Chapter 12
AT THE HOTEL I WASHED MY FACE, then went down for something to eat. Back in the suite again, I sat down and tried to take stock. I was rocked to the heels, I knew, by what she’d meant to me and by what she’d done to me—unreasonably, I thought. But there was no doubt in my mind as to what I should do about her. It was clear I had to forget her, root her out of my heart completely, so no trace of her would be left. After a while I concluded the best way to do it was to get back to the original tune, the twenty-five thousand dollars and how I would get it. Remembering the talk about bankers we’d had the night before, I began wondering if they weren’t the answer and figuring how I might meet some. Then the numbness seemed to start wearing off, but I was deluding myself—more afterclaps were due, and my troubles had hardly started. Around three, I guess, a knock came on the door, but I waited a second or two before opening, to steel myself to be tough, in case she was there, taking back what she’d said and wanting to make up.
Who was there was Marie’s guard.
He didn’t wait for me to speak, but whipped out his sword, shoved his foot in the door, and called out in French, all in less than a second. Then Marie appeared, in the same little gray dress, with black darts and black shawl, she’d worn that night in the other hotel. He backed me into the room to the space between the windows, and when my head banged the wall told me “Reach.” I did, and then she pushed in close, waving my three twenties in front of my eyes, pulling my mouth open, stuffing them in, and pushing my chin up. They weren’t new bills, so they tasted indescribably filthy. Then she started to work me over, firing the first slap so hard my ears rang. I reached for her wrist automatically, but he jabbed the steel in my stomach, telling me: “Keep ’em up! Keep ’em up against the wall!” I did, and she kept on with her slapping, the licks coming so fast I sounded like a razor being stropped. The shawl slipped off and she flung it aside. The jacket came unbuttoned and she flung it aside. Her hat slipped over one eye and she flung that aside too, causing her ringlets to twist askew and hang over her face. Real, she was ten times the Jezebel she had been, pretending, to entice Pierre from his post. And at last, free of all encumbrance, she let me have it hard, pulling off one shoe and banging my cheekbones with it.
Then, exhausted, she told him: “Assez, assez, assez,” and he told me put down my hands. Then to me she said: “Wash you! Then hear me, what I shall say!” I started for the bath, but kept on to the bedroom, first spitting the bills out on the floor, then digging into my bag and coming up with my Moore & Pond. I went back holding it on them, and he dropped the sword cane, both parts at the same time. I put my foot on the blade, then lifted its hilt to snap it, and kicked stump, point, and scabbard against the sofa. When I looked up she was reaching for her purse. I remembered the derringer in it and kicked over the table she’d put it on. Then I picked it up and dropped it in my pocket. I said: “All right, now suppose you git. The two of you, march!”
She said: “I must dress me, please.”
“Then you git,” I told him. “Git and keep on gitting. If I open that door and you’re there, it’s the last place you’ll be on this earth. Did you hear me?”
“I did.”
“You did, what?”
“I did, sir.”
“That’s better. Now—”
But he was legging it for the stairs as I closed the door. When I turned, for the second time that day I felt a wet tickle on my chin, and from the look on her face knew blood must be running down. I took out my handkerchief, but she grabbed it and started to wipe. I knocked her down. Then I went to the bath to wash up, first rinsing out the horrible taste of the money. My face, when I looked in the glass, was so cut, bruised, and puffed that I hardly knew myself. But when I laved it with the witch hazel I used after shaving, it was better—not much, but a little.
When I went back to the sitting room, she was still there on the floor, a tiny heap of blonde ringlets, tousled froufrou, bare arms, and pretty, silk-stockinged legs. But one look and my insides collapsed, as the reaction set in, not only from this scene now, but the preceding ones too, in Dan’s office and in the headquarters hall. I’d worked up quite a sulk, but the bottom fell out of it, and I knelt beside her, picking her up, in a clumsy, laborious way staggering to my feet, and making it to the sofa. I sat down, snuggling her in my lap and having a look at her chin. It was beginning to swell, and of course that made me feel wonderful. I said: “I’m sorry, Marie.”
“I too am sorry, Guillaume. I excuse me.”
“I had it coming, if you mean the beating you gave me. The only surprising thing was I didn’t get it sooner—that you took so long finding me.”
“I found you the same night. It was not difficile, please believe me, for me to locate some—”
She hesitated, and I said: “Yank with a game leg?”
“... Ingénieur with hair of gold.”
“That’s a very nice way to put it.”
“I came yesterday morning—you were not here. I came last night—you were not here. I came for third time today——”
“And I kept the appointment.”
“I have said, I excuse me, please.”
That seemed to mean she apologized, which was about all I could really ask. She put her feet up, then stretched her legs out full length, so practically everything showed. Then: “Guillaume, always it is the same, you are gentil, I gamine. Today, I confess it, I tell the truth: I tried to demean you, to make of you some creature—it was my reason to beat. To see the élégance brisée. Et après? You compel Emil to say Sir. There, in one word, was my grand seigneur. And what have we here, aussi?”
“All right, what?”
“La créature, moi, regardez.”
“Oh I wouldn’t quite say that.”
“Ah oui, I am nothing.”
“Stop being silly with this kind of talk.”
“Petit, I am demi-mondaine!”
Then suddenly in a torrent of tears she was kissing my face, every welt and bruise that she’d put there, winding up with my mouth, I kissing back and meaning it. She kept saying: “You make me feel as grande dame—as what I wanted to feel and could not.” I kept whispering she was a grande dame, and should stop talking this way. She listened, and soon the weeping began to slack off, so it was just comfortable little sobs as she relaxed in my arms. Then she was loosening her clothes, and not objecting much when I began taking them off.
Pretty soon she was in pantalettes, stockings, pink garters, shoes, and not much else, except for a thin gauzy sling for her attachments above. I patted her, soothed her, and she purred almost like a kitten. Then, after a long time, she asked: “Guillaume, why did you not say? You did what you did for Mignon?”
“... Mignon? You know her?”
“Mignon Fournet? But of course!”
“I hadn’t realized.”
“Not well, but—agreeably. Fournet I knew—too well. When he has lost everything in the war, he comes to me—and loses it encore. To him I have returned—all, all that he loses to me, at roulette, at vingt-et-un. I owe her nothing, and—”
“She means nothing to you?”
“Ah oui, rien, rien!”
“Then that’s just what she means to me.”
“Then why did she quarrel with you today?”
“So you heard about that too?”
“It is my business, as joueuse, to hear all, but I understand not why her father should reconcile with Burke.”
The ins and outs of that had to be explained, and she listened closely. “The answer was tin,” I said. “He made that plain last night—no matter what Burke had done to him, he couldn’t afford to pass up sixty thousand dollars. Well, maybe she quarreled with me so Burke wouldn’t quarrel with her and spoil her father’s game.”
“To me, this is not really clear.”
“To me either—but she means nothing to me.”
“Why did you leave me, then?”
“If I hadn’t, you know what would hav
e happened?”
“We said dinner, non? At Antoine’s? And—”
“Marie, I’d have spent the night in your bed.”
“... Alors? Alors?”
“I had work to do that night.”
I told of the paste-up job, the letter, the two copies, the arrangements I made with Olsen. I said: “It had to be done that night, everything—or I couldn’t take Burke by surprise.”
“But this you could have explained.”
“I was afraid.”
“Of me, Guillaume?”
“Of myself.”
“Why did you not explain me? By—letter?”
“To be honest, I was ashamed to.”
“Did you go to her that night?”
“I swear to you, Marie, I did not.”
She thought that over, lying there in my arms, with the look in her eye of a stud-poker player who knows how to read your mind, then asked: “Have you spoken to her of les pieux?”
“Yes—last night, after dinner, to her and her father both. They didn’t take much interest. I have to say, if it had been a Red River job, I think it might have been different—their reaction, I mean.”
“Fournet made this complaint.”
She went into some detail about this boy from the Teche who had started a law practice here, married Mignon, and then found out that all she could get her mind on was stuff about Red River. Then suddenly: “She is folle.”
“Well? Aren’t we all, more or less?”
“She makes combinations—which prevail not.”
“I’ve had a few flukes myself, Marie.”
“She put Fournet in coton de la guerre.”
“And—she put her father in, so she says.”
“For Fournet it was a catastrophe.”
“For Mr. Landry it may turn out better.”
“He is in—not yet out, petit.”
“At least he’s out of jail.”
“Thanks to you, not to her, pourtant.”
There may have been more about Fournet, his moral collapse after the cotton broke him, his gambling, his enlistment, and death; it seems to me there must have been because I wound up knowing a great deal about him, but then, very solemnly, she asked me: “Guillaume, do you love her?”
“I swear to you I don’t.”
“Your demi-mondaine could love.”
“I know no demi-mondaine.” And then, pretty solemn myself, I added: “If a certain grande dame could love, then an engineer could, too.”
“She could venture twenty-five thousand bucks.”
She called it bocks, very funny, and my heart gave quite a twitch. Then the full force of what she meant to say hit me, and my heart gave a real, shaking thump, which caused a lump in my throat. I said: “For that I’d owe you some kisses.”
“And—anything else, petit?”
“Are you talking about marriage, Marie?”
“To demi-mondaine it means much.”
“Consider yourself proposed to.”
“I am Episcopalienne, as you are.”
“And not Jewish, as I thought you said.”
Recollection of that made her laugh, and suddenly she kissed me and jumped up. “But, kisses first, petit! May I look at my chin in your bath?”
“Help yourself, it’s right in there.”
She went in and a minute or two later came out without a stitch on, holding her shoes and things in one hand. Blowing a kiss at me, she went on into the bedroom. I started gathering the rest of her clothes; for all I knew someone might come, and at least I’d have the sitting room clear of telltale duds. And then suddenly there she was, still with no clothes on but walking like an old woman, and slumped down in a chair. “What’s the matter?” I asked. “Marie, what in the name of God is it?”
“... Guillaume, you lied to me.”
“I didn’t, I swear!”
In my heart I hadn’t been lying, at least to be conscious of it, as I’d made tremendous decisions, and in the light of them what had happened the previous day, which was all I’d really omitted, hadn’t seemed important. Or, if it had been important once, it wasn’t any more. So I went right on talking, saying the same things over, and she kept sitting there, paying not the slightest attention. Then she got her things from the bedroom, came back, and put them on. Pretty soon she was all dressed, pulling her veil in place. Then, very dignified, she said: “Guillaume, I was happy to go to your bed, and thought only of the kisses I meant to give. Then her scent came as a coup. I mistake not the Russian Leather, it is as her marque de fabrique, and your bed is full of it. It has made me malade, for example. I suppose I understand why you lied—but how can one speak of the scent? It is too much, I must go.”
“She quarreled with me over you.”
“And—you protected me, as I know.”
“They wanted your name. I refused it.”
“There spoke my chevalier.” And then, very quietly: “To him I must keep my word. You shall have the twenty-five thousand—”
“Will you forget the goddam tin?”
“My banker shall call. And now, adieu.”
Chapter 13
SO HE DID, THE NEXT MORNING, a Mr. Dumont, connected with the Louisiana Bank, but I wouldn’t let him in and talked through a crack in the door, telling him come some other time. That was because by then my face looked like liver—purple, blue, black, and yellow all at the same time—as well as being swollen twice its size. So I wasn’t seeing anyone, even waiters bringing my food. I had them leave it outside the door, then pulled the tray in after they’d gone. So I put Mr. Dumont off, and wasn’t any too sure, I admit, I wanted to see him at all. But at night I’d go downstairs, and without going through the lobby, slip out the back way, up Gravier to Carondelet, over to Canal, then down to Royal and on to the Landry flat. I’d skulk around outside, trying to see Mignon, torturing myself by spying on what she was doing. I found out all right. One night, as I stood in the shadows across the street, a cab drove up, and out of it popped Burke. Then he handed her down, and told the cabman to wait. She was laughing gaily, and the two of them went in. How long he stayed I don’t know, whether alone with her I don’t know. I slunk back to the hotel and in by Gravier again, like some cur hit with a whip. But next night I was out there as usual, seeing nothing.
In four or five days, call it a week after Mardi Gras, here came Marie, tapping on the door, saying she had to see me. I let her in, and she asked if Emil could “excuse him,” as “he feels very bad, and wants to be friends with you.” I said I’d accept his apologies through her, and she called in French through the crack.
“Bon,” she said. “He is gone—and feels better now.” She held my face to the light, and made little whistling noises. But when she sat down I asked her: “Yes? What do you want, Marie, that you ‘had’ to see me?”
“You might say you are glad I am here.”
“I might—if I was sure I am.”
“La-la. La-la.”
Actually I wasn’t, as those nights had warned me my success in the root-out operation had fallen short of what I’d assumed it was, and that all my bitter decisions weren’t so final as they might have been. Still, there was no doubt in my mind that they ought to be final at any rate, so I gave her a little pat. That wasn’t difficult; she looked most fetching in a little blue silk dress, red straw hat, red shoes, red gloves, and red shawl, obviously put on to please me. I said: “All right, I’m glad.”
“Guillaume, I have spent some dark nights.”
“With me, it’s been just the opposite—the bright days are what I minded, the way they lit up my face. By night I looked better.”
She went to a wall mirror, touched her chin with one finger. It had a black-and-blue spot on it where my fist had clipped her, though a dab of rice powder hid it. She said: “I too have a face, but at night one communes with the heart.”
“If I bruised that I didn’t mean to.”
“... Donc, you have not seen her.”
“Oh? You
’ve been keeping track?”
“Keeping track, Guillaume, is easy for me in my business—I send Emil, he speaks with some night maid, he pays a bock, he learns what I wish to know. ... She sees Burke—much, every night.”
“It’s a free country, Marie.”
“Perhaps you have not lied.”
“Let’s not start that up again. I lied.”
“... Alors, alors. You lied.”
“But, my reasons were not unfriendly—to you, I’m talking about—and if you still feel friendly to me, then——”
I went over and lifted her face to kiss it, having by that time arrived once more in my mind at the inescapable conclusion that she meant salvation to me. But she pulled away abruptly, and I backed off, sitting down on the sofa. I said: “I’m sorry, Marie—I keep forgetting this face, and how unappetizing it must be.”
She took off her hat, shawl, and gloves, and tossed them on the table. Then she came over, knelt on the sofa beside me, took my face in both hands, and covered it with soft, quick kisses. She said: “The face could not unappetize me! I-I-I-loave your face.”
“Red-white-and-blue and all? And yellow?”
“And green.”
She kissed a spot under one eye.
“Hold still!” I said. “I want some kisses, too!”
“Non, non, non!” she whispered, holding me off at arm’s length. “Your kisses, petit, must wait. They must! It devolves!”
“Devolves? On what?”
“Many things—my heart, for example. And one must know—if one has business partner—in which case les affaires must prevail—or if one has something more—in which case—”
“An affair might be in order?”
“Petit, it cannot be!”
“My mistake, it was just an idea.”
“After these dark nights I have had—”
“It devolves that we know where we’re at?”