Read Poems From the Underground Volume 2 Page 8

  You were lying

  I felt safe with you

  Immortality

  Is the key

  To understanding

  If I live forever in you

  Maybe then

  I will see

  Why you

  Denied me

  And lied to me

  And took all I ever had

  But when I imagine

  Your happiness without me

  I don't feel so bad

   

  I want you

  To be truly happy

  But what is this

  Doin to me

  I can't be

  Happy myself

  My God,

  Why have you

  Forsaken me

  You've crippled me

  You stole my soul

  For selfishness

  For ignorance

  For false illusions

  From Now Til Forever

  I don't wanna be

  Anything

  You don't want me to be

  I can't say everything

  I wanna say

  Anyway, Baby

  I don't care enough

  For you, you think

  So why would

  Ya wanna stay

  Every day is a pain

  I can't explain

  That much

  Of how I feel

  Without losin it

  All this time

  I've known I can't make

  You mine again

  I gave up my right

  To be lovin you

  Cuz I was abusin it

  I don't want you to leave

  But you won't believe

  A word from me

  Could we ever be

  Not in misery

  And live our lives

  Happily, Baby

  I just want

  All you can give

  Please give it to me

  Give in to me

  You are my lady

   

  Am I supposed to

  Spend all my life

  Missin you

  Wishin you

  Would let me

  Ever see

  Us together

  Is it anything

  You could begin to consider

  Or will we be

  Parting ways

  From now

  Til forever

   

  I don't mean

  To treat you like I have

  And never allow

  My love to be seen

  Or really give you

  Anything

  I know you

  Wanna break

  Completely clean

  It's clear to me

  You'll no longer

  Be here for me

  Always in between us

  There was

  Everything

  But anything we needed

  It didn't help

  That I begged and pleaded

  I want you to find

  Your happiness

  Wherever that may be

  You will never find it

  As long as you're here with me

   

  Am I supposed to

  Spend all my life

  Missin you

  Wishin you

  Would let me

  Ever see

  Us together

  Is it anything

  You could begin to consider

  Or will we be

  Parting ways

  From now

  Til forever

   

  Someday,

  Whenever

  You decide

  You want it all back

  I don't think

  That I could

  Let you come back

   

  Am I supposed to

  Spend all my life

  Missin you

  Wishin you

  Would let me

  Ever see

  Us together

  Is it anything

  You could begin to consider

  Or will we be

  Parting ways

  From now

  Til forever

  Decisions

  How do you

  Make decisions

  When it's so hard

  To choose

  You know you

  Could win it all

  Or you might lose

  How do you decide

  To stay or to go

  How can you

  Make a decision

  To just say

  I don't know

  I’ll Never Forget

  I have loved

  In my life

  And lost

  Including you

  And before

  Though sometimes

  I felt better instantly

  Now now...

  Cuz you're still here

  Physically

  You say you

  Can't love me anymore

  I can't love you anymore

  Than I already do!

  I'll never forget

  How much I love you!

  Syko

  I kept tellin you

  I never

  Wanted someone new

  You couldn't seem

  To get that

  I had planned

  To always be your man

  I wanted only you

  And you weren't

  Number two!

  That why I

  Took your hand

  You just couldn't

  Get past any of it!

  I thought it would last

  And now,

  You've gone and done it!

   

  You've awoken

  The dark part of me

  Made from being broken

  And from bad memories

  You better watch out!

  He's out to get you!

  Be careful now!

  He won't let you

  Do this to me!

  He gets revenge for me

  He sees through me!

   

  All you had to do

  Was let me

  Keep lovin you

  But no, you couldn't do it

  You wanted to make me

  Be on my own

  And live my life alone

  I thought this would happen

  I guess I knew it

   

  I'm hurting so bad!

  You've made me mad!

  You think I'm fucked up?!

  Yeah, I know you're right

  But I've tried

  With all my might

  To overcome it,

  But you've pushed me to it!

   

  You've awoken

  The dark part of me

  Made from being broken

  And from bad memories

  You better watch out!

  He's out to get you!

  Be careful now!

  He won't let you

  Do this to me!

  He gets revenge for me

  He sees through me!

   

  Didn't I fill your life

  With fun

  I'm not always aware

  Of what I've done

  But whoever made you see

  I was not

  What you need

  Yeah, that was

  Probably me!

  Forever forgetful

  Eternally regretful

  While unknowing

  Sometimes I see

  Why you're going!

   

  You've awoken

  The dark part of me

  Made from being broken

  And from bad memories

  You better watch out!

  He's out to get you!

  Be careful now!

  He won't let you

  Do this to me!

  He gets revenge for me

  He sees through me!

 
 

  You should get out now!

  Before I do

  Somethin else,

  Somethin that you

  Won't survive!!!!

  Goodbye

  I don't think

  I could ever tell you

  Goodbye

  Every time

  I imagine it

  I want to cry

  From now

  Until the day I die

  I'll wish

  You could've stayed

  And that's why...

   

  I'll never say goodbye

  Goodbye means accepting

  That you're parting ways

  And can't let yourselves

  Ever try

  And that is why

  I will never say goodbye!

  No Matter

  Lovin you

  Isn't easy to do

  You came

  Without instructions

  And with lots of troubles

  That I never knew

   

  No matter

  What I say or do

  It won't change a thing

  And no matter

  Where we'll be

  I can't let go

  Of the good memories

  No matter the fact

  That you and me

  Are through

  I might move on

  But I won't let it be true

  That I ever

  Gave up on you!

   

  No matter

  How you might feel right now

  I still love you

  More than love should allow!

  No matter

  The consequences

  Of what I have done

  I'll never look back

  To find the truth

  Cuz I know in my heart

  Time can't erase

  What I think of you!

   

  Regret won't exist

  There'll be absolutely none

  No matter everything

  That you've done to me

  I hope

  You can always

  Let yourself be

  The person I

  Know you could've been

  No matter

  That we'll probably

  Never see each other again!

   

  It's all no matter!

  Baby, it don't matter!

  Cuz I don't matter to you!

  I want you to be happy

  Even if the happiness

  Can't be with me!

  I want you to find

  Your piece of mind

  I want you to

  Finally be free!

   

  No matter

  How you might feel right now

  I still love you

  More than love should allow!

  No matter

  The consequences

  Of what I have done

  I'll never look back

  To find the truth

  Cuz I know in my heart

  Time can't erase

  What I think of you!

  C’mon, Baby, Just Go!

  I've said some things

  I didn't mean

  Haven't you ever done that

  You're blamin me

  Like our problems

  Were all my fault

   

  Sorry if I

  Can't be a doormat

  And my heart

  Is a vault

  With walls surroundin it

  Where you can't get in

  But I've been

  Tearin those walls down

  And I can't begin

  To apologize enough

  To make it up to you

  But I guess...

  That givin you

  All I can give

  Will just never do!

   

  If you think you have to

  If there's no way around it

  C'mon, Baby, just go!

  If you don't know

  If you love me

  And any trust we had

  We've drowned it

  C'mon, Baby, just go!

   

  There's probably

  No chance to reconcile

  No way to ever be

  Half as happy as we were

  Years ago

  Half of the soul is you

  Half of it is me

  I knew one of us'd go

   

  But if half is missin

  The sould can never be

  What it should be

  Nowhere near together

  Torn apart at the seams

   

  A broken man you're leavin

  Where do you stand

  Are you broken at all

  I always thought you were

  The girl of my dreams!

  And you made the call

  Ya know

  This is killin me!

   

  If you think you have to

  If there's no way around it

  C'mon, Baby, just go!

  If you don't know

  If you love me

  And any trust we had

  We've drowned it

  C'mon, Baby, just go!

   

  What were you

  Expectin me to do

  I was tryin so hard

  To prove my love to you!

  I'm not nearly a man

  Anymore,

  Only a boy inside

  I don't know how to deal

  With what I feel

  But I usually can hide

  Everything!

   

  If you think you have to

  If there's no way around it

  C'mon, Baby, just go!

  If you don't know

  If you love me

  And any trust we had

  We've drowned it

  C'mon, Baby, just go!

   

  I know you need to,

  So, Baby, just go!

  That Can Never Be

  Heartache...

  That says it all!

  Please make...

  Me a promise right now

  You'll move on

  And forget me somehow

  I obviously made

  You unhappy

  You thought my love for you

  Was dead

  The stress in my life

  Always went

  To my head

  Neglect...

  The word I despise

  But I see you

  Know it well

  From the look in your eyes

   

  Maybe you will

  Forgive me some day

  The apologies

  Aren't enough to say

  A very big part of me

  Is hoping

  You'll come back to me

  But I know

  You don't care

  And that can never be

   

  You have to walk away

  From all you've known

  For so long

  Sayin goodbye

  Would feel so wrong

  How do you express

  The feelings you feel

  There is too much

  Emotion in me

  But I wanna believe

  It's all a dream,

  That none of this is real!

   

  Did I make you

  Hate me so much

  Will I ever

  Get you back

  The pain is such

  A torment I can't take

  But I try not to lie

  And I'll tell you

  The promise I'll make

  Somewhere in my heart,

  Baby, I'll always love you!

   

  Maybe you will

  Forgive me some day

  The apologies

  Aren't enough to say

  A very big part of me
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  Is hoping

  You'll come back to me

  But I know

  You don't care

  And that can never be

   

  I swear

  Down to the depths

  Of my soul

  I never cheated

  And I don't think

  You did either

  I believe you!

  But what did happen

  It stole

  Such a large

  Piece of my heart

  And crumbled it

  So much of it died

  But I thought that we

  Could work it all out

  You know I tried!

   

  Maybe you will

  Forgive me some day

  The apologies

  Aren't enough to say

  A very big part of me

  Is hoping

  You'll come back to me

  But I know

  You don't care

  And that can never be

   

  It'll never be

  As long as you don't love me

  I Wish You’d Always Be Mine

  Please let me know

  I'm just dreaming

  Give me the chance

  To do it all over again

  Inside of me,

  I can't stop screaming

  I'm supposed to

  Start everything new

  And move on

  Without you

   

  I don't have any clue

  Where to begin

  Tell me I'm just crazy

  And I'm imagining

  All of this

  You said

  You don't love me

  Anymore

  Let me make one wish

   

  I wish you'd stay

  Here with me

  I wish that

  We could have

  Another moment to be

  All we were

  And all we should be

  If I could wish one thing

  I'd wish

  You would stay

  For all of time

  I wish

  You'd always be mine

   

  If I'm not

  Losin my mind yet

  I know I will

  Cuz I can't forget

  Everything we had

  I can't believe

  After how much I loved you

  And all I did for you

  You could be so mad

   

  Why do you

  Need to leave

  I can't understand

  Your reasons

  What happened to you

  Not bein able to live

  Without me

  What didn't I sacrifice

  Tell me,

  And I'll do it twice

   

  I wish you'd stay

  Here with me

  I wish that

  We could have

  Another moment to be

  All we were

  And all we should be

  If I could wish one thing

  I'd wish

  You would stay

  For all of time

  I wish

  You'd always be mine

   

  What do you need

  From me

  For you not to go

  Please tell me now

  Cuz I just don't know

  I don't know what to do

  This kind of love,

  Never again will I find

  Baby,

  I wish

  You'd always be mine

   

  I wish you'd stay

  Here with me

  I wish that

  We could have

  Another moment to be

  All we were

  And all we should be

  If I could wish one thing

  I'd wish

  You would stay

  For all of time

  I wish

  You'd always be mine

  Dying

  I'll keep hangin on

  I won't let myself

  Be a victim anymore

  I don't care

  If you forgive me

  You can cause me pain

  At most, my blood will stain

  And scab, and it will heal

  You can't kill me!

   

  I don't really wanna live!

  But I keep on living

  You stone me

  You can crush my

  Heart and bones

  You try

  To write my ending

   

  But from now on,

  When you push,

  I'm gonna push back

  I'm so tired of giving

  I am no longer the man

  You thought

  That you could stand

  I'm changing

  I know I'm winning!

   

  The blood

  Might drip

  From my veins!