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  chapters of a book, an

  love made out to be more than

  it is. We’re like a

  misplaced period, an

  obscure turn of phrase,

  maybe a mistake. Nothing

  more than our hectic and

  sentimental memories can

  make it all worthwhile. Three

  men walk along a railroad’s

  tracks, reaching the

  end of the line before

  turning and making

  back for home. Still

  not clean, still not clean.

  As I’ve committed myself

  to the love of my life, a

  twenty-four hour thought

  lines itself along the

  notion of a

  rude, full-scale

  joke, love, I’m in love,

  as I’ve always been in love.

  Style serves story.

  Story shapes style.

  Don’t you think

  today’s top deals

  make for a sad

  state of affairs?

  Her name, her name,

  in love a toxic stew of emotions

  roiling about in at the

  mere mention of her name.

  An love for the

  pages of memory,

  left in place, her

  face and her voice

  and her name all

  blending to form a

  final paroxysm that

  sickens me to my core.

  But there’s not much

  time left. There’s

  never much time. We’re

  all here only for a short

  time, and after we’ve

  been together I can’t

  fathom the notion

  of being with anyone

  else

  ever

  again.

  25.

  Here we are.

  We are here.

  Condemnation,

  cooperation,

  communion. We’ve

  done all right, since

  you’ve been away,

  and

  what really brings me back

  after all this time is the

  memory of our love,

  the way it hides behind the

  soft, warm haze of so

  many years gone by.

  Love is, is,

  too cruel to be

  wrought upon the

  young, the domestic, the

  puerile and the hired.

  When we’re young,

  love seems such a noble thing,

  but as we withdraw into the

  safety and the security of

  adulthood we are

  made to learn

  the limitations of

  ourselves, outrun by a life

  lived at the speed of dark.

  It’s a ruse.

  When we’re young,

  we begin as something.

  When we age,

  we become something else.

  No more, I tell you, no more.

  In love, I’m like the

  fool’s veneer, a

  scheduled humiliation

  leaving no room

  for her. It’s this place.

  When I close my eyes and

  imagine, I can nearly hear her

  voice. It’s a sweet fantasy,

  childish, demure. Nice

  language, nice stocks.

  It’s been

  so long

  since we’ve

  seen each

  other. It’s

  been too

  long since

  we’ve seen

  each other.

  Broken windows,

  shattered glass.

  Stolen hearts,

  wanted minds.

  She’s the

  love of

  my life.

  If she’s

  reading this

  right now,

  then I’d

  like to

  talk to her

  alone, if

  you’d let

  me have

  a moment

  with her. No,

  it’s not right, it’s

  never been right.

  When the waters

  part and the way

  forward seems clear,

  we learn to turn around

  and to deny ourselves

  the sure path to salvation.

  Drifted, I’ve drifted

  from the notion of

  our love I’ve held,

  of our love as

  pure and innocent,

  but it’s an

  juvenile notion,

  puerile, impossible to

  take seriously. After a

  mid-winter’s snowfall,

  she and I sit in each

  other’s arms, her

  warmth spreading over

  my cold, on the

  road ahead

  tire tracks reaching

  into the distance, stopped

  only by the

  iced-over lake and the

  towering mountains ahead with

  peaks obscured behind

  a late-morning haze. She

  stands. I remain seated. She

  leaves. I stay. You’re

  the love of my life. You’re

  a shining light, a beam of warmth

  amid the frigid harshness of

  winter’s depths. Your skin

  lingers against mine, even after

  we’ve separated. The salty

  taste of your tears lingers

  on the tip of my tongue, and

  it’s as though I’m still

  kissing you while you

  cry in my arms. But

  it’s over. We’re finished.

  In love, I am like the

  cold, mid-winter’s day,

  given to extremes, prone

  to warmth hidden by the rapidly

  darkening skies. Don’t

  leave. Never leave. Leave.

  In Closing.

  Once again, battling the

  blaze we express our

  gratitude, breaking free

  with nothing, having lost

  everything and having lost it

  quickly. Where, besides a

  lover’s reverence could we

  find everything we’ve lost,

  again?

  The End

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