Vern’s eyes never left Joe’s. “She’s a smart woman,” Vern said. “She’ll steer you in the right direction. D’you want me to talk to her?”
“That won’t be necessary.” Joe felt a twinge of resentment toward his former boss. Vern obviously thought he could talk Marybeth into making Joe take the job. Vern thought he could talk anybody into anything. Usually, he could. Vern was a highly intelligent man and very persuasive. But for a reason Joe couldn’t quite articulate, he found himself resisting the job offer.
“I know one thing,” Joe said, drinking at the beer. “I know I won’t be ready to make any big moves until these outfitter murders are finally solved.”
Vern sat perfectly still. He looked at Joe with disbelief.
“What in the hell is there to solve, Joe?” Vern asked, his voice low and tight. “Clyde Lidgard shot three local white trash outfitters, and you guys shot him. Case closed.”
“There are too many unanswered questions,” Joe said quickly. “Why did he do it? Why was he up there? Why did he stay there if he did it? Why did Ote Keeley come to my house? What was in that cooler? In my mind, there are a lot of things that have to be answered.”
Vern sat perfectly still with a look of outright contempt on his face, his eyes boring a hole in Joe. Although he felt his resolve weakening, Joe looked back and did not flinch. He steeled himself against Vern, determined to not let him talk him out of continuing the investigation.
“Joe,” Vern said, his voice barely over a whisper. “Let’s you and me take a couple of minutes and talk about the real fucking world.” Vern bit off the last three words with a vehemence that caught Joe completely off guard and unnerved him.
“I don’t know the answers to those questions, and I frankly don’t give a shit,” Vern hissed. “Murders are messy. When the killer is shot before he can talk, there are all kinds of loose ends. This is not an exact science—you should know that by now. These things aren’t always wrapped up neatly. Sometimes when it’s too neat, an innocent man goes to prison, but usually the guy is scum and should be in there anyway. Don’t beat yourself up trying to put every piece together. Forget about it and move on with your life, Joe.”
Joe thought about what Vern said. And he thought about Vern. There was an urgency there Joe couldn’t understand and hadn’t expected.
“What about the cooler Ote brought to my house?” Joe asked. “What was in it?”
Vern brought his hand down on the table with a wet slap.
“Again, who the fuck cares?” Vern asked, reaching over and taking one of Joe’s shots. “Let it go.”
“I talked to a couple of hunters today who asked me if I knew anything about an endangered species being found in the mountains,” Joe said. “They wouldn’t elaborate, and I don’t know if they were kidding or not.”
“Who were they?” Vern asked. He knew everybody.
“Hans and Jack.”
“Fuck ’em,” Vern said, dismissing them. “Coupla gossipy old hens.”
“I don’t know about that,” Joe said. “I always thought they were all right.”
“Joe . . .” Vern sighed.
“I’ve got an obligation to find out and report on it,” Joe said. “You know that.”
Vern sneered back. “An obligation to whom?” he asked. “The Wyoming Game and Fish Department? The U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service? The Sierra Fucking Club? The president of the United States?”
“Vern,” Joe reasoned. “You know what we’re supposed to do if we find something like this. Or even suspect it. And what if it’s tied to the outfitter murders in some way?”
Vern rolled his eyes. He used to do the same thing when he thought Joe had said something incredibly naive.
“You know, Joe, what I’m about to say will shock you,” Vern said. “But I know good men who have found an endangered species on their land and shot it and buried it without a second thought rather than announce it to the world. I know a rancher over by Cody who cornered some kind of wolverine-type creature that he knew was supposed to be extinct. He blew that little sucker away and fed the pieces to his dogs. That rancher knew that if he had reported it, he would have been kicked off of his own land so that a bunch of bark-beetle elitists could claim they were saving the world.”
One of the men from the stools at the bar weaved near their booth as he made his way toward the bathroom. Vern leaned across the table to Joe and kept his voice down.
“Do you realize what would happen to this valley if it got out that there might be something in the mountains? Even if it was nothing more than a silly rumor started by a couple of gossipy old hens? Even if there was no more to it than a couple of future Alzheimer’s candidates blabbering into the wind? Or even if you, as the game warden, announced that you thought there was something up there?
“Think of the people who work in the lumber mill,” Vern said. “Think of the logging truck drivers, the cowboys, the outfitters, the fishing guides. They’d be unemployed while the Feds roped off the entire valley for the future. Environmentalists from all over the country would move in with their little round glasses and sandals and start giving press conferences on how they’re here to protect the innocent little creatures from the ignorant locals. Whether or not anything was ever found up there, the environmentalists would keep things tied up in the courts for decades just so that they can tell their members they’re actually doing something with their dues.
“Third-generation ranchers would lose their ranches. Support people—teachers, retailers, restaurant owners—would lose their jobs or move on eventually. All because Joe Pickett, master game warden extraordinaire, suspects that there might be some rare thing in the mountains.
“Half the people in this town would hate your guts,” Vern said. “Some would lose their jobs. Your cute little girlies would catch all kinds of horrible crap in school. They would bear the brunt of it, Joe, and it would all be your fault.”
Joe found himself breaking his gaze with Vern and looking down at the table, but thinking, InterWest Resources and their pipeline wouldn’t do too well either.
Vern continued, “It might be different if the endangered species laws either made any sense biologically or if they weren’t just political mind games. But neither is true. Listen.”
Vern went on to recount how there were more than 950 plants and animals listed as either “endangered” or “threatened” and an additional 4,000 species that were candidates for future listings. And how 20 years and billions of dollars later, fewer than 30 species have come off the “endangered” list. He said the laws were hypocritical, that species considered “cute,” like wolves and grizzly bears, fared better than species that were ugly to human eyes, and no rational scientific basis was used. He said he had looked at the numbers and figured out that more than $190 million had been spent on bald eagles, northern spotted owls, redcockaded woodpeckers, grizzly bears, West Indian manatees, Florida scrub jays, and whooping cranes. Then he spoke in broad, global terms and stated that at least 99 percent of all species that had ever lived on earth had become extinct naturally, without man’s “interference.” Mass extinctions had happened since the dawn of time. Snail darters, Colorado squawfish, spotted owls, and Mount Graham red squirrels wouldn’t be missed by anyone or anything.
“Animals die, Joe,” Vern said. “Species go belly up. It happened before the first fish crawled on land and figured out lungs, and it will continue to happen. What gives us the right to be so arrogant that we think we can control what lives and what dies? We aren’t as almighty as we like to think when it comes to affecting the real world, the natural world. All of the nuclear bombs on earth have about one ten-thousandth the power of the asteroid that slammed into the planet and killed all of the dinosaurs. What humans can do to change the planet is puny. We’re deluding ourselves if we think we’re so fucking smart that we can either save or create a species. How do we know that by saving some little dickey bird that we aren’t preventing a new and improved dickey bird from
evolving? Who do we think we are?” Vern asked. “Who the hell are we to take on God?”
Joe sat back. He felt as though he had been pummeled.
Vern noted the reaction and, obviously thinking he had persuaded Joe, drank the last shot of bourbon and smiled.
“Speaking of God,” Vern said. “Have you ever heard of the God Squad?”
Joe shook his head no.
“It’s a real thing. I didn’t make this up. It’s composed of the secretary of interior, the secretary of the army, the secretary of agriculture, and a couple of other guys. It is their job, when it comes down to the nut cutting, to decide which species live or die in the national interest. Can you believe the incredible arrogance of that?”
Joe and Vern finished their beers in silence. As Joe got up to leave, Vern reached out and held his arm. Their eyes locked.
“There is an offer on the table, Joe. The window of opportunity for that job offer is starting to close. If you choose not to take advantage of it, you will be making a mistake.”
Joe was unsure whether he was being advised or threatened.
“I’ll let you know, Vern,” Joe said. “Seems like there are a lot of things I need to decide.”
“You’ll do the right thing,” Vern said, patting Joe on the hand. “You’re a good man, Joe, and you’ll do the right thing.”
14
Sheridan and Lucy named the largest creature—the first one they had seen—Lucky, the smaller, brown creature Hippity-Hop, and the long, thin creature Elway. They decided the animals were a family, and a happy one. Lucky was the dad, Hippity-Hop was the mom, and Elway was the son. The names, they thought, matched their personalities. And boy, could they eat.
They ate everything. Not only would they emerge from the woodpile for Cheerios, but they would stuff bits of hot dog, luncheon meat, and vegetables into their cheeks. The only thing they didn’t seem to like were jelly beans, and that upset Lucy because she had a whole plastic purse full of them.
During dinner, Sheridan had learned to hide bits of food in her napkin to take out to the backyard later. Lucy ate all of her dinner, but she would gladly sacrifice her snack because she wasn’t much on sweets. Together, while Mom was clearing dishes or talking on the telephone or visiting with Grandmother Missy, Sheridan and Lucy would ask to play in the backyard (the wish was always granted) and then go feed the secret pets.
Lucky, Hippity-Hop, and Elway weren’t silent after all. They could chirp and chatter and make a trilling sound like a muted baby’s rattle when they were annoyed or playful. Sheridan sometimes thought the animals were so loud that there was no way Mom or Grandmother Missy wouldn’t hear them, but they never seemed to.
Lucy would eventually give the secret away, Sheridan thought. She was just too little to keep her mouth shut. Just that evening after dinner Lucy said she wanted to go outside and “feed Lucky.” Sheridan explained that Lucky, along with Elway and Hippity-Hop, were their imaginary pets. Mom complimented Sheridan for playing so nicely with her little sister. Grandmother Missy beamed at them both.
When the creatures were done eating or didn’t emerge from the logs, Lucy wanted to “play animals” with Sheridan. Sheridan went along, which meant Lucy pretended she was one of the creatures and Sheridan was feeding her. Sheridan would throw imaginary food on the grass and Lucy, a good mimic, would replicate the creatures as they picked up the food in their claws and stuffed it into their cheeks.
Sheridan knew it wouldn’t last. Something would eventually happen. It always did.
But while the creatures were alive and playful, and while they just belonged to Sheridan (and Lucy), she would enjoy it. Having the secret and seeing those little faces pop out of the woodpile was a wonderful treat—and something she looked forward to every afternoon on the bus ride home.
While it lasted, it was magic.
15
Joe went back to the break lands before sunrise. He drove there in a heavy, wet mist and had to use the four-wheel drive to get to the top of his lookout hill. The day broke wet and dark, and the rain increased. The clouds were low and filled the sky, and the water pooled on the slick bentonite clay of the plateaus or created chocolate brown ponds or streams that foamed through draws. The valley was socked in, and from what he could see through his spotting scope, the antelope hunters had stayed in their camps. The roads had already deteriorated and were either marble-slick or mushy, depending on the terrain. He decided to get out of the area while the option was still available. On the way back he winched out a crew of hunters stuck in a ditch and followed them down to the main road.
Once he reached home, Joe left his boots and yellow slicker in the mudroom, put his hat crown-down on his desk, and called Game and Fish Headquarters in Cheyenne and asked for the Wildlife Biology Section. He told a technician about the package he had sent them and asked whether the contents had been examined yet. He was asked to hold.
From his chair, he could smell coffee from the kitchen, and he could hear the murmuring of Marybeth and her mother at the table.
At last a man identifying himself as the chief biologist came on the line. Joe had heard of him but had never met him. Joe listened to him and felt his scalp twitch.
“What do you mean you don’t have it?” Joe asked.
“Exactly that,” the biologist said, the righteous annoyance of a higher rank apparent. “No one here has seen it or recalls receiving it. How did you send it to us?”
Joe described the small box wrapped in brown paper and tape.
“You sent it regular mail? Not UPS? Not Federal Express? Not registered mail?” the biologist fired at Joe. “So there’s no receipt. You sent it so there was no way to trace it?”
Joe felt his temper rise. He kept his voice low and even. “I called ahead and was instructed to send it by mail,” Joe said. “I was told that in these days of limited state budgets, we were to avoid extravagances like Federal Express.”
“Who told you that?” the biologist asked flatly.
“I think it was you,” Joe said. The voice sounded the same. “I called you the day I found it.”
There was a long, frustrated sigh over the telephone. “Well, we don’t have it.”
“Can you look again? It’s important,” Joe said. “Nothing I’ve had examined has ever been lost before, either from there to here or from here to there.”
There was a long silence. “Sure, we can look. But no one here recalls getting it.”
He asked Joe to confirm the address he sent it to and the section. He asked Joe if he had put enough postage on the parcel.
Joe started to answer when the biologist asked him to hold again because he said someone might have found it. Joe sat back in his swivel chair with the receiver up to his ear. He recalled how the boys in Cheyenne often felt about the wardens in the field and vice versa. Vern had warned him about it years ago—how the agency directors sometimes felt that field wardens would go native and forget they were state employees, that the wardens would start to think of themselves as advocates for local ranchers or hunters or boosters. Some of the Cheyenne brass thought of the field wardens as prima donnas out there with their fancy trucks, guns, and badges. Like they were local celebrities rather than subordinates. But the resentment could be mutual. Joe had never placed a call to headquarters before 8 A.M. or after 5 P.M., knowing that anyone he needed to talk to would only be in during those hours. He might start the day by patrolling the Bighorn break lands at 5 A.M., but things were different in Cheyenne. Biologists got paid the same whether they found a package or didn’t find it.
Out of the corner of his eye, he could see Sheridan and Lucy playing in the living room. Lucy was being a dog or something and was raising up on her hind legs for an invisible treat that Sheridan was giving her. It was cute. Marybeth had said the night before that the girls seemed to be doing extremely well and that the Ote Keeley incident had not seemed to upset them. Marybeth said both girls had spent the last two days playing near the woodpile in the backya
rd and never even mentioned what had happened there. She said Sheridan, Miss Emotional, had even been consistently sunny. Marybeth said she was beginning to feel that maybe there would be nothing to worry about after all.
“Nope, sorry,” the biologist said as he came back to the telephone. “We found a package and opened it, and it was a piece of a dead eagle a warden sent us from Ranchester to see if it had been shot.”
Joe cursed under his breath. The biologist agreed to call him if the package ever showed up.
Joe walked into the kitchen for a cup of coffee. Marybeth and Missy were sitting at the table and stopped talking when he walked in, confirming that they had been talking about him. He filled his cup and turned and leaned against the counter. Marybeth looked radiant, and she smiled at him. Missy was smiling, too, and she looked at him with a kind of detached respect he had not seen from her before. Neither was about to ask him about the job offer or what he thought about it. Yet. They were both trying to gauge his mood.
Lucy crawled into the kitchen on all fours and propped up on her haunches near the table with her mouth open. Missy fed her a piece of a waffle from a plate. Joe guessed this routine had been going on most of the morning.
“There’s your treat, little doggie,” Missy said.
“I’m not a doggie,” Lucy said over her shoulder as she scooted back into the living room to be with her sister.
“I don’t know what’s going on, but the girls are being angels,” Marybeth told Joe. “Maybe their grandmother brings out the best in them.”
Joe laughed, and Missy gave Marybeth a look.
The telephone rang in the office, and Joe excused himself to answer it. There was silence on the other end after Joe identified himself. The barely perceptible hiss in the line indicated it was long distance.
“You don’t know me.” It was a woman’s voice. “I work at headquarters in Cheyenne.” Her voice was steady, but nervous. She was barely audible.