‘Oh, I will!’
‘That’s a good girl.’ He reached up, took the knife, the wood, and started away.
Watching him, Pryn thought of her great-aunt, who might like to be remembered as something other than an old, odd woman claiming credit for impossible things. Pryn picked up the bowl, put the leather cover inside it, and slid down until her feet splashed into the hazed water.
Starting up the stairs to the ravine rim, Tratsin waved.
Pryn waved back and walked to the water’s edge. She squatted where the current had cut a finger-deep shelf from the bank, took the leather out, and put it beside her. Digging up a handful of sand, she swished out the bowl with it, swirling the bowl itself in the water. So many things to remember, she thought. So many things to forget. Certainly Enoch, like Ellamon, would have its fables; and, staying here, she would eventually learn them. But fables were the tales a town or a city could bear to recall. Fables taught simple and clear lessons everyone could agree on. Fables were tales that could be put to immediate use, either to instruct or entertain a child, to remind adults of past glories or recurring dangers. But there were always the incidents on the bridge that no one could bear to bring up, or Trat-sin’s leap that, for whatever reason, people just…well, forgot, or women’s talk before the fire, while they carded, cooked, or spun, that no one thought important enough to remember—
Pryn stopped and kneeled back on the sand. She’d been struck with a vision, clear as sunlight on the water before her. Somewhere in Enoch, she knew, watching over some bunch of digging, screeching, rolling children, Bragan would be saying to another Enoch mother: ‘…this northern girl my Tratsin found upriver, who’s staying with us for a day or so—she’s going to have a baby, poor thing. But do you know what she said about my soup—I mean the double soup we make here? She said that as far away as fabled Ellamon, it’s all that anybody can talk of! Travelers speak of it in the markets! She said she’s actually heard them talking—oh, they must be raving in markets all over Nevèrÿon. Imagine…!’ Pryn rinsed the bowl again. Odd, she thought, how words must leave and return, bearing some trace of their journey, for that sort of memory to fix itself. Well, then, she’d done her part to see that something—at least a soup—was remembered.
Certainly it was good soup!
She put the bowl down and began to rinse the leather.
Supper that evening verged on the inedible. Bragan made a paste of yesterday’s fish (a dubious notion to Pryn from the beginning; she’d caught trout at home in her strolls along mountain brooks) with various vegetables and breads and oils. Bragan sat in the corner by the fire with her bowl on her lap. Tratsin sat on the bench along the wall, eating his share with his fingers. He’d brought the carving knife home to work on a bench leg; it leaned against the wall. Gutryd and Kurvan sat on the floor, and Pryn sat on the pallet, eating. The babies took the odd finger full of fishy mush, now from Kurvan, now from their mother. Pear juice bubbled through cracks in the crust of the cobbler cooking at the fire’s edge; now and again Bragan would reach over and turn another side of the bowl to the heat. It smelled quite wonderful. When it was served, though, and Pryn tasted it, she was thrown sharply back to the barbarian eating establishment where she’d worked that night in Kolhari. The spice that had ruined the barbarians’ vegetable stew was all through the fruit. Pryn frowned, said nothing, and tried to eat it anyway.
‘Is Bragan’s cobbler good as her soup?’ Kurvan wanted to know, handing Pryn up a refilled mug that Tratsin, by the beer keg, had just handed him. ‘Maybe her soup will get the same kind of reputation as the fine beers brewed in the south, ’ey?’
Pryn smiled; and drank beer; and nodded; and ate the unpleasant food. The beer, at any rate, she’d begun to enjoy; it made her feel strange and relaxed. There was apparently some joke in the family about Gutryd’s drinking enough to get herself sick at last summer’s Labor Festival. The first three times Kurvan or Bragan made laughing reference to it, Gutryd made jokes in return. But the next time Kurvan spoke of it, Gutryd’s good humor broke. ‘I don’t want some lazy, out-of-work indigent like you saying things like that about me! It was years ago, now. Can’t you forget anything? Stop it, I say!’ She turned sharply. ‘Oh, Tratsin, tell him to stop!’
‘You don’t have to tease her like that…’ Tratsin said seriously to his unserious and grinning friend. Perhaps it was the tone, but the infant, on a pile of cloth in the corner, woke up at that moment long enough to give one cry in the firelight of the over-warm cabin, sigh, and go back to sleep, while the toddler, with mushy hands and dirty face, sat back on her heels in the middle of the floor and giggled. But Bragan pushed to her feet. ‘Now you’ve got to take Pryn over there soon,’ she said, looking about, ‘before there’s no light left at all. Here, I’ll put up some food for you, so you’ll have something for the morning.’
‘Oh,’ Pryn said. ‘Yes. I guess we’d better go.’ She stood up, torn between the discomfort of rejection and the relief at leaving the hot, fishy shack. ‘I’m sure I’ll be all right…’ she added, though no one had suggested otherwise.
Kurvan stood ponderously and picked up Tratsin’s carving knife from against the wall. ‘Yes, we’d best be off.’ He swung it back and forth. ‘You never know what gods, ghosts, and demons we might have to fight, making our way through the ancient and troubled streets of Enoch—’
‘Not in the house, Kurvan!’ A bowl in each hand, Bragan looked back and forth between them. With a glance at Pryn, she chose: ‘Because you won’t have to bring this one back so soon,’ and began to fill it from the pot. ‘You’ve been awfully helpful while you were here. That was very nice of you. I mean in your condition—for the first month or so, sometimes, you just don’t feel up to doing a thing!’
Five minutes later, after goodbyes and gratitude, Pryn pushed out the hide hanging where Tratsin and Kurvan had already gone.
Kurvan swung the blade and lunged over the grass, heavy and naked in the evening.
Tratsin said soberly: ‘That’s not what it’s for, Kurvan.’
Kurvan walked back up the slope, testing the blade with his thumb. ‘So little happens around here, I bet you wish it was a sword, and you could go off with it after brigands and slavers and horrid monsters!’
Tratsin took it. ‘I need it to work. It’s not for games. Come on.’ He started down the slope toward the road.
Kurvan gave Pryn a great grin. ‘No sense of play at all, I tell you!’ He took the food bowl from her and, holding it against his hip, followed Tratsin down. ‘Must all the good people in the world be like that?’
Under twilight, they walked the same road Tratsin had gone off to work on that morning. Tratsin and Kurvan fell into conversation about people Pryn didn’t know, with problems whose backgrounds she didn’t understand. Sometimes strolling beside one of them or the other, sometimes lingering a step or two behind, she realized that, leading neither to the river nor along the ravine, this road was revising her picture of Enoch again simply by passing through the little city itself. Now here was a row of five shacks almost touching. There were two stone houses with three horses tethered under a thatched awning between. Children crossed ahead, two together giggling, one alone dawdling. A man pushed back his door-hanging to shout, ‘Stop your play and come in now, I say!’
Off among other huts a child answered, ‘I said I’ll be there in a minute!’ while a cart filled with gravel rolled up the street. The drivers made some joke with Kurvan that set all four men laughing. A dog trotted behind the clattering wheels.
They passed a partially paved area, with a tarpaulin over one section and a well in its corner, which, if Enoch were anything like Ellamon at all, would be the market area on specified days of the week. A few buildings here even had walls around them. Through more houses Pryn could see another length of wall that may once have enclosed a section of the town itself, or at least acted as a partial fortification.
Pale lightning flickered over the evening. Pryn looked up, remembering
rain. When she looked down again, she said, surprised, ‘We’re on the bridge…!
‘Belhams Bridge it is,’ said Kurvan, ‘propped on old Venns Rock.’
Pryn looked over the stone rail at the ravine and its wide, shallow stream. No, it wasn’t a large town at all. ‘Kurvan, do you know anything about who built the bridge here?’
‘You mean Belham and Venn?’ Kurvan said.
‘Now you see,’ said Tratsin, ‘I’ve lived here all my life and I wasn’t even sure they were people’s names.’
‘I’m not sure they’re names either,’ Kurvan said. ‘At least not of the bridge builders. I used to think they must be a pair of ancient quarry owners who pooled their money to have it put up—they’d be the only people from here rich enough to do it.’
‘Names,’ Tratsin said. ‘Really, that they were names never even occurred to me.’
‘They certainly don’t sound like names from around Enoch. But then,’ Kurvan went on, ‘they may just be old barbarian words for animals or stone. “Belham”—now that sounds like it could be a barbarian word. But up here, nobody has really spoken the old language since before the coming of the Child Empress, whose reign—’ Kurvan ducked his head and touched the back of his fist to his forehead—‘is just and generous. So we’ll probably never know.’
As they reached the bridge’s center, Pryn stepped to the low wall and leaned over, trying to see the great support beneath. (Perhaps Belham had built the entire bridge first; then, after a few years, when it became apparent that it would soon crack from its own weight, clever Venn came and found a way to drag the supporting monolith from downstream to prop the bridge up…) What she saw was her own dark head against the darkening sky, reflected on the shallows flowing around the boulders.
‘That’s where I work,’ Tratsin said.
Pryn stood up and looked.
He was pointing with his carving knife to a low, barracks-like building off beyond the bridge.
‘That’s where Tratsin works,’ Kurvan repeated, ‘and that—’ he pointed to the other side of the road—‘is where you’ll be living.’
‘Where?’ Pryn asked. With the bridge, certainly Enoch proper had ended. ‘Where do you mean?’ Beyond were trees, a crossroads, the workshop; and it was at the trees that Kurvan was pointing.
As they walked on over the bridge’s leaf-scattered flags, Pryn was sure that to live on this side of Enoch, even if the quarry-men passed here in the morning, even if farms were scattered about, or a workshop sat here, or the odd abandoned hut—this was no longer to be within the town, this was no longer to be a part of the village, this was no longer to share in whatever characterized even the tiniest city.
Rejection had been a personal thing that Pryn had dealt with from a sense of practical strategy. But the feeling now as they came off the bridge was a sense of cutting loose, of disorienting freedom. She rubbed her stomach to knead away the discomfort that, having faded almost to nothing sometime before, returned. Yes, it was anger. But it was a kind of disfocused anger about which she could do nothing. That made her want to cry.
As they passed beyond the workshop, Pryn peered among the dark trees, still trying to see what Kurvan indicated.
Tratsin seemed to be having the same trouble, himself, finding these alleged ‘abandoned huts,’ because he laughed now. ‘They were here a couple of days ago, I know! Don’t tell me someone came along and tore them down…’
‘Now up there’s the north-south road,’ Kurvan said, as if orienting himself. ‘That direction would take you back north as far at least as Kolhari. Down there would take you into the barbarian lands. Along there, let me see…that’s the long way around to the stone works. But usually we go the short route back along the stream.’
Pryn suddenly wondered if a joke were being played—if, really, she weren’t summarily being dismissed from the town…
‘There they are!’ Tratsin said. He strode over the road, hacked his knife high into a thin tree at the road’s edge, and, leaving it stuck there, stepped in among the bushes. ‘See them, in there? I just didn’t remember them being so far in off the edge.’
‘An indication,’ declared Kurvan, ‘of how far the road’s edge has shifted since you and I used to come here as boys!’
Pryn followed Tratsin in among the saplings. Transferring the food bowl to his other hip, Kurvan followed Pryn.
Saplings were widely spaced about the brush. Crickets chittered loudly. Without apparent source for the lightning, the sky flickered again.
‘Oh, yes,’ Kurvan said behind her, ‘in two or three days, what with going for water in the ravine and walking in to market, you’ll wear a natural path here. There was one about a year ago, I remember. But I guess it grew up.’
Tratsin stopped in front of something that looked like a haystack, or perhaps a pile of leaves. It was about Pryn’s height; and there was a dark hole low down in it. A few meters away was another such structure, and a few meters after that was half a one—part had collapsed in on itself. A little way from the one before which Tratsin stood were fireplace stones. Summer grasses spired between them.
Pryn looked at the dark hole, her head a little to the side.
She looked for a long time.
Once Kurvan stepped beside her, squatted, and put the food bowl down in the grass by the door. He looked up at Pryn, his smile giving way to curiosity. Then he stood and stepped back.
Tratsin said: ‘Sometimes kids come out here to play. But once they know someone’s living here, they’ll keep off mostly—except the one or two who come to stand across the road and gawk.’
‘Gawking doesn’t hurt anyone,’ Kurvan added. ‘That’ll only be at first. And there won’t be much of it.’
‘Well,’ Pryn took a breath. ‘At least…it will keep the rain off.’ She stooped and, not wanting to, squat-walked through the opening. Inside, the darkness around and above her was prickled with spots of evening light. (So much for the rain, Pryn thought.) She turned awkwardly, scraping her arm on twigs—a branch had fallen loose from the slanted wall. She grasped it and thrust it outside, with rattling leaves.
She heard Kurvan laugh.
The ground under her was soft and, save the odd leaf, clean. She’d been expecting mustiness or mushiness; but the enclosure was dry and, astonishingly, odorless. And that, she went on thinking, is what makes it so unlike a home! Could one live here, have a baby here at the edge of the town? Running the words through her mind, she felt her stomach knot and her emotion swell, blurring the spots of light about her on the riddled walls. To keep back tears, she scrambled out the door again and stood. ‘You know, I could put some mud over it. And I have a way to mix the mud with oil, so that if I take a hollow reed and blow lots of bubbles into it—’
Kurvan stood a few steps away.
‘Where’s Tratsin?’ Pryn asked.
‘Oh,’ Kurvan said. ‘He’s gone…’ He rubbed the side of his beard with the ham of his thumb. ‘To get some things for you. He’ll be back. Later.’ He took a step toward her and smiled. ‘Well, I suppose it isn’t much. But it’s something.’ (Tratsin must have left running, Pryn thought. She couldn’t have been inside half a minute!) ‘I know it’s not so wonderful, but once you clear the grass from around it—here, I’ll help!’ He grasped some brush, tugged it loose, hurled it away, tugged loose some more.
‘No,’ Pryn said. ‘No, you don’t have to…’
Kurvan stopped and looked at her, a little strangely.
Pryn looked back at the hut, which was too small to stand up in or stretch out in. To insulate it by her great aunt’s method…? Would it be worth it? She blinked and thought: No, I’m not going to cry. No, not this time.
‘Um…’ Kurvan said, a little closer to her. ‘It won’t be so bad. The quarry workers go by here every morning and evening. There was a woman who worked here for three years, once. She had a couple of children, too. And she was a lot older than you. She didn’t do badly. There’re always one or three men of an eve
ning, with no wives of their own and an extra iron coin or so. You be nice to them, smile, let them stay for an hour—you’ll get enough money to eat, maybe. Maybe even more. I thought—’ Standing naked in the grass, heavy Kurvan looked at the ground and brushed his hands together, freeing them of the dirt from pulling up the brush—‘Well, you might start by letting me stay for a while. And being nice to me. For just a bit.’ He looked up again, questioning. ‘Of course I don’t have a coin for you. That’s because I’m not working. So you might not want to. With me. I’d understand.’ He reached up and rubbed his beard again, hard. ‘But you’re going to have a baby anyway…so it wouldn’t matter. Really, I could help you out around here a little, clearing things out, straightening things up…’
Pryn stood before the hut, frowning. The realization of what she was being asked to do—what she had been placed here to do—struck the tears from behind her eyes. ‘No,’ she said. ‘No. I don’t want to—’
‘Oh, I understand,’ Kurvan said, quickly. ‘My not having a job and all.’ He sounded almost relieved, as though some obligation had been lifted. Then he pursed his lips. ‘Are you sure? I mean, maybe you just want me to stay and argue a little. Some girls, I know, are like that—’
‘No!’ Pryn repeated, loudly. ‘I really don’t want to. At all!’ Whatever had struck away the tears had also struck away that partial sentence with which she’d begun to protest that it had nothing to do with his working, that she even liked him, that he misunderstood completely. But Kurvan had turned and started away.
Then he stopped. ‘Oh…’ he said, looking back. ‘Tratsin will be coming soon. With the things for you. He was going to stay away for about an hour. To give me time. Then he was going to come. Bragan, you know, isn’t very interested in much right through here, so…he’s probably going to ask you too.’ He turned, stepped up on the road, and started back for the bridge.