Read My Little Box Full of Love Page 2


  Are full of it

  Romeo and Juliet were 

  Happily in-love when they 

  Were wed 

  They honored every vowel 

  But where are they now

  There dead together in a dirt bed

  Love is the type of thing

  That you’ll read about 

  In a book on the nook

  Sitting on the lap

  Of the girl of your dreams

  Thinking about how

  Real it all seems

  So just take my advice 

  Do something better with the rice

  In actuality it’s girls living in a guy’s world

  Knocked out to the truth until you wake

  And running off to find what you thought you heard 

  Family that try to get you to brake

  And even the silver in that lining 

  Fades

  And all those happy endings never

  Had a place to take

  Falling in-love with a girl the size

  Of your thumb is just dumb

  And I always thought the name Cornelius 

  Was corny 

  He said he would never let her fall 

  He did, but then again this is Disney love y’all

  Love is the type of thing 

  The birds sing about in 

  Human understood words 

  In the story line to 

  Every first kiss filled moment 

  Of the written in happenings 

  That could never blow it

  Beck my Ex

  Feeling it in the back of my throat 

  Words like boys get board and run 

  Now I’ve got nothing you should see me

  I’ve reached the point when all I want to do is

  Sleep around hoping I don’t catch bad luck 

  This would have been the song of my heart breaking

  Was it worth is when you slept with her

  B is for believing you’d always be here for me

  E is everything you had the nerve to put me through 

  C is for seeing you for what you really are

  K brings us full circle to me kicking you out the door

  Probably just need time to walk it off

  But when your heart stops pumping 

  Picking up limbs is pretty tough

  And you’re sitting outside so I’m wondering 

  If you’re listening, can you hear me

  But what does it matter anymore 

  You got what you wanted just leave

  Little Surfer Girl

  Little surfer girl with

  Hair of sandy blond and eyes the color of rising dawn

  Wearing a bikini that leaves little to tell 

  And I’m wondering how it felt coming down from heaven as you fell 

  Little beach angel with 

  Wings the color of sea foam green laying back listening to the Beach Boys sing 

  Sun turning your skin into golden cake 

  And I’m wondering if I can buy fries with that shake 

  Little princess of the waves I

  Have watched you at the shore standing on the oceans floor

  Looking at all seven wonders right here 

  I wonder if I’ll get seven digits sometime near 

  Little sunkist breath I 

  Have been noticing you for a while and admire your riding style 

  And while you’re standing still 

  I’m wondering if running through my mind hurts your heel

  Shut up and listen.

  How many attempts do you take to start the day?

  Tear marks under your eyes, working through your misery. 

  Always seem to be trying to fight the world and for what? 

  Why don’t you just let it all go black?

  Slip away into the faded blue, disappear. 

  Because you’re worth something, to me at least. 

  You walk around here so mad at the world.

  Doubting your worth, to yourself and others-

  And I just don’t get it. 

  I just don’t understand why you can’t-

  See the passion in my eyes, feel the warmth-

  In my cries, and hear my truth without thinking-

  I’m telling lies.

  Because you’re worth something, at least to me. 

  I know you’re worth my time and effort to make us work.

  I know that even though you feel that I’ll be better off without-

  You, I know I wouldn’t. I know that it would be the end of us both. 

  Because you’re worth my life. 

  Who's Around You?

  Look at you. Sitting there kicking it with your friends. Talking about the people you thought you knew. Giving heart aches and breaks new meaning and pain stakes.

  That girl you called a slut in class today. She's a virgin, never had sex. She doesn’t even give guys her number to text. And while your only measuring her by what she has too good for them jeans. Doesn’t mean you’ll know she skipped a grade and is only thirteen. So while your huffing and puffing over that fact she respectfully told you no. Doesn’t give you a right to spread rumors to the people you pass as you go. She has never even kissed a boy by the way. 

  The "gay boy" you punched in the hall today. Committed suicide a few minutes ago. His parents didn’t shed a tear though. He’s been gone to them for a while. Upset he couldn’t turn off his wants like a volume dial. So I guess what you did was just the trigger. That amped him to put an actual one under his finger. Beautiful thing is I love you Trevor was the last thing he had to say.

  The pregnant girl walking down the street, she got raped. Limbs bound and mouth duck taped. Nobody was around to hear her scream. And after, nobody asked about her cloths falling apart at the seam. Not a person stopped her on the street to ask about the burses that blended in with the night. Or, the smeared blood on her body because she did put up a fight. But you wouldn't know that form the once heavenly body you meet.

  The boy you called lame. He has to work every night to support his family. Mother strung out father was never there. Sisters too you for the situation to even be aware. Of the constant effort he putts into making her believe that life is worth something. But with all that’s unraveling in his own life he barely knows what that means. But you know what, his employee of the month award in a frame.

  That girl you pushed down the other day. She's already being abused at home. Mother’s boyfriend doesn’t recognize she’s not a punching bag of his own. And her mother see’s the burses hears the complaints that her daughters insides don’t feel right. But she turns a blind eye when he comes home at night. She's use to the pain by now, so she'll let you do as you may.

  That girl you called fat. She's starving herself. Only finds comfort in what make her forget about the things she hasn’t dealt with. Food. Never talked behind her back, never was rude. Only thing that was there for her through the name calling, teasing, and rock throwing. Her only regret, she didn’t eat things lite and easy going. Did you ever consider that? 

  The old man you made fun of cause his ugly scars. He fought for our country. He took shrapnel in the arm and face, dislocated hip, and a bionic knee. He put his life on the line and the re-upped again and again. But only had a little ragged shack at the end. But God at the mercy of his fate. And still doesn’t have more than a penny to date. But when he retired he had silver two bars. 

  The boy you made fun of for crying. His mother's in the St. Row medical clinic. She there pushing life’s limit. Dying with obvious cause but without anything known to aid. She got it from an unremarkable night of getting laid. And now he’s in this dark world alone. All he’s worried about is his mother while his father’s out being “grown”. There is nothing he can do while she's laying there dying. 

  You think you know them. Guess what? 

  You don't!

  Beautiful Smiles
...

  Beautiful smiles,

  Pretty lies, 

  And people dreaming with their eyes open 

  Deceiving laughs,

  Peaceful cries,

  And people who have given up hoping

  Things that make hearts break 

  Saturday night stars,

  Friday night loving, 

  And people’s intentions more selfish then you ever knew

  Moments ago,

  Hopes shoving, 

  And people’s fairytales that never come true

  A chance at paradise.

  Let me have a chance 

  To set the record down and straight 

  Sitting across the table

  From a woman who’d rather die than mate 

  Since we sat down 

  You’re eyes have been on everything but me 

  And I really don’t think that 

  There is much to see

  Think back to how it was 

  Wondering how’d we got to this place 

  Every time you pack to leave 

  My heart picks up a quickened pace 

  But you always choose to stay 

  And I’m to afraid to ask your reason why 

  We’re where tears fall heavy enough to

  Break the wings of a butterfly

  Paradise, this place we’ve come to close to know 

  And I feel I should let my feelings show

  Yosemite

  You send monsters to kill me,

  Yet sings that I never die.

  How is it that you praise my ending- 

  And hold your breath as I wake?

  As if I’m just your trojan pond. 

  You scold me with reality,

  Yet want me to laugh at the lie. 

  Why is it that you throw life’s “glory” in my face-

  And want me not to cringe at the results?

  As if I’m just an emotionless puppet. 

  You said there never be we,

  Yet you can never another try.

  What was it that you push me away-

  And grovel and my going?

  As if I’m facing the plague.

  Grace & Ronnie

  Other peoples hate destroyed my love 

  And I didn’t do anything about it 

  I hopelessly set aside my will to try 

  I would have loved it if I tried 

  If I only in her words, I had believed 

  Maybe I wouldn’t have let others get to me 

  I think he tried to believe me 

  Honestly felt a need to see the truth 

  But I even started to doubt the point 

  There was a serious point in her truth 

  I could tell she wasn’t just stringing me along 

  But my mind wouldn’t go along with my hearts way 

  But even when I told the truth I was alone

  I never seem to get my way

  But he seems to be cool with it 

  I guess it’s me who lying

  I put on a brave face for her not to hurt 

  Well hurt no more than a broken heart 

  I lie now; smile as if my heart doesn’t hurt

  But when I see his face and memories oh eons ago 

  …I wish for him to hold me again 

  Again the hurt of ago come to my side 

  Where I yearn for her to be 

  But that is a grace I don’t deserve 

  I don’t deserve to be nothing sided

  I’m owed his heart but to kind to take 

  What if this all happened again 

  I’ll never take to side of others again

  If I would have held on to the look in her eyes

  I wouldn’t have this chance to want her back 

  Back to now eyes watering again 

  And here he comes, but in my direction it couldn’t be 

  This isn’t happening…

  I have to make this happen again

  She has to still love me, same look in her eyes 

  “I still love you”

  “You, again, see the truth in my eyes” I inhale and let him know, don’t let this moment slip away “Will you believe this time?”

  To My Ears

  My heart beats extremely loud 

  And incredibly close to my ears. 

  Almost as if I’m laying on top of 

  The very thing inside of me.

  Almost as if I’m not the only one 

  Made this way. 

  But I know this could not be. 

  I know no one else’s actually has a heart.

  I learn that the all too often.

  So now here I am.

  Looking down into

  Honey golden eyes.

  Working my hands over 

  Skin that feels as soft as mine.

  Strangest thing is an even and shallow beet. 

  Almost like a heart calling out so sweet. 

  But I know that’s not possible. 

  40 days and 40 nights of sex and disposition

  40 days and 40 nights of sex and disposition.

  One day for every time I thought of and every other missing you.

  Longing for your arms around me and a sweet embrace.

  For 960 hours I think of things we should attempt, but never do.

  I’m calling out for an intricate taste.

  That’s 5.7 weeks and 1.4 months of lust and adaptation. 

  I’ve gotten so screwed around your absents I count down to every decimal.

  Compiling lists and sheets of every red line thing that comes to mind.

  Requiring you timely return, on my list, in just the minimal.

  That the things I want to do to you will be so unkind.

  s(he's) br(ok)en

  She's broken 

  sitting in a pile of her own tears 

  touching the once love token 

  trying to fine something that will subdue her fears 

  He's ok

  drifting along with the beat of life

  not even bothering to look her way 

  utterly oblivious to her internal strife 

  She broke 

  when you acted as if you never told her "I love you"

  but that was just the punch line of a bad joke

  and her silent pleads of it all to end never came true

  Nightmare Before my Eyes

  A night in fright is no delight

  But I keep finding horrors sweet kisses on my lips

  While tantalizing spirits keep my screams from unwinding 

  And hands thrash among my flesh

  Though enticed with dangerous pleasure I know the feeling after will leave me diced 

  Flood of feelings from lost and alone to just wanting one more try 

  Some part of me knows and another finds you to be continuously chose 

  I guess honestly leaving you will require my best

  And will power strong enough, with my demons, to deal

  Which at this particular moment, quite frankly, does not exist 

  So I’ll continue to choose upon sins plentiful menu 

  Knowing one day the bill will catch up to me

  She better watch out.

  My best friend fell in-love one day, 

  To a pretty girl but not very much more.

  But on matters of their heart I have very few to say. 

  Him with her, she’s just his type,

  She’s always there and willing to give a kiss to the easy way.

  One day I asked if he would ever get engaged. 

  He said he was going with a ring her way. 

  I guess I didn’t honestly believe him.

  Until I saw the ring on her finger today. 

  Guess its how it should be,

  As quite as it may. 

  I do truly love my friend and she’d better not break his heart.

  Poem for a girl named Kennedy

/>   As the fog rolls in on a familiar scene 

  Thunder rumbles, lightning strikes

  Nicotine and a faded dream 

  Standing in the moon light, all I see is you 

  Your eyes across the lake 

  Beautiful pools of lust 

  Your words is all it would take 

  To let all of life's worries melt away

  If I close my eyes an stop breathing forever

  I can't watch the past roll away

  When were right under the eye of the storm 

  Palm to palm and body to body 

  You can't even keep we warm

  frozen hearts don't thaw 

  All you do is keep a slushy heart beating

  Sharp crystals pushing through 

  Emotions, cold and barren, slowly repeating 

  If I close my eyes an stop breathing forever

  I can't watch the past roll away

  GoodNight!Kennedy?

  I lost...

  From how you pronounced I love you, 

  as speaking to a love lust love friend.

  To the way you look into her eyes,

  as if longing for our end.

  And I guess somewhere in-between just

  seeing you for everything leading to late night sex

  and good morning kisses turning into wake up texts,

  I lost hope.

  From how you would stop by,

  anytime just because you could.

  To how I now wake up alone,

  anywhere you can’t be found.

  And I perceive some place in the middle of just

  laying with me when I fell ill 

  and sitting alone cold as my home cooked meal,

  I lost faith.

  I lost hope and faith in trying to make you stay. 

  I lost faith and hope that, back to me, you’ll find your way.

  Young Victoria

  I shall be your Young Victoria…

  If I were to die at 42 and you at 81

  I only ask you to do one thing. 

  Live for me.

  To do all the things I would have wanted to do,