been something in the ink …”
She stepped toward the hallway. Lubin turned to follow. Faint machine sounds and the soft hissing of fluids drifted in from outdoors.
“What’s going on out there, Ken?”
“Decontamination. We evacuated the area before you arrived.”
“Gonna fry the neighborhood?” Another step. Clarke was in the doorway.
“No. We know your route. βehemoth hasn’t had a chance to spread from there even if you left any behind.”
“That’s not likely, I take it.”
“You’re not bleeding. You didn’t piss or shit anywhere since you came ashore.”
She was in the hall, at the top of the stairs. Lubin moved to her side.
“You’re just being extra careful,” Clarke said.
“That’s right.”
“It’s kind of pointless though, isn’t it?”
“What?”
She turned to face him. “I’ve crossed a continent, Ken. I was on the Strip for weeks. I hung out in the Belt. I just spent a week swimming through the drinking water for half a billion people. I bled and fucked and shat and pissed more times than you can count, in oceans and toilets and half the ditches in between. Maybe you did too, although I’d guess they’ve cleaned you up since then. So really, what’s the point?”
He shrugged. “It’s all we can do. Watch for brush fires, hope to put them out before they get too big.”
“And keep me from starting new ones.”
He nodded.
“You can’t sterilize an ocean,” she said. “You can’t sterilize a whole continent.”
Maybe we can, he thought.
The sounds of decontamination were louder here, but not much. Even the occasional voice was hushed. Almost as if the neighborhood was still infested with innocents, as though the crews feared sleeping citizens who could wake at any moment and catch them red-handed …
“You never answered me before, Ken.” Lenie Clarke took a step down the stairs. “About whether you were going to kill me.”
She’s not going to run, he told himself. You know her. She’s already taken her best shot, she’s not—
You don’t have to—
“Well. I guess we’ll find out,” she said. And started calmly down the stairs.
“Lenie.”
She didn’t look back. He followed her down. Surely she didn’t think she could outrun him—surely she didn’t think—
“You know I can’t let you leave,” he said behind her.
Of course she knows. You know what she’s doing.
She was at the foot of the stairs. The open door gaped five meters in front of her.
Something deformed suddenly in Lubin’s gut. If almost seemed like Guilt Trip, but—
She was almost to the door. Something with halogen eyes was spraying the sidewalk beyond.
Lubin moved without thinking. In an instant he’d blocked the doorway; in another he’d closed and locked the door itself, plunging the house into darkness even by rifter standards.
“Hey,” Desjardins complained from the living room.
A few photons sneaked around the edges of the door. Lenie Clarke was a vague silhouette by that feeble light. Lubin felt his fists clenching, unclenching; no matter how he tried he couldn’t make them stop.
“Listen,” he managed to say, “I really don’t have any choice.”
“I know, Ken,” she said softly. “It’s okay.”
“I don’t,” he said again, almost whimpering.
“Sure you do,” boomed a strange voice in his ear.
What was—
“Alice?” came Desjardins’s voice from around the corner.
“You’re a free agent, Kenny boy,” the voice said. “You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to. Take my word for it.”
Lubin tapped the bead in his ear. “Identify yourself.”
“Alice Jovellanos, senior ’lawbreaker, Sudbury franchise. At your service.”
“No shit,” drifted from the living room.
Lubin tapped his bead again: “We’ve got a breach on communications, someone going by Alice Jovellanos—”
“They already know, big man. They were the ones who patched me through in the first place. I gave them the rest of the night off.”
Lenie Clarke stepped back from Lubin, turned toward the darkened living room. “What—”
“This is a restricted channel,” Lubin said. “Get off.”
“Fuck that. I outrank you.”
“I gather you haven’t been on the job very long.”
“Long enough. Killjoy, is Lenie Clarke there?”
“Yeah,” Desjardins said. “Alice, what—”
“She got a watch? I’ve got Lubin’s channel and your inlays—boy, I can’t wait until they slide a set of those into my head—but nothing on Lenie—”
“Lenie,” Desjardins said, “hold your watch away from your body.”
“Don’t have one,” the dark shape said.
“Too bad,” Jovellanos said. “Lubin, I wasn’t kidding. You’re a free man.”
“I don’t believe you,” Lubin said.
“Killjoy’s free. Why not you as well?”
“We never met. No opportunity.” But he was back beneath the waves in Lake Michigan, not killing Lenie Clarke. He was in debriefing afterward, pretending he’d never had the chance.
“It’s an infection,” Jovellanos said. “Real subversive. We made sure it was airborne, packed it inside an encephalitis jacket although you’ll be relieved to know the contents aren’t quite so lethal. It’s spreading through CSIRA even as we speak.”
All he had to do was open the door. Even if this Jovellanos wasn’t lying about ordering the crew to stand down, they wouldn’t have had time to pack up yet. Someone could just tap an icon and Alice Jovellanos would be jammed. Another, she’d be traced. The situation wasn’t even close to out of control.
He could afford a few moments …
“The Trip’s been weakening in you ever since you shared air with Killjoy there,” Jovellanos was saying. “You’re
calling your own shots now, Ken. Kind of changes things, doesn’t it?”
“Alice, are you completely—” Desjardins sounded almost in tears. “That’s the only leash he ever had.”
“Actually, that’s not true. Ken Lubin’s one of the most moral men you could ever meet.”
“For God’s sake, Alice—I’m fucking tied to a chair with my face caved in—”
“Trust me. I’m looking at his medical records right now. No serotonin or tryptophan deprivation, no TPH polymorphisms. He may not be a fun date, but he’s no impulse killer. Which is not to say that you don’t have a few issues, Ken. Am I right?”
“How did you—” But of course she’d be able to access his files, Lubin realized. It was just that any normal ’lawbreaker wouldn’t be able to justify such an intrusion to Guilt Trip, not in the course of a normal assignment.
She actually did it somehow. She freed me …
He felt like throwing up.
“What was it like all those years, Ken?” Jovellanos purred in his ear. “Knowing she’d got away with it? All those nifty childhood experiences that made you so right for the job—of course you thought about revenge. You spent your whole life fantasizing about revenge, didn’t you? Anyone would have.”
What am I going to do?
“You say it’s an infection,” he said, trying to deflect her.
“But you never once acted on it, did you Ken? Because you’re a moral man, and you knew that would be wrong.”
“How does it work?” Don’t respond. Don’t let her play you. Keep on target.
“And when the slip-ups started, those were just—mistakes, right? Inadvertent little breaches that had to be sealed. You killed then, of course, but there wasn’t any choice. You always played by the rules. And it wasn’t your fault, was it? The Trip made you do it.”
“Answer me.” No, no … control. Relax.
Don’t let her hear it …
“Only it started happening so often, and people had to wonder if you hadn’t found some way to have your cake and eat it, too. That’s why they sent you someplace where there weren’t any security issues or mission priorities that could set you off. They didn’t want to give you a choice, so they sent you someplace you wouldn’t have an excuse.”
His respiration rate was far too high. He concentrated on bringing it down. A few steps away, Clarke’s silhouette seemed dangerously attentive.
“You’re still a moral man, Ken.” Jovellanos said. “You follow the rules. You won’t kill unless you don’t have a choice. I’m telling you, you’ve got a choice.”
“Your infection,” he grated. “What does it do?”
“Liberates slaves.”
Bullshit answer. But at least she was out of his head.
“How?” he pressed.
“Complexes Guilt Trip into an inactive form that binds to the Minksy receptors. Doesn’t affect anyone who isn’t already Tripped.”
“What about the side effects?” he said.
“Side effects?”
“Baseline guilt, for example,” Lubin said.
Desjardins moaned. “Oh, shit. Of course. Of course.”
“What’s going on?” Clarke said. “What are you talking about?”
Lubin almost laughed aloud. Regular, garden-variety guilt. Plain old conscience. How would they ever get into play, now that their receptor sites had been jammed? Jovellanos and her buddies had been so busy tweaking the synthetics that they’d forgotten about chemicals that had been there for eons.
Except they hadn’t forgotten. They’d known exactly what they were doing. Lubin was sure of it.
All hail the Entropy Patrol. The power to shut down cities and governments, the power to save a million people here or kill a million somewhere else, the power to keep everything going or to tear it all to shreds overnight—
He turned to Clarke. “Your fan club’s been throwing off the shackles of oppression,” he said. “They’re free now. Not slaves to Guilt Trip, not slaves to guilt. Untouchable by conscience in any form.”
He raised a hand in the darkness, a bitter toast: “Congratulations, Dr. Jovellanos. There’s only a few thousand people with their hands on all the world’s kill switches, and you’ve turned them all into clinical sociopaths.”
“Believe me,” Jovellanos said. “You’ll hardly notice the difference.”
Desjardins was noticing, though. “Shit. Shit. I wouldn’t even be here, I mean—I just picked up and left. I threw everything away, didn’t care about the world going to pieces, I just—for one person. Just because I wanted to.”
“We psychos are notorious for bad impulse control,” Clarke said, approaching him. “Ken, how do you spring these bindings?”
Lubin glowered at her back. Doesn’t she get it?
“Come on, Ken. The situation’s contained. None of us is going anywhere for the time being, and any rules we were playing by before seem to have pretty much gone out the window. Maybe we could start working together for a change.”
He hesitated. Nothing she said raised any kind of alarm in his gut. Nothing urged him into action, no other presence tried to take control of his motor nerves. Almost experimentally, he crossed into the living room and depolarized the tanglethreads. They slipped to the floor like overcooked pasta.
For good measure, he pulled a lightstick from his pocket and struck it; light flared in the gutted room. Desjardins blinked over shrinking pupils and gingerly explored the bruise on his cheek.
“Conscience is overrated anyway,” Jovellanos said all around them.
“Give it a rest, Alice,” Desjardins said, rubbing his wrists.
“I’m serious. Think about it: not everyone even has a conscience, and the people that do are invariably exploited by the ones that don’t. Conscience is—irrational, when you get right down to it.”
“You are so full of shit.”
“Sociopathy doesn’t make you a killer. It just means you aren’t restrained from being one if the situation calls for it. Hey, Killjoy, you could think of it as a kind of liberation.”
The ’lawbreaker snorted.
“Come on, Kill. I’m right, you know there’s at least a chance I’m right.”
“What I know is that the most I can hope for is to be out of a job right up until the world ends. If I’m not dead ten minutes from now.”
“You know,” Jovellanos said, “I may even be able to do something about that.”
Desjardins said nothing.
“What’s that, Killjoy? Suddenly you’re not telling me to fuck off?”
“Keep talking,” he said.
She did. Lubin pulled the bead out of his ear and stood up; the lightstick threw his shadow huge and ominous across the room. Lenie Clarke sat with her back propped against the far wall; Lubin’s silhouette swallowed her whole.
I could kill her in an instant, he thought, and marveled at how absurd the thought seemed.
She looked up as he approached. “I hate it here,” she said softly.
“I know.” He leaned his back against the wall, slid down at her side.
“This isn’t home,” she continued. “There’s only one place that was ever home.”
Three thousand meters below the surface of the Pacific. A beautiful dark universe filled with monsters and wonders that didn’t even exist anymore.
“What is home, really?”
It was Desjardins who had spoken. Lubin looked back at him.
“Alice’s been doing a little snooping, down avenues a bit more—political than I ever really bothered with.” Desjardins tapped the side of his head. “She came up with some interesting shipping news, and it raises the question: what’s home? Where your heart is, or where your parents are?”
Lubin looked at Lenie Clarke. She looked back. Neither spoke.
“Ah well. Doesn’t really matter,” Desjardins said. “Turns out you may be able to go back either way.”
A Niche
The Mid-Atlantic Ridge was a shitty place to raise one’s
kids, Patricia Rowan reflected.
Not that there’d been many options, of course. In point of fact there had been three: build an onshore refuge and trust conventional quarantine technology; escape into high orbit; or withdraw behind the same cold, heavy barrier that had shielded the earth for four billion years before N’AmPac had punched a hole in the global condom.
They’d done the analyses from every angle. The off-world option was least cost-effective and most vulnerable to acts of groundside retribution: orbital stations weren’t exactly inconspicuous targets, and it was a fair bet that at least some of those left behind would be ungracious enough to lob a vindictive nuke or two up the well. And if groundside quarantine tech had been up to the job, they wouldn’t have been in this situation in the first place; that option must have been on the table only to accommodate a bureaucratic obsession with completist detail. Or maybe as some kind of sick joke.
There had been a fourth option—they could have stayed behind and faced βehemoth with the rest of the world. They’d undergone the necessary retrofits, after all. Even if they’d stayed onshore there would have been none of the—disintegration—that was in store for everyone else. Not for them the lost hair and fingernails, the oozing sores, the limbs coming apart at the joints. No blindness, no ulcers. No short-circuit seizures as insulation frayed from nervous circuitry. No organs reduced to mush. None of the thousand opportunistic diseases usually listed as proximate cause of death. They could have stayed, and watched it happen to everyone else, and synthesized their food from raw elements once the biosphere itself was lost.
That option hadn’t received a whole lot of discussion, though.
We’re not even running from βehemoth. We’re running from our own citizens.
All of Atlantis knew that, even if nobody talked about it. They’d seen the mobs from their penthouses, seen civil unrest graphed against time on exponential curves. βehemoth, coupled with the Clarke meme: a big enough threat, a sufficiently compelling role model, and revolution was suddenly a lot closer than the usual three meals away.
We were lucky to get out in time, Rowan reflected.
But they had, and here they were—several hundred corpses, essential support personnel, families and assorted hangers-on—termites dug in three kilometers down in a jumbled cluster of titanium/fullerene spheres, safely distant from the world outside, invisible to all but those with the very best technological eyes, the very best intel. It was an acceptable risk: most of those people were already down here.