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  School groups were common, and always needed help from volunteers. They wanted to know how many hundreds of gallons of water were given out—more than four thousand; how many different types of services were offered free to the work crew—podiatry, massage therapy, counseling, chiropractic care, nursing care, and optometry among others; and what sort of impact did St. Paul’s and its volunteers have on the work crew—a dramatic one.

  The questions continued, but they weren’t out of line. By the time Jamie was finished talking with the group, she regretted her first impression. The girls were well-mannered, the parent sensitive to the information Jamie shared. It was nearly noon when the group went on their way. Jamie scanned the pews first, and then the perimeter of the chapel. She was thirsty, but the visitors came first. The week she trained as a volunteer Martha had made that clear.

  “Look for fires to put out.” A tiny woman with a big mouth and a heart as vast as the Grand Canyon, Martha was particularly serious about this detail. “Look for the people breaking down and weeping, the ones sitting by themselves in a pew. Those are the ones you should approach. Just so they know you’re there.”

  No fires at the moment.

  Aaron was across the room, talking to another pair of tourists. At least his conversations looked less intense than the one she’d had with Cindy. She trudged up the stairs to the volunteers’ break room. An open case of water bottles sat on the table; she took one and twisted off the lid. Chairs lined the area, but she was tired of sitting. She leaned against the stone wall and looked up at the aged stained glass.

  Funny, the way Martha had said it. Fires to put out. It was one more way Jamie was keeping Jake’s memory alive. No, she didn’t deal with flames and fire hoses. But she was putting out fires all the same. He would’ve been proud of her.

  In fact, if he’d survived, he’d be right here at St. Paul’s with her. All the more reason to volunteer as long as the chapel was open. It gave her purpose, and in that sense it wasn’t only a way to keep Jake’s memory, his sacrifice, alive.

  It was a way to keep herself alive too.

  TWO

  From the moment Clay Michaels started his shift, he felt strange about the day, as if God was trying to tell him something—to warn him. The unsettling sensation churned in his gut and worked through his spine and neck and brain. A knowing, almost, that things weren’t right. Or maybe worse. Maybe something awful was about to happen.

  Clay wasn’t sure exactly what the feeling was, but it bothered him.

  All day, while he hunted down the usual speeders on the Ventura Freeway corridor between the San Fernando Valley and the beach exits, the feeling weighed on him. Each time he approached a car his senses went on heightened alert. A college kid late for his classes at Pepperdine; a business guy making time to his office in Camarillo; a carload of tourists unaware of the speed limits. The stops had been routine, nothing more.

  Still the feeling stayed with him.

  At lunchtime he picked up a McDonald’s salad, drove to one of his lookout spots near the westbound Las Virgenes exit, and settled back into his seat.

  Maybe the feeling meant it was time to move on.

  He’d been to Eric and Laura’s house the night before, and the scene had been the same as always. Or the same as it had been since Eric returned home from New York City. Eric and Laura holding hands; Eric and Laura stealing a kiss or two in the kitchen; Eric and Laura sharing a private glance or a joke or an embrace when they thought no one was looking.

  Clay tried not to notice. He was happy for them, grateful that the horrific events of September 11 had wrought only good for two people he loved so dearly. Still, he couldn’t help but wonder…

  He took a bite of his salad and watched a car speed past. Lucky day, buddy. Only something dangerous would pull Clay away during a break. Especially when the strange feeling was still gnawing at him. It must’ve stemmed from his regrets about Laura, about the fact that their closeness had dissolved—as it had to—the minute Eric walked back through the door. The thing was, too often Clay caught himself watching Laura, remembering the way things were when Eric was gone, when they thought he was dead.

  Clay had gone to college in the Midwest and he’d only been back in Los Angeles a few months when the terrorist attacks occurred. After September 11, while they grieved Eric’s loss, he and Laura grew closer every day. They even traveled to New York City together to search for him.

  When it was finally obvious that he had died in the collapsed towers, they went home, and the bond they shared grew even stronger. Clay had been convinced that he and Laura would wind up together. After all, they’d known each other since high school. Laura had been his first crush.

  Josh—Eric and Laura’s son—connected with Clay immediately, barely missing his father. And Laura had relied on him for everything. But that was not a surprise. Back then, Eric was a sorry excuse for a husband and father. He’d been obsessed with climbing the corporate ladder, making another deal, traveling to Manhattan as often as the company’s president demanded. All at Laura and Josh’s expense.

  Clay took another bite of his salad and rolled down his window. The air smelled of late summer and fresh-cut grass.

  Yes, he’d been shocked to discover Eric was a lousy husband and father. While he was away at school, he assumed things were great between Eric and Laura. Laura was golden, a beautiful woman with a tenderness and compassion that worked its way through everything she said or did. She was worth more than any job, and Clay intended to tell Eric so.

  He never got the chance.

  Instead his brother headed for New York City and disappeared from their lives for three months. When he returned, he was a changed man, the victim of amnesia and mistaken identity.

  Clay stared at the rolling hills in the distance and watched a hawk land on a lone oak tree. God was here; he could feel it. Never mind the strange certainty that something bad was about to happen, God was here. That was all that mattered.

  God…what You did with Eric…it was all part of Your plan, wasn’t it?

  Even now, after three years, he could hardly believe what had happened to his big brother. The story was as strange as it was miraculous. Mistaken for an FDNY guy, a man who apparently loved God and his family in a way that should have earned him honors, Eric was taken to the man’s home and family. For weeks he’d done nothing but read the man’s Bible, his journal, his notes on loving his wife and their daughter.

  When Eric finally remembered who he really was, the other man’s wife helped Eric find his way home. He didn’t talk about the woman much, but she must have been something, first surviving the shock that Eric wasn’t her husband, and then helping him return to Laura and Josh. And though Eric never spoke about his time with the woman, one thing was certain: he was a changed man. Because of that, Laura was the happiest woman in the world, and Josh the happiest eleven-year-old boy.

  And Clay?

  He dated now and then, but no one ever worked their way into his heart the way Laura had. Though his feelings for her weren’t right, they were there. And that made it hard to find someone else, someone he could fall in love with and marry and start a family with. The way he dreamed every day of doing.

  Clay exhaled hard and tossed the empty plastic salad container into the backseat. He was about to take a swig from his iced tea when his radio crackled to life.

  “Urgent! Calling all cars!” The code that followed told Clay the unthinkable had happened. A carjacking and fatal shooting at the gas station at Las Virgenes exit and Ventura Freeway. Suspect a twenty-five-year-old Hispanic male, five-ten, muscular, driving the victim’s blue 2002 Chevy Tahoe. “Suspect is headed west on 101. Suspect is armed and highly dangerous. Repeat, suspect is armed and dangerous.”

  Clay straightened as a rush of adrenaline shot through him. He started his car as he grabbed the radio receiver. He identified himself and confirmed that he was at the location and headed toward the suspect.

  Other officers gave
their location and stated their intent to begin pursuit immediately and provide backup. But none of them were within ten minutes of Clay’s location. He would be first on the scene.

  “God, go with me.”

  He whispered that prayer every time he took a call, but this time there was urgency in his voice. He’d known, hadn’t he? That something would go down today? He flipped his siren on, spun his car around, and darted across the overpass and down the on-ramp onto the westbound lanes of the freeway. The dispatcher’s words screamed at him again. Armed and highly dangerous. He leaned toward the windshield, both hands on the steering wheel.

  Chases were fairly common on California freeways. Chases involving a crazy man who’d already killed one person were not. It took three minutes for Clay to spot the blue Chevy tearing down the freeway, weaving in and out of traffic. This was their guy. But without backup…

  He spoke into the receiver again. “This is Officer Michaels; I’ve got the suspect in sight. How close is backup?”

  Another series of crackling noises filled the car. “We’ve got CHP officers fifteen minutes away. LAPD detectives ten minutes behind you and catching up. Wait if you can.”

  If he could?

  Too late. The suspect must have seen the red lights and heard the siren. He was picking up speed, darting in and out of all three lanes, jeopardizing everyone on the road. That meant Clay had two choices. Pursue him a few feet from his bumper to help warn drivers he was approaching, or back off until he had assistance. But backing off didn’t guarantee the man would slow down or drive more responsibly. He’d just killed a person; he wouldn’t mind if someone else died.

  Clay decided to pursue. It was his job, and he wouldn’t back off just because he was alone.

  He maneuvered his patrol car through the traffic until he was a few yards from the suspect’s bumper. He could see the man looking over his shoulder, but he couldn’t make out his face. Then the man waved his weapon out the window. It wasn’t any ordinary handgun; it was an AK-47. The man aimed it at the sky and fired—clear warning that he intended to kill whoever tried to stop him. Clay tightened his grip on the steering wheel, his palms sweaty. Still no backup in sight.

  Come on, guys…hurry.

  His foot pushed harder at the gas pedal, moving his patrol car even closer to the suspect. He was in firing range, for sure. If the man were able to fire the machine gun at him while still maintaining his high speeds, Clay would already be dead.

  Cars were pulling over now, the way he’d wanted them to do. Amazing what the sound of a siren or the sight of a flashing light could accomplish. Clay glanced at his speedometer. Nearly a hundred miles per hour.

  At that instant, the suspect darted across all three lanes of traffic, sped up the hill at the Kanan Road off-ramp, and made a sharp, squealing left turn. He bumped two cars traveling in the right lane, but kept going.

  Clay pressed the button on his radio receiver. “Suspect has exited the freeway at Kanan Road, heading west.”

  “Copy. Backup is closing in, a few minutes away.”

  Clay gritted his teeth. Please, God…I need help. Hurry them up. He heard no holy whispers or answers. But the strange feeling grew stronger. Whatever was up ahead, he had to be ready. God, be with me, whatever happens.

  They sped past a series of condos and buildings as other cars pulled to the side or darted out of their way. Again the suspect waved his gun out the window, and Clay checked his rearview mirror. Nothing.

  They neared the twisting turns of the canyon, turns that would force Clay to slow down or risk flying over the edge. Suddenly the suspect jerked his car onto the gravelly shoulder, kicking up a cloud of rocks and dust. Clay was still close behind him, and for a moment he couldn’t see anything. He heard the debris hit his windshield as he slammed on his brakes.

  The cloud settled, and he saw the man was out of his car, the assault weapon trained on Clay’s vehicle. He was going to fire before Clay had a chance to get out of his car, let alone grab his revolver. The cloud of dust and rocks had been the suspect’s cover, and now Clay was trapped.

  Here he sat, the barrel of an AK-47 pointed straight at him, and he could only think of one thing: I knew this was coming.

  He ducked just as the man braced himself and fired.

  A spray of bullets peppered Clay’s windshield, shattering the glass and piercing where he’d been sitting just seconds ago. Clay cocked his revolver, glanced over the dash and fired. He dropped back down as the suspect sprayed another round of bullets. This time they came at closer range, louder, more fierce. The man’s footsteps were closing in. Clay gritted his teeth. What could he do? At this close range, he couldn’t fire without making himself a target. He raised his hand above the dash and fired blindly. Again the man let loose a burst of gunfire. He was closer now. It was only a matter of time.

  How could God let it end this way? Death before he’d ever really found life—the sort of life he’d wanted, with a wife and a family. Senseless death because of a crazy man with an assault weapon. Clay’s breathing came in short bursts. God…no! Help me, please!

  At that instant he heard two things: sirens and footsteps, both coming closer. Backup was almost here. A few more seconds and everything would be okay. The man shouted something in Spanish, something about having a bad life.

  Anger welled up in Clay. He wasn’t going to sit there and wait to be shot at; if he was going down, he’d go down fighting. God…be with me. He peered over the dash and spotted the man, ten yards away and closing. The suspect saw Clay too. The man pulled the trigger just as Clay fired once—straight at the man’s chest—then ducked to the floorboard area.

  Even as another spray of bullets ripped through his car, Clay heard the sirens getting louder. His heart pounded. He listened, but he couldn’t hear the man coming closer. Had he shot him? Had he actually killed a man? The sirens were right behind him now, and he heard two cars pull onto the shoulder, then the sound of doors slamming. A voice yelled, “Police, don’t move!”

  Someone was running up from behind, along the passenger side of Clay’s car. It could be the suspect, but not likely. Still, Clay aimed his revolver at the opposite door just as Detective Joe Reynolds flung it open and looked inside. “Michaels, you okay?”

  “The suspect?”

  “He’s dead.” The officer was a black man, a former attorney who’d grown tired of the corporate world and took up police work. He was a detective now, one of the best. He worked the west end and had an office down the hall from the lunchroom. Clay considered him his closest friend in the department.

  “I…I killed him?”

  “You did everyone a favor.”

  Clay’s body shook as relief worked its way through him. “A few more seconds and…”

  “What’d he do, pull over and come after you?”

  “Yeah.” Clay set his gun on the seat and pushed himself up. “The guy…he was crazy.”

  “Must’ve been flying over a hundred.”

  “He was.”

  Reynolds was still out of breath. “We got here fast as we could. He was dying on the ground, still reaching for his weapon when we pulled up.” He ran his fingers over the bullet holes scattered across the front seat. “Someone must be looking out for you, Michaels. AK-47s don’t usually miss.”

  It was true. Even though he’d ducked into the floorboard, he should’ve been hit. Weapons like the assault rifle spray their bullets, and one easily could have ripped through the dash and killed him. “I was praying the whole time.”

  Reynolds cocked his head. “I’d say the Big Guy heard you.”

  Clay glanced around and saw another officer, one he didn’t know as well, in his patrol car on the radio. Probably calling for someone to come get the body.

  Clay looked at the covered figure lying a few yards from his car. Nausea rushed up in his belly. “First time I ever shot a suspect.”

  “They’ll want you to take some time, a paid leave.” Reynolds studied him. “Part of the i
nvestigation.”

  “Right.” He’d had no choice, of course. The man would have killed him if he hadn’t shot. In a situation like that—with a crazed suspect running at you, firing a gun—Clay had been taught there was just one way to do it: shoot to kill.

  “You okay?” Reynolds brushed the glass off the passenger seat and sat down beside Clay, his feet hanging out of the car.

  “Yeah, I guess.” He couldn’t take his eyes off the covered body. “I don’t like how I feel.”

  “Look, Michaels—” Reynolds stared straight ahead, as though remembering something far away—“I’ve been on the other side of this game.” He looked at Clay. “Let’s say you miss. Let’s say ol’ crazy man takes you down instead of the other way around. He could be out on the streets shooting again in twenty, fifteen if the circumstances were right.”

  “Fifteen years?”

  “I saw it all the time when I wore a suit and tie. All the time.” Reynolds glared at the place where the body lay. “No cop likes to shoot his gun. But in this case it was your life or his and, well, let’s just say things worked out right today. You handled him better than the courts could’ve.” He gave Clay a halfhearted shove in the shoulder. “Of course, you didn’t hear me say that.”

  Reynolds climbed out of the car and shut the door. Clay wasn’t shaking anymore, but the ache in his stomach hadn’t gone away. A man was dead because he’d fired his gun. The thought sank in. He’d killed a man on the job; the possibility that always exists for an officer had actually happened.

  Clay looked down. He still had shattered glass on his pants. He climbed out of the car, dusted off the crumbly pieces, and leaned against his door. Reynolds was right. It was his life or the suspect’s. And if he was honest with himself, in a small way it felt good to fire the gun at a man who’d already killed someone, who’d put every driver they’d passed on the freeway at risk. Yes, things had worked out for the best, and if he were faced with the situation again, he’d respond the same way.