But despite her knowledge of the human psyche and her ability to size up other people's characters, Sara got into a relationship with a young man with an anger problem. By the time she finally realized the situation she was in, he had become so attached and possessive of her that he refused to let her break up with him. He put two bullets in her head.
The loss of his friend and confidant crushed what little desire to live Ryan had. One afternoon, he swallowed a ridiculous number of sleeping pills. Another professor called the hospital before they could do their work, though. Ryan didn't return to the university.
At reading Ryan's childhood profile, Becca had been relieved to see he'd had a normal youth. No abuse, no hatred, not like the others had endured. But his adulthood was just as bad. She found the website of the university he had attended and found a recording of a student ensemble playing one of the pieces he had composed. It made her cry.
CHAPTER NINETEEN
The four inseparable patients were gathered so tightly around something that no one else could see it from any angle. Their voices were so soft no one could hear them. Becca had been watching them, of course, studying them from across the courtyard and wishing she had a microphone or tape recorder somewhere near enough to pick up their whispers.
She thought the item they had gathered around might be something Vale had carefully placed there earlier. He had taken his time making certain it was in just the right place, and he had constantly been looking over his shoulder when he did. But it wasn't as if he were looking for observers– more like he was trying to observe something else himself. Finally satisfied with his placement of... whatever it was... he had wandered off and squatted by a flowering shrub to watch.
Before Becca could get to the object and inspect it, Ryan had led his group– she decided he was the leader from his tendency to well, walk in front of them– to where Vale had left his object. Now all she could do was watch them and hope to catch a glimpse of whatever it was that had them so enthralled.
Days had passed uneventfully, and it was enough to make Draegon scream. None of the others complained of boredom, though, but they weren't in this for adventure. He had hoped to make a story, an epic, a great lasting song out of his experiences in searching for Sonsedhor, but except for the skirmish with the Keidenelle band, there was nothing to sing about. Even the attack wasn't much for subject matter. There was no glory in that kind of a fight. Thankfully, none of the others had mentioned the savages or his resemblance to them again.
He was so desperate for something interesting to happen that when Kemeny said she thought she saw a sword laying abandoned on the side of the road, his mind leapt to the thought they had actually found Sonsedhor. For a few seconds his mouth was dry, his palms sweaty, and his eyes looking frantically for the sword. Then his right mind came back to him. Sonsedhor would not be lying abandoned on the side of the road just this side of the Melistrat-Gaern border. And even if it had, well, he knew there was a village, Dracmere, not far from where they were. The border village would probably be teeming with Seekers, too, and if Sonsedhor had been lying in the path, it would have been snatched up already.
Even so, he decided to take a look at the blade. He dropped out of his saddle and scanned the grass where Kemeny was pointing. Sure enough, there in a rut next to the packed dirt road, was a fine-looking scabbard and the hilt of a sword sticking out from one end.
"She's not kidding," he said, walking forward and lifting the scabbard. It was indeed fine, though the hilt of the sword looked much too plain for such a sheath. He ran a few fingers up the leather of the sheath. "Too long of a blade for me, though. Give me a few good knives. Here Roark." He tossed the still-sheathed sword to the soldier.
Roark rolled his eyes. "This was likely cast aside because it is a substandard weapon," he said. "I'll keep with my own swords, thanks."
"Oh come on!" Weslyn chided. "At least look at it! Besides, the scabbard's definitely worth something even if the sword isn't!"
Kemeny spoke right on the tail of Weslyn's words. "Yeah, Roark! Let's see it!"
Roark let out a soft, annoyed sigh and gripped the plain leather cord-wrapped hilt.
Draegon caught a glimpse of the wide, brilliantly shining blade as it was drawn. As the point of the blade left the scabbard, a harsh gust of cold wind rose, and bright sunlight flashed off the blade, blinding him. As his eyes regained their focus, he could have sworn Roark's face had changed. He looked older, and his short-cropped black hair looked more auburn in the light. Dense stubble dotted his always-clean-shaven chin and cheeks. But then he blinked, and Roark was before him, unchanged, still holding the sword. He saw Kemeny and Weslyn rubbing their eyes. Had they seen the other face, too?
Roark opened his mouth to speak, but a pained grunt came out instead of words, and he dropped the sword. The palm of the soldier's riding glove was stained red.
"What happened?" Draegon asked, walking up to where the sword had landed. The steel of the blade wasn't as brilliant as he'd thought, and there was a bloody handprint on the hilt.
"Don't touch it!" Roark growled, dismounting without his usual grace. The soldier snatched up the sword. He turned a glare to Draegon; his eyes looked hunted. He doubled over; Draegon feared he would impale himself on the blade.
"I... I remember everything," he muttered. "Cheyne... everything. I... I need to go see where he... where I died." Slowly, he straightened. His eyes were full of something new. It looked like uncertainty, or perhaps even fear. "This... this is Sonsedhor," he said simply.
Draegon half-smiled. "Well that was easy."
"That's not funny, Draegon," Kemeny admonished. "Something's wrong."
Roark nodded. "I can't put my finger on what, exactly, but something is wrong. I know this sword. It's mine. My Sonsedhor," he whispered the name, caressing it with his voice. "But this... it isn't the blade that I remember. Something's... changed it."
Draegon heard something in the distance. "Riders are coming up the road, I think." He turned to look at each of the others in turn. "I think we should keep moving to the village. It's not far."
"Yes, let's move," Weslyn agreed. "And you can make your proclamation, Roark. You are Cheyne Firdin reborn!"
Roark shushed her vehemently at the same time both Draegon and Kemeny said, "No!" The two of them looked at each other, startled. Weslyn looked at Draegon questioningly, but it was Kemeny who spoke up.
"If he proclaimed himself, it would only send Draegon straight back to that bastard Keffinen. None of us want that, right?"
Understanding washed over Weslyn's face, and she considered Draegon for a few long moments before responding. "You're right. But... what then? All the stories say that when Cheyne reappears, it's because the world desperately needs him."
"He can save the world without everyone knowing who he is," Draegon put in. He turned to look at the still-silent soldier. "Right?"
Roark's stony blue eyes traveled over them one by one. There was only more silence as he looked at them, then at their surroundings. The riders coming up the road were very near, a pair of strangers on horseback. As they drew closer, silver braids were visible on both their arms. Without stopping for a word or even slowing, the pair rode by at a gallop, their horses' hooves kicking up small clouds of dust.
"I need to go," Roark said once they were well out of earshot. "To the river Swen." He looked significantly at Draegon. "Where I died."
Draegon replied with a simple nod.
When evening fell, Ryan and Lydia could be found alone in the common room. The pair stared at each other for the longest time, silent, their eyes never wandering even though there was much happening around them. When they finally began to speak, their voices were drowned out by the Wheel of Fortune on TV.
The common room in The Full Casque in Dracmere was too full of gawkers for Draegon to want to stay long. He didn't mind crowds, especially when they paid well, but he didn't even offer to perform for them. The innkeeper would have been eager for the entertain
ment– most innkeepers were– but Draegon had the feeling these people would have used more of their energy staring at his hair and eyeing him warily for signs of violence than emptying their pockets for him. So rather than offering to play his hand dulcimer and tell tales of valiant deeds and former Seekers' adventures, he retired to his room.
He wasn't even all the way up the stairs when Weslyn caught up to him. "Draegon, can I talk with you for a bit? I don't want to be alone, but Kemeny is staying in the common room and I'm tired of the noise already."
"Of course," he replied, showing her into the room he had rented for himself. He would have shared a room with Roark, but the man was being distant, and Draegon had decided against intruding on that contemplative solitude.
"Something is on your mind," he said when the door was closed. Weslyn sat gently on the edge of his mattress, so he took the only chair. "What?"
Weslyn bit her lip. "When I was a little girl, my father always told me I had an eye for appraisal."
"As demonstrated by your services at my trial?" he put in coolly.
She nodded. "But he said I was a good appraiser of people, too." She paused, it seemed almost hoping for him to interject again. When he stayed silent, she went on, taking a deep breath to brace herself. "Since Necras, I haven't been able to get you out of my mind. You're a good man, Draegon."
He looked at her sternly. "I'm a Keidenelle savage, Weslyn. Wherever you're going with this, stop. Please."
"You're not a savage!"
He stood and walked to the small table in corner which held a washbasin. One by one, he produced nearly a dozen knives that he had hidden about his person. With a small flourish, he set each one next to the basin. "You saw what I did to them. I'm no better than they."
"You have every reason to hate them, I think," she replied softly. "But that hatred isn't all there is to you. There's so much more that I see in your eyes, behind them. So much pain, but happiness and pride, too. I saw it all that first time I looked at you, when you tried to upset my wagon." He blushed a bit, glad his back was too her so she couldn't see. "I could even see the anger burning inside you that day, Draegon." She sounded closer to him, like she had stood and walked up right behind him. "Even knowing all I did, I still couldn't get you out of my mind after you left. I... think I love you, Draegon."
"Why did you have to say it?" he said, spinning to face her. There was barely a hand's length between them.
She looked crushed. "You knew?"
"I suspected," he admitted, "though I had hoped your looks were directed more towards Roark than at me. He would be better for you."
"It's not him I want," she said. "But you don't feel the same way..."
"I didn't say that," he said quickly, "but I'm not going to say I'm in love with you, because... well, I don't know you very well yet. I can't read people like you can." The corner of his mouth twitched up in a smile. "But if it's really me you're interested in, I am definitely interested in you."
She stepped in closer, bringing her face within inches of his. "That's good enough for me."
He leaned down and pressed his lips to hers.
CHAPTER TWENTY
Joanna "Jo" Bailey began taking dance lessons when she was five. Her father got transferred to another state not long afterwards, and her dance lessons stopped because they couldn't find a decent dance studio in their new town. But when she was eleven, her mother discovered a new studio run by an accredited instructor. Jo was enrolled there that fall. She took ballet, tap, and jazz, eventually earning her own teaching certificate by the time she was seventeen.
Her life completely consumed by her passion for dance, she didn't marry despite having a good number of men who tried to catch her. She didn't quite have the ideal body for a dancer: she had a little too much in the bust and was just a bit too thickly-built to really be the kind of dancer who made watcher breathless. That is not to say she was unattractive– far from it. But the combination of her build and the touch of clumsiness she had kept her from making it big as a performer. Performance wasn't the life she wanted anyway. At age twenty-eight, she had saved up enough money to open her own dance studio.
Students flocked to her as a teacher. Even if she wasn't a performance-quality dancer, she was a teacher of great certification, and she held her students to a high standard that most parents found admirable. A handful of her first students stayed with her for years, eventually earning their own teaching certificates. One eventually went to Broadway and managed to get onto the stage there.
By the time she had had her studio for nearly ten years, Jo had achieved a contentment with her life most people can only dream of. In the summer, when her studio was closed to coincide with the school year, she spent a week in the country with a childhood friend. While horseback riding (a passion shared by her and her friend) something spooked the mare Jo was riding, and the animal threw her, despite Jo's riding ability. She landed off the trail, twisting her back badly against a fallen tree.
Numerous surgeries kept her from being completely paralyzed. But they couldn't repair everything. Even after all the procedures and months upon months of rehabilitation, Jo could hardly walk anymore. Dancing was out of the question. Getting out of her wheelchair took great effort.
Since she had moved to a larger city away from her parents to open her studio, she had grown somewhat distant with her family. She and her parents and brother were still on very good terms, but eventually they did have to return home after the accident. She was capable of caring for herself, after all. And with cell phones and the internet, the communication lines with them were open if she needed anything. It was only a three-hour trip between her parents' house and the home Jo rented.
When her parents left to go home, Jo was left completely alone. Her friend who she had been riding with lived out in the country, so she wasn't nearby enough to visit daily. Jo had no boyfriend to cling to, no other real close friends nearby, and now no students.
She felt abandoned and confined in her wheelchair. Her last act before completely giving up on herself was to talk to a psychiatrist. She followed his advice and committed herself to the care of the staff at Ighosia Falls Insane Asylum.
Becca tried to imagine what it much be like to have the one driving factor of her life ripped away from her like dance had been from Jo. It wasn't something she could fathom.
CHAPTER TWENTY ONE
Senne knew that Sonsedhor had been found. There was a twisting feeling in her gut, followed by an emptiness, and there wasn't a doubt in her mind that Cheyne and his sword had been reunited. Before her stomach had even had a moment to recover from the twisting feeling, and before the emptiness had even really completely settled in, she heard a voice she recognized and feared more than anything else.
"You still haven't found him?! You are without question the poorest choice I ever made in my servants."
"But Dark Father..."
"Don't you dare call me by such a term! I deny you as a child of mine! I deny you even the freedom of the grave! The dead belong to me, and I will not have you! I dismiss you from my servitude and my presence! I cast you away! You, failed servant, are condemned to live on with your failure, knowing your inadequacy."
In her bed in the middle of the night, Jo began to toss and turn as if in a nightmare, though her eyes were wide open. Her whimpers and screams were wordless, and slowly, her frightened expression and screams gave way to tears and sobs. After nearly a half hour, she stopped thrashing about and awkwardly curled up on her side. She stayed there the rest of the night, completely oblivious to the staff who had rushed to help her.
The void left by the Dark Father's dismissal ate at Senne at first. She knew that the blessings he had first bestowed on her when she pledged herself to his service had been ripped away from her. Part of her wondered if she was now vulnerable like any normal person, if her longevity had been removed and her body made weak again. For nearly a day she considered testing that though; she even went so far as to place the point
of a dagger to her own breast.
But as a hole is meant to be filled, the void inside her began to fill. With her freedom from the Dark Father came an openness to something inside her she had forgotten long ago: ancient memories from before she had pledged her life away. Her old life, her former self, Masithina Crasier. She recalled ages ago, lives far back, dozens of lives, and in every one, she and Cheyne Firdin– both of them under many different names, of course– had been involved. Life after life, they knew each other, often as colleagues, sometimes as lovers.
Masithina was the one who had, for a reason Senne still couldn't remember, pledged her soul to the Dark Father– even the evil deity's name returned to her, but she refused to think it or say it aloud. It was Masithina who had made the damning oath and then died, only to be reborn again as Senne Moyers, the woman who betrayed Cheyne Firdin to the Father of Evil and Lies.
She cried.
CHAPTER TWENTY TWO
The mattress of the bed in Roark's room smelled of clean straw and didn't have very many lumps in it. As a soldier who had once fought in a drawn-out war, he didn't need to be comfortable to sleep. He could lay on a bed of rocky ground with a boulder for a pillow and achieve a very restful slumber.
But he couldn't sleep. There was a feeling tugging at the back of his head, one that he couldn't explain. The memories that had flooded into his head at drawing Sonsedhor that morning had settled in; they weren't the problem. It was bloodlust.
He tried to fight it down, the desire, the need to kill. The urge to take the life of a man, to watch the last bit of light go out of his eyes. As the night went on, the feeling grew. As hard as he fought it down, it still bloomed in his mind.