frail
Will I ever become
Useful again
How can I return
To the faith I once had
And the joy I had
As a child
Where did I leave
My faith and beliefs
As I search my character
For any remnants of love
Or truth
I have lost the servant’s heart
I know no joy only pain
But I long for peace
And I scream for
My deliverer
To rescue me
Now
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Who Stole My Heart
Who stole my heart?
I cannot find it today.
I knew I had it yesterday.
What did you say?
I threw it away!?!
Will someone please retrieve
My faith and love
That I lost on the street
When they dripped from
My heart? (It’s gone.)
Where is my faith?
I cannot find it today.
I knew I had it yesterday?
What did you say?
I threw it away!?!
Will someone please restore
My faith and love
That I lost on the street
When they dripped from
My heart? (It’s gone.)
What is this mess?
I can’t find myself today.
I knew I was here before?
What did you say?
I can’t be restored!?!
Will someone please transform
My empty heart?
Please create a new one
To replace this dead
And useless heart
That I have carried
All along this road.
Take this tiny spark
And rekindle the fire
That once burned
Bright and hot
Within my spirit.
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Self-Deception
I find myself deceiving
To even yours truly
And I don’t know why
I have just ceased receiving
From our God and Abba
Someone tell me why
The truth I stopped believing
Is now hunting me down
And I don’t know why
I find myself denying
All my hidden motives
Someone tell me why
Why do I submit to sin
When will I serve God
Why do I give in
To every temptation
And bow to all idols
I am dead in sin
I have come to realize
That I am a victim
Of self-deception
God opened up my eyes
Previously blind to
My situation
Call me sinner
Call me deceiver
But never believer
Open your eyes
Come to realize
I am a deceiver
You must come to realize
That I am a victim
Of self-deception
I will not let you devise
Some kind of scape goat for
My self-deception
My words proclaim believer
And you are all deceived
I never reveal
The truth of my behavior
Because I am ashamed
And fear a scandal
Why do I submit to sin
When will I serve God
Why do I give in
To every temptation
And bow to all idols
I am dead in sin
I have come to realize
That I am a victim
Of self-deception
God opened up my eyes
Previously blind to
My situation
Call me sinner
Call me deceiver
But never believer
Open your eyes
Come to realize
I am a deceiver
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A Useful Vessel
I know I need to stop hurting You.
But, Lord, it’s hard to change habits.
And I am so weak; I grow weaker each day;
I know these sins hurt You—they hurt You.
But, Lord, it’s hard to change myself.
And I am broken; I am broken inside.
Can You help me, Lord, to change?
I want to be like You. Just like You, Lord.
Lord, mold me after You,
And let me be a useful vessel.
Lord, help me change today.
I know I need to reach this lost world.
But, Lord, it’s hard to explain You.
And I don’t know much; I don’t know You enough.
I know You need to reach them through me;
But, Lord, it’s hard to relate this.
And I am so young and slow in this walk.
Can You help me, Lord, to change?
I want to be like You. Just like You, Lord.
Lord, mold me after You,
And let me be a useful vessel.
Lord, help me change today.
I know I need to love the sinners.
And You will shine through me today.
Lord, please use me as a fountain of blessing.
I know I need to stop hurting You.
But, Lord, it’s hard to change habits.
And I am so weak; I grow weaker each day.
I know these sins hurt You; they hurt You.
But, Lord, it’s hard to change myself.
And I am broken; I am broken inside.
Can You help me, Lord, to change?
I want to be like You. Just like You, Lord.
Lord, mold me after You,
And let me be a useful vessel.
Lord, help me change today.
I know I need to reach this lost world.
But, Lord, it’s hard to explain You.
And I don’t know much; I don’t know You enough.
I know You need to reach them through me;
But, Lord, it’s hard to relate this.
And I am so young and slow in this walk.
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Dear Mr. Atheist
Dear Mr. Atheist
How can you ignore
The science you use
Still calls out your bluff
How can you reject
The obvious truth
Painted so clearly
Dear Mr. Atheist
Why must you choose to
Interpret the truth
Of God’s creation
Why must you pervert
All the evidence
To align with you
Dear Mr. Atheist
How can you ignore
That there is a God
And you may know Him
When you wake up in Hell
You will understand
You have no excuse
You choose to accept
Your own religion
Instead of the truth
Dear Mr. Atheist
How can you reject
The obvious truth
Painted so clearly
Dear Mr. Atheist
How can you ignore
That there is a God
And you may know Him
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My Soul Longs
My soul longs for more of You.
As I cry out to You, Lord.
Please hear my call.
Answer me I pray.
What is my call?
Help me not to stray
Away from You.
My soul weeps as I seek You.
You consecrate me to You,
And change me
From deep within.
I will serve You
With all my heart.
I love You.
My soul sings out to You, Lord.
I praise and adore You, Lord.
I worship You.
And I can’t explain
My love for You.
Men don’t understand
You loved us first.
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My Soul Weeps
My soul weeps as I cry out to You
My heart seeks to know You as my friend
Conviction floods my soul
I pray You’ll make me whole
And the tears fall down
And my sins all drown
In Your precious blood that was shed
I’m thankful for the day You bled
And paid the complete price for my life
And I agreed to give You my life
And serve You evermore
You cannot love me more
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Bless Our Troops
Bless our troops,
And send them home
Victorious.
Go with them
Into battle
Victorious.
Send angels
Right before them
Victorious
Spare the old,
The young, and weak
From war and death.
Please bring them refuge
In their time of need.
Evict the evil one,
And restore the land.
O Lord,
Please bless our troops.
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Mercy
Have mercy on me, O God
For I am nothing before You
Have mercy on me, O God
I am sinful and unpure
I am unclean before You, Lord
Please bathe me in Your grace
And shower me in righteousness
And bless me with faithfulness
Have mercy on me, O God
For I am nothing before You
Have mercy on me, O God
I am sinful and unpure
I am unclean before You, Lord
Please let me be a servant
And make me a useful vessel
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Faith
I have a need
Without hope of rescue
And I agreed
To put my trust in You
I feel assured
Each time I look at You
I hear the Spirit say
“Just have faith and obey
And it will be okay.”
I turn away
And think of all the lies
Doubt comes my way
Then it covers my eyes
When You hear me cry out
You come to help me out
And burn up all the doubt
I hear the Spirit say
“Just have faith and obey
And it will be okay.”
You come tell me
My miracle is done
All You ask me
Is to wait patiently
When You hear me cry out
You come to help me out
And burn up all the doubt
I hear the Spirit say
“Just have faith and obey
And it will be okay.”
When You hear me cry out
You come to help me out
And burn up all the doubt
I hear the Spirit say
“Just have faith and obey
And it will be okay.”
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Memories of You
In our hearts you will remain
Happy and joyful as always
In our minds we will retain
All the memories that you made
And we count ourselves blessed
That we knew you
We, your family and friends,
We salute you
To a life lived well
With family around
To a life lived long
Although it had to end
We choose to remember
What we