Jamie’s monologue had slowed to fifteen revolutions per minute, and there were only nine minutes left to go by the ship’s clock.
“Were they big sums? I mean, banking big? How much money was Larry talking about?”
Jamie again consulted the board behind my head. “If you were to think of a figure in the order of the figure that certain trustees and their advisors were deliberating this morning—I would not think you far wrong.”
“Thirty million sterling? What on earth would they be buying? Where did they get it from? I mean that’s money, isn’t it? Even for you? It certainly is for me! Whatever was he up to? I’m absolutely entranced.”
“Laundering, what it came down to. Acting under instructions, my feeling, and hadn’t got the hang of ’em. Had some associate or partner we’d be dealing with up north. He’d be some sort of co-signatory up to certain sums. Stank.”
My time was running out. So was Jamie.
“Did he say where up north?”
“What’s that?”
“You said he had some pal up north.”
“Macclesfield. An associate in Macclesfield. Could have been Manchester. No, it wasn’t. It was Macclesfield. Used to screw a girl there. Cindy. Worked in the silk trade. Silky Cindy.”
“But where in God’s name does Larry Pettifer get thirty million pounds from? All right, they’re not his—but they must be somebody’s!”
Wait. Count. Pray. Smile.
“Mafias,” Jamie growled. “Isn’t that what they call ’em over there? Competing mafias? Papers are full of ’em.” He shook his head and muttered something like His business.
“So what did you do?” I asked, trying desperately to preserve a tone of amused mystification. “Call in your partners? Send him packing?”
The ship’s clock was ticking like a bomb, but to my despair Jamie still said nothing. Until suddenly he gave a violent start of impatience, as if it were I who had kept him waiting.
“One doesn’t send people packing in these situations, thank you. One gives ’em lunch. One talks old times. Says one will think about it, discuss it with the board. I did tell ’em there were a couple of problems, some practical, some ethical. I suggested it would be nice if they told me who their client actually was, what he was proposing to trade in, and what the tax status would be. A little authentication would help. I suggested they organise an approach through the Foreign Office—at a high level, of course. They did have some letter with them from the embassy in London. Signed by some official. Not the ambassador. Could have been forged. Could have been kosher. One simply doesn’t know.”
He was examining the assay marks on the back of his coffee spoon, comparing them with the spoon from the empty place next to him. “Broken set,” he muttered. “Extraordinary thing.” He was crestfallen. “Hell did that happen? Ask Ma Peters. Bloody careless.”
“You said they, Jamie,” I said.
“What’s that, old boy?”
I put a hand on his sleeve. “I’m sorry, Jamie—I may have misheard. I thought you said they. Do you mean Larry didn’t come alone? I don’t think I quite got that bit.”
“ ‘They’ is correct.” He was still studying the spoons.
My head was racing. Checheyev? The associate in Macclesfield? Or Larry’s chum from Hull University?
“So who came too?” I asked.
To my surprise, Jamie gave a superior and very salacious smile.
“Pettifer brought an assistant. Dolly girl is what I would have called her. Assistant was going to be his intermediary, he said. Do the brainwork. Mathematics not up Larry’s street, but this girl— mustard. Brighter than Larry by a mile, when it came to numbers.”
I was greatly amused. I must have been, for I gave a jolly laugh, though the inside of me was frozen in alarm. “All right, Jamie. Don’t hold out on me. She was Russian. She had snow on her boots.”
His superior smile would not let go of him. He put down the offending spoons. “Wrong. Decent English girl, far as you could tell. Decently dressed. Spoke the Queen’s English well as you and me. Wouldn’t be surprised if she was the moving force. Given her a job here any day.”
“Pretty?”
“No. Not pretty. She was beautiful. Word I use very seldom, matter o’ fact. Hell she was doing mixed up with a shit like Pettifer, God knows.” He had entered the territory he loved best. “Figure to kill for. Lovely little bottom. Legs all the way up. Sat right there in front of me, swingin’ ’em at me.” He struck a philosophical note. “One of the most extraordinary things in life, Tim, and I’ve observed it over and over. Pretty girl, have anyone she wants, who does she go for? A shit. Pound to a penny Pettifer beats her up. She probably likes it. Masochist. Same as m’ sister-in-law, Angie. Money to burn, looks to kill, Angie goes from one shit to another. Lucky to have any teeth left, way they treat her.”
“Did she have a name?” I asked.
“Sally. Sally someone.” One side of his mouth slipped down in a terrible smirk. “Jet-black hair, all pinned up on the top of her head, waiting for you to let it down. Absolute fatal weakness of mine. Love a black bush. Whole of womanhood there. Gorgeous.”
I was hearing nothing, seeing nothing, feeling nothing. I was behaving and collecting and recording. That was all I was doing in the world, while Jamie looked sad and old and nodded at me and slurped his port.
“Have you heard from him since?”
“Not a peep. Neither of ’em. Rather think they got the message. Not the first time we’ve shown a con man the door. Or his moll.”
I had five minutes left by the ship’s clock.
“Did you pass him on to someone? Suggest where he might go?”
A frightful grimace, a last charge. “We’re not very clued up on that type of business at Pringle Brothers, thank you. Used to be a little outfit up the road called B.C.C.I. that handled stuff like that once upon a time. One gathers they’re under a bit of a cloud.”
I had a penultimate question. I sent my rent-a-drool smile with it, and a lot of good fellowship and grateful savouring of the port.
“And you didn’t think, Jamie, when he’d gone—or they had— to pick up the phone to whoever it was I used to work for and tip them the wink about Larry? Now that I’m no longer at that desk? Larry and his girl?”
Jamie Pringle fixed me in a bull-like glare of outrage.
“Rat on Larry? Hell are you talking about? I’m a banker. If he’d strangled his dear mother and bunged her in a bucket of acid, I suppose it’s just conceivable I’d pick up the phone to somebody. But when a fellow Oriel man comes in here to discuss a banking proposition with me—which, all right, I happen to think stinks to high heaven—I am sworn to absolute and total secrecy. You want to tell ’em, that’s your business. Help yourself.”
It was achieved. Only the terrible hurdle remained. Perhaps it was the self-torturer in me who had decreed that, after forcing the question too hard upon the police and Pew-Merriman, I should this time hold it back until the very end. Or perhaps it was simply the field man, telling me to gather in everything else first, before going for the crown jewels.
“So when, Jamie?”
“’S’at, old boy?”
He was half asleep.
“When? When did they descend on you? Larry and his girl?
They came by appointment, presumably, or you wouldn’t have given them lunch,” I suggested, hoping by this means to encourage him to look in his diary or pick up the house phone to Pandora.
“Grouse,” he announced loudly, and at first I thought he was telling me that he or Larry—or even Emma—had lodged some sort of complaint.
“Gave ’em grouse,” he continued. “Ma Peters did. Oriel man. Old times. Hadn’t seen him for twenty-five years. Put out the red carpet. Duty. Last week of September, last grouse o’ the season, far as this house was concerned. Bloody Arabs overshot ’em. Worse than Eyeties. Come mid-September, hardly a bird left. Self-discipline essential. Family hold back, whatever the foreigners do. Can?
??t say wogs these days. Not PC.”
My mouth was numb. I had had a dental injection. My upper gums were frozen, and my tongue had disappeared down my throat.
“So the end of September,” I managed, as if addressing the very old or deaf. “Right? Right, Jamie? They came to you in the last week of September? Jolly generous of you to give them grouse. I hope they were duly grateful. Considering you might just as well have shown them the door. I mean I would have been grateful. So would you. End of September. Yes?”
I fumbled on, but I don’t know that Jamie ever answered me: not beyond a show of shrugging and grimacing and backbench burbling of sounds like “Naa” and “Quarright.” I know the clock struck. I remember the bun face of Pandora appearing round the door, announcing Cinderella’s coach. I remember thinking, as the thousand-voiced choir of angels struck up inside my head, that if you’re celebrating your emergence from the black light, a bottle of ’55 Cheval Blanc and a large dose of Graham’s ’27 port make an appropriately celestial accompaniment.
Jamie Pringle had risen heavily to his feet and was displaying a passion I had not seen in him outside the rugby field.
“Pandora. Just the girl. Look here. Bloody outrage. Get on to Mrs. Peters now, will you, darling? Broken set of teaspoons. Could ruin the whole service. Find out why and find out where and find out who.”
But I had found out when.
My euphoria, if it survived in certain areas of my head, was short-lived in the rest of them. The white light to which I had been restored enabled me to see more clearly than ever the monstrosity of their shared betrayal. All right, I had taken a gun. I had conspired, plotted, hired a car, and driven into the night determined to slaughter my friend and agent of a lifetime. But he had deserved it! And so had she!
I walked.
Emma.
I was drunk. Not wine drunk. Or not consciously. After twenty years in the Office, I have a head like an ox. But drunk all the same: blind, humiliated drunk.
Emma.
Who are you being or seeming, with your hair up, swinging your legs at Jamie Pringle? What other lies have you been living while you laughed at me behind my back, the two of you—at Timbo, stuffy old Timbo, the late developer with his rent-a-drool smile?
Playing the angel. Toiling at your Hopeless Causes till late into the night. Telephoning, tap-tapping, looking grave, looking high-minded, preoccupied, aloof, borrowing the Sunbeam to slip down to the post, to the railway station, to Bristol. For the oppressed of the earth. For Larry.
I walked. I fumed. I rejoiced. I fumed again.
Yet furious as I was, I still noticed how the nondescript couple across the street abandoned their study of a shop window and set off along the far pavement at the same speed and in the same direction as myself. And I knew there would be a team of three pedestrians behind me, and a tame car or van or taxicab to service them. And therefore I knew, for all my anger and relief and new purpose and altered status as a creature of the common daylight, that I must attend to the seeming. I must make no gesture that suggested I was anything but a well-lunched trustee and former spy going about his legitimate pursuits. And I was grateful, to Larry, to Emma, and to my watchers, for imposing this responsibility on me. Because the seeming had always been an activity with rules, a discipline to keep the anarchy at bay, and the anarchy inside me was at this moment in full cry:
Emma! How in God’s name did he spirit you this far down the road?
Larry! You manipulative, vengeful, thieving bastard.
Both of you! What the hell are you up to, and why?
Cranmer! You’re not a murderer! You can walk tall! You’re clean!
I was a fool.
A raging, furious, overcontrolled fool, even if I was a fool set free. I had imagined myself terribly in love, and admitted a viper to my life.
Adopted, spoiled, served, anointed her, doted on her idiosyncrasies. Lavished jewels and freedom on her, made her my clotheshorse and my love object, my woman to end all women, icon, goddess, daughter, and, as Larry would say, slave. Loved her for her love of me, for her spells of gravitas and laughter; for her frailty and promiscuity and for the trust she placed in my protection. And all this on the strength of what? On what impulse, beyond the dewy longings of a late developer?
In my new, unfettered fury, a veritable windstorm of unreason took possession of me: she was a trap, a honey trap, foisted on me by a conspiracy of my enemies! I, Cranmer, evader, closet romantic, veteran of a raft of futile love affairs, had fallen cloak-over-dagger for the oldest trick in the book!
She was a setup from the first day! By Larry. By Checheyev. By Zorin. By the two of them, the three of them together, the four of them!
But why? To what end? To use me as cover? Honeybrook as cover? It was too absurd.
Ashamed of falling prey to such wayward, unprofessional imaginings, I drew back from them and looked for other ways to stoke my burgeoning paranoia.
What did I know of her? On my own insistence, nothing, except what she had cared to tell me or, on Sundays, tell Larry in my hearing. Merriman’s doggy bag still lay behind its curtain in my priesthole, unread, gathering dust, a symbol of my lover’s integrity.
An Italian name.
A dead father.
An Irish mother.
A drifting, dilettante childhood.
An English boarding school.
Studied music in Vienna.
Gone east, gone mystic, espoused every softheaded cause known to the hippie trail, gone to the devil.
Come home, drifted again, studied more music, composed it, arranged it; cofounded something called the Alternative Chamber Group, introducing the traditional instruments of the new world to the classical music of the old—or was it the other way round?
Got bored, attended a summer course at Cambridge, read or didn’t read the comfortable words of Lawrence Pettifer on the degeneracy of the West. Returned to London, gave herself to anyone who asked nicely. Scared herself, met Cranmer, appointed him her willing, doting, blinded protector.
Met Larry. Vanished. Reappeared with hair up, calling herself Sally and swinging her legs at Jamie Pringle.
My Emma. My false dawn.
We are naked, playing. She is arranging her black hair round my shoulders.
“Shall I call you Timbo?”
“No.”
“Because Larry does?”
“Yes.”
“I love you, you see. So naturally I’ll call you anything you want. I’ll call you Hey You, if you want. I’m completely flexible.”
“Tim will do nicely. Just Tim. And yes, you are completely flexible.”
We are lying in front of the fire in her bedroom. She has hidden her head in my neck.
“You’re a spy, aren’t you?”
“Of course. How did you guess?”
“This morning. Watching you read your mail.”
“You mean you saw the secret ink?”
“You don’t put things in wastepaper baskets. Anything to be thrown away gets put in a plastic bag and taken to the incinerator. By you.”
“I’m a very young wine grower. I was born six months ago when I met you.” But a germ of suspicion has been planted. Why was she watching me? Why was she thinking about me that way? What has Larry put into her head that causes her to put her protector under close surveillance?
I had reached my club. In the hall, old men were reading stock prices. Someone greeted me, Gordon someone: Gordon, marvellous, how’s Prunella? Settling into a leather armchair in the smoking room, I stared into an unreadable newspaper while I listened to the murmurs of men who thought their murmurs mattered. The seasonal fog lapped at the long sash windows. Charlie, the Nigerian porter, came round to switch on the reading lamps. Outside in Pall Mall my gallant band of watchers were stamping their feet in doorways and envying the Friday commuters going home for the weekend. I could see them clearly in my other mind. I sat in the smoking room till dusk, not reading but seeming. The grandfather clock chimed six. N
ot a retired admiral stirred.
“Larry really believes, doesn’t he?” she is saying.
A Sunday evening. We are in the drawing room. Larry left ten minutes ago. I have poured myself a large Scotch and am slumped in my armchair like a boxer between rounds.
“What in?” I ask.
Ignored.
“I never met an Englishman who believes before. Most of them just say ‘on the one hand and on the other hand’ and don’t do anything. It’s as if the middle bits of his engine had been taken out.”
“I still don’t get it. What does he believe?”
I have annoyed her.
“Never mind. You obviously weren’t listening.”
I take another pull of Scotch. “Perhaps we hear different things,” I say.
What did I mean by that? I wondered as I gazed through the lace-curtained windows of the smoking room at the smouldering pink night. What did I hear that Emma didn’t, when Larry did his material for her, sang his political arias, excited her, drew her out, shamed her and forgave her, drew her out a little more? I was listening to Larry the great seducer, I decided, replying to my own question. I was thinking that my prejudices were leading me astray, that Larry was far smarter than I had ever been at stealing hearts. And that for twenty years I had harboured a very one-sided delusion about who, in the great Cranmer-Pettifer standoff, was running whom.
After that, while the coal fire in the smoking room burned lazily in the grate, I fell to wondering whether Larry, by some occult means I had yet to understand, had almost engineered his murder. And whether, if I had succeeded in delivering the fatal blow instead of pulling back from it, I would have been doing him a favour.
The pink fog that I had observed through the windows of my club thickened as my cab began its ascent of Haverstock Hill. We were entering Emma’s badland. It began, so far as I had ever been able to establish, around Belsize Village and extended to Whitestone Pond in the north, Kentish Town to the east, and Finchley Road to the west. Whatever lay between was enemy territory.