CHAPTER XXXVII
TURNED ADRIFT
Down the path and under the gate the rains had washed a shallow rut inthe earth. Two pebbles, loosened by the closing of the gate, rolled downthe rut and out upon the little spreading fan of sand that whitened inthe grass.
There was the house with the black beams checkering its yellow walls.There was the old bench by the door, and the lettuce in the garden-bed.There were the beehives, and the bees humming among the orchard boughs.
"Why, father, what!" cried Nick, "dost na know me yet? See, 'tis I,Nick, thy son."
A strange look came into the tanner's face. "I do na know thee, boy," heanswered heavily; "thou canst na enter here."
"But, father, indeed 'tis I!"
Simon Attwood looked across the town; yet he did not see the town:across the town into the sky, yet he did not see the sky, nor thedrifting banks of cloud, nor the sunlight shining on the clouds. "I sayI do na know thee," he replied; "be off to the place whence yeha' come."
Nick's hand was almost on the latch. He stopped. He looked up into hisfather's face. "Why, father, I've come home!" he gasped.
The gate shook in the tanner's grip. "Have I na telled thee twice I dona know thee, boy? No house o' mine shall e'er be home for thee. Thouhast no part nor parcel here. Get thee out o' my sight."
"Oh, father, father, what do ye mean?" cried Nick, his lips scarcelyable to shape the words.
"Do na ye 'father' me no more," said Simon Attwood, bitterly; "I be nafather to stage-playing, vagabond rogues. And be gone, I say. Dost hear?Must I e'en thrust thee forth?" He raised his hand as if to strike.
Nick fell away from the latchet-gate, dumb-stricken with amazement,shame, and grief.
"Oh, Nick," cried Cicely, "come away--the wicked, wicked man!"
"It is my father, Cicely."
She stared at him. "And thou dost hate _my_ father so? Oh, Nick! oh,Nick!"
"Will ye be gone?" called Simon Attwood, half-way opening the gate;"must I set constables on thee?"
Nick did not move. A numbness had crept over him like palsy. Cicelycaught him by the hand. "Come, let us go back to my father," she said."He will not turn us out."
Scarcely knowing what he did, he followed her, stumbling in the levelpath as though he were half blind or had been beaten upon the head. Hedid not cry. This was past all crying. He let himself be led along--itmade no matter where.
In Chapel lane there was a crowd along the Great House wall; and on thewall Ned Cooke and Martin Addenbroke were sitting. There were heads ofpeople moving on the porch and in the court, and the yard was alla-bustle and to-do. But there was nobody in the street, and no onelooked at Nick and Cicely.
The Great House did look very fair in the sun of that May day, with itshomely gables of warm red brick and sunburnt timber, its cheery roof ofHolland tile, and with the sunlight flashing from the diamond panes thatwere leaded into the sashes of the great bay-window on the easterngarden side.
In the garden all was stir-about and merry voices. There was a littlegreen court before the house, and a pleasant lawn coming down to thelane from the doorway porch. The house stood to the left of theentry-drive, and the barn-yard to the right was loud with the blithecrowing of the cocks. But the high brick wall shut out the street whereNick and Cicely trudged dolefully along, and to Nick the lane seemedvery full of broken crockery and dirt, and the sunlight all a mockery.The whole of the year had not yet been so dark as this, for there hadever been the dream of coming home. But _now_--he suffered himself to beled along; that was enough.
They had come past the Great House up from Chapel street, when a girlcame out of the western gate, and with her hand above her eyes lookedafter them. She seemed in doubt, but looked again, quite searchingly.Then, as one who is not sure, but does not wish to miss a chance, calledout, "Nick Attwood! Nick Attwood!"
Cicely looked back to see who called. She did not know the girl, but sawher beckon. "There is some one calling, Nick," said she.
Nick stopped in a hopeless sort of way, and looked back down the street.
When he had turned so that the girl at the gate could see his face, sheleft the gate wide open behind her, and came running quickly up thestreet after them. As she drew nearer he saw that it was SusannaShakspere, though she was very much grown since he had seen her last. Hewatched her running after them as if it were none of his affair. Butwhen she had caught up with them, she took him by the shoulder smartlyand drew him back toward the gate. "Why, Nicholas Attwood," she cried,all out of breath, "come straightway into the house with me. My fatherhath been hunting after thee the whole way up from London town!"