“I got plenty of faith in you,” Peggy Listrom joked, standing up and gathering her notebook and pencils. “But I don’t know about myself yet.”
“I can’t believe you said that,” Julie teased. “Didn’t I hear you bragging at the beginning of class that you were able to sound out some of the street names on the signs in town this week?”
When Peggy grinned and picked up the infant who was napping in the chair in front of her, Julie sobered and decided a little reinforcement was needed to keep them going at this early stage. “Before you all go, maybe you should remind yourselves about why you wanted to learn to read? Rosalie, what about you?”
“That’s easy. I want to go to the city where there’s plenty of jobs and get off welfare, but I can’t get a job because I can’t fill out an application form. Even if I could figure out a way to get by that, I still couldn’t get a decent job unless I could read.”
Two other women nodded agreement, and Julie looked at Pauline. “Pauline, why do you want to learn to read?”
She grinned a little sheepishly. “I’d sort of like to show my husband he’s wrong. I’d like to be able to stand up to him just once and prove I’m not stupid. And then . . .” she trailed off self-consciously.
“And then?” Julie prodded gently.
“And then,” she finished on a winsome sigh, “I’d like to be able to sit down and help my kids with their homework.”
Julie looked at Debby Sue Cassidy, a thirty-year-old with straight brown hair, luminous brown eyes, and a quiet demeanor who’d been pulled out of school repeatedly by her itinerant parents before she finally dropped out of school in the fifth grade. She in particular struck Julie as being unusually bright and, from what little she’d said in class, very creative and rather well spoken. She worked as a maid; she had the studious demeanor of a librarian. Hesitantly, she admitted, “If I could do anything after I learn to read, there’s just one thing I’d do.”
“What’s that?” Julie asked, smiling back at her.
“Don’t laugh, but I’d like to write a book.”
“I’m not laughing,” Julie said gently.
“I think I could do it someday. I mean, I have good ideas for stories, and I know how to tell them out loud, only I can’t write them down. I—I listen to books on tape—you know, for the blind, even though I’m not blind. I feel like I am sometimes, though. I feel like I’m in this dark tunnel, only there’s no way out, except maybe now there is. If I can really learn to read.”
Those admissions brought an outpouring of other admissions, and Julie began to get a clearer picture of the life these women were relegated to living. Each of them had no self-esteem; they clearly took a lot of bullying from the men they lived with or were married to, and they thought they deserved nothing better. By the time she closed the classroom door behind her, she was ten minutes late for dinner and more resolved than ever to get the money she needed to buy the sort of classroom aids that would help them the fastest.
12
TED’S SQUAD CAR WAS PARKED in front of her parents’ house when Julie pulled up, and Carl was walking up the drive, talking to him. Carl’s blue Blazer, which he insisted she take to Amarillo instead of her less reliable car, was parked in the driveway, and Julie pulled in beside it. Both men turned to wait for her, and even after all these years, she still felt a glow of pride and astonishment at how tall and handsome her brothers had grown up to be and how warm and loving they had remained to her. “Hi, Sis!” Ted said, wrapping her in a hug.
“Hi,” she said, returning it. “How’s the law business?” Ted was a Keaton deputy sheriff, but he’d just earned his law degree and was waiting to get the results of his bar exams.
“Thriving,” he joked. “I gave Mrs. Herkowitz a citation for jaywalking this afternoon. It made my day.” Despite his attempt at humor, there was a thread of cynicism in his voice that had been there for the past three years, since the failure of his brief marriage to the daughter of Keaton’s richest citizen. The experience had hurt and then hardened him, and the entire family knew it and hated it.
Carl, on the other hand, had been married for six months and was all smiles and optimism as he gave her a bear hug. “Sara can’t come to dinner tonight, she still isn’t over her cold,” he explained.
The porch light was on and Mary Mathison appeared in the open doorway beneath its glow, an apron around her waist. Except for some gray strands in her dark hair and the fact that she’d slowed a little since her heart attack, she was still as pretty and vital and warm as ever. “Children,” she called, “hurry up! Dinner’s getting cold.”
Reverend Mathison was standing behind her, still tall and straight, but he wore glasses all the time now, and his hair was almost completely gray. “Hurry along,” he said, hugging Julie and patting his sons on their shoulders as they shed their jackets.
The only thing that had changed about Mathison family dinners over the years was that Mary Mathison preferred to use the dining room and treat these meals as special occasions, now that all three of her children were grown and had places of their own. The dinners themselves, however, hadn’t changed; they were still an occasion for laughter and sharing, a time when problems were occasionally mentioned and solutions offered. Conversation passed around the dinner table along with platters of roast beef, mashed potatoes, and fresh vegetables. “How is construction going on the Addelson house?” Julie’s father asked Carl as soon as they’d said grace.
“Not great. In fact, it’s driving me crazy. The plumber connected the hot water to the cold water taps, the electrician connected the porch light to the switch above the disposal, so when you turn on the disposal, the porch light goes on—”
Normally, Julie was extremely sympathetic to the trials and tribulations of her brother’s construction business, but at the moment, Carl’s predicament struck her as more humorous than distressing. “Where did he put the switch for the disposal?” she teased.
“Herman connected that to the oven fan. He was in one of his ‘moods’ again. I honestly think he’s so glad to have work that he deliberately messes it up so that he can make it last longer.”
“In that case, you’d better make sure he didn’t connect the line for the dryer to something else. I mean, it would be a shame if Mayor Addelson moved in, turned on the dryer, and blew up his built-in microwave ovens.”
“This is not completely a joking matter, Julie. Mayor Addelson’s attorney insisted on putting a penalty clause in the building contract. If I don’t have his place finished by April, it could cost me $150 a day, unless there’s an act of God that prevents it.”
Julie struggled to keep her face straight, but remnants of laughter lingered in her eyes at the image of Mayor Addelson flipping the switch on his porch light and having his disposal roar to life instead. Besides being mayor, Edward Addelson owned the bank, the Ford dealership, and the hardware store, as well as much of the land that lay to the west of Keaton. Everyone in Keaton knew about Herman Henkleman; he was an electrician by trade, a bachelor by choice, and an eccentric by genetic heritage. Like his father, Herman lived alone in a tiny shack on the edge of town, worked when he pleased, sang when he drank, and expounded on history with a vocabulary and knowledge that would have done credit to a university professor when he was sober. “I don’t think you have to worry about Mayor Addelson invoking a penalty clause,” Julie said with amusement, “Herman definitely qualifies as an act of God. He’s like hurricanes and earthquakes—unpredictable, uncontrollable. Everyone knows that.”
Carl laughed then, a deep throaty chuckle. “You’re right,” he said. “If Mayor Addelson takes me to court, a local jury would rule in my favor.”
The moment of silence that followed was filled with shared, if unspoken, understanding, then Carl sighed and said, “I don’t know what got into him. When Herman’s not in one of his ‘moods,’ he’s the best electrician I’ve ever seen. I wanted to give him a chance to get back on his feet with some money in his pocket, and I figured he’d be ok
ay.”
“Mayor Addelson is not going to take you to court if you’re a few days late with his house,” Reverend Mathison put in, his lips curved in an appreciative smile as he helped himself to roast beef. “He’s a fair man. He knows you’re the best builder this side of Dallas and that you’re giving him excellent value for his money.”
“You’re right,” Carl agreed. “Let’s talk about something more cheerful. Julie, you’ve been very evasive for weeks. Now come clean: Are you going to marry Greg or not?”
“Oh!” she said. “Well, I . . . we . . .” The whole family watched in amusement as she began to reposition the silverware beside her plate, then she carefully turned the bowl of mashed potatoes so the design was exactly in the center. Ted burst out laughing and she caught herself up short, flushing. Since childhood, whenever she felt uncertain or worried, she had a sudden compulsive need to straighten objects out and put them in perfect order, whether that “object” was her bedroom closet, her kitchen cabinets, or the tableware. She slanted them an embarrassed grin, “I think so. Someday.”
She was still thinking so when the three of them were leaving the house and Herman Henkleman came walking up the sidewalk, hat in his hand, looking sheepish and apologetic. At seventy, he was tall and gaunt, but when he straightened his shoulders, as he did now, there was a dignity about him that invariably tugged at Julie’s heart. “Evenin’, everyone,” he said to the group gathered on the front porch, then he turned to Carl and said, “I know I’m off the Addelson job, Carl, but I was hoping you’d just let me fix up the work I botched. That’s all I ask. I don’t want to be paid or nothing, but I let you down, and I’d like to make up for that, best as I can.”
“Herman, I’m sorry, but I can’t—”
The older man held up his hand, a long-fingered, surprisingly aristocratic hand. “Carl, ain’t nobody but me who can figure out what all I screwed up there. I wasn’t feelin’ good for a whole week, only I didn’t want to say nothing to you, because I was afraid you’d think I’m old and sickly and take me off the job. I’m not serious-sick, it was just the flu. Right now, your new electrician probably thinks he knows what all I did wrong, but if something shows up after you drywall that place, you’ll be tearin’ down walls a week after Addelson moves in. You know you can’t switch electricians in the middle of a job without having trouble later.”
Carl hesitated and Julie and Ted delicately gave him a chance to relent in privacy. After saying good-bye, they headed for Carl’s Blazer.
“There’s a blue norther headed for the Panhandle,” Ted said, shivering a little in his light jacket. “If it starts snowing up there, you’ll be glad you have four-wheel drive. I wish Carl didn’t need his phone in his pickup. I’d feel better if he’d been able to leave it in the Blazer.”
“I’ll be fine,” Julie promised cheerfully pressing a kiss to his cheek. She watched him in the rearview mirror as she drove away. He stood on the sidewalk with his hands in his pockets, a tall, slender, attractive blond man with a cold, forlorn look on his face. It was the same expression she’d seen often since his divorce from Katherine Cahill. Katherine had been her best friend and still was even though she’d moved to Dallas now. Neither Katherine nor Ted spoke ill of the other to Julie, and she couldn’t understand why two people she loved so much couldn’t love each other. Shoving that depressing thought aside, Julie turned her mind to her trip to Amarillo tomorrow. She hoped it didn’t snow.
* * *
“Hey, Zack,” the whisper was almost inaudible, “What are you gonna do if it starts snowing the day after tomorrow, like the weather forecast said?” Dominic Sandini leaned down from the upper bunk and looked at the man who was stretched out on the cot below, staring at the ceiling. “Zack, did you hear me?” he added in a louder whisper.
Pulling his mind from the endless thoughts of his imminent escape and the risks associated with it, Zack slowly turned his head and looked at the wiry, olive-skinned thirty-year-old who shared his cell in the Amarillo State Penitentiary and was privy to his escape plans because he was part of them. Dominic’s uncle was a major part of those same plans—a retired bookie, according to information in the prison library, with supposed connections to the Las Vegas Mafia. Zack had paid Enrico Sandini a fortune to pave the way once he made his escape. He had done it on Dominic’s assurance that his uncle was “an honorable man,” but he had no actual way of knowing for a few more hours if the money he’d instructed Matt Farrell to transfer into Sandini’s Swiss bank account was actually buying him a thing. “I’ll handle it,” he said flatly.
“Well, when you ‘handle it,’ don’t forget you owe me ten bucks. We had that bet on the Bears game last year and you lost. Remember?”
“I’ll pay you when I get out of here.” In case anyone was listening, Zack added, “Someday.”
With a conspiratorial grin, Sandini leaned back, slid his thumb under the flap of the letter he’d received earlier that day, crossed his feet at the ankles, and lapsed into silence as he read.
Ten lousy dollars . . . Zack thought grimly, remembering when he used to hand out ten-dollar tips to messengers and bellmen as casually as if it was play money. In this hellhole where he’d spent the last five years, men killed each other for ten dollars. Ten dollars could buy anything that was available here, like a fistful of marijuana cigarettes, a handful of uppers or downers, and magazines that catered to any perversion. Those were just a few of the little “luxuries” that money could buy in this place. Normally he tried never to think of the way he had once lived; it made this twelve by fifteen-foot cell with a sink, a toilet, and two cots even more unbearable, but now that he was resolved to escape or die trying, he wanted to remember it. The memory would reinforce his resolve to make the break, no matter the cost or the risk. He wanted to remember the rage he felt the first day when the cell door clanged shut and the next day, when a gang of thugs surrounded him in the prison yard, taunting, “C’mon, mooovie staaaar, show us how you won all them mooovie fights.” It was pure, blind, irrational fury that had sent him plowing into the biggest of the group, fury and an unformed wish to end his life there and then, as quickly as possible, but not until he’d inflicted pain on his tormentor. And he inflicted plenty that day. He’d been in good shape, and all those moves he’d learned for the phoney fights in his “tough guy” roles weren’t wasted. By the time the fight was stopped, Zack had three broken ribs and a bruised kidney, but two of his opponents looked a hell of a lot worse.
His triumph landed him in solitary for a week, but no one fooled with him after that. Word spread that he was a maniac, and even the worst of the goons gave him a wide berth. He was, after all, a convicted murderer, not an ordinary petty felon. That also won him a certain amount of respect. It had taken him three years to wise up and realize that the easiest path was to become a trustee, which meant behaving himself and playing the game like a good little soldier. And he had done that, he had even come to like some of the cons, but he had never, in all these years, known peace. Peace could only come with acceptance of his fate, and not once during his long incarceration, not even for a moment, had he been able to do what convicts were advised to do: He could not accept his confinement and simply put in his time here. He’d learned to play the game and pretend that he had “adjusted,” but the truth was just the opposite. The truth was that every morning, when his eyes opened, the inner battle began again and it continued to rage until he finally fell asleep. He had to get out of here before it drove him insane. His plan was solid: Every Wednesday, Warden Hadley, who ran the prison like his own personal Stalag 17, attended a community meeting in Amarillo; Zack was his driver, and Sandini, his gofer. Today was Wednesday, and everything Zack needed to make good his escape had been waiting for him in Amarillo, but at the last minute, Hadley, who was the featured speaker this week had told Zack the meeting was rescheduled for Friday. Zack’s jaw clenched. If not for that delay, Zack would already be free. Or dead. Now, he had to wait until the day after tomorrow
to make his break, and he didn’t know how he was going to bear the suspense.
Closing his eyes, he went over the plan again. It was filled with pitfalls, but Dominic Sandini was trustworthy, so he had help on the inside. Everything on the outside was supposedly taken care of by Enrico Sandini—money, transportation, and a new identity. After that, the rest was up to Zack. At this point, what worried him the most were the things he couldn’t accurately predict or allow for, like the weather and the location of possible roadblocks. Even with his careful planning, there were a thousand tiny things that could happen and cause a domino effect that could result in the collapse of his entire scheme. The risk was enormous, but it didn’t matter. Not really. He only had two choices: to stay in this hellhole and let it destroy what was left of his mind or escape and risk the probability of being shot down when they tried to capture him. As far as he was concerned, being killed was infinitely preferable to rotting in here.
Even if he made good his escape, he knew they’d never stop hunting for him. For the rest of his life—probably his very short life—he’d never be able to relax or stop looking over his shoulder, no matter what part of the world he made it to. It was worth it. Anything was worth it.
“Holy shit!” Sandini’s exuberant shout jolted Zack from his preoccupation with his escape plans. “Gina’s getting married!” He waved the letter he’d been reading, and when Zack merely turned his head and gave him a blank look, he said it louder. “Zack, did you hear what I said? My sister Gina’s getting married in two weeks! She’s marrying Guido Dorelli.”
“That’s a good choice,” Zack said dryly, “since he’s the one who got her pregnant.”
“Yeah, but like I told you, Mama wasn’t going to let her marry him.”
“Because he’s a loan shark,” Zack assumed after pausing for a moment to recall what he knew of Guido.
“Hell, no. I mean, a guy’s got to make a living, Mama understands that. Guido just lends money to people in need, that’s all.”