Chapter Twenty-five
Saturday morning the sun was shining brightly through the windows. I could hear birds chirping. I glanced over at the alarm clock: 8:00 a.m. My body felt heavy, like moving right now would require significant effort, nearly more than I possessed. Instead of fighting gravity, I lay there replaying last night.
I hadn’t even noticed the gray sedan until Paul pointed it out, probably the same gray sedan he had noticed several nights before. Hiding in the alleyway seemed like such a paranoid thing to do. Paul had to have known: he had to have felt that he was in some sort of danger. I felt it, but I still didn’t expect for anything so horrific to happen.
I should have looked at the man’s face. I should have willed myself to make a note of something about him. The only thing I got a clear view of were his hands. He wasn’t wearing gloves, and he didn’t have any tattoos on his knuckles like you see on people in prison. I closed my eyes and willed myself to return to that moment when I saw the barrel of the gun aimed at Paul. A tiny waft of smoke was released from the barrel. In that instant what did I see? The knuckle of his index finger was protruding from the rest of his interlocked fingers; his finger was on the trigger. In that same moment, I remembered a flash of metal, white gold, silver or platinum on his ring finger. I concentrated harder realizing it was his left hand that I was visualizing. The shooter was left-handed with a silver ring of some kind, so he most likely was married.
Excitement welled within me as I realized I remembered a detail that could help the police. I remained focused and replayed the moment he had walked up to the car. Paul wouldn’t roll the window down, which had infuriated the man. A real policeman wouldn’t have lost his cool like that. Police talk on radios; even when they’re in restaurants, you can always hear chatter on their radios. I don’t remember hearing any kind of chatter. I relived those few moments until just after the gun shot again when I reached over with my left foot and tromped on the gas pedal.
I didn’t think I looked in the rear-view mirror right away. When I finally did there was nothing at all behind us. What could I be sure of? When I looked out the window, I saw his torso. On a normal-sized man the window comes up to his waist, but this man’s waist wasn’t visible at all, meaning he had to be shorter than normal. He was a white male. His hands weren’t all weathered or wrinkly, so he had to be mid-twenties to mid-forties. He was wearing a white button down shirt, without a tie. I would have noticed a tie.
There was nothing peculiar about his voice, but as I remembered, there wasn’t a twinge of a southern accent. I don’t think there was anything Paul could have done to avoid this. Maybe drive back to the police station, but violating the terms of his bail would have been a huge problem if this had been a real cop.
I could sense the danger, and warning bells were going off in me, so why did I let Paul pull-over? Why hadn’t I seen this coming? I had asked Rewsna for help, but she’d been silent. Why would she ignore me? She told me if I ever needed her, she would be watching; I needed her and she ignored me. Her only advice: watch my surroundings after Paul was already dead. Like there was any danger at all by then.
I felt a hand on my shoulder, brushing away my hair, and I could feel Max’s lips on my neck. A warm glow consumed me. I opened my eyes and looked up at him. All I could manage was, “Hi.”
Concern was written in his expression. “You had nightmares last night.”
“I don’t remember any. Why do you think they were nightmares?”
Max continued to caress my shoulder and arm, “You were talking most of the night, and you screamed a few times. I knew waking you from your nightmare would be worse than letting it play itself out, but it was hard to watch.” He stared at me for a long moment with his beautiful green eyes. Except for Paul being dead, everything felt right with the world.
“I’m glad I stayed here last night. I probably wouldn’t have been able to sleep at all at my house. Do you think we should go? I’m sure my parents are worried.”
Max nodded, stood up, and pulled me up out of his bed. The inertia of his pull landed me squarely in his arms. Had the last twelve hours not happened, this movement would have made me laugh. As it was, I wasn’t much in the mood for celebrating, nor was I feeling very pleased with myself for letting my friend die. I stepped aside and went to the bathroom to wash my face.
Max said nothing on the way back to my house. My mother was sitting at the table with a cup of coffee and the newspaper. It struck me after we’d already walked into the house that there were no news reporters parked outside my parents’ home. I guess I needed to be thankful for the little things.
Max relayed the events of last night to my mother while I watched on. I felt her gaze on me a few times, but I felt a little disconnected, and I really wasn’t part of their conversation. I started to distance myself from their exchange, and my mind wandered a little. I could hear Rewsna’s voice quietly, but I couldn’t make out what she was saying. I tried to listen more closely, but I wasn’t able to understand. As I was listening to her quiet voice, I heard a booming one right next to me, “Lauren, Lauren are you okay?” It was Max, and he was shaking me.
I looked at him for a second, but he was out of focus; I squinted my eyes and looked again. He was clear, and I looked at Mom who was now standing just a foot or two away from me. I managed to get out, “I’m okay.” Max told my mother I was in shock last night and had nightmares; the nightmares were a symptom, and if she knew I was having one she should stay in the room with me but not try to awaken me. Nightmares were my subconscious mind’s way of dealing with the trauma. Max continued to give her advice on how best to take care of me, as if I wasn’t right there in the room. The phone rang; I got off the sofa and picked it up.
It was Officer Johnson. “Lauren, how are you?”
“How do you think?”
“I’m sure this won’t make you feel any better, but I thought it wise to share with you that Mr. Stratford was telling you the truth. Security cameras verify the route he gave us exactly where and when he said they would. I bounced his timeline off of the coroner’s report, where time of death was between 9:30 and 10:30. Paul’s been ruled out as a suspect in the McMasters’ murders. I’ve notified his mother and grandmother of his death. I shared with them both that he had been cleared of all wrong-doing in the double homicide.”
“Great, so who killed Paul?”
“Lauren, I don’t know, but I can tell you that we have all our resources trying to answer that question right now. Whoever did it impersonated a police officer in the process; we’ll find him.”
“Yeah, I was there. He was white, he was short, he was wearing a white button down shirt, driving a grey sedan, he’s left handed, he was wearing a ring and he doesn’t have a local accent. That description should narrow it down to like 30,000 people for you. I was right there, and that’s the best I can give you. How in the hell are you going to find him?”
“Lauren, did you see his face, or was there anything about him that you maybe forgot last night?”
I shook my head as if he could see me through the receiver, a tear welled up in my eye. I choked out in a whisper, “No.”
“Last night you told Detective Dixon that Paul said something to you right before he died. What did he say?”
“He said something about Ms. McMasters’ barber I think, but it was all garbled, and I couldn’t understand him very well.” Rewsna’s voice came booming through my mind and I heard, “No child, that is not what he conveyed. Think!” Renswa’s voice startled me so badly I nearly dropped the phone.
“He didn’t say anything else?”
A little shaken from Renswa’s voice, I could only respond with, “No, that was it, he died right after.”
Officer Johnson offered words of encouragement and we hung up. This was the first time I’d felt shaken since the shooting. I should have been getting ready for graduation, but I couldn’t thi
nk straight. I just wanted to lie down and let the world go by for a little while.